Darkest Days
Chapter 5
Neinna Hayes
When the five reached the shrine Jenna and Kagome headed upstairs. Jenna's thoughts were lost to everything but the stars. Or so she believed. In her mind, the stars were the untouchables, unbreakable(s) and the unforgettable(s).
Kagome flopped herself down on Jenna's bed as Jen finished unpacking. Tired of the boredom Kagome spoke up. "Hey, why don't we listen to some music or something?"
Jenna looked at Kagome with a grin plastered onto her face. "Thought you'd never ask!" within seconds the young teen jumped onto her bed, holding three of those cd cases that hold up to one hundred one-hundred-fifty cds.
"Let me think, let me think, Let me think Yeah, okay." She then turned her head to look at Kagome. "I'm gonna name off a few cds and you tell me what you think you'd like to listen to."
When Jenna received a nod she hurried and listed off some cds. "I'm also gonna do this by album titles. I don't want you to judge the band by it's name. Alright, Moon, Fly by Night, Wonder whats new, Naveed, Frogstomp, Saturate, Mer de Noms, Rising of the Sun, Book of Secrets, Chamber Music, or Crest Fallen Summer Dreams?"
Kagome looked as if she'd just taken a blow to the head. "uhm. that last one. Crest Fallen Summer Dreams, who's the artist?"
As Jenna loaded the cd into the stereo she smiled. "Don't Matter." When she got back up she wasn't prepared for the glare sent her way.
"I really want to know, Jen." Kagome stated.
"I told you it, Don't Matter. That's what they're called. It was my brother's band he was in. the first song is called 'To Late'. The member who wrote this had a very poetic back ground."
Kagome took in Jenna's words as the melody began but quickly pushed her words aside as the songs words came to.
I saw your smile
Now plastered inside my mind
I hear your laughter A whistle in the wind
Then I saw you dying
That really broke me down
I can never let you go It hurt me deep inside
The words had stopped and a guitar and bass duet were going on. Kagome barely had time to think about the words before they started again. Jenna leaned against the wall and sang along.
To see your body so low Not to see your face I can't think of how I'll live Without you here beside me I know that I must cry For I never told you how much I truly lied Kagome looked over at her. "You've got to be kidding me. This song is so depressing."
Jenna smiled. "These guys rarely sang of anything happy. It's great music to listen to when you want to feel relaxed or when you feel sorry for yourself. It'll help you feel not so low. the next two parts is a doozy though." She said it all with a light laugh.
You asked me how things were At our last meeting I told you things were great But that wasn't what was in my heart Now that you're gone
It's too late to tell you I was wrong
I really liked you lots More than money More than cars More than all those senseless people
You know, the ones who shop nonstop in malls?
Your smile remains with me Kagome gave a small laugh. "What'd they do? Lose their poetic flair all of sudden, it sounds something like a little kid would say." When she looked over at Jenna, the look upon her face told her a little kid did say that. "No way." Kagome looked shocked as Jenna nodded. And I smile when I think of you Then I lose my composure When I know you never knew I loved you more than ever You were my hero, not my brother I loved you like a lover Now I'll always remember To tell how I feel Jenna got up and continued unpacking through the remainder of the song. She didn't want Kagome to see her crying. She didn't want her new friend/ sister having pity for her.
And I smile when I think of you Then I lose my composure When I know you never knew I loved you more than ever You were my hero, not my brother I loved you like a lover Now I'll always remember To tell how I feel Jenna placed her sports balls in the corner when she heard Kagome sigh. "I've changed my mind, the song is beautiful." She heard Kagome say. Jenna through the last box into the hallway and cringed when she heard a hiss. "Sorry Buyo!" she called out.
When the song ended Kagome stood up and stretched. "Gee, that was long!" she stated when she noticed six minutes had passed. "Mind if I borrow that cd? You know, to listen to when I want."
Jenna nodded. "Doesn't bother me. I can burn you a copy if you'd like sometime?" Jenna smiled as she saw Kagome smile.
"I guess I'd better go to bed now. I'll see you in the morning, Night!" Kagome said as she headed out the door.
"Night." Jenna whispered into the dark, candle lit room. In a flash she saw her family laughing and cooking popcorn over the open fireplace. She shook her head sending her hair flying around her. 'No, they're gone. They'll never be back.I must move on.and be strong, for them.'
She looked over at her lap top. 'Wait! Brother had a friend over here in Japan. I'll be able to find him and tall him the news. Now that I'm here I might as well trying making more than one friend.'
Jenna sat down and logged on line and to her AOL account, PredatorsNightmare. Sure enough, he was on, cRaZyKiLlEr. Jenna talked to him through the night and explained what had happened.
This my silent plea To know that I love you But one unanswered question remains Did you love me? Every time I saw you Your eyes lit up like fire You were the one That I had most desired But again you're gone
You took your own life
And now that I read your letter
The one you never mailed
Jenna had eventually fallen asleep on top of her computer (a/N: which is quite possible.. I've done it several times!) Her dreams turned into nightmares and her nightmares turned themselves into reality. It then faded into another big dream.
Deep inside your journal Of your most deepest thoughts You actually wanted me forever To live by you forever Now I know that you loved me And still my plea remains Hear this voice full of sorrow
As I kneel by your remains
I love you, my friend But, 'I love you' came far to late Jenna struggled and fell out of her chair with a loud thump, but not loud enough to wake anybody else. She lay like that throughout the course of the night. Back on the floor, feet up on the chairs seat and arms curled about her face.
This my love letter This my silent plea
Forever I'll remember you
And forever you shall be Here inside my heart, You'll be a part of me. The reprise repeated her in her dreams, never leaving.
