~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Jesse'sPOV~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Just when I thought this war was never going to end it does. We weren't home a day and my siblings were already playin' guitars. Cole and Bob we're horsin' around life's finally gettin' better I'm goin' to get on with my life and if Zerelda doesn't want to part of it then that's her problem not mine anymore I gave all I have to give. I have a family to watch out for , my sister is goin' to get married to Younger just like our Pa had planed. The world will be right again. I woke up the next mornin' Billie had breakfast cookin' mostly everyone was downstairs 'cept Jimmy who really didn't feel up to tackling the stairs quite yet. I met Cole goin' down the stairs.
"Mornin' Jesse." He said he seemed in a rather good mood.
"Good mornin Cole."
" I take your sister has breakfast ready," he said just as we hit the main floor.
"Yes I do and I expect the two of you to sit and eat before headin' to town to make your presence known."
"Have you ever known a Younger to pass up a good meal." Cole said as we sat down. She shook her head and put plates infront of us.
"So is that what you two have planed for today?" Bob asked.
"I'm not sure what do you say cousin?" I asked.
" I don't' see how it could be a bad idea let the fact be known that we're back it couldn't hurt." Cole said noddin' his head.
" I do reckon it would be good to see what went on while we were gone." Frank added.
" Then it's settled that's what we're doin' ." I said. I looked at Billie she knew what I was hintin' at she shook her head.
" I'm going to bring Jim some breakfast." She said simply and went up stairs with a plate. Which caused everyone to laugh a little. She was really goin' up there to fuss over Jim makin sure everything was to the way he wanted it. She got that from Ma.
"I say we do up these dishes for Billie and head out to town." Bob said.
When we got to town we were greeted by a couple of the saloon regulars we grabbed some supplies from the general store and Cole went to get the mail. Not that we usually got anythin' but it always good to check. I decided to check by with Alison. I kinda did want to she her but it was also a bit to piss Cole off. When I got there she was glad to see me I found out what happened around while we were gone. Apparently the town was rather proud of us goin' back to defend our friends. Told me that about a week ago there was a blond haired girl runnin' around town lookin for me. She figured that it was just some admirer and told that we stopped here but we didn't stay. I asked if the girl had left a name. Ali shook her head all that was going through my head was that it was Zee. God damn how could I have missed her. She was here to see me and I wasn't here. I thanked Ali and went to the saloon after a shock like that I needed a drink.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Billie'sPOV~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
I heard the boys leavin'. I knew where they were goin' so it didn't matter to me. Jim was main and only concern right then.
" Billie I'm fine now stop your fussin' and come here."
" Jim are you sure there's nothin' else you need."
" As a matter of fact yes. You here with me now." He said puttin' as much emphases on the now as he could. I sighed and went and sat by his bedside.
" No I said here." He said I knew what he meant but I didn't think it was a good idea.
" Jimmy."
" Billie it's my body and I said it's fine there's barely a scab anymore." he was lyin' there was still a good sized scab where the wound was. " Billie all I want is to be able to hold you please." I sighed and gave in I blamed it on my problem with not bein' able to say no to him.
" See isn't that better." He said wrappin' his arms around me.
" You know Jimmy I think that you are fine."
" I know that's what I've been tryin' to tell you."
" Jim I think it's goin' to work this time."
"What's that?"
"Us livin' like normal people." He nodded.
" We will. I know it." I kissed him I figured he deserved it after everything that we'd been through.
" I could get used to doin' this."
"What's that?" I asked almost knowin what was goin' to come out of his mouth.
" Layin' here kissin' you ."
" Really."
"Yeah." I laughed he was the sweetest.
Later that I was sittin' out on the front porch pickin' at my guitar. Workin' on the song had showed Frank last night he had gave me some tips on how to make the words work with the beat. It went somethin' like this.
Desperado why don't you come to your senses? You've been out ridin' fences for so long now. Oh you're a hard one I know that you've got your reasons these things that are pleasin' you can hurt you somehow. Don't you draw the queen of diamonds boy she'll beat you if she's able you know the queen of hearts is always your best bet. Now it seems to me some fine things have been laid upon your table but you only want the ones that you get. Desperado oh you ain't gettin no younger your pain and your hunger they're drivin' you home And freedom well that's just people talkin' your prison is walkin through this world all alone. Don't your feet get cold in the winter time the sky won't snow and the sun won't shine and it's hard to tell the night time from the day. You're losin' all your highs and lows ain't funny how the feelin goes away Desperado why don't you come to your sense come down form your fences and open the gate it may be rainin' but there's a rainbow above you, you better let somebody love you let somebody love before it's too late.
I was playin' it when the boys got home I think some of the words hit a little to close to home for Jesse and Cole 'cause they did stick around much after they made some excuse about checkin the rest of the farm to make sure everythin' was fine I could smell the alcohol on Jesse breath I knew somethin' had happened it wasn't until Frank told me that I understood . From everything that had happened since I joined the group out here Tennessee Jim and me were the only ones that had gotten anythin' good out of it. Things were hard for awhile but we worked through I only wished things could be te same for Cole and Jesse.
