Hello again everybody! As usual I'd like to thank you all for the great reviews! Well I have nothing special out of the ordinary to say, except now my story is going to start to take a little turn. Well I hope you guys enjoy.
Disclaimer: I do not own Yugioh or any of it's characters, however currently I am devising a plot to kidnap Malik so if any of you are interested in helping me I promise I'll share him with you, well maybe not, but I am willing to give you an arm or a leg for services rendered.........
Love Kaleidoscope
Chp.9 The Meaning of Love
Yugi let out a heavy sigh as he twirled his pencil around his finger and stared into space. Yami was sitting on the windowsill in the shadows of Yugi's room staring out into the street. Although Yami's body was with him, Yugi had a feeling that Yami's mind was out wandering those same streets that he was now so intently watching.
Yugi stared thoughtfully at his darker half, the look of concern on his face was as plain as the distant look on his Yami's. For the past couple of days Yami had been acting as though something was bothering him, and he would often times close off his mind link with Yugi. What was he hiding? What could be troubling him so much?
Right now Yugi couldn't concentrate on his homework, not as long as he kept worrying about his Yami, but every time he asked Yami what was wrong the only thing he would receive was a half hearted smile and a simple "nothing at all my little Aibou."
Yugi let out another frustrated sigh at this thought, but despite the predicted response he still had to ask Yami what was bothering him. "Yami, you've seemed a little upset lately, is their something bothering you?"
Just as Yugi predicted, Yami slowly tore his distant eyes from whatever it was he was looking at, gave Yugi an empty smile, and simiply replied, "nothing at all my little Aibou."
That was it, Yugi had, had just about enough! Why wouldn't Yami tell him what was wrong? Whenever Yugi had a problem Yami was always there to help him, but now that Yami was finally the one who was in need, he just simply pushed Yugi away. 'Maybe Yami thinks I can't help him, and he's probably right //poor Yugi shouldn't have such low self esteem//, but I don't care. I have to do something!!'
As Yugi continued to stare at his Yami, faint tears begin to form in his eyes. He tried to quickly wipe them away, seeing as how he didn't want to give his Yami anymore grief, but it was to late, Yami had already seen them.
"Yugi! What's wrong? Why are you crying?" Yami exclaimed as he quickly hopped off the windowsill and ran to his Hikari's aid.
"Nothing, I'm fine." sniffed Yugi as he pretended to work on his homework.
"Don't lie to me Yugi, I can tell something is bothering you," Yami felt a little guilty saying that, seeing as how he had pulled that same game on Yugi first.
"Well Yami.......it's just that, it's just that I can tell something is bothering you, but I know there's nothing I can do to help you. I know that's why you wont tell me what's the matter........but if you did tell, I promise I'll try and help you, even though I know I probably can't!" Yami smiled down warmly at the sincere look in Yugi's eyes.
"That's why your crying?" How could Yugi be so sweet and caring. He was actually crying for him? Yami had never intended to hurt Yugi's feelings. This was the main reason why he didn't want to burden Yugi with his problems. It wasn't that he thought Yugi couldn't help him, he hated how Yugi always put himself down like that.
"Please Yugi, don't cry anymore, It's not that I thought you couldn't help me, it's just that I didn't want to bother you, that's all. However if it really means that much to you, I'll tell you what's wrong." reassured Yami as he sat down on the bed next to Yugi.
As Yami begin to unravel the events that had occurred that weekend, Yugi suddenly felt his heart go a little numb with each passing sentence. He had suspicions that Anzu had feelings for Yami, but he always wished that he was wrong. Why? because deep down, Yugi also was harboring secret affections for Anzu. He never wanted to admit it, and he thought maybe it was just because Anzu had been his life long friend, at one point she was his only friend, but somehow that friendship grew into something more. 'What's wrong with me? How could I be so selfish? Right now I should focus on Yami's problem.'
"So your problem is that you don't feel the same way about Anzu?" questioned Yugi. He wasn't sure why Yami wouldn't, but it seemed as though that was the case.
"Well that's what I thought at first, but now I'm not so sure anymore." Yugi perked his head in confusion as Yami's voice begin to trail off. "You see Yugi, for so long I lived within the shadows of the millennium puzzle that I became consumed by it's darkness, and before you freed my soul I wasn't sure what I was. At one point I thought I was nothing more than just a shadow myself."
