I really didn't want to finish this story, but it seems like it is time to end it. *Sob* This story has been an inspiration to me… hard to believe I came up with the idea in civics class when I was supposed to be paying attention to the things that were taught that day. 5-29-02.

Over View of My Fan Fiction Career

Note: You don't have to read it… I was bored, and didn't want to jump right in and end Way of Life.

I was a no body in the fan fiction world when I first started out… lots of dreams, lots of ideas. To Find My Dad and Have A Family, my first fanfic, was posted with my hopes at stake… it earned more reviews than I ever dreamed of at the time. After my first ended, my mind took up creating plots to satisfy readers, and I created Sick, Bonding With You and Beating The Illness.

They took the CCS fandom by their noses, and pulled them in… this made me extremely happy, but only when Life is Hard and Saving the One I Love, my first big hits, were posted was I truly happy.

The idea of helping people by writing took my heart, and has held on to it. Now, I have many of my SLF fics including the loved Motherhood. Not to mention, Save Me, Regaining Strength, Learn Maturity Not Maternity!, Hoeee, I'm Pregnant, and my newest creation, This Is It.

I put my heart into the idea of helping people, but stopped to enjoy writing by creating the plots we all love… including the all love Sakura-Gets-Pregnant situations I love to write about.

I put my imagination to work in many fanfics, such as Fighting The One I Love, Lost Souls, Bounty Hunters, Way of Life, and Perfect Land. I love writing stories that help people, but I also love the timeless stories of romance and inspiration. Those fanfics do their job, and entertain and touch.

I began to write fully with one-shots, because I was afraid that people would hate my long stories. My fear has disappeared now, but I thank my fear of rejection, for now I have created one-shots that people enjoy. Out of the many there is Broken Promise, Pet Peeves, Power's Ploy, and That Time Of The Month.

The song fics I created that made music come alive for me. The Meilin Collection is full of the everlasting song fics of our beloved character… TMC made me take in people's song requests and create their visions. I am thankful for the support of TMC, and my many other song fics such as, Rainy Day Man, Ordinary Girl, Everywhere But Here, and Angel Eyes. Music also inspired to write longer fanfics such as: Run Away Princess To Be, Learning Love's Melody, and Sk8er Boi, Prep Gurl.

My mind opened up, and I embraced other things, such as lemons and limes, which made me create Burning Up and Adrenaline Rush. My mind also opened up to different coupling examples happen in my fanfics Cocoa and Cookies and Rainbow Painting.

I also started to write in other areas of fan fiction, such as Yu-gi-Oh (Ex. You're So Complicated, What We Fight For, Whenever, Wherever, and That Is My Promise To You.) Lizzie McGuire (Ex. Secret Admirer) Dragon Ball Z (Hidden Feelings) Kim Possible (Green Goddess' Opinions) Pokemon (Friendship Blooming) Cowboy Bebop (Nurse Faye) Sailor Moon (Strong As Thunder, But As Sweet As Rain) Harry Potter (Only A Memory, Lady Angel, Being Famous, and The Dance)

Since, the day I wrote my first fanfic, I have successfully created over 85 stories including the many SLF fanfics I put my sweat, blood and heart into. It's more than I ever could have imagined myself doing. Helping people makes me beyond happy, and knowing that my skill at telling a good story can help people makes me value the gift I have.

Way of Life

By MoshiMoshiQueen

Beta Reader: Hana No Tenshi

~Thoughts~

"Talking"

(Lyrics)

*Flash Backs*

* Wedding *

"I do."

"You may now kiss the bride."

Syaoran lifted Sakura's white veil, and pressed his lips to hers, and in the background you could hear Yelan sobbing, and Tomoyo trying to sooth her, baby bouncing on her knee.

"You're beautiful," Syaoran whispered as he picked her off of her feet, and carried her down the isle.

She flashed him a smile, as they entered the carriage, people still throwing rice their way.

"I love you, Sakura."

