Drake & Joshis an American Teen sitcom created Dan Schneider by for Nickelodeon. I do not own any of the characters. P.S. Drake has lots of sex with random women, but it the first guy he's ever slept with so it's gonna be a new experience.

I woke up in slight haze I had a killer migraine going on right now my head threaten to split apart with every single pulse of my heart. I sat up slowly taking in surroundings I was in my room I really missed my room. But, I wasn't sure why I was even there the room was spinning, so I used my hand to cover my eyes and noticed a pretty nasty bite mark. A terrible realization hit me what just happened wasn't a dream and I was in Joshes bed. I felt horrible how could I do that to him my heart threatening to break, but I would be lying if there wasn't a small part of me that derived joy from having been close to them. Having finally touched them it made heart hurt I really, really love them. I cried silently to myself cause I know that the best course of action would be to pretend it never happened and to just keep playing dumb about it if it ever gets brought up. I can't be here anymore...

My head may have been spinning hot bile stuck at the back of my throat but nothing was going to stop me from leaving I couldn't be bothered to putt my clothes back on so I just picked up what had been neatly folded by my brother holding it under one arm as I struggle to make my way back out of the house.

The outside was so fucking cold I was shivering. I took one last look at the house illuminated by warm looking porch lights I wanted to be there so bad. In the end, I just keep hurting the people around me so I need to go even if I don't know where.

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My body felt heavy I must have really slept well cause everything aches from being on this stupid couch. I take a quick look at the bed and it's empty just like I thought it'd be it's just even though it hurt before it feels different now like the pain evolved into something new.

Certain images kept flashing through my mind it wasn't even me and Drake it was him with some random girl cause I had a feeling that's where he was right now in somebody elses arms. It funny cause it shouldn't hurt but it does. I sigh in frustration just holding my head in my hands trying to figure out how I feel. Why is it so hard to understand? Why do I care if he's sleeping with random chicks?

It's been about two days now and nobody's seen or heard from Drake at all. I mean with the current path of self-destruction he's on one day maybe wouldn't have been that big a deal, but two it's excessive, is it my fault that he won't come home? I know our parents are considering filing a missing persons report with the police at this point and it's filling me with anxiety. I wanna see you but it's more than that, isn't it? if I want this to stop then I think we both need to be honest. I don't want to admit that I have feelings for my stepbrother but can I really just keep denying it clearly Drake's at war with himself.

I steeled myself outside of Megan's bedroom door. I didn't really wanna be here, but I knew if anybody could get Drake home it'd probably be Megan. I knocked on the door lightly, "Megan?".

I was standing in the bedroom preparing myself for a confrontation trying to just breathe. I don't know exactly what Megan was gonna do but she said she was gonna help me and to just wait here. I could hear the slamming of doors downstairs, the labored breathing, and the heavy footsteps. Clearly he was panicked cause he barged in full force not even really thinking just acting. Until, he looked at me and we met eyes. There was the slamming of a door behind him. He freaked the fuck out cause I think he knew what was coming and he pounded on the door.

"Megan! Open this door right now! You said this was a god damn emergency! Please!", when he realized escape was futile he slid down against the door I guess all the emotions must have been to much cause he just started sobbing with his face pressed against the door.

I tried to calm him down a little bit by placing my hand on his shoulder. He jumped and smacked my hand away, "Don't touch me, get away from me!". This time it wasn't just a hand instead I embraced them with everything that I had tears running down my own face now.

"No, I'm not letting go! Please just listen to me!", when he heard the tears in my voice his body stiffened.

"I really love you, so please stop destroying yourself. I know that you have problems your not perfect, but I don't care about that I'm willing to forgive you if you just tell me whats going on".

His voice was raw from all the emotion and everything came out as barley a whisper, "But, I hurt you, your better off without me. I mean I'm gross I know you love me but I don't love you that way I just can't see you as my brother anymore".

Finally, I got to the root of problem, "You hurt me?", I have some concept of what they're trying to say but I can't fully grasp it.

He seemed confused by that question, "But, you were finally happy without me. I'm a liar and a manipulator and your good. You care about people I didn't want to use your kindness again especially when it would have hurt you. When I told you that I needed you I meant it I want all of you and I couldn't handle needing anyone else especially when you do nothing but hurt them all the time".

I think I finally got it, "I know that you make bad decisions and hurting people is a part of life. When I first cut you out I was happy, but I also realized how much I missed you too. The little things and holes in life that only you can fill and maybe it took me a while to figure out your feelings. I denied mine for a long time to pretending that I wasn't jealous of the girls that you were sleeping with. I don't wanna admit this either, but I have feelings for you too it's scary and feels wrong but I love you".

We were close and we didn't really say anything I could feel their heart beating against my chest and maybe mine was doing the same. They finally weren't fighting me we were finally just close again I pulled away just a little bit to see their face and kissed them.

It wasn't about sex it was about being closer and closer it was about sharing those feelings that we kept bottled up for so long. These kisses were passionate and clumsy teeth hitting against teeth a more real kiss that wasn't purely for sexual satisfaction it wasn't perfect but I wanted more.

I snaked my hand up their shirt feeling the angles of their skinny body they felt fragile.

Drakes eyes were filled with desire but he stopped for a minute and pulled away, "Are you sure you wanna do this?".