Yugi stared into Yami's dark violet eyes as he continued to take in his every word. It wasn't very often Yami would talk to Yugi about things like this. "Somewhere during this time I lost myself along with all my memories, and now I fear that I also lost a very important part of myself as well."
Yami paused for a moment as he realized what he was actually saying. "However every moment I spend with you and your friends, I feel my self being regenerated little bit by little, however some things still elude me. I must admit that it was you who reminded me first what it means to care and love for someone again, but I still have trouble understanding such simple feelings."
"Well Yami, I wouldn't say feeling are that simple either, everyone gets confused about these things, I know that I do! It may be a little harder for you to figure them out since you were without them for so long, but don't worry, that's why we are all here to help you."
Yami stared at Yugi in shock, however his bright smile comforted him. "So then I suppose you know exactly what it is that's bothering me. You see I can't really tell how I feel for Anzu since most feelings are still so foreign to me. I want to say that I don't feel the same way about her, but there's this little ache in my heart that's tells me otherwise. I'm just so confused."
As Yami continued to grow more and more distressed, Yugi felt himself grow more and more concerned. What could he do to help Yami out? "I'm just so confused Yugi, I don't know how to feel. I just wish I understood what it means to love someone better. I can't even remember if I've ever been in love before, but after Anzu kissed me old feelings have started to tug at my heart........I just wish I knew the exact nature of this emotion you call love."
As the last few words escaped from Yami's lips, a sudden thought crossed his mind. Out of everyone Yami had met, Yugi seemed to be the one with the biggest heart. Things like these always seemed to come to him so naturally, if anyone could understand these feelings it was definitely him. "Not unless you can tell me what love means Yugi?"
"The meaning of love?" exclaimed Yugi. He never thought Yami would ask him such a difficult question. "The meaning of love is well......" Yugi wasn't quite sure how to put it, however the look of anxiousness on his Yami's face willed him to go on. "Well it's kind of hard to explain" smiled Yugi hesitantly as he tried his hardiest to put his words together in way that wouldn't confuse Yami even more. "Well I guess being in love with someone is kind of like being in love with a friend of family member, but a little different......you see what I mean?" Yugi let out a defeated sigh as Yami shook his head in utter bemusement.
"Let's see how should I put it?" mumbled Yugi to himself as Yami continued to hang on to his every word. "When you love someone, you feel like you can do anything and you want to do anything to make the person you love happy........and the only thing you want in return is to see that person's smile, to hear that person's laugh," Yugi paused for a moment making sure he hadn't lost Yami yet. "You also always want to spend time with the person you love, just being with that person makes you happy, no matter what your doing, even if it's something you don't even like, umm, such as getting a shot." Yami smiled at Yugi as he watched his lighter half squirm at the thought of getting a shot.
"I see......well then Yugi, then does that mean that I love you romantically?" questioned Yami innocently. Yugi's face suddenly went flush. He was flattered that Yami loved him, but he realized that Yami still didn't quite understand what he was trying to tell him. "N-no, well umm yes, well what I mean is, yes you do love me, but those are just the feelings you have for a person that you just love, but it's different when you also love them in a romantic way."
"Hmmm......." sighed Yami to himself as he tried to grasp the complexity of what Yugi was talking about.
"You see when you have romantic feelings for someone you love, you feel the same way about that person, but then there's also more, you want to do more with that person than just make them happy or be with them.........." Yugi suddenly felt himself grow very tense and nervous with each passing word. He never thought he of all people would ever have the courage to say anything like this before in his life, but for his Yami he would do anything. "For example, Anzu has romantic feelings for you so she kissed you...........now even though Anzu loves me too she would never want to..........kiss me..........."
Suddenly Yami was broken from his reflective trance as he noticed that his Aibou's face had suddenly gone from embarrassed to very depressed. He wasn't sure why but the bright tint in Yugi's eyes had suddenly dimmed and there was a very pained look on his face. "Yugi what's the matter, did I do something wrong?" questioned Yami worriedly.
"Oh it's nothing" lied Yugi "M-maybe I shouldn't, well what I mean is I don't think I can do this.......I'm sorry, I know I've probably just confused you even more, I guess you were right, I don't think I can help you, sorry Yami." whispered Yugi as he stared at the ground sadly trying to avoid all eye contact.
