Kennedy's POV
Andrew, that little maggot. Him and that stupid camera of his. Why did he have to leave it on like that?
We made it to the Hypersion Hotel okay. I got to have my own room.
Willow's so mad at me. Have you ever had somebody real pissed at you, but they say they're not? That girl was giving me some wicked fierce glares the whole way here, and then when I confronted her about it, she was all "I'm not angry. I just need some space." Fine. Willow needs some time away from me, I can handle that. Whatever it takes for her to get over this; which I am really really hoping she can and will.
Since nobody's (meaning Willow) talking to me, and I have this big empty room all to myself, I took some time out to watch those tapes that's got Buffy and the gang all riled up.
On the tape- in the basement
Kennedy: *punches and kicks a punching bag, really hard and fast* Take that. evil thing!
Tara/first: Impressive.
Kennedy: Whoa.
Tara/first: Y..y..you are gonna do SO great, when that big fight comes, I'm sure of it. *rolls eyes*
Kennedy: Who the hell are you supposed to be?
Tara/first: *giggles* Oops. Silly me. I forrr- got to introduce myself.
Kennedy: *raises eyebrow*
Tara/first: I'm T.Tara. Willow's dead ex-girlfriend. *goes to shake Kennedy's hand* Right. I'm incorporeal. Oh well. Nice to m-meet ya. *evil grin*
Kennedy: *looks angry* So, that's what Tara looks like.
Tara/first: Mmm. Aint she pretty?
Kennedy: What are you doing here?
Tara/first: Came to say hello. That's all.
Kennedy: Whatever. I don't have time for your mind games. *goes back to her punching bag*
Tara/first: *follows her* Like that's really gonna help. All your training? Isn't gonna get you anywhere. You're dealing with the first evil.
Kennedy: *punches bag* We're stronger than you.
Tara/first: Is that a fact? Little girl, all you've got is an army full of pimply teenagers, who don't know the right end of a stake.
Kennedy: You getting scared?
Tara/first: I do tremble. *laughs sarcastically*
Kennedy: This is so pathetic. You have to walk around scaring your opponents, with a mask? That's your secret weapon?
Tara/first: Oh, you've got some mouth. I can't wait to rip it off.
Kennedy: How are you gonna do that, when you can't touch things? I'm just curious.
Tara/first: Laugh it off all you want, child. I'm going to destroy you. There is no defeating the original evil. The first big bad... The-
Kennedy: Will you shut up already? This is not helping your case. I'm not afraid of you.
Tara/first: You must be so proud of yourself.
Kennedy: Meaning?
Tara/first: It must feel great to be the replacement girlfriend.
Kennedy: *glares*
Tara/first: You know it's true. Willow loved me, and me only. *flutters eyelashes modestly, as if it was really Tara*
Kennedy: That is not true.
Tara/first: Oh, I know you'd love it for it to be a lie. Face it Kennedy, you really were just a replacement. She's with you only cause you're here. Willow doesn't love you.
Kennedy: Shut the hell up.
Tara/first: Why do you think she was so hesitant? Cause she still loves me. But you are just so damn over pushy. You had to get your way, so she gave in. She's using you. Willow said so herself, just because I'm the first, doesn't mean I'm not telling the truth.
Kennedy: Get out of here.
That was the end of the tape. Guess it ran out of film.
I can definitely see why they're upset with me. It was awful of me to not let them in on my little conversation with the first. I still don't think it's important for them to know, but I'm sorry; only because I got caught.
* * *
Xander's POV
She... Anya... was, oh my god...
Yesterday we saved the world. Just like we've been doing since we were fifteen. But it was different this time... Somebody I loved died. I mean, sure, people always died in battle before... I just didn't expect for Anya to go down. Why didn't I stay with her? Why did Andrew get to be there with her in the end? Why didn't I protect her, like I should have?
So this is what it's like to lose a loved one. I really don't recommend it. It sucks the big one. I guess what they say is true, "You don't really appreciate someone, until they're gone." God, I miss her so much. I don't know if I can go on...
While everybody else was up in the hotel, partying, I stayed on the bus. How could they be celebrating at a time like this? Okay, yeah... we saved the world, much goodness there, but Anya died for god's sake! Buffy came out to check on me at one point. She wasn't too happy either. We had ourselves a nice little convo. By nice, I mean seriously depressing. We talked about a lot of stuff. But mainly about people who've died. She told me I shouldn't blame myself for what happened to An, but how could I not? I should've been there! I could've done something...
We got around to looking at Andrew's tapes that he made back in Sunnydale. I am so happy that he kept them... They're one of the only things I have left to remind me of Anya. The one with her monologue is the single, most important thing that I have ever watched.
The tape- in the bathroom
Anya: Hello world. I am Anya Jenkins. It's been a long rocky road for me. First I was human, then I chose to be a vengeance demon, then I was human again... Then a demon again. Finally I am human again.
