Kurts cheeks flush red with guilt "Blaine I-". "Kurt no" Blaine says, cutting the other man off. He doesn't sound angry, but the only Kurt can hear in Blaines soft tone is exhaustion. Maybe they really were out a bit too long.
"Let's talk about this in the living room. I need to sit down" he continues and Kurt nods, helping his boyfriend over to the couch in the living room. Blaine is in pain and he's sure that as soon as the pain killer kicks in he'll be tired again so they need to talk now.
He didn't handle Kurts jealousy the right way in the park, chuckling when Kurt defended himself. But Kurts face tells him that there's more behind this and he maybe ruined Kurts confidence to talk about that as he laughed in the park.
"Can I go first?" Blaine asks once they sit on the couch and Kurt nods so Blaine says "Being jealous is completely normal and to some extend healthy. I just wished that you told me before and not just said you're curious and I get to know because I accidentally heard Carol and you talk".
Kurt sighs "I know and I'm sorry but before you I only had Adam and we both know how that ended and you had this Tom who wasn't great but Alec too and you two get along well.
I don't know what came over me and why I lied but I'm sorry. I guess I'm just insecure because I'm still learning how to walk and everything and he's normal and handsome".
"You're insecure?" Blaine asks. So there really is more behind this than he tought. When Kurt nods Blaines expression goes softer, if that's still possible but it seems like it "Kurt, Angel, you have no reason to feel insecure".
"I guess but standing next to Alec it was hard to believe I guess" Kurt says and shrugs, his gaze down to his hands, fiddling with his cuticles.
This action doesn't goes unnoticed by Blaine, who takes Kurts hands, tangling their fingers. He softly smiles "Kurt I love you and only you. If it comes to you and us there's no reason to be insecure. I love your personality and I love that you're perfectly imperfect. If you're insecure because you say that Alec is handsome then please believe me when I say that you look stunning. Always.
You looked stunning when we were just in your room, you looked stunning when you trained harder than ever to get back on your feet, you look stunning to me all the time. Yes you still learn to get back to normal life like it used to be but you come so far so fast and it amazed me so many times that I stopped counting.
I fell oyu you quite some time before we actually got together, hating the fact that you werewith this idiot Adam still. Hating that I waited for him to tell you instead of telling you myself and hope that you fall for me immediatly.
I listened to Seb telling me that I like you and deep down I you already like me back but you didn't realized because you were taken. Listening to him telling me that I probably fell for you while you were still in coma just by the memory of show choir competitions and what your family and Rachel told me about you. I just hadn't realized it back them. But I did.
If you're ever insecure about yourself, thinking that you're not enough or about my love for you, please Kurt talk to me Angel. I love you so much and I don't want you to feel that way. You're my everything. My always".
Kurt is stunned by Blaines speech. Speechless. He smiles, blinking away the tears that rose in his eyes while Blaine was talking. Blaine kisses Kurts palm, staying silent for a moment so Kurt can let it all sink in.
Yes they didn't met under the best conditions but still they made it together. They didn't asked each other out and went to a first and second date, inviting each other home and starting a relationship before then getting intimate for the first time.
No they were different. Blaine helped Kurt to eat, to move again and he saw Kurt naked because of course he also helped him shower before Kurt could make useful movements with his arms again. But for them it was normal. It was their way. Their road they went together until they finally got together.
Finally Kurt opens his mouth. He doesn't have much to say, still at a loss of words. So he just whispers "I love you". But these three words mean the world to Blaine as he carefully leans over to kiss Kurt with all the love he has for him. Kurt kisses back with the same loving way.
"I have an idea" Blaine then says and asks "Could you get your keyboard from your room?". Kurt, knowing that Blaine took a pain killer for a reason, nods and kisses Blaine one more time before he stands up. Blaine better stays seated.
Kurt doesn't really know why he has a portable keyboard. He wanted to learn how to play once but never really went through with it. He just knows how to play a few basics. But what does Blaine want with it? Can he play? If yes what else is there that Kurt doesn't know about him yet?
When Kurt comes back with the keyboard he gives it to Blaie who puts it on his lap. He waits until Kurt sits next to him again and tells "We always talked about singing together and we only did messy sing alongs during training or so. So we didn't properly sang together yet".
Then he starts playing a few notes, the sound filling the room and says "I think you know that somg so just sing along if you feel like it" before he starts playing the song. Kurt quickly recognizes the melody that now fills the living room or more the whole house.
Your hand fits in mine like it's made just for me
But bear this mind, it was meant to be
And I'm joining up the dots with the freckles on your cheeks
And it all makes sense to me
I know you've never loved
The crinkles by your eyes when you smile
You've never loved your stomach or your thights
The dimples in your back at the bottom of your spine
But I'll love them endlessly
With teary eyes and a smile on his lips Kurt joins him.
I won't let these little things slip out of my mouth
But if I do, it's you
Oh it's you, they add up to
I'm in love with you
And all these little things
Blaine lets Kurt sing the next part solo.
You can't go to bed without a cup of tea
And maybe it's the reason that you talk in your sleep
And all those conversations are the secrets that I keep
Though it makes no sense to me
I know you never loved the sound of your voice on tape
You never want to know how much you weight
You still have to squeeze into your jeans
But you're perfect to me
Now Blaine joins in again, their voice blending perfectly.
I won't let these little things slip out of my mouth
But if it's true, it's you
It's you, they add up to
I'm in love with you
And all these little things
You'll never love yourself half as much as I love you
And you'll never treat yourself right darling, but I want you to
If I let you know, I'm here for you
Maybe you'll love yourself like I love you, oh
And I've just let these little things slip out of my mouth
'Cause it's you, oh, it's you
It's you, they add up to
And I'm in love with you
And all these little things
I won't let these little things slip out of my mouth
But if it's true, it's you
It's you, they add up to
I'm in love with you
And all these little things
A comfortable silence fills the room after the last note of the keyboard.
Kurt just wants to throw himself in Blaines arms but he would hurt him so he lets this thought slip and just looks at his boyfriend.
In his very moment he can't believe just how lucky he is to be with Blaine. To have him. To got to know him. To sing with him. To enjoy the little moments with him. There's no one he'd do this rather with.
Blaine sets the keyboard down and opens his arms as if he read Kurts mind "If you're careful it won't hurt".
With a wide smile Kurt leans over to Blaine, leaning against his side, Blaines arm around him. Kurt takes the comforter from next to him, pulling it over them so they could cuddle, enjoy the moment and just be in their bubble.
"We sounded amazing together" Blaine whispers. The other man nods "Yes. Yes we did".
"I didn't knew you could play" Kurt then says and Blaine answers "That and guitar. I thaught it both to myself in high school". "I was surprised because you don't have any instruments in your apartment" Kurt mentions and the other man explains "I always used the piano at Dalton and Sebs guitar".
