Lizzi Borden: Lost
Liz and Jason took first watch talking about the future and were they wanted to go. Sonny and Carly took second watching talking about Michael and school. Johnny and Skye took third watch talking about their future. Zander yelled some days, and sighed others. Jax sat and held her hand, fell asleep and tried to figure out his life with and without Brenda. It got interesting when Sonny showed up on Jax' watch. As usual they got into it.
"You can't leave well enough alone can you?"
"What's that mean?"
"First you piss off Skye by chasing after Brenda, now you piss off Brenda by chasing after Sabean."
"Mind your own business Sonny."
"What are you doing here?"
"Dealing with my demons and a bad case of misdirection."
Sabean snorted. Making both men look her way. She lifted her hand and pulled at the tubs in her face. Sonny stopped her and Jax called a nurse. Jax gave her water as Sonny held her head up.
"How that working out for you?" Her voice hard and raspy.
"Better Sabean I'm sorry all those things I said."
"I know Jasper, I know. No harm no fowl you saved my life minutes later so were even Steven."
Sonny laughed at the reference she made. Jax looked down and sighed.
"Sonny excuse us please, I think Jasper and I need to talk."
Sonny kissed her forehead and gave Jax a warning look.
"Do you think he's completely over her?"
"Some days are better then the next. But yeah Carly worth it."
"I was glad she was dead you know. It meant I didn't have to live with another day of will I lose her to him, or can I stand to see them together, or why him and not me. The waiting for it to happen instead of the enjoying being with her."
"So what do you want Jasper?"
"I want her to tell me it's just me and for it be true. I can't live with doubting her any more."
"So let her go. Tell her you'll always love her and say good bye."
"Then what? I screwed up with Skye. What do I do now?"
"Be alone that's always a good thing for getting your head striate."
"Was alone Sabean, a long time after Skye I just didn't want to admit it."
"Then a month or two won't matter." She closes her eyes and Jax kissed her eyes.
"Sleep well Butterfly."
Sabean eyes snapped open. *Tommy*
Zander went over her chart as Jax and Sonny finally left. He was going to check on her when Emily stopped him. He swallowed the lump in he throat at seeing her, it been so long.
"Doctor?"
"Yeah."
"Not something that happens overnight."
"No."
"When then? When you were dealing? Kidnapping me? When?" she yelled.
"When I was five I got my first PhD by the time I was 15 I had my last and six one."
"What? I don't understand Zander. First Liz now you with the whole new Identity thing."
"I was on the run Em, a funny note, it happened right after Liz set a bomb in a car I was in."
"What? Make sense Zander."
"My father was a U.S. Col. he sold government secrets, my mother found out and we tried to stop him. He killed my mother in front of me before he could kill me someone stopped him. I've been tracking him and building evidence every since."
"Oh god. What, What about the PhD's?"
"Genius IQ that's all."
"Smart as in really smart. You?"
"Yes nobody thinks an idiots dangerous."
"What about?"
"Us? Something I shouldn't have done."
"A mistake?"
"No never that, I loved you, god help me I still do, but there is a time and then wasn't it."
"Zander I don't know what to say."
"Don't say anything Em. Let's just pretend be old lovers saying hello as friends."
He touched her cheek and smiled.
"You going to make eyes all day or come and check on me?"
Em snorted and Zander rolled his eyes.
"Excuse me."
"Okay."
Cottage
Jax was packed by the time Brenda got back. She didn't like were this was going, he was leaving her.
"Why?"
"Six years of this is enough Brenda. I need someone to love me more then you do."
"More? No one loves you more then me Jax."
"Yes there is and I'm going to find her."
"What the hell does that mean?"
"Do you know what its like? To spend the night wondering when you going back to him. How long do I really have with you? I don't want that anymore, no more I'm sorry's lets get pass this mistake until the next one. No more Brenda, I blame everyone, including Sonny. When it you Brenda, YOU."
"Me? Jax I know that things have been strained."
"Brenda we don't know what to do with each other. Sonny refuses to indulge you so your stuck with you and me don't like it. I you saw that night I got into it with Skye and Johnny. You made a pass at Sonny."
Jax could have sworn her eyes light up.
"I know I was hurt baby but..."
"No, don't bother. Understand me Brenda, I will always love you. I will always have a moment of happiness. More sad days then happy ones. There suppose to balance out make it worth it. Watching Skye in a bottle, I thought her pain was worth our love, I was wrong. I hurt a woman who trusted me with her heart, for you who can never completely love me. No mater what I do. I need to be happy, this is about me. I should have buried you and move on. Good bye Brenda."
"No Jax don't do this. I promise I'll.."
"No Brenda, no more."
Jax left the Cottage and felt it again. Lost.
Kelly's
Liz walked in to find Courtney cleaning up. She fixed herself and cup of coffee.
"You just let him go?"
"Would you have wanted a fight? Loyalty remembers just like my dog."
"I would have expected a tear or two."
"I had both brothers Jason by far the best. Its just it was all to hard, his loyalty to my brother the only reason he was staying when he realized that passion we had was over."
"I know the feeling."
"Do you Liz?"
"Everything you gone through I've been through Courtney. Crappy marriage, unsure relationships. For someone like me all hope of long life love and happiness not a factor. Some of us get a good five years, or even ten until this life comes back and takes it all way. Yes I do Court."
"God how can you have such and existence?"
"Jason makes it better. Before it was my ex-husband, difference between those two, Jason wouldn't lie about a life or death or anything else for that matter."
"So we've had our talk minuses the cat fight."
"Yeap."
"Good."
"Great.
[end]
AN: What? They had words. The Author.
