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Chapter Five
Even though things with Sirius were back to normal, it was hell between Remus and me. Right after Sirius and I broke up, I went to go find Remus. I went straight to the library and saw him sitting at a table, studying. I hurried over to sit with him; he didn't look up.
"Hello, Remus," I said hesitantly.
"Hello," he muttered, his eyes still on the book even though they weren't moving.
"How have you been lately?" I asked as I tried to catch his eye. It worked.
"Why are you talking as if we've just seen each other for the first time in weeks?" he asked shortly. "And why are you acting as if everything is ok between us?"
It took me a moment to answer because I was shocked as his words. I didn't really expect him to act like this. But, perhaps I deserved it.
"Because everything is going to be if you just hear me out-"
"Is there a reason I should?" His beautiful gray eyes were staring fiercely at me, but I didn't flinch. Determinedly, I gazed back. He was going to hear what I had to say whether he liked it or not.
"Yes," I answered even though I really didn't know. He looked at me with anticipation, but I didn't elaborate. "Remus, look. I was wrong for-"
Just then something slipped out of my pocket and onto the floor where it clunked loudly. I looked down at the floor and groaned. It was Sirius's locket. I picked it up and tried to put it away before Remus saw it. No such luck.
"What's that?" he asked courteously.
"Um...it's a gift someone gave me. Nothing exciting really-"
"Can I have a look at it?"
"Sure," I muttered and gave him the locket. He examined it, turning it over and over with his fingers.
"It's nice," Remus told me as he handed it back.
"Thank you."
"I like the inscription Sirius put on it, especially."
"What?" I looked at the locket and saw small, curvy writing engraved into it.
There is none more fair
Than the Willow with dark hair
Whose eyes come a glow
And sparkle like a rainbow
To you I give all the love I seem lack
Love always, Sirius Black.
I stared at it. Even though, it was quite elementary I thought it was pretty good. For Sirius, anyway. An abrupt scraping noise brought me back to reality. I looked over at Remus and saw him stand up.
"Remus, wait!" I stood up too.
"Willow, I have to go and study for-"
"Can you listen to what I have to say first?"
Remus stared at me for a moment before taking a deep breath. "All right, then...talk away."
I smiled in relief. Maybe he's not that angry after all.
"All right...Um, were do I begin...Umm..."
"Maybe you should start from the beginning."
"Oh, right, thanks. Ok...the beginning...Remus, I'm in love with you."
Remus's eyes widened slightly as he looked at me. I could tell straight away that he wasn't expecting that. I couldn't gaze into his gray eyes any longer; I looked away.
"Well, I am-"
"Then why are you going out with Sirius?"
"Because he asked me to, and-"
"You mean you don't have a choice to say 'no'?"
All right, so he is angry, but he had a right to...or did he? I narrowed my eyes and looked at him.
"Why are you so angry for, Remus? Why does the fact that Sirius and I went out-that's right, we're not going out anymore-bother you?"
"Because maybe I'm in love with you too!" His raised voice caused several other students in the library to look our way. Remus didn't seem to notice and he continued to glare at me with those eyes I adored so much.
"Why are you shouting?" I hissed. "I'm right here, not at the other side of the Quidditch pitch! And why didn't you tell me you were in love with me?"
"Oh, I don't know," Remus began sarcastically, "maybe it's the same reason you told me nothing."
"Don't you start that with me...It's not like you couldn't have asked me to be your girlfriend."
"Well, maybe I was getting around to it!"
"Well, maybe you should have gotten around to it sooner!" Now we were both yelling and the library got quieter than usual.
"My apologies, Madam Black. Perhaps, I would have if it weren't for your boyfriend-"
"FOR MERLIN'S SAKE, REMUS, WE BROKE UP!"
"What is going on here?"
Remus and I turned to face a flustered Madam Pince. She had angry blotches in both cheeks and her nostrils were flared. Remus and I exchanged annoyed glares.
"Why are you shouting?" she hissed.
"It was just an argument, Madam Pince. That's all, really."
"Just an-Well, perhaps you can continue your arguments elsewhere. Go on...go!"
We obeyed quietly; I was too upset to talk, Remus probably was too, but I didn't care. He didn't speak to me until we turned a corner.
"Do you want me to walk you to your common room?"
"Don't bother," I muttered, glaring at a portrait of a wizard who was running away from an angry wife. I was reminded strongly of Gabe.
"All right then," he said quietly. "Goodbye."
"'Bye."
I looked around just in time to see Remus through me a puzzled glance before heading up the stairs. I stared up at the back of his ascending body for a few seconds before turning away myself.
~*~
"Oi, Sirius! Can I have a word with you?"
"Yeah, sure, in a minute-"
"Now!"
Sirius was standing in the middle of a ring of fourth year Hufflepuff girls. He was showing off all the different complex spells he could do...then he would flick his hair to one side making them squeal stupidly.
"All right, Will-"
"Hey, Sirius," whined one of the girls, "don't go just yet."
"Yeah," sneered another. "You don't have to listen to her...What does she have that we don't?"
I glared at them impatiently. How ignorant can they be?
"How about common sense? Don't you see he's just trying to-"
Before I could say anymore, Sirius slipped a hand over my mouth and dragged me toward an empty corridor. When he released me, I turned to him, smirking.
"Now you have attention for me?" I asked in mock annoyance.
"Uh, yeah, since you were about to ruin five minutes of perfect-" he cleared his throat. "So, you wanted to talk to me?"
A frown replaced my sneer.
"Ugh, Will. Please don't frown; it makes you look...thoughtful."
I ignored this, but I did note the concern in his tone.
"Sirius, I need to ask you something about Remus."
"Moony? What about him?"
"Did you say anything about us going out?"
"I said a few things..." I groaned.
"Like what?"
"Will, what does it matter? It's over."
"I know, I know. But can't you just tell me?"
Sirius stared at me and I saw his expression soften.
"Well, I told him that we were so much in love that we were pretty much married. I mean, we have the same last name-"
"What?"
"And I told him you wanted to have my baby," he added hurriedly.
"Sirius, how could you?" I asked in disgust.
Sirius's eyes now held a slightly hurt look in them.
"You know, I did love you, Willow. I think I still do."
An awkward silence met his last statement. I was speechless.
"Look, I gotta go. See ya around, Will," Sirius said quickly and kissed my cheek softly. Then he strolled down the corridor, whistling loudly.
I looked after him realizing something for the first time. Sirius really did love me...and I broke his heart. Like I did Remus's. I felt awful-like I was stuck in the middle of something. And then a thought entered my mind.
This wasn't supposed to happen.