The other day, a very annoying little man boy told me that I've grown to love humans. I laughed it off and told him how untrue that statement was. Days later, I am still thinking about it. And you know what? That guy was right. I really do love humans; I just couldn't admit it before. But I'm saying it right now, out loud. I love humans. I really do. Because they never give up, they don't stop fighting for what's theirs. They are strong and I admire them. They inspired me to stay here and fight too.
*Vi knocks on the door*
*yells to the door* I'm in here! Come back later.
Vi: Alright. Just don't take too long.
*smiles at the camera* Anyway, back to me.
*reaches behind the toilet and picks up a pregnancy test*
I took a test. *shows test to the camera* See. *points to the pink line* It's pink. That means I'm pregnant. Yeah, go me. I'm having a kid. Day care workers of America, beware!
Do I even have to tell you all who the father is? Okay, I will, for all the clueless people out there. It's Xander!
*gets serious* I used to think love was a game. That's what you see it as, when you're a vengeance demon and you see how it destroys people, day after day. But I have truly learned how wonderful it can also be. I now know what it means to love somebody, and for them to completely love you back. Thank you, Xander, for teaching me. I love you with all my heart. *gets a bit teary* If we make it out of this thing alive, god, we are going to be so happy. I'm sure you'll want to make a family, after I tell you about our baby.
Vi: *bangs on door* I really need to get in there, Anya.
Hold your horses! I'll be done in a minute.
Vi: Hurry up?
Go away!
*looks at the camera* Xander maybe we could even try the marriage thing again. I know we're not really over, cause we still spark. This baby can be our second chance. We can start again.
But there's that pesky apocalypse standing in our way. You told me during the last one that everything was going to be okay and I believed you, then it really was okay. How come you didn't say that this time? *pauses* Guess it's really that bad. *another, longer pause* We're going to need a miracle, aren't we?
If you don't live, but I do, I promise to forever keep your spirit alive. You'll still be here, because of your child and me. and your friends.
If I die, and you live? Well that would really suck. Cause there won't be a little baby that's half mine running around, reminding you of me.
*Vi bangs on the bathroom door again*
Okay, I better go before that crazy slayer wannabe breaks down the door. Goodbye world. I love you all! Except for the bunnies, cause they're icky.
*talks to Vi as she's shutting off the camera* One second. God, you are so goddamn impatient.
Andrew, that little maggot. Him and that stupid camera of his. Why did he have to leave it on like that?
We made it to the Hypersion Hotel okay. I got to have my own room.
Willow's so mad at me. Have you ever had somebody real pissed at you, but they say they're not? That girl was giving me some wicked fierce glares the whole way here, and then when I confronted her about it, she was all "I'm not angry. I just need some space." Fine. Willow needs some time away from me, I can handle that. Whatever it takes for her to get over this; which I am really really hoping she can and will.
Since nobody's (meaning Willow) talking to me, and I have this big empty room all to myself, I took some time out to watch those tapes that's got Buffy and the gang all riled up.
On the tape- in the basement
Kennedy: *punches and kicks a punching bag, really hard and fast* Take that. evil thing!
Tara/first: Impressive.
Kennedy: Whoa.
Tara/first: Y..y..you are gonna do SO great, when that big fight comes, I'm sure of it. *rolls eyes*
Kennedy: Who the hell are you supposed to be?
Tara/first: *giggles* Oops. Silly me. I forrr- got to introduce myself.
Kennedy: *raises eyebrow*
Tara/first: I'm T.Tara. Willow's dead ex-girlfriend. *goes to shake Kennedy's hand* Right. I'm incorporeal. Oh well. Nice to m-meet ya. *evil grin*
Kennedy: *looks angry* So, that's what Tara looks like.
Tara/first: Mmm. Aint she pretty?
Kennedy: What are you doing here?
Tara/first: Came to say hello. That's all.
Kennedy: Whatever. I don't have time for your mind games. *goes back to her punching bag*
Tara/first: *follows her* Like that's really gonna help. All your training? Isn't gonna get you anywhere. You're dealing with the first evil.
Kennedy: *punches bag* We're stronger than you.
Tara/first: Is that a fact? Little girl, all you've got is an army full of pimply teenagers, who don't know the right end of a stake.
Kennedy: You getting scared?
Tara/first: I do tremble. *laughs sarcastically*
Kennedy: This is so pathetic. You have to walk around scaring your opponents, with a mask? That's your secret weapon?
Tara/first: Oh, you've got some mouth. I can't wait to rip it off.
Kennedy: How are you gonna do that, when you can't touch things? I'm just curious.
Tara/first: Laugh it off all you want, child. I'm going to destroy you. There is no defeating the original evil. The first big bad... The-
Kennedy: Will you shut up already? This is not helping your case. I'm not afraid of you.
