"Maybe I shouldn't, she might feel like we're ganging up on her."
"I think it's best if we all show our support."
"Okay, I'll be there in half an hour."
Bianca got to the hospital a few minutes before Leo, Laura and Brooke did but when Laura got out of the elevator and saw her a worried look crossed her face.
"Bianca, what are you doing here?" asked Laura.
"I asked her to come," supplied Brooke.
"Why? I'm just getting a check up right?" she said looking from Brooke and Leo to Bianca.
"Actually your Mother brought you here to see me," said someone from behind her. Laura turned around and saw a man with a smile on his face.
"I'm doctor McMillan," he said holding out his hand.
Laura shook it. "Are you my new doctor or something, is David out of town?"
"Laura, this is a psychiatrist, he works here at the hospital," replied Brooke.
"A shrink? Why would you bring me to a shrink?" she then saw Bianca guiltily hanging her head.
"Bianca? May I please speak to you, alone?"
"Laura, I'm not sure if that's a good idea--" started Brooke.
"It's okay Mom, it'll only take a second," said Laura grabbing Bianca's arm and dragging her into the women's bathroom.
"Bianca, how could you tell on me, I told you, my marriage is better than ever, everything is fine. I can't believe that you're this jealous."
"Are you kidding? This isn't about you and Leo, you tried to kill yourself!"
"You know exactly what this is about. But I'm never going to play for your side. And I guess you just can't accept that. You still have these feelings for me."
"No, I don't. Not anymore," she said and surprisingly she realized her romantic feelings for Laura were changing, right now all she felt for Laura was friendship and pity, there was none of the attraction that made her palms sweaty or her heart pound. "Laura, you need people to love you, and you don't know how to love them back. That is something that you have to work on, but I can't help you. I'm moving on, without you."
"I'm very capable of loving. Just not the kind of love that you want."
"Laura, first, I was your friend, and that is all I've ever asked of you, and you know it, no matter what I might have felt about you I never pushed you."
"You would have jumped at the chance to be with me, Bianca if I'd even given you an inch. You just can't let other people be happy."
"Oh, come on," replied Bianca with exasperation, when had Laura turned into this whinning little brat?
"I think it's a gay thing."
"Excuse me?"
"But I wouldn't understand that. Leo is my best friend. And my husband. And my LOVER and I will not let you destroy that."
"I'm not trying to! I'm trying to keep you from destroying yourself and if you can't understand that---you know what? Never mind," and with that Bianca stormed off.
Laura wiped the sweat off of her forehead. She couldn't believe that Bianca had betrayed her like this.
She took a deep breath and re-entered the hallway to see Leo, her Mom and the doctor looking at her and she knew they must have seen Bianca.
"I really don't think it's necessary for me to be here."
"I recommend that anyone who has had an organ transplant come to see me, this is just procedure."
"Yeah, right," said Laura crossing her arms. She wondered if Leo knew what she had tried to do, he looked just as confused about the counsiling so she guessed not, well that was good, atleast Leo didn't think she was crazy, Laura vowed not to let Bianca ruin her relationship with Leo, after all nothing else mattered.
Laura was sitting in the comfortable chair across from Dr. McMillan.
"So, I understand that you are a newly wed."
"Yes, my husband Leo is the greatest."
"When did you to get married?"
"Right before my transplant, in the hospital."
"So how long have you to been seeing each other?"
"Well-" said Laura biting her lip. "Off and on, kind of but then he got engaged to someone else and then it was called off and he married me."
"How is ex-fiancee handling this?"
"Badly, she's a bitch... I mean she's not very nice and she wants to steal him from me."
"Why don't you tell me about it?"
"Well, Greenlee just can't take rejection, she has this crazy fantasy that Leo still loves her, I mean come on! Like she ever had a chance with him!"
"Well how would you rate your marriage?"
"It's a perfect ten, we tell each other everything, he's all I've ever wanted."
"Does he know you purposely didn't take your medication?"
"That never happened! That lesbo Bianca has been spreading lies! I wouldn't do something like that! She's just trying to destroy me!" said Laura adamantly.
"So Greenlee and Bianca are out to destroy you?"
"Yes! I mean no--they're jealous of me!"
"I understand, just calm down, we don't want you so worked up. Let's discuss something else. I understand that you were given the heart of a woman you knew?"
"Yes, Gillian," said Laura trying to calm down so this Dr. would leave her alone.
"Do you ever feel guilty about that?"
"No, I mean I try not to think about it that much, I'm very grateful."
"So tell me about your relationship with this girl Bianca, how did you two meet?"
Bianca sat in the park with her hands over her face trying desperately to catch her breath as sobs tore through her body. It was so unfair, she just didn't understand how Laura could be so cruel to her, so mean, they were friends, best friends or they had been. She had always hoped that maybe they could be more and now she didn't even recognize Laura anymore. When Laura got married it had felt like her heart had been ripped out but she was starting to get over it, to understand that no matter what there was no future for them as other than friends, and now even that was a remote possibility. It was hard to let go of a crush but even harder to let go of a friend.
"Hey. Are you okay?"
Bianca quickly wiped at her tears as she looked up to see a girl a little older than herself standing before her. "Yes, I'm fine," said Bianca trying desperately to look composed.
"You look like you could use this," said the woman handing Bianca a tissue.
"Thank you, I'm Bianca," she said studying the girl.
"Mary Francis, but if I hear you call me that I'll take back the tissue," the girl said with a smile.
"Then what am I supposed to call you?" she asked the light brown haired girl with beautiful brown eyes.
"Frankie."
Bianca smiled through her tears. "Well, it's nice to meet you, Frankie."
"You too Bianca-la. So why are you sittin' here in the park crying?"
"No reason," she looked over at Frankie, she seemed nice but Bianca didn't want to spill out her whole live's story to a stranger.
"Then it must be a boy. Some guy break your heart?" she asked sitting down next to Bianca.
Bianca laughed at the thought. "No, definitly not."
"Someone die?"
"No, I just saw someone for who they really are."
"I know how that is."
"You do?"
"Yeah, my whole life has been that way… anyway, I have to go. I hope things get better. maybe I'll see you later Bianca-la." And with that she was gone as soon as she had come.
"Bye," whispered Bianca as she wrapped her arms around herself and looked up at the sky asking God why nothing ever seemed to work out for her.
"Well that's about it for today. We'll make an appointment for you to come back and see me next week."
"But I thought this was a one time thing. I'm fine, I don't need a shrink."
"Just a few more meetings," said Dr. McMillan.
"Okay, whatever, I need to go home and cook dinner for my husband."
"I'll see you soon then, Mrs. du Pres."
Laura left the office and with a sigh of relief walked down the hall to where Leo and her mother were still waiting for her.
"How'd it go?" asked Leo standing up.
"It was great. Dr. McMillan was very nice, he said that from my behavior it seems I'm just having a reaction to the drugs for my heart so he wants me to come back next week so we can talk to my doctors and see if we can't get a new drug regiment going," she lied.
"That's wonderful," said Brooke hugging her daughter.
"I know," said Laura smiling.
Bianca didn't know what to do as she sat up in her room going over and over in her head her conversation with Laura. She knew that this time she couldn't just forget what Laura had said. It was odd how she now felt so detached from Laura, now when she thought of her she was obviously angered and hurt but there seemed to be no more feelings of affection, or love. Her thoughts then went to the woman she had met a couple hours ago. Bianca-la, that was an odd nick name but she liked it. "Bianca-la," she said out loud before she fell asleep.