"I love you, too. How's it feel to be a husband?"

"Pretty good. As long as your brother doesn't cut off my-"

Sakura stopped his words with her lips.

*Flash Back Wedding Reception*

"What, can we say about my little brother, eh?"

Everyone laughed as Eriol continued. "We can talk about my little brother's adventures later. Let's toast to his lovely bride, and may she have ear pugs."

"To Sakura, and her ear pugs!"

"Thought that was funny, do ya?" Syaoran said glaring as his brother.

"Lighten up, I still have a lot of toasts coming to ya."

"Not if I strangle you. You don't mind ya, Tomoyo dear?"

"No, no go ahead."

"Thanks, honey."

"Any time, sweetheart," she said stuffing her face with cake as Sakura shook her head.

"What can I say? I'm eating for two people again."

"I hope I'll be eating for two people soon."

"With Syaoran as your husband I wouldn't be surprised if you were eating for two people right now."

"I heard that, Tomoyo."

"Just being a good sister-in-law."

"Make sure you give my grandchildren, Syaoran," Yelan said holding Alexia, Tomoyo's and Eriol's daughter, in her lap.

"And how many do you expect us to have, ma?"

"Ten."

Syaoran chocked on his drink. "Ten? Well, guess we better get started, dear."

Syaoran picked up his wife, and walked towards the door. "See y'all later."

"You better treat my little monster right." Touya warned as they ran out the door.

* Year After Wedding *

"You want me to stay home, and be some fucking house wife. Don't you? Well, I won't be one, and you can't make me, Syaoran."

"That's not what I meant. Why do you twist my words around all the time?"

"I don't twist them around. You say them yourself. You don't need any help from me. You act like a jack ass all on your own."

"Jack ass, am I?"

"Damn straight you are." Sakura took a few deep breaths trying to calm her self down, but it wasn't working very well.

Syaoran bit back his anger, and snarled at her as he stormed out of the room.

Sakura took another breath, and went after him.

"Running after me, are you? Thought I was a jack ass."

"You are a jack ass, but you're my jack ass."

"So, now you possess me?"

"Every part of you. Most people hate to fight, but you and I we understand that fighting helps."

"And how does it help?"

"It gives me an appetite."

"What kind of appetite?"

She licked her lips. "I think you know, but before we do anything… I'm pregnant."

Syaoran stepped back from her. "Pregnant? As in we're having a baby?"

She jade eyes glossed over as she nodded.

He picked her up, and spun her around. "We're pregnant!!"

He kissed her passionately. "We're pregnant. I have to tell everyone!"

She smiled at him, as he kissed her once more. "I knew that would brighten your mood."

* First Baby Is Born *

"You're not leaving my fucking side! Oh, why did I let you touch me, you fucking jackass!! I'm going to make you suffer for putting me through this."

"Honey, now…"

"Don't you dare honey me!!! If I wasn't having a baby right now I would ring you're neck."

"Now, dear, you have to breath."

"Breath? I have a baby coming out of me, and you tell me to breath? Ahhh!"

"Come on, Sakura, push just a little more."

Syaoran's hand, or what was left of his hand, was being mutilated by his wives' grip as Sakura tried to push their first born out.

"Argh!! You're never touching me again! Never!!!!!!"

"Congratulations. It's a boy."

"A boy, Sakura, look our son."

Sakura started to cry as she held onto her baby boy. "Our son. Oh, he's so beautiful. Look at him, Syaoran. He looks just like you."

Syaoran beamed at her, and kissed her lips. "Want to work on our second?"

"Oh, no there is no way your getting me to have another baby."

* Ten Months Later *

"Why did I let you talk me into having another baby? You son of a bitch! Argh!!!!! After this you're never touching me! Never, do you hear me! We can live with two kids."

"Sakura…"

"Don't you dare Sakura me you bastard!! I hate you!"

"Now, baby…"

"Do you know how much I want to kill you right now? Do you?"