"Don't be sorry Yugi, your wrong, you've done more than just help me" smiled Yami warmly as he tried to reassure his little Hikari. He still wasn't sure why, but obviously this type of subject was kind of hard for Yugi to talk about, and yet despite his own feelings Yugi still went on in order to help Yami out. Yami was pretty sure he didn't have romantic feelings for Yugi, if he was actually grasping what Yugi was saying, but he was certain that what ever this word called love meant, no matter what form or shape it could take, he loved Yugi most of all. "If it wasn't for your words Yugi I don't think I'd ever have been able to find a solution to my problem, but now thanks to you I have" and with that last statement Yami stood to his feet, patted Yugi on the head, and left to go find Anzu.
"So Anzu loves Yami, and Yami's problem is he isn't sure he loves her back........I wish I had that problem," whispered Yugi as he clutched his heart and stared at the floor in silence. The only thing that could be heard were the distant foot steps of Yami and the faint beat of his heart. "Oh well I guess we don't get to pick who fall for, I guess love's just unfair like that......maybe I should have warned Yami........."
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"So what do we need to talk about," questioned Anzu dryly. Kaiba was the one who insisted they needed to talk, but for the last few minutes he hadn't done anything besides stare into to his tea cup.
'What am I doing here? I can't believe I got so caught up in the moment that I came here.' As Anzu waited impatiently, Kaiba finally stood to his feet. "Never mind, this is just a mistake on my part. I think I better leave." Anzu couldn't believe the nerve of this man. She and he both knew that they had a lot of things to settle right now. Both of them had so many questions for each other that neither one could answer on their own.
As Kaiba walked outside of the house Anzu's frustrations finally exploded. "So your just gonna run away again? How long will you keep running away from your problems Seto Kaiba!!!" Kaiba stopped dead in his tracks as something he had never felt before took him over.
"That's right!" shouted Kaiba, "I was running away, so what! I was running away because I didn't think I could possibly ever tell you that I just can't seem to get you out of my mind. Ever since our kiss you are all I can think about." Anzu couldn't believe her ears as Kaiba's words hit her with full force. She thought she would almost faint as she watched Kaiba turn around and walk towards her.
"I just couldn't tell you that you were the last thing I thought about when I went to sleep and the first thing I remembered when I woke up!" Now Kaiba was only a few feet from her. "And you want to know why? Because everything you said last night was true!! Now are you satisfied?" As Anzu listened to Kaiba's words she felt as though her heart would crumble.
"Your right I am weak, so what! This is the way I was taught, this the only way I know how to be! I tried to fool myself into believing I was a strong person, that was my only justification and for why? Because when I recognized that I had been wrong all these years I also realized that I had wasted my entire life living one big lie, you didn't have to tell me, I already knew, but I just couldn't let myself believe it!!" Anzu leaned against the side of the door as her whole body begin to grow weak. When Kaiba had made her angry the only thing she could think about was hurting him, but now that she succeeded, she realized that she didn't really want this anymore.
"That's why I push people way from me. That's why I hated them. Because I hated the fact that everyone was so much stronger than me, and it is for that reason I hate myself even more!!! That's why I came here....." Now Kaiba was only a few inches away from Anzu. His voice suddenly begin to soften up as he stared sadly into Anzu's eyes, "that's why I came here to talk to you. That's why I came here to ask you for your.....help." Anzu could tell how hard it was for Kaiba to get that last word out of his mouth.
"I wanted you to teach me Anzu, teach me what it means to be a strong person, a strong person like the one you said........" Now Kaiba was only a few centimeters from Anzu, as the full sincerity of his words could be heard clearly. "Help me to understand the reason......." Anzu felt herself gasp silently as Kaiba reached over to her and took her hand into his own.
"The reason why my hands tremble the way that they do every time I think about you...." Anzu's heart begin to beat rapidly at contact with Kaiba's own strong yet shaky hand, as she realized that she was now holding her breath.
"I want to know why........" as Kaiba continued to speak he took Anzu's hand and put it up to his chest. The rapid movements of his heart seemed to be a hundred times quicker than her own. "Why is it that my heart begins to pound so uncontrollably whenever I hear the sound of your voice........." Finally Kaiba released Anzu hand, however she was unable to remove it from his chest.
"Tell me why I can't seem to control myself every time I see your face." Kaiba slowly reached his trembling fingers to Anzu's face as he wiped away the single tear that had escaped from her eye and rested his hand on her cheek. "and why is it that I long to feel your lips against mine?"
