When I scream, does your head ache?
When I bleed, do you feel the pain?
Or do you simply pretend that, like many things,
I don't exist.
Someday my memory will come back to haunt you.
You'll feel what I've felt all my life.
The happiest day of my life,
Will be the one when I can walk away from you this time.
You'll cry after me,
Just like I've cried for you.
Was it too much to ask you to be there?
Obviously.
I'm the dirty little secret you hide,
But I found you out, I know it.
You can't hide yourself from me.
I don't know you, I never will,
And yet you're still so real to me.
You're the reason I cause people pain,
Pain they don't deserve,
The pain you deserve.
You'll never see what you've done to me.
I wouldn't show you anyways,
Because then you might actually feel my pain.
Here's a lesson in life:
One mistake can change the world.
I'm sorry I was that mistake,
And I'm sorry I changed your world,
But I can't do anything about that.
And I'm not like you.
It's your fault I'm different,
It's your fault I live in fear of myself,
And in fear of the people I love most.
It's your fault.
Do you ever think of me?
Do you care about me?
Do you even remember me,
Or did you forget about me?
The one thing I haven't been able to do,
Is forget about you.
You horrible, non-rememorable memory.
No matter how hard I try,
You'll always be stuck with me like some disease,
A disease that eats away at your heart and soul.
You physically pushed me into this world,
As I still try to mentally push you out of mine....
And if we do see eye to eye someday,
What would you say?
What would I say?
Would we say anything at all?
Could we?
I won't let that day ever come though.
I'll spend the rest of my life alone,
Doing the same thing I've done all along....
Asking questions that can't be answered.