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Chapter 16
Catherine stared at the ceiling in her hospital room, absorbing what the doctor had just told her. She had been carrying a child. Another life, someone else to love. She lay there, tears rolling gently down her cheeks. Tear shed for the child that she would never see. She could feel the tears reaching her chin, and dropping off, onto her hospital gown. She looked over when the door opened, and Grissom was wheeled in. Warrick pushed him into the room slowly.
Grissom felt the air rush out of his lungs. "Catherine." He whispered, his features softening.
"Gil…" She said, her tears building up again.
Grissom's chair stopped next to the bed. Grissom immediately reached for her hand. "I thought you were dead." He started crying gently, relieved that Catherine was okay. "Catherine, why didn't you tell me about the baby?"
She felt her eyes well up with tears. "Gil… I… I didn't know… I didn't know that I was pregnant… If I had I never would have put myself in the position to get hurt. Never." She shook her head and then closed her eyes.
Grissom kissed her hand softly. "Go to sleep Catherine. I'll be right here with you."
Catherine nodded, the fatigue of the surgery, and the recent events taking its toll on her.
Grissom sat there, his hand in hers, waiting for her to wake up again. I just want her to know that I don't think it's her fault with what happened. I'm just so glad that she's okay, that I could never think that she did what she did purposely.
Here I am - this is me
There's no where else on earth I'd rather be
Here I am - it's just me and you
And tonight we make our dreams come true
~Nick and Sara~
1 hour later
Sara sat in the car, wringing her hands together. She was a bundle of nerves. She didn't know what to say to Catherine when she saw her. Sara looked over at Nick when her put his hand on hers while at a red light. "Sara? What's wrong?"
"I'm nervous." She said, chewing her bottom lip.
"What about?"
"Seeing Catherine… I mean, what am I going to say to her?"
"What do you mean?"
"I got her shot…" Sara hedged.
"Sara, she's okay. She made it through the surgery." Nick said, as they pulled away from the red light.
"I know, it's just… I don't want to lose her friendship." Sara said, worry crossing her face.
Nick smiled gently at her and pulled into a visitor's parking spot at the hospital. "I'll be right there with you, but I'm telling you, you have nothing to worry about."
Sara nodded and got out of the car. "Let's just go and get this over with."
It's a new world - it's a new start
It's alive with the beating of young hearts
It's a new day - it's a new plan
I've been waiting for you
Here I am
~Catherine's Room~
Grissom sat there, holding her hand gently in his own. Catherine slowly began to open her eyes, and she looked over at him through heavy-lidded eyes.
Her eyes opened wider when Sara walked into the room, with Nick in tow. "Sara. Nick."
Sara looked over at Grissom and smiled and then walked over to the other side of the bed. "Catherine…. I'm so sorry that this happened. If it hadn't been for me, you never would have been there, and this never would have happened."
Catherine smiled gently at her. Ever the mother, she opened her arms, gesturing Sara to give her a hug. "It's okay, Sara… there was no way you could have known."
"I should have known that he would have done something like that though." Sara said, pulling back, tears running down her cheeks. "It nearly ruined your lives." She looked at Grissom and Catherine.
Catherine looked at her and touched her friend's arm. "Look, there was no way you could have known about the baby. These things just happen…"
Sara looked at her strangely. "Baby?" She stepped further back from the bed.
Catherine's face fell. "Uh… Grissom and I, unbeknownst to us, were pregnant." Catherine said, fresh tears falling from her face. Grissom had, with Warrick's help, sat up on the bed beside her, and he had his arm around her shoulders.
"What?" Sara said, back-pedaling.
"We…" Catherine said, her tears falling faster, that she was unable to continue speaking.
"We lost he baby." Grissom finished for her.
Sara stared at them, tears of shock and of guilt poured down her face. Nick reached out and folded her into his arms. He stroked her hair and her back, and whispered softly to her. She nodded when he whispered something, and Nick turned to face the others. "I'm going to take Sara out for a bit. We'll be back."
Catherine nodded, her head resting tiredly on Gil's shoulder. Warrick sat in the chair by the bed. "She feels guilty." Warrick commented.
"She shouldn't." Catherine stated brokenly.
"I know, but she does."
Here we are - we've just begun
And after all this time - our time has come
Ya here we are - still goin' strong
Right here in the place where we belong
~In the Car~
Sara sighed as Nick held her while she cried. "Nick… I can't believe this is happening."
Nick looked at her. "It just wasn't that baby's time to be born."
"It's not that… .I killed their baby… I took a life." Sara's hands began to shake. "Nick… How can explain to Catherine how I cost her her baby's life?"
Nick just folded her into his embrace again, hoping to calm her down.
Sara sobbed for what seemed like forever. "Nick… we have to go to the office. I need to talk to Hank."
~C.S.I~
Sara stalked toward the interview room, anger replacing the guilt she had felt earlier. She swung the door open to see Hank sitting there. "You smug son of bitch."
"Excuse me?"
"Just dropping off a personal message from me to you." She sneered. "I'm gonna get you for murder, if it's the last thing I do." Turning around, she stalked off, and bumped into Nick, who had made it out of the adjoining viewing room. "I want him to go down for murder, and I'm going to do everything in my power to make that happen."
Nick nodded. "I know you will." He wrapped his arm around her waist and they walked down the hall.
Here I am - next to you
And suddenly the world is all brand new
Here I am - where I'm gonna stay
Now there's nothin standin in our way
Here I am - this is me
A/N: Much faster this time!!
Song: Here I Am, by Bryan Adams. CD: Soundtrack: Spirit: Stallion of the Cimarron
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