Liz and Jason took first watch talking about the future and were they wanted to go. Sonny and Carly took second watching talking about Michael and school. Johnny and Skye took third watch talking about their future. Zander yelled some days, and sighed others. Jax sat and held her hand, fell asleep and tried to figure out his life with and without Brenda. It got interesting when Sonny showed up on Jax' watch. As usual they got into it.
"You can't leave well enough alone can you?"
"What's that mean?"
"First you piss off Skye by chasing after Brenda, now you piss off Brenda by chasing after Sabean."
"Mind your own business Sonny."
"What are you doing here?"
"Dealing with my demons and a bad case of misdirection."
Sabean snorted. Making both men look her way. She lifted her hand and pulled at the tubs in her face. Sonny stopped her and Jax called a nurse. Jax gave her water as Sonny held her head up.
"How that working out for you?" Her voice hard and raspy.
"Better Sabean I'm sorry all those things I said."
"I know Jasper, I know. No harm no fowl you saved my life minutes later so were even Steven."
Sonny laughed at the reference she made. Jax looked down and sighed.
"Sonny excuse us please, I think Jasper and I need to talk."
Sonny kissed her forehead and gave Jax a warning look.
"Do you think he's completely over her?"
"Some days are better then the next. But yeah Carly worth it."
"I was glad she was dead you know. It meant I didn't have to live with another day of will I lose her to him, or can I stand to see them together, or why him and not me. The waiting for it to happen instead of the enjoying being with her."
"So what do you want Jasper?"
"I want her to tell me it's just me and for it be true. I can't live with doubting her any more."
"So let her go. Tell her you'll always love her and say good bye."
"Then what? I screwed up with Skye. What do I do now?"
"Be alone that's always a good thing for getting your head striate."
"Was alone Sabean, a long time after Skye I just didn't want to admit it."
"Then a month or two won't matter." She closes her eyes and Jax kissed her eyes.
"Sleep well Butterfly."
Sabean eyes snapped open. *Tommy*
Zander went over her chart as Jax and Sonny finally left. He was going to check on her when Emily stopped him. He swallowed the lump in he throat at seeing her, it been so long.
"Doctor?"
"Yeah."
"Not something that happens overnight."
"No."
"When then? When you were dealing? Kidnapping me? When?" she yelled.
"When I was five I got my first PhD by the time I was 15 I had my last and six one."
"What? I don't understand Zander. First Liz now you with the whole new Identity thing."
"I was on the run Em, a funny note, it happened right after Liz set a bomb in a car I was in."
"What? Make sense Zander."
"My father was a U.S. Col. he sold government secrets, my mother found out and we tried to stop him. He killed my mother in front of me before he could kill me someone stopped him. I've been tracking him and building evidence every since."
"Oh god. What, What about the PhD's?"
"Genius IQ that's all."
"Smart as in really smart. You?"
"Yes nobody thinks an idiots dangerous."
"What about?"
"Us? Something I shouldn't have done."
"A mistake?"
"No never that, I loved you, god help me I still do, but there is a time and then wasn't it."
"Zander I don't know what to say."
"Don't say anything Em. Let's just pretend be old lovers saying hello as friends."
He touched her cheek and smiled.
"You going to make eyes all day or come and check on me?"
Em snorted and Zander rolled his eyes.
"Excuse me."
"Okay."
Cottage
Jax was packed by the time Brenda got back. She didn't like were this was going, he was leaving her.
"Why?"
"Six years of this is enough Brenda. I need someone to love me more then you do."
"More? No one loves you more then me Jax."
"Yes there is and I'm going to find her."
"What the hell does that mean?"
"Do you know what its like? To spend the night wondering when you going back to him. How long do I really have with you? I don't want that anymore, no more I'm sorry's lets get pass this mistake until the next one. No more Brenda, I blame everyone, including Sonny. When it you Brenda, YOU."
"Me? Jax I know that things have been strained."
"Brenda we don't know what to do with each other. Sonny refuses to indulge you so your stuck with you and me don't like it. I you saw that night I got into it with Skye and Johnny. You made a pass at Sonny."
Jax could have sworn her eyes light up.
"I know I was hurt baby but..."
"No, don't bother. Understand me Brenda, I will always love you. I will always have a moment of happiness. More sad days then happy ones. There suppose to balance out make it worth it. Watching Skye in a bottle, I thought her pain was worth our love, I was wrong. I hurt a woman who trusted me with her heart, for you who can never completely love me. No mater what I do. I need to be happy, this is about me. I should have buried you and move on. Good bye Brenda."
"No Jax don't do this. I promise I'll.."
"No Brenda, no more."
Jax left the Cottage and felt it again. Lost.
Kelly's
Liz walked in to find Courtney cleaning up. She fixed herself and cup of coffee.
"You just let him go?"
"Would you have wanted a fight? Loyalty remembers just like my dog."
"I would have expected a tear or two."
"I had both brothers Jason by far the best. Its just it was all to hard, his loyalty to my brother the only reason he was staying when he realized that passion we had was over."
"I know the feeling."
"Do you Liz?"
"Everything you gone through I've been through Courtney. Crappy marriage, unsure relationships. For someone like me all hope of long life love and happiness not a factor. Some of us get a good five years, or even ten until this life comes back and takes it all way. Yes I do Court."
"God how can you have such and existence?"
"Jason makes it better. Before it was my ex-husband, difference between those two, Jason wouldn't lie about a life or death or anything else for that matter."
"So we've had our talk minuses the cat fight."
"Yeap."
"Good."
"Great.
[end]
AN: What? They had words. The Author.