Tara/first: You must be so proud of yourself.
Kennedy: Meaning?
Tara/first: It must feel great to be the replacement girlfriend.
Kennedy: *glares*
Tara/first: You know it's true. Willow loved me, and me only. *flutters eyelashes modestly, as if it was really Tara*
Kennedy: That is not true.
Tara/first: Oh, I know you'd love it for it to be a lie. Face it Kennedy, you really were just a replacement. She's with you only cause you're here. Willow doesn't love you.
Kennedy: Shut the hell up.
Tara/first: Why do you think she was so hesitant? Cause she still loves me. But you are just so damn over pushy. You had to get your way, so she gave in. She's using you. Willow said so herself, just because I'm the first, doesn't mean I'm not telling the truth.
Kennedy: Get out of here.
That was the end of the tape. Guess it ran out of film.
I can definitely see why they're upset with me. It was awful of me to not let them in on my little conversation with the first. I still don't think it's important for them to know, but I'm sorry; only because I got caught.
* * *
Xander's POV
She... Anya... was, oh my god...
Yesterday we saved the world. Just like we've been doing since we were fifteen. But it was different this time... Somebody I loved died. I mean, sure, people always died in battle before... I just didn't expect for Anya to go down. Why didn't I stay with her? Why did Andrew get to be there with her in the end? Why didn't I protect her, like I should have?
So this is what it's like to lose a loved one. I really don't recommend it. It sucks the big one. I guess what they say is true, "You don't really appreciate someone, until they're gone." God, I miss her so much. I don't know if I can go on...
While everybody else was up in the hotel, partying, I stayed on the bus. How could they be celebrating at a time like this? Okay, yeah... we saved the world, much goodness there, but Anya died for god's sake! Buffy came out to check on me at one point. She wasn't too happy either. We had ourselves a nice little convo. By nice, I mean seriously depressing. We talked about a lot of stuff. But mainly about people who've died. She told me I shouldn't blame myself for what happened to An, but how could I not? I should've been there! I could've done something...
We got around to looking at Andrew's tapes that he made back in Sunnydale. I am so happy that he kept them... They're one of the only things I have left to remind me of Anya. The one with her monologue is the single, most important thing that I have ever watched.
The tape- in the bathroom
Anya: Hello world. I am Anya Jenkins. It's been a long rocky road for me. First I was human, then I chose to be a vengeance demon, then I was human again... Then a demon again. Finally I am human again.
The other day, a very annoying little man boy told me that I've grown to love humans. I laughed it off and told him how untrue that statement was. Days later, I am still thinking about it. And you know what? That guy was right. I really do love humans; I just couldn't admit it before. But I'm saying it right now, out loud. I love humans. I really do. Because they never give up, they don't stop fighting for what's theirs. They are strong and I admire them. They inspired me to stay here and fight too.
*Vi knocks on the door*
*yells to the door* I'm in here! Come back later.
Vi: Alright. Just don't take too long.
*smiles at the camera* Anyway, back to me.
*reaches behind the toilet and picks up a pregnancy test*
I took a test. *shows test to the camera* See. *points to the pink line* It's pink. That means I'm pregnant. Yeah, go me. I'm having a kid. Day care workers of America, beware!
Do I even have to tell you all who the father is? Okay, I will, for all the clueless people out there. It's Xander!
*gets serious* I used to think love was a game. That's what you see it as, when you're a vengeance demon and you see how it destroys people, day after day. But I have truly learned how wonderful it can also be. I now know what it means to love somebody, and for them to completely love you back. Thank you, Xander, for teaching me. I love you with all my heart. *gets a bit teary* If we make it out of this thing alive, god, we are going to be so happy. I'm sure you'll want to make a family, after I tell you about our baby.
Vi: *bangs on door* I really need to get in there, Anya.
Hold your horses! I'll be done in a minute.
Vi: Hurry up?
Go away!
*looks at the camera* Xander maybe we could even try the marriage thing again. I know we're not really over, cause we still spark. This baby can be our second chance. We can start again.
But there's that pesky apocalypse standing in our way. You told me during the last one that everything was going to be okay and I believed you, then it really was okay. How come you didn't say that this time? *pauses* Guess it's really that bad. *another, longer pause* We're going to need a miracle, aren't we?
If you don't live, but I do, I promise to forever keep your spirit alive. You'll still be here, because of your child and me. and your friends.
If I die, and you live? Well that would really suck. Cause there won't be a little baby that's half mine running around, reminding you of me.
*Vi bangs on the bathroom door again*
Okay, I better go before that crazy slayer wannabe breaks down the door. Goodbye world. I love you all! Except for the bunnies, cause they're icky.
*talks to Vi as she's shutting off the camera* One second. God, you are so goddamn impatient.
