LOL! You know you guys are just too much! Today was the first time I got to read any of your reviews and I was laughing so hard I almost cried! No, no I'm not making fun of you guys it's just so cute how strongly you guys hold your views. I guess I'm no better myself! Anyways thanks for all the great reviews guys I really needed them.
You see sadly I have been without my computer for the last 2 weeks! My motherboard got fried and I don't want to but a new one! Why? Because I'm getting a new computer built! It's a good thing I had these chapters saved on a disc otherwise I wouldn't have been able to post the last chapter or this one.
Funny thing is I usually don't save things on disk but one day I did because I wanted to let my friend read them and the I forgot to erase the disk when I was done (thank God!). So right now my buddy Jewel is letting me use her computer to upload my chappies! Thanks Jewel! Yeah I couldn't leave you guys hanging until my new computer gets built. Anyways thanks again for the support and very interesting input (did I ever mention I love you guys)!
Disclaimer: I don't own Yugioh or any of it's characters (cuz life is cruel). However, I was gonna bid on them while shoppin ebay, but when I was watchin TV I saw this interesting commercial saying that McDonalds was havin this two for two Big Mac sale and well.......
Love KaleidoscopeChp16 A thin line between love and pain
"I love you…." The words echoed clearly within Anzu as she felt herself drift in and out of herself. After all this time, Anzu's greatest dream had finally come true. The man to whom she had merely loved from a distance finally loved her in the way that she had only fantasized about. So if all that she thought she had ever wanted had finally come true, then why did she not feel the way that she had imagined she would?
"Yami I-I…….I'm sorry," cried Anzu as she reluctantly tore herself from out of his embrace and took off running. However, before she could get more than two feet away from Yami, Anzu was startled as she felt herself being grabbed forcefully, yet at the same time gently, by the arm.
"Anzu, please don't runaway from me yet." pleaded Yami as he stared sadly into Anzu's eyes.
"No please Yami, let me go, I, I can't, no I-" stammered Anzu as she forced her tears back and tried with all her might not to let Yami see her face.
"It's Kaiba isn't it," replied Yami somewhat too casually. Anzu felt her heart stop as she finally turned to meet Yami's eyes. However to her surprise the look in Yami's eyes held no signs of anger or malice. Instead his dark purple crimsons were still overcome with the same sad look Yami had given her the moment that he had first looked up at her that night.
Anzu couldn't believe it. Even though she had first tried to use Kaiba to make Yami jealous, she had never actually went through with her plan. She just couldn't find it in herself to hurt anyone like that. Not Yami, and even not Kaiba. However, somehow, somehow without her even trying, Yami had found out?
"Don't worry Anzu I'm not mad……..it's actually something I've thought a lot about before I decided to tell you how I feel. At first I was angry and a little frustrated, but now I don't care. The only thing that matters to me is that you're happy. I mean I've already had my chance with you, but now I know I'm too late. My own stupidity and my ability to recognize my feelings for you too late is only my own fault. That is why I'm not angry. However, I just thought that it would only be fair to us both if I told you how I felt……if I'm to continue any kind of relationship with you, I just wanted to be honest, and now I know I am truly and honestly in love with you and even if your with another I will still love you."
Anzu couldn't take it anymore, as she was finally somehow able to wrench her arm out of Yami's desperate grasp. "No Yami, your all wrong!! There's, there's nothing going on between me and Seto…..It's just that…..that, I can't be with you!!" and with that final statement Anzu took off running into the night. Yami debated on whether to chase after her, but finally decided against it. He hadn't expected that kind of response from Anzu and now he wasn't sure what to do.
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Kaiba let out a frustrated huff as he drummed his fingers against the counter impatiently. He really hated coming to this part of town. This area and it's inhabitants were just so, so, well beneath him! "Oh sorry to keep you waiting Mr. Kaiba, but I'm sure you'll be pleased with this."
"Well it's about time!" snapped Seto angrily as he took the package from the cowering shopkeeper. " Ahh, yes perfect," triumphed Seto as he held the treasured card to his face. For the past couple of months Seto had looked everywhere for this particularly rare card, and then one day by chance he heard that this rarity had somehow stumbled its way into this third rate shop.
'This card is too good for this place,' grumbled Seto silently. 'Oh well it's not like this place is as bad as Yugi's stupid grandpa's shop.' smiled Seto somewhat slyly.
"Is that you Kaiba?" called a familiar voice.
"Well speak of the la de freakin devil" muttered Seto under his breath.
"It is! Well hi there Kaiba long to time no see. Geez I never thought I'd see you in this part of town." greeted Yugi brightly as he made his way towards his much taller acquaintance.
"Well that makes two of us," gritted Seto in the most polite tone that he could muster. It was enough to be seen in this third rate establishment but to also be recognized here was just too much. Also the fact that Seto wasn't too fond of Yugi and the company that he kept didn't help matters much either. Okay so it wasn't exactly like Seto disliked Yugi, in all reality he actually respected him enough to tolerate him. He could even say that sometimes he might have even liked him. It was just the fact that their personality's and ideals clashed so much that Seto often times felt himself repelled away from Yugi. Seto also wasn't too fond of Yugi's alter ego, and he also still held a grudge considering he still hadn't beat the two of them yet.
Yugi momentarily waited for some kind of a return greeting, however after a moment of awkward silence and a well received "get lost" glare Yugi quickly caught on to the fact that he was being snubbed. Now normally Yugi wouldn't let something like this get to him, but considering it was Kaiba he decided to just let it be. "Umm, well it was good seeing you again, guess I'll catch you later," smiled Yugi weakly as he waved goodbye and made his way to the farthest corner in the store, away from Kaiba.