"Sakura, you have to breath."

"Breath, you say? I going to steal the breath from your very body once this is over! I'm going to kill you! I going to knock you out, tie you up, and though you out in the sea to get eaten my hungry sharks."

"Very inventive, sweetheart."

"Inventive?! Do you want to see how inventive I can be? Do you?"

"Congratulations it's a boy."

"A boy? We have another son, Sakura. Look at him. Sakura?"

"What's wrong with her?

* Ten Mins. Later *

"Sakura, please baby."

"I love you, Syaoran. Remember that, please."

"Sakura, stop talking like that! Stop it right now. Please, open your eyes."

"I can't… I can't move, Syaoran. I love you."

"Oh, baby. I love you so much. Please, you have to look at me. Sakura, please."

"Things happen, Syaoran. Things happen… I love you."

"No, don't you dare leave me! Don't you dare."

"Syaoran, it's just the way of life… I love you."

* Hours Later *

"Remember that time we spent at the lake last summer? You were so beautiful in that dress holding Xiao."

"Syaoran, come on. You need some rest."

"No, I can't leave her. I can't leave her here like this alone."

"Syaoran, come on… you have to…"

"She's too cold. I've tried to warm her up. She won't open her eyes, Eriol."

"Syaoran, she can't open her eyes any more. She's gone, Syaoran."

"No, you're lying. She's going to come back! She's just sleeping… just sleeping."

Eriol walked out of the room, as Syaoran held Sakura to his body.

"He's in shock."

"Oh, Eriol he's hurting so bad… we all are."

Tears trickled down Eriol's face. "I can't help my own brother… I can't do anything to help him. I feel so useless."

"Oh, Eriol. We all do."

*Weeks Later*

"Sakura, Xiao really loves his baby brother. You should see him… he carries him around, and shows him everything. They are growing up so fast… right in front of my eyes."

Tears brimmed his eyes. "I wish you were here… I wish you could help me. The boys miss you… I explained that you were an angel, but they don't understand… I don't understand. You were with me, and then you were gone… you were just gone."

"I need you, Sakura. Don't you understand that? The boys need you."

Syaoran looked towards the sky, and placed his hand on the tombstone. It was bitterly cold under his touch, and the wind bite as his face. "We need you."

*A Year After… In The Night *

"Pa, tell story. Plez??"

"No, Xiao. You have to get some rest."

"Plez, Pa. One more. One more???"

"Xiao, I love you to death, but I'm just all out of stories tonight. I promise I will tell you another one tomorrow night, ok?"

"T'ok. Nite nite."

Syaoran kissed his son's face, and picked up his youngest, Taiko. He placed Taiko into his bed, and kissed his forehead.

"Good night, baby."

~*~

Syaoran laid in his bed, the blankets not bringing him any warmth. His eyes were glossy, as tears feel down his cheeks.

Even a year after he was suffering the loss of his wife… of his lover… "God, I still ache for you, Sakura. I still need you."

"I know."

Syaoran's head shot up. "Sakura?"

"Syaoran."

Syaoran saw the faint image of his loves, and wiped the tears from his cheeks, but they still laid in his eyes… and in his heart. "Sakura."

"You need to let go, Syaoran."

"How can you ask me to let go? I need you here."

"Syaoran."

"We need you. Our sons need you."

She smiled at him. "Syaoran let go. I can't come back. Our sons need their father… they need him happy. I love you so much, Syaoran. I hate to see you suffering like this."

"Than come back to me."

"You and I know that can't happen."

She walked towards him, and kissed his lips. "I love you, Syaoran. Don't suffer any more. Let me go."

"I can't… you died, Sakura. You left me… I need you. Please, don't leave me. Please, I can't live with out you."

"Oh, Syaoran. I love you so… None of could have stopped my death, and I wouldn't have wanted to… Syaoran, if I didn't die than Taiko would have. I rather my son live… so he can have a chance at life."