"Please tell me, tell me why I feel the way that I do every time I know that your around." Kaiba wasn't sure what had taken over him, but at this point he didn't care as inched his face to Anzu's own and kissed away another tear that had trickled it's way down her face. "Please, please teach me........."
Anzu felt as though her body was on fire as she felt her lips press against Kaiba's. The first kiss they shared had been incredible, but this time it was ten times better. There was something about this kiss that was entirely different. The emotions behind this kiss were much more sincere and passionate. Sure that hint of confusion and hesitation was still present, but this time the pure feelings were much more stronger and honest.
Anzu slowly closed her eyes as she felt herself being overwhelmed by Kaiba's passion. Before his kiss had been much more fierce, but this time his touch was much more genuine and gentle, and yet still so demanding. To Kaiba's own surprise Anzu responded to his soft playful gestures and this time returned his kiss.
Anzu felt as though she would be overtaken by the feelings that now surrounded her. Every vein in her body was burning as her heart begin to race in perfect unison with Kaiba's. Kaiba drew Anzu in closer to him, as he felt Anzu begin to lean backwards. She arched her back in order to deepen the kiss as a few faint moans begin to echo in her throat.
This time Kaiba was afraid to break their kiss, for fear that this passionate ecstasy would end. The thought of that, only made Kaiba savor Anzu's taste, her touch, her sweet smell even more. He felt as though his heart would float away as his soul begin to intertwine with Anzu's.
Without even knowing it, Anzu wrapped her arms around Kaiba's neck and drew him even closer to her. She wanted more of his passion, more of these overwhelming sensations. Kaiba was surprised by Anzu's aggressive actions, but rather enjoyed having an excuse to get closer to her.
However, all the while that they were sharing this moment, both minds seemed to be thinking the same thought.........'What the hell am I doing?'
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As Yami begin to walk his pace went from a quick step, to a fast trot, and then finally to a light jog. With each passing moment something inside him became more and more excited as his anxiousness to see Anzu grew. 'Thank you Yugi, you've made the answer so clear to me now,' smiled Yami.
He wasn't sure exactly what he was going to say, but he knew what he was feeling. 'I'm not sure exactly what these feelings I'm having are, and I'm even more confused by what it means to be in love with someone, however if I ever was to choose someone that I wanted to be in love with, it would definitely be Anzu.' Yami was now running towards Anzu's house as something suddenly took over his feet.
'I know that together we can work this out, and I know maybe, just maybe Anzu could teach me what it means to be in love with someone.'
As Yami made his way towards Anzu's house, Yugi's words rang clear in his mind. "When you love someone, you feel like you can do anything and you want to do anything to make the person you love happy........and the only thing you want in return is to see that person's smile, to hear that person's laugh"
'That's right Anzu, that's all I want to do for you, and your smile, your beautiful smile is all that I would want. I'm not sure if this will work out, but if there is ever anyone who could show me love on this kind of level, I know it can be you.'
As Yami finally turned the corner which faced Anzu's house he was suddenly stopped in his tracks. 'What!?! How can this be!?!," exclaimed Yami as he realized what it was he was witnessing. Suddenly all his feelings quickly transformed into something indescribable as Yami felt his anger boil. 'Why in the Hell are Kaiba and Anzu kissing!?!"
To be continued......................
Quote of the Week: "Love is blind for a reason"
Oh my, ain't I such a naughty gurl? Bad Momo, bad! Although I must admit that this is one of my favorite chappies too. But oh how it just leaves you in suspense //smug grin//! Hehe well at least you guys, I already know what's going to happen next hehe!
Well I did warn you guys that this fic would be taking and interesting turn. Oh and to you Seto/Anzu fans who seem to be my dominate readers, sorry but like I said this is a love triangle, (but in all reality I did say that you the readers will get to pick who wins this love battle, however don't be too harsh on Yami! He is like my favirote character sort of.......but then I also love Kaiba so much! Arghhhh too!! See this it the reason why I'm letting you guys vote because no matter who wins I'll be both happy and sad).
Maybe I should take P.R's advice and let Anzu get neither one of them (then I can have them both!!! sweat drop ^_^;;). Just kiddin!! Anyways hope you like this chapter as much as I do and as usual I'd love to read about your feelings through many, many reviews!!