Chapter 30: I will still wait for you...
"Hermione, good morning!" Ginny shook her friend awake.
"Herm, get up, the train will be arriving soon. You will be officially out of Hogwarts today." Ginny added.
"Ummmm...just a minute. Just wait for me at the Great Hall." Hermione murmured.
"Ok, I will wait for you there. Dress up quickly. This will be your last breakfast in Hogwarts. You shouldn't miss it." Ginny said.
"Alright..." Hermione got up.
"I'll close the door." Ginny said.
"Thank you." Hermione shouted back.
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"Here, I already pour the syrup in your pancakes." Ginny gave the plate to Hermione.
"Wow, my last pancakes..." Hermione said and took a bite.
"Herm, I have something to give you." Ginny said in low tone.
"What is it?" Hermione asked.
"Here..." Ginny gave a letter with the initials 'DM' outside the envelope.
"...from Malfoy. He gave that to Goyle before he left early this morning." Ginny said.
"He already left?" Hermione asked and examined the letter in her hand.
"I guess so." Ginny answered.
Hermione tore the edge of the letter and brought out the piece of parchment.
Hermione,
I am leaving or perhaps I will be miles away from you as you read this letter. I need to look after my father's shadow. He needs to pay for all he had done. He needs to repay me, to bring back my real identity and to ask him my freedom. I always wanted to be free...
I will always take the memories of you with me. I can tell that by now you will be happy to leave Hogwarts. I would like to congratulate you again for being the top student, you deserve it.
Hermione, I will always treasure you. I told you before how much I care and how deeply I love you. This is my last chance to prove to myself that I am a different person, the real person you see in me. I need to be the man deserving of your love. People might think I am just like my father: too brave and too proud but you know I am not. I am afraid to hide in darkness and to stay in the shadows of death.
You made me see the world, the world that I thought I really don't belong to. To tell you honestly, I am guilty. I feel lost. The time I heard you say that you love me, I don't know what to react and then I felt the guilt. You know why? I really don't deserve that love, Hermione. I didn't know how to protect you...save you. Ron died for saving you and that is out of pure love, the one that you really deserve. Ron gave up even his life and I think that is what loving is...and that thing is the thing I can't give you. How can I save you if I don't know how to save myself?
I don't know where I am going. I just wanted Lucius to give us justice. Lucius must repay. I am aware that it will be a long time but I have this determination inside me. I know this is my mission it's on my head triggered specially with the faith, the faith that you gave me.
I will be back. I will look for you but I dont' want you to wait for me. If I will be lucky enough and survive, I will look forward to see you again but if I'll die, I will keep you.
if my world divides and shatters, your love is where I'll go.
Draco
"I will wait for you even until death, Draco." Hermione said and wiped the tears from her cheeks.
"I promise you this, I will not go away... you know where to find me."
Author's Note: Finally.... the Epilogue will be next....
