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Trying to keep my voice low as I cry so I disturb my mother or her new husband. Tears fall from my eyes as a rush of emotion swallow me whole. I struggle for a breath as thoughts go over my mind. first one that came to mind was. When did the fire demon start to not just be a friend? When was it that I grew to love him? To need him as I do. These thoughts seemed to clutch at my heart. Making my chest hurt as I cry harder.
Next thought was how can I hide them? As Youko Kurama I never let anyone get close enough to make me hurt this bad. I had plenty of lovers. But I had used them just for the moment. I didn't care about them. Not like I do now. My friends or Partners were the only ones that I let get close. That still wasn't as close as he got. Maybe being human let me have deeper feelings? After all I never loved another till I loved my human mother.
The very first time He used the dragon of darkness flame I thought he would die from it. It was a attack that no one had been able to control. He could not at first but he learned how. But I could not help but be scared for him every time he used it. I tried not to show a lot of emotions over it. I wanted to hide how I felt. I was just understanding them myself. So I hid under the mask of his best friend. Yes I hid and lost him. Lost him? No I never had him. Tears fall like rain on a spring day. I no longer can control them.
Just then a noise enters my mind. I look up unsure what it was. That was when I saw him. He was standing near me in the shadows. He is staring at me. Maybe he is wondering what the stupid fox was crying over. What would he think if I said it was him? He would probably kill me or worse leave and never come around again. I still want him as a friend so I say nothing.
Brushing my tears away I sit up. Smile comes to my face. I am happy to see him. I look him over to see if he is injured. Seeing no injures I wonder why he is here. Least he didn't change since we last saw each other. I am happy for that. So to find out what it is he is doing back in human world I ask.
" Hiei, Have you come to visit? Or perhaps are you to stay awhile in this world?" To my surprise my voice is normal. It is as calm and soft as usual.
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" Hn." Is my answer. It is the only thing I could think of. My voice shows no emotion. No weakness. My staying or Leaving depended on him. But I could not share that with him. I had to keep that a secret. Least until I was sure that he would never look at me the way I wanted. I did not want to risk my first and closest friend. Even while my heart cries out for him.
I watch as his eyes look over my body. He thinks I came because I am injured. I know that is what he is thinking. But why would he think of any other reason? He would not think of one. I used to come here al the time after being hurt. H would heal me and talk to me. I used to think my only reason for coming to him was because he was my only friend. But now I know that it has always been because I wanted him. I wanted to feel his hands on my body. To be close to him.
As I watch him it hits me harder on how much I missed him. While I missed my other friends the retired spirit detective and that Baka Kuwabara. It was Kurama I missed the most. I also missed my sister very much. But she was not the image that followed me into my sleep. No it was this kitsune. He looks happy to see me. How I wish it was more than because I was his best friend.
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Ok sorry I know it is short!! I will add more tomorrow. But if you like it let me know!! Then I'll add two chapters instead of one!! Thank you.
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Trying to keep my voice low as I cry so I disturb my mother or her new husband. Tears fall from my eyes as a rush of emotion swallow me whole. I struggle for a breath as thoughts go over my mind. first one that came to mind was. When did the fire demon start to not just be a friend? When was it that I grew to love him? To need him as I do. These thoughts seemed to clutch at my heart. Making my chest hurt as I cry harder.
Next thought was how can I hide them? As Youko Kurama I never let anyone get close enough to make me hurt this bad. I had plenty of lovers. But I had used them just for the moment. I didn't care about them. Not like I do now. My friends or Partners were the only ones that I let get close. That still wasn't as close as he got. Maybe being human let me have deeper feelings? After all I never loved another till I loved my human mother.
The very first time He used the dragon of darkness flame I thought he would die from it. It was a attack that no one had been able to control. He could not at first but he learned how. But I could not help but be scared for him every time he used it. I tried not to show a lot of emotions over it. I wanted to hide how I felt. I was just understanding them myself. So I hid under the mask of his best friend. Yes I hid and lost him. Lost him? No I never had him. Tears fall like rain on a spring day. I no longer can control them.
Just then a noise enters my mind. I look up unsure what it was. That was when I saw him. He was standing near me in the shadows. He is staring at me. Maybe he is wondering what the stupid fox was crying over. What would he think if I said it was him? He would probably kill me or worse leave and never come around again. I still want him as a friend so I say nothing.
Brushing my tears away I sit up. Smile comes to my face. I am happy to see him. I look him over to see if he is injured. Seeing no injures I wonder why he is here. Least he didn't change since we last saw each other. I am happy for that. So to find out what it is he is doing back in human world I ask.
" Hiei, Have you come to visit? Or perhaps are you to stay awhile in this world?" To my surprise my voice is normal. It is as calm and soft as usual.
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" Hn." Is my answer. It is the only thing I could think of. My voice shows no emotion. No weakness. My staying or Leaving depended on him. But I could not share that with him. I had to keep that a secret. Least until I was sure that he would never look at me the way I wanted. I did not want to risk my first and closest friend. Even while my heart cries out for him.
I watch as his eyes look over my body. He thinks I came because I am injured. I know that is what he is thinking. But why would he think of any other reason? He would not think of one. I used to come here al the time after being hurt. H would heal me and talk to me. I used to think my only reason for coming to him was because he was my only friend. But now I know that it has always been because I wanted him. I wanted to feel his hands on my body. To be close to him.
As I watch him it hits me harder on how much I missed him. While I missed my other friends the retired spirit detective and that Baka Kuwabara. It was Kurama I missed the most. I also missed my sister very much. But she was not the image that followed me into my sleep. No it was this kitsune. He looks happy to see me. How I wish it was more than because I was his best friend.
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Ok sorry I know it is short!! I will add more tomorrow. But if you like it let me know!! Then I'll add two chapters instead of one!! Thank you.