Hey guys thanks for all the great reviews again. When I first started this fic I never thought so many guys would like it. I'm so use to getting only like a couple of reviews, but that just not the case here. Thank you guys you are all very encouraging!! Well anyways I hope you guys enjoy this chapter, because I just want to tell you guys now that things are about to change a bit, because after this chapter my love triangle will actually change course a little. Enjoy!

Disclaimer: My legal consultant (lawyer is such a harsh word) told me that I have no legal right to claim Yugioh or any of it's characters. He also told me that I should stop running over small animals and it's not healthy to have pictures of Yami, Jochan, and Kaiba posted all over my room, but what's he know? Okay so he has a Harvard degree and a doctrine in law, but so what!! I have pictures of Yami, Jochan, and Kaiba all over my room so I've got him beat! Take that Harvard Diploma. ::Throws dueling deck at framed diploma on lawyer's wall, shatters it into a million pieces, and runs away frantically like she didn't do anything:: Gomen! (^_^;)

Love Kaleidoscope

Chp.8 Kaiba's Dilemma

Like the rhythm of a distant drum, the sound of a pen clicking against a laptop filled the air. At first all that could be heard were a series of chaotic drum beats as the owner of the pen banged down on the laptop with perfect unison to the thoughts that plagued him. However after a long period of silent thought, a rhythm was soon established as the wheels of the drummers mind soon became encircled with the same thoughts over and over again, until they were all he could think about. He couldn't concentrate on anything else, and he had given up all hope ever finishing any work that day. Now here he was sitting at his table in a mesmerized state, unwary of the fact that the pounding of his pen had soon become perfectly in sync with the beating of his heart.

"A little on edge today, sir?" questioned a random worker who had gotten so aggravated by the constant pen pounding that he had finally gathered up the courage to speak, although he knew it might cost home his job, but at this point he could care less. The unnerving sound of his bosses incisive drumming was about to drive him up the wall!!

Realizing that his actions, and distant thought had been noticed by everyone at the table, Seto scowled at the worker. "Mind your own damn business" he growled, and with that final statement he got up and left the room.

"Well then........I guess our meeting has been cancelled?" sputtered a surprised employee as the other participants of the meeting shook their confused heads in agreement. They had never seen their boss act this way before.

"Dammit..................Dammit......DAMMIT!!" shouted Seto angrily as he slammed his hand down on his desk with all his might. "What the hell is wrong with me!?! Why can't I get that damn girl out of my head!?!?" For the first time in his life, the attention of Seto, Head of Kaiba Corps, Game Designing Genius, wasn't totally focused on a new program, a duel monsters match, or even his damn Kaiba Corps!!! For some reason the only thing that he could think about was Anzu and the incredible kiss they had shared last night.

"How could I? How could I be so weak!?!" thundered Seto to himself. It was times like these that Seto wish he had someone to consult, and Mokuba sure wouldn't be able to understand what Seto was going through. Then again, this was the first time Seto ever felt the need to consult anyone about a problem that he knew he couldn't solve by himself. Generally he would brainstorm until he could figure out all the answers on his own, but he never needed anyone's help before. However, this situation was beyond Seto's expertise. These feelings, these emotions, this ache that had somehow chiseled it's way into his stone cold heart was completely foreign to him. Usually when Seto found himself in a predicament where he didn't know or understand something he would merely find his answers in a book or on the internet, however in this case those old faithful tactics had proven useless.

He couldn't, he couldn't actually be having feelings for this girl. No that was impossible! The only two people that Seto Kaiba cared about in the world were Mokuba and himself. He didn't have time or any room left in his heart to care about anyone else. So maybe, just maybe these feelings were something that were driven purely by lust. No, this wasn't the first time Seto's hormones got a little more than out of hand (after all he was still human, well sort of), and if he really wanted to settle his manly yearnings he could always pay someone to take care of them, but no, this was not the case! The only person Seto wanted now was Anzu and no one else.