"What about your life, Sakura? What about yours?"

"I did live, Syaoran. I lived the happiest years of my life. Taiko and Xiao deserve that as well, but they can't if you don't let me go, and live on. They need you. I'll always be here, Syaoran. I always will."

She kissed his cheeks, and turned to leave. "Death, life, birth…it's all part of a circle that has to go on, because it's the way of life, Syaoran. We all need to leave sometime. It was my time… I'll always love you, Syaoran, and I'll always be here."

Tears fell down her cheeks. "I love you."

* Years and Years and Years Later *

~*~

"Pa."

"Taiko."

"I'm here too, Pa."

"Xiao."

"We're here, pa. We're here."

"Guess this old man's time is coming up, eh?"

"Oh, Pa."

"Don't cry, Taiko. It's my time, son."

"Pa, we love you," Xiao said holding back his own grief.

Syaoran smiled. "I love you both so much. I think I've lived long enough. Ninety-six years is pretty long."

Syaoran held both of his sons' hands tightly. "I'll tell you something someone one told me once… death, life, birth... they're all part of some circle that has to go one, because it's the way of life, and it seems it's my time to be part of that circle."

"Pa."

Syaoran chuckled. "You're mother was always a funny gal. It's too bad you both didn't get to spend more time with her. I'll tell her hello for you. Tell your Uncle Touya that he's next. Old son of bitch has out lasted us all."

Taiko and Xiao couldn't help, but smile. "Ok, pa. We'll do that."

"Death's just the way of life, but so is life. You two make me proud. I love you."

"We love you to, pa," Taiko said as his father passed away.

~*~

"Hello, Syaoran. Finally joining us?"

"Sakura."

"About time, little brother. You make me look back… do you know how many years we have been up hear?"

Syaoran chuckled. "I really missed you, Eriol."

"Did ya now? Could have more respect for you're elders."

"Eriol let him be. They need some time."

Syaoran turned to Sakura, and walked towards her. "Sakura."

Tears came to her eyes. "I've waited so long. No offence, but why couldn't you have just died?"

Syaoran laughed. "Nice to see you too, darling."

"I love you. Oh, I love you so much you jack ass."

"Again with that name? Every life time I enter I get called a jack ass, by the lady I love."

"Kiss me."

"I think I can manage that."

~*~

Death, life, and birth… it's the way of life.

~*~

Aren't I bad? Twisting the words 'way of life' around like that? Didn't think I could kill here, did ya? I cried making this chapter… not just because I'm ending it, because Syaoran's suffering touched me… it hurt to write him hurting as weird as that might sound… I want to thank you all for your reviews over these years… I don't know what I would do you out y'all reviewers.

Question-Answer

How did Sakura die? She died during delivery.

How did Tomoyo and Eriol die? In a tragic fire

And Syaoran? Old age

Touya is still alive??? Alive and still walking. What can I say? He was lucky.

Did you really have to go and kill Sakura? Yeah… I wanted to put a twist at the end of this fic, and plus, I didn't want to end it with a wedding.

Why didn't Sakura have a baby girl? Because she had boys

But, didn't it make sense to make her have a girl so Syaoran would still have a part of Sakura? He did have a part of her still… their sons, and in his heart.

Are you really ending this fic? Yup, I really am.

Sequel? Not a chance.

You twisted the title around. Surprised ya didn't it?

Sakura had colorful language? Most woman having babies do.

What happened to Meilin and Kaijuu? They got married, had a couple of kids, and then got into a carriage accident… it took their lives.

Carriage accident? Hey, it could happen

How long is years and years and years later? Um a long time…

5-29-02? The day I posted this fanfic

Ten months later?? Hey, S+S didn't waste any time.

YOU KILLED SAKURA!!! I'm not the first… although it was the first time I ever killed her in a story… nice touch, eh? It took me a very long time to come up with the plot of this last chapter.

*Tear* The End? Hai, the end. Ja ne!