A/n: I know I know, anyways I do own Don't Matter, and own the song. and Jenna, yet the rest of the gang unfortunately isn'y mine. Ja
When the five reached the shrine Jenna and Kagome headed upstairs. Jenna's thoughts were lost to everything but the stars. Or so she believed. In her mind, the stars were the untouchables, unbreakable(s) and the unforgettable(s).
Kagome flopped herself down on Jenna's bed as Jen finished unpacking. Tired of the boredom Kagome spoke up. "Hey, why don't we listen to some music or something?"
Jenna looked at Kagome with a grin plastered onto her face. "Thought you'd never ask!" within seconds the young teen jumped onto her bed, holding three of those cd cases that hold up to one hundred one-hundred-fifty cds.
"Let me think, let me think, Let me think Yeah, okay." She then turned her head to look at Kagome. "I'm gonna name off a few cds and you tell me what you think you'd like to listen to."
When Jenna received a nod she hurried and listed off some cds. "I'm also gonna do this by album titles. I don't want you to judge the band by it's name. Alright, Moon, Fly by Night, Wonder whats new, Naveed, Frogstomp, Saturate, Mer de Noms, Rising of the Sun, Book of Secrets, Chamber Music, or Crest Fallen Summer Dreams?"
Kagome looked as if she'd just taken a blow to the head. "uhm. that last one. Crest Fallen Summer Dreams, who's the artist?"
As Jenna loaded the cd into the stereo she smiled. "Don't Matter." When she got back up she wasn't prepared for the glare sent her way.
"I really want to know, Jen." Kagome stated.
"I told you it, Don't Matter. That's what they're called. It was my brother's band he was in. the first song is called 'To Late'. The member who wrote this had a very poetic back ground."
Kagome took in Jenna's words as the melody began but quickly pushed her words aside as the songs words came to.
I saw your smile
Now plastered inside my mind
I hear your laughter A whistle in the wind
Then I saw you dying
That really broke me down
I can never let you go It hurt me deep inside
The words had stopped and a guitar and bass duet were going on. Kagome barely had time to think about the words before they started again. Jenna leaned against the wall and sang along.
To see your body so low Not to see your face I can't think of how I'll live Without you here beside me I know that I must cry For I never told you how much I truly lied Kagome looked over at her. "You've got to be kidding me. This song is so depressing."
Jenna smiled. "These guys rarely sang of anything happy. It's great music to listen to when you want to feel relaxed or when you feel sorry for yourself. It'll help you feel not so low. the next two parts is a doozy though." She said it all with a light laugh.
You asked me how things were At our last meeting I told you things were great But that wasn't what was in my heart Now that you're gone
It's too late to tell you I was wrong
I really liked you lots More than money More than cars More than all those senseless people
You know, the ones who shop nonstop in malls?
Your smile remains with me Kagome gave a small laugh. "What'd they do? Lose their poetic flair all of sudden, it sounds something like a little kid would say." When she looked over at Jenna, the look upon her face told her a little kid did say that. "No way." Kagome looked shocked as Jenna nodded. And I smile when I think of you Then I lose my composure When I know you never knew I loved you more than ever You were my hero, not my brother I loved you like a lover Now I'll always remember To tell how I feel Jenna got up and continued unpacking through the remainder of the song. She didn't want Kagome to see her crying. She didn't want her new friend/ sister having pity for her.
And I smile when I think of you Then I lose my composure When I know you never knew I loved you more than ever You were my hero, not my brother I loved you like a lover Now I'll always remember To tell how I feel Jenna placed her sports balls in the corner when she heard Kagome sigh. "I've changed my mind, the song is beautiful." She heard Kagome say. Jenna through the last box into the hallway and cringed when she heard a hiss. "Sorry Buyo!" she called out.
When the song ended Kagome stood up and stretched. "Gee, that was long!" she stated when she noticed six minutes had passed. "Mind if I borrow that cd? You know, to listen to when I want."
Jenna nodded. "Doesn't bother me. I can burn you a copy if you'd like sometime?" Jenna smiled as she saw Kagome smile.
"I guess I'd better go to bed now. I'll see you in the morning, Night!" Kagome said as she headed out the door.
"Night." Jenna whispered into the dark, candle lit room. In a flash she saw her family laughing and cooking popcorn over the open fireplace. She shook her head sending her hair flying around her. 'No, they're gone. They'll never be back.I must move on.and be strong, for them.'
She looked over at her lap top. 'Wait! Brother had a friend over here in Japan. I'll be able to find him and tall him the news. Now that I'm here I might as well trying making more than one friend.'
Jenna sat down and logged on line and to her AOL account, PredatorsNightmare. Sure enough, he was on, cRaZyKiLlEr. Jenna talked to him through the night and explained what had happened.
This my silent plea To know that I love you But one unanswered question remains Did you love me? Every time I saw you Your eyes lit up like fire You were the one That I had most desired But again you're gone
You took your own life
And now that I read your letter
The one you never mailed
Jenna had eventually fallen asleep on top of her computer (a/N: which is quite possible.. I've done it several times!) Her dreams turned into nightmares and her nightmares turned themselves into reality. It then faded into another big dream.
Deep inside your journal Of your most deepest thoughts You actually wanted me forever To live by you forever Now I know that you loved me And still my plea remains Hear this voice full of sorrow
As I kneel by your remains
I love you, my friend But, 'I love you' came far to late Jenna struggled and fell out of her chair with a loud thump, but not loud enough to wake anybody else. She lay like that throughout the course of the night. Back on the floor, feet up on the chairs seat and arms curled about her face.
This my love letter This my silent plea
Forever I'll remember you
And forever you shall be Here inside my heart, You'll be a part of me. The reprise repeated her in her dreams, never leaving.
A/n: I know I know, anyways I do own Don't Matter, and own the song. and Jenna, yet the rest of the gang unfortunately isn'y mine. Ja