I've never been so sure really, "Yes", I was annoyed at the loss of warmth and contact dragging them back in but this time the kisses weren't cute it was just a battle tongues clashing against each other drool clearly dribbling down our faces. Each taste was sweeter and sweeter. At this point we were both turned on and started taking each other clothes off I'm sure I need to re-sew a couple of buttons but fuck it.

It was all pure need at that point and they looked defenseless underneath me it was a turn on to see Drake being vulnerable with me clearly giving me his entire body if I wanted it. The kisses trailed off slowly towards their ass I gave it a slight kiss just to see how they handled it we made eye contact and he nodded his head at me clearly giving me permission.

I licked his asshole tentatively at first trying not to hurt them clearly with the noises they made it seemed like they noticed it, but it must have been a new experience to them cause it wasn't exactly a look of pleasure that they had. I could feel the texture of their ass hair against my tongue it was definitely a strange sensation especially when you rubbed against the creases of their anus. I tried going a little further by slipping my tongue in they still seemed a little overwhelmed, but they never asked me to stop I could taste intestinal juices as I licked at there insides not exactly a pleasant taste.

When I felt they were wet enough I tried slipping a finger in just to test the waters. I know it supposed to feel pleasant but all these new feelings must have been getting to Drake cause he was starting to go soft. So, while I was stretching him poking at his insides I grabbed his dick trying to get them back into the mood. Clearly it was working cause I saw him biting his hand again to stifle the moans coming from there mouth.

"Hey, don't hurt yourself", I took his hand away from his mouth, "I wanna hear it all anyways", he clearly did his best to hold them in.

"Are you ready?", They didn't really say anything but they nodded none the less giving me the go ahead I wanted. I readied my dick my tip pressing against his hole I could see Drake clenching his jaw a little so I went back to fondling his dick trying to get them to relax. Placing little kisses here and there to distract them. I could feel the resistance of his asshole against my cock. It felt amazing really but I took things slowly giving Drake time to adjust when I fully entered them. I went back to making out as a type of distraction against the strange sensation that hey felt for probably the first time. When I felt enough time pass I slowly started moving I could feel their body tense, but until they asked me to stop I was going to keep going. I tried different angles I mean I don't know much about gay sex, but I do know that anal sex feels better when you find the prostate.

After taking my time I felt them gasp and arch their back a little bit I think I found it. So, I kept experimentally thrusting into that same spot each time earning me the fervent moans that I was looking for and earning the disheveled face I've been aching for, for a while now. So, I increased the pace slightly trying to gauge whether it'd cause them too much pain but all there actions seemed to give me the green-light. All the saliva from the rim job and the precum from my own dick made sliding in and out pretty easy. The pleasure was intense I had to try actively not to cum too quickly not until they did first the slapping sound of my balls against his ass echoed through the room.

Seeing Drake this disheveled when he's usually so vain and put together it was all becoming too much. I pushed towards the final stretch picking up the pace for both us to reach the finish line together his back arching and his fingernails now digging into my back until I felt them shudder and cling tightly to me the cum on my stomach clearly showing the proof of their orgasm. It didn't take long a couple more strokes and I was there myself my now soft dick slipping out of their ass and semen dripping onto the floor.

I lied down next them on the floor both of trying to catch our breath coming down from the post orgasm haze.

Drake scooted closer hugging me, "I love you".

"I love you too", Holding onto them too just enjoying the slight bliss.

I could feel the semen starting to crust over already and lying here was getting a little chilly. I got up to get something to clean ourselves off with.

Drake tried to get up too, "Ow! Fuck", he seemed to be holding his lower back.

Clearly he was still in some pain after that occurred so I helped him up, so he could at least lay on the bed.

After, I cleaned off the both both of us I gave Drake some Pjs to change into, "Wait you don't wanna like take a bath first?", as much as I'd love to bathe right now we can't.

"Megan's gone we came up with the plan to get you here and she put a chair against the door so you couldn't get away, but I didn't want her to overhear anything we had to say so after the chair she went to spend the night at a friends house. I was determined for us to reach an understanding, so mom and dad are gone tonight too I made plans for them to spend a night away together they were starting to argue cause of your behavior I thought maybe one night away for them both would be good. Plus, I told them that I had plans set up for us to talk and for some reason they agreed".

"You cared that much I'm sorry that I made you go through all that effort", Drake seemed a little down after that. So, I flicked him in the forehead trying to get his attention.

"He held his forehead, "Ow what was that for?".

I made sure I looked serious to make my point, "you don't have to be sorry I did it cause I wanted to cause I loved you, you big dummy. Now that we've been through all this your not gonna self-destruct again, right? I mean your my boyfriend now, right? So, please just tell me what's up I'll be here to listen".

Drake seemed slightly in awe, boyfriend, huh? You really wanna date me?", at this point I was a little irritated my body stiffening from the slight tension.

"Come on were not gonna do this all night. I love you and that's really the end of it for now. Yes, I wanna date you".

At this point we were both dressed in our pjs sharing my bed just cuddling. It's nice it's warm it's everything that I want right now.

"What about mom and dad?", Drake brought up a new concern.

"As for that we can keep our relationship a secret, but if they do find out I mean were not actually related so maybe they'll come around to it. Even, if they don't we have each other, right?".

He didn't really need to answer for now I think we both know that we will do whatever it takes to be happy together.