"Dammit!!" shouted Seto again as his frustration became almost too unbearable for him to keep inside. There wasn't any reason for Seto to have any kind of romantic feelings for Anzu. Besides, the only thing he ever did when he was around her was constantly argue, lose his cool, and make a fool of himself. No, he couldn't possibly have feelings for her. Weren't people who were suppose to like each other, suppose to, well, like each other?!?!

Well, once Seto really thought about, he really didn't dislike Anzu at all, he just didn't get along with her. However, he had to admit that being around Anzu was, well slightly amusing. Now that he thought about it was actually kind of fun to argue with Anzu. It was fun to exercise his wits, and challenge his mind. Ever time she was around, Seto had to keep his mind sharp, always be prepared, and expect the unexpected. It was almost kind of like a game were the rules constantly changed, and surprises were around every corner. Being around Anzu was almost as challenging as his day to day lifestyle. Designing games challenged his mind, dueling sharpened his wits and kept him on edge, and while running Kaiba Corps, Seto had to always expect the unexpected. Although this life was exhausting and strenuous, these were things that Seto liked to do. They were what he enjoyed. So did that mean that he actually enjoyed being with Anzu?!?

"No way!!" shouted Seto again. There was just no way Seto would let himself start to care about another person. Caring about people was for the weak, and Seto Kaiba was anything but weak!! Seto cared about his parents, and then they left him!! After his parents died he thought he would never get over pain of their lose. Even caring about Mokuba was hard for him to do sometimes. Caring about his little brother hurt him because every time one of Seto's enemies wanted to get at him they would always come after Mokuba, and the grief of worrying about Mokuba and knowing that it was his fault that Mokuba was in pain was already almost too much for Seto to bear. No, he wouldn't let himself get hurt again. He had promised himself that a long time ago. He could never open his heart up to anyone else, if he did he would run the risk of being weak, of being vulnerable, of getting hurt again.......

"Was she right? Is what she said really true?" Seto's anger begin to die down, as a realization of what had just run through his mind hit him. "Am I really.........afraid?" Seto suddenly felt his legs go weak as he sat down in his chair. He had never really thought about it. Had he really been fooling himself all these years. Was he really that weak of a person? As Seto contemplated over Anzu's words and what it really meant to be strong, a flood of memories suddenly begin to surround him.

::Flash Back::

"Poor kid, he didn't even shed one tear, do you think he's in shock?" whispered the couple. "And I hear they have no other family, they'll probably be sent to an orphanage." Their voices were very faint as Seto stared into the two dark holes in the ground. "That's such a shame." As it begin to rain a few adults tried to urge Seto to go indoors before he caught his death of cold, but he refused to move. As the crowd around the two freshly laid grave sights begin to disappear, Seto stared into their shadows.

"Why did you have to go? Was it something that I did......." Tears of sorrow begin to streak down his face, but were quickly washed away by the rain. No one knew that he was crying. They thought he was in shock, but all along he was crying both inside and out. "Don't worry, I promise I'll take care of Mokuba, I won't let anything happen to him, but.............."

//But who's going to take care of me?//

"Your not crying again are you?" smirked a cold voice. "Don't waste your tears. No matter how much you cry it won't bring them back, so save yourself the energy. Besides when you think about things are better this way. Now you no longer have those crutches in your life to hold you back, caring for people is a waste of time."

'How can this man say such things, how dare he disrespect my parents!' Upon hearing these words all of Seto's sadness transformed into to uncontrollable anger as he swung at the dark man.

"Heh, aren't you an angry one, however, your too slow," he chuckled as he struck Seto in the face. Seto stared at him in disbelief. He had never been hit in his life, and he wasn't sure what to do. "Friendship, Love, Honor, Trust. there are all things for the weak, and in this world the only person you can depend on is yourself."

"Quit lying, that's not true at all," shouted Seto angrily as he finally recovered from the blow to his face.

"Is it? Then answer me this Seto, who was it that you trusted most in the world?" Seto suddenly grew silent. He didn't want to answer his question. "It was your parents, right? Well then Seto, tell me why then, if your parents really cared about you, then why did they leave you all alone? Is that something people who really love you do?"

