"Time and time again, I see your face, smiling inside..." - Chicago, Make Me Smile

This has to be a pretty hefty chapter this time around. So much going on, and I like it. Enjoy. Btw, check out my website at: http://www.csulb.edu/~jsalaza5/.

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Gimme Some Lovin
Phase 13:
Love's A Floating Bubble

I could only ponder the possibilities.
If only there were any.
How can such a valiant attempt
Turn into fruitless nothing?

I am left to wonder.
In grief, in grief, in grief.
In grief.

I decide, no, there's something,
Pray be it, a dilemma concerning
Ayu-chan! I mean to find out.
I really do.

I see Ayu-chan.
Drunken, drained, dreamless
As if she had lost all her years
Of innocence
In one fateful hour.

I explained the situation
In panicky distress.
And she responded
That I like Kaji-kun.
I don't get it.

Oh, but
The camera pointed it out.
A kink in the wench.
I am embraced in embarrassment.

I have a distressful
Lack of satisfaction.
Ayu-chan could have pulled it through,
But to not do it for my sake
Is the last thing a friend should do.

A fit of contagiousness
Was the best excuse I could think of
For her denial.

Kaji-kun is not important,
Because it's Ayu-chan
That's more important.
I would put her on a higher pedestal.
I'm more than friends with her.
If only she'd understand that.

If at first you don't succeed
(Or if you choose not to),
Try and try again.

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Thank you, Nina.
I can only think
Of your undying encouragement.
I can only think.

So I walk over to Kaji,
And I try to confess it to him.
I couldn't find the words.

He hugs me,
And I only melt into a pile
Of happy goo.

Such is happiness
I yearn for.
And it feels so good.

I feel like me and Kaji-kun
Are one.
Making out
At a love hotel
(Or any hotel for that matter)
Is so damn tempting.
But not yet. Not yet.
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Bubbles.
I blow bubbles
Under a blue heaven.
Bubbles that heal.
Bubbles that feel.
Bubbles that embrace
A smiling, shining face.
Bubbles that encourage.
Bubbles that enlighten
And never frighten,
Never dying with age.
Bubbles that confess
Words of happiness
Bubbles that release
And ease your mind.
Bubbles that are liberation
Spreading across the entire nation
From station to station, in all creation.
Bubbles that open your eyes
And take you on a high.
Bubbles that take you
To that house up in the sky.
Bubbles that speak of
That word the angels call "Love,"
Made by the man up above.
I blow bubbles,
And I enjoy it.
Bubbles that colour my world
With hopes of loving you.
So true and blue.
Just like heaven.

And yet, Tsujiai
Ponders these bubbles.
Does he consider contaminating
Such an ethereal release?

Tears of joy.
I am free
Amongst these bubbles.
Even Tsujiai knows
What I mean.

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There is talk all over the school
About our relationship.
It spreads like a virus
Like wildfire
Like an epidemic
Of gossiping rumor.

Akiho tells Kaji-kun,
Hey honeybuns!
I've still got some good lovin'
For you.
If you want it,
Come and get it.
I'm open 24/7/365-sex
Days a year.

Heh.
24/7/365-sex my ass.

Might as well
Just shut down and close shop
24/7/365-sex days a year,
My friend, Akiho-san.
Complying, she agrees.

Know your place. He's mine.
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Yes, Yuta agrees with me.
It's spreading like wildfire.
A viral epidemic
Of gossiping rumor.
Try and try again, he says.

Yes, this feels just like heaven,
Because it is.
Sitting on top of the world
(At least this world)
Is something me and Yuta
Loved to do,
Even when we were kids.
And we still love it.
Kissing heaven,
The fields of the sun,
Eternity passing slowly
Like eternity should...
"It feels wonderful"
Is a mundane understatement,
Isn't it?

I fall asleep
Under the wings,
The guiding arms
Of heaven.
Sheer innocence.
Like a sighing angel.

Funny,
I think Yuta still cares for me.
He still does.

Me and Yuta.
Two young angelic nymphs
Wavering, releasing, sleeping
Under the sunny skies
Of God's blue heaven.
Life is wonderful.

Or is it...?

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And Tsujiai speaks his peace
About the relationship between
Him and Tateishi.
I don't but it, but then again, I do.
He says to me,
Don't beat around the bush
About your yearning.
You'll regret it.

Then he proclaims
The bubbles that were blown around
The classroom, and the tears...
And his hots for her.
I couldn't stand it.
Really. I couldn't.