Chapter 14 The night after

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(Let me explain... I like songs... Alot.......)
Another day is going by
I'm thinking about you all the time
But you're out there
And I'm here waiting
And I wrote this letter in my head
'Cuz so many things were left unsaid
but now you're gone
And I can't think straight
This could be the one last chance
To make you understand
*(chorus)*
I'd do anything
Just to hold you in my arms
To try to make you laugh
Somehow I can't put you in the past
I'd do anything
Just to fall asleep with you
Will you remember me?
'Cuz I know I won't forget you
Together we never broke the rules
Dreaming of leaving this miko
And leave this place
to never come back
So now maybe after these few days
If you change your mind, have no fear
I'll be here
I'll be waiting
This could be the one last chance to make you understand
And I just can't let you leave me once again
I close my eyes
And all I see is you
I close my eyes
I try to sleep I can't forget you
nanana (...)
And I'd do anything for you
I'd do anything
To fall asleep with you
I'd do anything
There's nothing I won't do
I'd do anything
To fall asleep with you
I'd do anything
'Cuz I know I won't forget you

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(Now the actual Ch. 14)

(Sora)

I woke up in the darkness to see a pale face beside me... I instantly thought of Nakago. But this face was different.... It looked almost child like, with dark swirls of brown hair around it... Then it hit me. Hotohori. He had been in the garden last night. He had taken me to whatever bed I was in. A feeling of nausea swept over me and I lurched away from Hotohori my face in my hands. Where was I? The man on the bed stirred behind me, I heard him.

"Sora???" It was a mumbled question. I was panicking now. What had happened... had he...??? did he know...??? Did I...? Why couldn't I remember???! Had I fallen asleep? Had I fainted? What? What happened?!!! Suddenly Hotohori's beautifal visage was before me. I curled up against the wall trying to get away from him.

"Sora..." He was whispering now. He ouched my arm I shuddered jerking away from him.

"D-don't t-touch me." I hissed my voice rembling as I watched him through my golden bangs. He looked almost... Hurt. Him, hurt? Why would he be hurt?! He wasn't having a baby! Not NaKagO's baby.

"Gomen nasai... Onegai... Don't be mad at me... I won't touch you... Are you alright?" Alright? aLRigHT?! I nearly laughed. No I was not alright. I was having a child, that was my life besides being a guide... That was all that mattered and I hated it.

"Hai... You just scared me..." I lied as I began to stand, Hotohori followed my action. He looked down at me.

"...You're a bad liar... You were terrified. Now I repeat myself: Are you allright?" I nearly burst out 'Of course not you IDIOT! DO I LOOK ALRIGHT!!!' but I tightened my jaw

"Iie. And why ask if you know the answer?" I snapped irritated.

"Because one: it's bad to lie and two: you needed to admit it..." I glanced down.

"What happened last night?" I whispered tenatively. Hotohori watched me his eyebrows furrowed toether.

"You fell asleep... I brought you to my room because I didn't know where your room was and the Nyan-Nyans weren't around... I was also scared you'd wake up and wonder what happened..." I watched him... he wasn't lying to me. But why? I did not voice my question but looked over his shoulder out the window.

"Sora... I'd ask you what was wrong but I don't want to anger you... You can tell me if you want to..." I was shocked. He didn't even ask. He just said... He gave me any choice. He didn't care. The way he looked, like he was rapt for my word but relaxed like he could care less. I wanted to tell someone, that's why I had first sought Nuriko... my friend... but Hotohori... was he trustworthy...Hai. Loyal? Hai. And he would keep his word... Nuriko however...?

"...I... I'm scared...." I stammered trying to speak. He needed to know. They all needed to know. I couldn't just pop and say 'hey you guys, this is my baby!' they'd hate me... He waited paitiently leaning against the bedpost. I took a deep breath and began,

" I'm pregnant..." I paused, my throat had gone dry. Hotohori looked ready to speak but before he could I found my tongue.

" With Nakago's baby." That made him lose his calmness.

"Nani?" I licked my lips trying to find the courage to speak again.

"I said, I'm having Nakago's baby." I expected shock, anger... but not... he hugged me. He pitied me...

"Sora. I am so sorry." He understood. My eyes widened of their own accord. He knew I hated this and was sad at the same time. I gave a soft smile and accepted the hug wrappin my arms around his waist lying my head on his shoulder. Bfore I realized it I was crying again, this time with sobs.

"...shh... Sora... Don't worry it'll be ok..." I shook my head.

"...No... It... Won't... I'm having... HIS baby..."Hotohori brushed his fingers through my hair. My body rocked, he stilled me. It was all I could do to stand up.

"... It's not his baby. It's yours. You are the one having it, you're going to raise it right, and you are going to love it." I pulled Hotohori closer in a deperate attenpt to feel less alone... and it worked.

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~Hoto~

oh... Sora... I was shocked... She was pregnant. With Nakago's child. That bastard, how could he do this to her?! her of all People, so many talents gifts... I had deriven information from Nuriko... Sora didn't deserve this pain... And worse, the others don't know only me. She told ME. That filled me than more hope than anyone would believe but it was true. The fact that she trusted me was entirely over my head. Then... I hugged her to comfort her and she began to cry... I felt terrible till she grabbed on to e tightly and pulled me closer to her. I ran my fingers through her hair... She said nothing more after I spoke but the soft sobs told me that this was no dream. I tried to pull away from her, I shouldn't do this. I can't. Even though I WAS comforting her it felt wrong. Like I was using her sadness as an excuse.

"Sora... you should go back to sleep..." I tried to speak softly, but my words came out harsh. She looked at me her blue orbs glassy, she looked lost... like when someone is on a highway and they've circled thirty times. It took all my will power to turn away. She shuffled towards the bed.

"Hotohori?" I took the chance of looking up. She was sitting on the bed her legs crossed, looking almost her normal sombre self.

"I'm so sorry..." Her statement caught me comopletely off-guard. Sorry for what? She never did anything wrong.

"What? You never did anything???" She looked down before her hand traveled through her hair.

"I...i... didn't mean...to bother you with... this. But... I had to tell ...someone." I approached her taking in every word. I knelt in front oh her pulling her hand from her hair and looked at her smiling.

"I'm glad you told me. It doesn't bother me. And I'll always be here to help. Don't be afraid to ask... No one can make it on their own.."

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~Sora~

Those words... Suzaku's words... But... What about... I blinked watching those haze eyes then extending my free hand to touch Hotohori's cheek.

"What about you?" He just smiled.

"I'm special... Now go to sleep... We have a big day tomorrow." I nodded and laid down on the bed turning away from Hotohori. I closed my eyes and drifted off for sleep instantly... The first time in awhile.

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~Hoto~

I watched her sleep smiling. What she had said... Was true. I did need someone, and I knew who it was...

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