"Shut up, just shut up! I don't believe you." shouted Seto again, as he tried to cover his ears.

"Hmm, so if you think I shut my mouth, then the truth will just go away," smirked the man coldly.

"Well then if I can't trust anybody, then why should I trust you!?! Why are you doing this, do you really care about me that much!?!" cried Seto as he struggled to hold back his tears.

Gozaburo let out an icy laugh at the thought of Seto's words. "Care about you? Don't be so naive, like I told you before the only person in this world that I care about is myself! That's why I need you. I need some one as sharp and with as much potential as you to carry out my legacy. However, as long as you remain as weak and pathetic as you are now I'm afraid I have no use for you, but if you follow me I promise you little Seto that I will teach you what it means to be a truly strong person. Because in this world only the strong survive, and if your strong you live, and if your weak you die. Now follow me and I promise you will never get hurt again."

Seto stared into Gozaburo's cold eyes as he felt himself tremble. "Teach me to be strong?" Seto clutched his heart as he begin to remember how much it hurt to know that he would never see his parents again. 'I don't want to feel this pain again. I don't ever want to be hurt like this again!.

"Okay then........teach me.........teach me what it means to be strong." An evil smile formed on Gozaburo Kaiba's face as he realized that he had finally found the one strong enough to take his place.

"Very well then Seto, Lesson One, the only person in this world that you can depend on is yourself. Never trust anyone, this is the most important rule, otherwise you'll just get hurt by those you foolishly believed in."

//I don't want to get hurt, but is being weak really all that bad?//

"You little fool, how dare you lose to a weakling like that?!" thundered Gozaburo as he struck Seto with all his might.

Seto held his side in pain as he suddenly begin to cough uncontrollably. He covered his mouth with his hand in an attempt to subdue the violent coughs which caused his ribs to only ache worse. Seto stared down at the blood that now covered his hand in which he had just coughed up, and wiped the crimson liquid from the side of his mouth.

"Lesson number two little Seto, never lose to someone weaker than you. The strong shall never bow down to the weak." As the words echoed into Seto's ears and seeped their way into his heart, Gozubaro gave Seto another powerful kick to his other side sending him crashing into the wall. "Your still two weak Seto, but that's all right, I'm gonna beat the weakness out of you!"

Rather than feeling angry or sorry for himself, Seto felt an uncontrollable fear take over him. 'I'm still too weak, but if I'm too weak to survive then what about Mokuba?' Seto had promised his parents and himself that he would always take care of his little brother, but if Gozubaro's words were really true, then unless Mokuba became stronger, then he would never be able to survive. Suddenly Seto stood to his feet and spit the blood that had just crawled up his throat out his mouth. His eyes daring Gozaburo to hit him again.

Seto could never let Mokuba go through this kind of pain. "Perfect." smiled Gozaburo coldly.

//I have to get stronger! That way I can be strong enough for the both of us!//

"P-please show mercy!" he cried as he begged for his life.

"Mercy?" laughed Seto coldly "But isn't mercy for the weak?" Seto closed in on his prey ready to strike as a hint of malice flickered in his ice blue eyes. Eyes which reflected the coldness which had taken over Seto's soul and claimed his heart. "It's an emotion for the weak."

Gozubaro trembled in fear as he realized that he made Seto too powerful, and now he was the one who was weak and obsolete. He had taught Seto well and now there was no turning back.

"This is the final lesson you taught me Kaiba......Gozaburo, never let emotions run your heart, emotions are feelings for the weak. Hmm, so now that you have become weak, you no longer have any right to continue to live in this world."

As Seto stared down at Gozaburo's cold body from the window he didn't feel anything. Sadness, happiness, hate, he felt completely void of all these feelings. He had finally become the stronger one, now he was the winner. However something at the corner of his heart begin to tug at him. 'Is this what it really feels like to be strong?

