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Chapter dedication:

KyteAura: This is for you!

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Broken Vows

Chapter II:

Grasp

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I need to see her face

I need to understand

Why you and I came to an end

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It's been two weeks now and the divorce papers have been signed. The only thing that's left with me is a broken heart and a promise. Whenever I'm alone, I cry the time away… I still don't understand how come he left me for her.

He knew I'd do anything for him but why is that? I love him so much and yet he left, just like that? It hurts so much… I kept on asking no one in particular and the answer I got was only the howling of the wind and the banging of windows.

I've been stirring the coffee and I bet it's cool by now. Come to think of it, it represents my heart. It's been filled with the warmth of love but now it has gone. All because of one person who can make me feel so much pain with a snap of his fingers, and that will only be Eriol.

The rain was pouring hard and I couldn't care any more. My mind was swirling in confusion and the outcome of that was a severe headache. I still couldn't -no- I don't want to understand why things like these happen the way it is.

I was getting impatient. The sun that was shining through my window was mocking me. And not a moment too soon, I felt a wave of nausea heading towards me. I made a mad dash towards the washroom. I have no idea why this came to be but I am sure it's because I haven't really eaten anything since he left. My stomach grew accustomed to my diet that I'm starting to vomit everything that I've eaten for breakfast. Perhaps this will end up killing myself. Ughhh I just don't know.

Finally, I laughed… Though it was the bitter type, at least I know I can still do it. My eyes were misty, and I am back to trying to comprehend my bittersweet cursed life. I always thought I had it all: The looks and the attitude but how come he loves someone else? He just fell for a "beautiful stranger" from only God knows where.

And with both hands in a fist, I went out to face the world that has signaled my destruction. I need to see HIM and HER. I need to know the real reason why my life turned into a living nightmare. Moreover, I want to find the two of them.

Life is so terribly unfair!

I kept on walking out in the rain, not caring if perverts kept on whistling at me. What's there to care after all? When I know no one cares.

I'm a fool to even believe the saying the best things in life are for free. I almost thought that was true. Like hell yeah! Look at me now, A messy looking 21 year old woman who's not bothering to run for cover.

I took a turn on the next street and found myself at a certain café - The café where Er-Hiiragizawa-kun went to meet her. I just stood there. My breathing was sharp. I began to pray to the heavens for them to be there, drinking hot chocolate or coffee in order to escape the cold weather. I was just there looking outside the shop's window, not having the courage to go inside. First of all, I look like a mess and next he might mock me, so no thank you! I won't go inside the hell house.

As quickly as I could, I peaked at the window and saw them. Just my luck, they were kissing, hugging and feeding each other. Haha Silly me, of course they would.

So now, a new question popped out in my silly brain, What the hell did he like in her? By the way, she dresses like a slut! God, something's wrong with me, I shouldn't judge people like that.

Try telling that to a heartbroken ex wife.

My mother taught me to never stereotype someone because of what they wear and look like. Maybe Mizuki is not that bad after all.

And with the rain pouring even harder, I walked away from the place where my heart is. Call me stupid or whatever, Even if I saw them with my own eyes, I can not seem to satisfy my why's? Hopefully someday I will, but for now, I'd like to go to the nearest bar.

~tsuzuku~

Last notes:

Not applicable: The thing with that woman's existence in this fiction is that she's the best b**** there is to ruin something this wonderful! It's E+T because though Eriol Hiiragizawa left Ms. Tomoyo Daidouji, She will never cease to love him… And I believe that is something worth praising for in life.

~Chocolate Drop

"The hardest thing to do in the world is to live in it."