As promised, warm, fuzzy, squishy, road kill in July feelings this chapter.

theEVILcat: That was pretty much how my mom reacted.

Dave's insanity sauce: Don't worry. It is.

Emalynn Eleriel: Thank you!

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"So," Ericka said as they were finishing breakfast, "We were thinking that we would go exploring today."

"After all, it was going to be a bit of a vacation for us," Fiona continued.

"All right," Raven said, "Enjoy yourselves."

"Oh, you're coming with us Deirdre," April replied, her eyes not leaving the comics section.

Raven raised an eyebrow, "Excuse me? I don't think so."

"We weren't asking, we were telling," Will explained.

"Come on Deirdre, it'll be fun," Lee gave her the puppy dog eyes.

"No, and don't give me the puppy eyes, they don't work. I'm not going and you can't talk me into it.

***

"I can't believe you talked me into this," Raven said as they walked out the door of Teen Titans tower.

"Never say 'you can't' to Lee," Ericka replied, "as soon as you say that, it's a challenge, and she can."

***

At the end of the day the girls returned, chattering among themselves about the day. Only Raven was quiet, but even she seemed happier than usual. But the minute they walked into Teen Titans tower, she clammed up again.

As they approached the hall where Raven's room was, Lee spun around to face her, "All right, Deirdre, spill it."

"What are you talking about?" Raven asked.

"It takes us all day to get you to loosen up, but as soon as we get back here, you turn in to a clam. There is something going on here, and we want ANSWERS!" Fiona yelled.

"There's nothing wrong, and even if there was, there's no way you could get me to tell you," Raven said coldly.

"Nothing, Deirdre?" April grinned evilly.

"If I remember right, you are very ticklish," Ericka finished.

"Oh, no. Don't you even--," she started to say but was cut off by her own laughter.

***

As Beast Boy walked around the corner, he heard laughter. Ducking back, he peeked around the corner to see Raven lying on the floor with the five girls tickling her. Raven was LAUGHING. He wondered if the world was really going to end in the near future.

"Tell us!" Will yelled.

"No!"

"Come on, tell us!" Lee yelled.

"No!" Raven cried, trying to roll away.

"We'll keep it a secret," Fiona added, "Come on, tell us."

"Alright, fine, I'll tell you," Raven sat up, pushing the girls away.

Beast Boy stood there as if frozen. He knew that he probably shouldn't be listening to this, but he figured this was probably the only chance he would ever get to find out what Raven was thinking, so he stayed put.

"Why are you even darker than you used to be?" Lee demanded.

"It has to do with Jorryn," she said, "I get the feeling he's still around, and it's making me nervous."

"That isn't possible, he's dead remember?" Will said.

"Nothing ever ends that cleanly," Raven sighed, "It was far too easy to get rid of him. Maybe I'm just being paranoid, but still..."

"Maybe you are, but maybe you aren't" April looked at Raven, "but that isn't all of it, I'm sure. Tell us the rest."

Raven sighed, "I don't think the other Teen Titans trust me completely."

"Do you trust them completely?" Fiona asked.

"Yes...no...I'm not sure."

"Well, until you trust them completely, don't expect them to," Fiona concluded.

"Besides, you sort of make it hard for people to trust you," Ericka added, "You always build walls around yourself Deirdre...have you ever tried bridges?"

Raven arched one eyebrow, "That was cryptic even for you, Ericka."

"Queen of the metaphors, that's me," Ericka laughed.

"That wasn't a metaphor," Will said.

"Whatever. Okay, so why did you leave in the first place?" April asked.

"Because you had families to go to and I didn't," she said.

"That's all?" Ericka laughed, "You know one of us would have let you stay."

"That's just it!" Raven interrupted, "I wanted my own life, my own home, not yours."

"So you came to earth to find it," Fiona finished.

Raven nodded.

"So have you found it?" Lee asked.

Raven thought for moment, "I'm not sure."

Will stared, "Four years and you're not even sure!"

"I don't make snap decisions,"

The girls looked at each other and burst out laughing, "Oh, that's RICH!" Will laughed so hard tears streamed down her cheeks, "the girl who ran away in the middle of the night says she doesn't make snap decisions."

"Are you done yet?" Raven asked, but the deadly serious tone of her voice only sent them into further peals of laughter, "If you ever stop laughing, I'll be in my room."

Beast Boy left, shaking his head. As he reentered the living room, Starfire spoke, "Beast Boy, would you go find Raven and her friends? We are going to watch 'Monty Python and the Holy Grail'"

"Okay," Beast Boy returned to the hallway he had just left. The five girls were still rolling on the floor laughing. They seemed to recover some when they saw him though.

"Hi, what's up?" Will managed to say before cracking up again.

"We're going to watch 'Monty Python and the Holy Grail'. You want to come?"

"Sure!" April cried, springing to her feet and heading down the hall, "I love Monty Python! We are the nights who say NI!"

The five girls went down the hall, quoting bits of Monty Python. Lee heard a door open and stopped, peeking back around the corner exactly as Beast Boy had been doing moments before. She sensed her friends doing the same, but she didn't look.

"Hey, Raven," Beast Boy said, "We're going to watch 'Monty Python and the Holy Grail', Do you want to watch it with us?"

"Sure, why not?" the door opened wider and she stepped into the hall.

"Oh, and here," Beast Boy handed her a book, "I found this at an antiques shop, and it looked like the kind of thing you were interested in."

Raven looked at the book, "Thank you."

Lee smiled as she and her friends walked down the hall, "That was sweet. It had all those warm, fuzzy, squishy feelings in it."

"Like road kill in July," April added.

Ericka grimaced, "April, that's disgusting!"

"But it's true!"

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There! Warm, fuzzy, squishy feelings. In case you can't tell, I'm a major Beast Boy and Raven believer.

Next chapter I will get around to the more serious stuff.

I have decided I must get at least two reviews per chapter before I update. MUWAHAHA! I'm hold the next chapters hostage! So review!