//I don't feel anything so how can I tell? How can tell if this is what it's suppose feel like to be strong, if I don't feel anything at all?//

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The sun begin to set off in the distance as an array of purple and orange colors painted the sky. Seto stared out the window of his office and admired the view. No matter how many times he thought of these things, no matter how logical of a solution he thought of, his thoughts always seem to come back to this point.

'Am I wrong? Was I wrong? Did I really waste all these years of my life. Am I really truly a strong person?'

"A strong person, is someone who's willing to do anything, despite how much they know it might hurt. They're not afraid of getting hurt because they know their strength of heart will see them through, but you Seto Kaiba, you wouldn't understand that. You think that if you put a wall around your heart then you'll be able to shield your weakness from any real pain-"

Anzu's words stabbed deeply at Seto. At that moment he could have been cut with a hundred knives and none of them would have even compared to Anzu's words. So why did her words hurt him so much? Did he really want to become a stronger person like Gozubaro to actually become stronger, or did he do it because something else. A single tear landed on Seto's desk as a sudden realization hit him. He stared down at the small drop and got up from his desk. "That's it! I have to get out of here."

He drove in his limo in silence and in deep thought. He didn't really feel like going home that night, but he had left work early. Seto signaled the driver to stop as he got out of the car and decided he needed to walk. 'Is what she said really true? Was Gozubaro's definition of strength just the easy way out?'

'I've spent all my life following his teachings and for why? Because......because I was afraid. She was right, I was afraid.............I am afraid. I didn't want to get hurt. I couldn't stand the pain. Physical torture I could bare, but deep down I knew all along that my heart would never be able to withstand the pain.......the pain of living' Damn how was it that he had missed it. How was it that Anzu was able to see something locked so deep inside of him that even he didn't realize it was there? 'But now what? I've wasted so much of my life living a lie that I never learned what it truly means to be strong. All along I've been so weak, so weak that I hated myself, and pushed everyone away from me............so now what do I do?' As Seto felt as though he was about to lose all hope he suddenly realized where it was he had actually wandered.

"This is neighborhood where Yugi lives! That means this is also where Anzu lives........." Had fate brought Seto here on purpose? If anyone could answer his questions it was her. She had somehow seen through the depths of his soul, past his own eyes, so maybe she could give him his answers.

So now here he sat in living room of the one girl who probably hated him most in the world. "Why are you here." she questioned coldly.

"I'm here because we need to talk............"

To be continued.

Yeah! A chapter that was all about Seto! At first I was going to title the chapter Enter the Kaiba, but I decided it was a little too cliche. So what's on Seto's mind? What does he need to talk to Anzu about? Okay don't be mad b/c I ended two chapters at the same point twice. I promise in the next chapter I'll finally let you guys know what happened. Scouts honor.

Momo's Subconscious: B.S., She was never a girl scout, they wouldn't accept her!

Momochan: Shuddup! Who asked you!?!

You know guys to tell you the truth in all reality this my first ever Yugioh fanfic! Anyways that's besides the point. What my point is, is that over the course of writing this story I realized that Seto Kaiba is a really fun character to write. He's so damn moody and complex, how could I not love him. No wonder so many people like to write him! Jounouchi is also a pretty fun character to write too (last night I gave him a very minor part in the fic, and it was fun). I'm not saying that the other characters are boring (in all truth Yugi and Yami are my favorite characters), it's just that Kaiba excites me a little more (and he and Jou are my second favorites).

Anyways this next chapter is also what all you Yami/Anzu fans have been waiting for. Finally Yami will get to have a little action!! I was missin you, you cute lil ol spikey haired, devious smiling, trickster of a Bisho!

Yami: ::sweat drop:: Umm yeah....... I guess it has been awhile, I mean I haven't been in this fic since the second chapter!

Momochan: Mmm, me sorry but what did you expect? Seto's a hard guy to convert.

Yami: Good point

Anyways everybody get ready because my little Love Kaleidoscope is finally gettin ready to spin! Now this is the stuff that love triangles are made of. See you guys next update!!

Quote of the Week: "Pain is weakness leaving the body"