Kaiba briefly watched Yugi disappear into the back. He was thankful that Yugi had more sense then the rest of his companions. "I swear him and his lackeys all share one brain, and he's usually the one in possession." chuckled Seto somewhat bitterly, however before he could finish his thought another one suddenly flashed into his mind.
Seto let this somewhat dangerous thought linger as he struggled against his mind. Finally after what seemed like an endless battle Seto gave up and made his way towards Yugi.
Yugi rummaged through a nearby gaming magazine as he finally decided to read an article about the latest dungeon dice booster set. As Yugi's eyes continued to wander along the page, he suddenly felt a cold presence. Yugi shuddered to himself as he hesitantly lifted his eyes from the magazine that he was reading. To his surprise, there stood Kaiba about three feet from Yugi, reading a different magazine.
Yugi could hardly believe that Kaiba would spend anymore of his time hanging around this lower class establishment, much less spend his time so near to Yugi himself. 'Does he want something? Naah, I'm just making too much of it.'
Yugi shrugged away his stray thoughts as he decided to move to a different part of the magazine area. However, to his surprise just as he started to get back into another article, an icy chill went down Yugi's spine. Once again Yugi looked up from his reading only to come face to back with Kaiba. 'Is he following me?' Not wanting to jump to any conclusions Yugi decided to put away his magazine and go look around another part of the store.
Finally Yugi let out a frustrated huff as he shoved the large cookbook back into its shelf. Now he knew for sure that Kaiba had no business looking around the "Happy Homemakers" section unless he really was actually following Yugi around. "Kaiba is there something you forgot to ask me," questioned Yugi somewhat harshly.
"What are you talking about Yugi!?!" shouted Kaiba in a discredited tone. "Can't a man look around a store without being accused of doing otherwise!?! This is a free country I'll have you know!"
Yugi's anger began to rise as he clenched his fist to his sides. However after running into Kaiba so many times before, Yugi started to develop a different kind of tolerance for him. "Fine Kaiba, forget it. I'm leaving! Sorry for the misunderstanding," Yugi gritted as he turned to leave the store. He wasn't really in the mood for a duel, and his greatest suspicion was that Kaiba was just looking for another rematch.
Realizing that everything wasn't exactly going the way that he had expected, Kaiba let the first thing that came to mind accidentally slip out his mouth. "What is with all you idiots, you're all the same. I mean you and Anzu can just be so damn impossible!"
Yugi stopped in his tracks as he realized that his suspicions had been wrong. This wasn't about him and Kaiba, this was about Kaiba and Anzu. Yugi wasn't sure what was going on between the two of them, but he knew that Kaiba had to like Anzu very much if he was able to swallow his pride enough to talk to him about it.
"Kaiba?" questioned Yugi. However the only kind of a response he got back was a dirty look and the back of Kaiba's jacket. Yugi hesitated for a moment as he started to have regrets. He knew he shouldn't be doing this, but his conscience just wouldn't let him abandon someone who needed him, even if it was Kaiba. "Umm, Kaiba……I know about you and Anzu."
"What are you babbling about you little runt! There's no way you could know anything about me and Anzu, because there's nothing going on between us!" barked Seto angrily, as he made no attempt to turn around.
"Fine!" snapped Yugi back as he suddenly had a quick change of heart. However just as Yugi begin to turn and leave he was yet again interrupted by Kaiba.
"Anyways, what would give you that idea? Did she say anything to you about it?" Although Kaiba's tone was still a little more than harsh, Yugi could sense a tiny bit of desperation slip out.
Yugi sighed somewhat wearily as he realized that there was no way he would have any kind of peace of mind unless he wrapped things up here. As much as he knew he would regret this, and how angry it would make Yami, Yugi finally decided to help Kaiba out.
It was obvious to him that Kaiba was looking for some kind of consoling and even though they weren't the best of friends (if they were even that), Yugi was the only one close enough to Kaiba, to which Kaiba trusted and could understand his situation the most. Besides Yugi realized that if he didn't try harder and wasn't more sensitive about the situation, Kaiba would never be able to get the kind of help he needed from Yugi. It wasn't like Kaiba's pride would ever let him flat out ask Yugi for his help! "No she didn't say anything to me about it. I mean why would she? You yourself just said there's nothing going on between you."
"You damn straight! I mean how could anything be going on between us if all we ever do is argue and bicker. Even if you try to do nice things for her all she does is fuss and fight and turn everything against you. I mean goddamn, is she always like that!?!" shouted Kaiba angrily as he didn't seem to realize he had let out more information then he had cared to give.
"Well she's usually only like that to people she doesn't really like," smiled Yugi somewhat coyly. It was now taking most of Yugi's willpower to keep from laughing as he listened to Kaiba rave on. It also didn't help that Kaiba had turned so many different shades in the face in such a short amount of time.
"…………" Kaiba couldn't think of anything else to say as he realized that Yugi was probably right.
Realizing that teasing Kaiba wasn't the most appropriate thing to do at this point, despite how much he was enjoying it, Yugi finally decided to change the mood of their conversation. "However, with some people it's hard to say."
"You make so much sense," muttered Kaiba sarcastically as he pretended not to care.
"I mean with some people it's harder for them to express the way that they feel, especially when that person is so unfamiliar with those kind of emotions. I could easily see why that person would get their words and actions all twisted around into the complete opposite direction, even when they tried." Yugi smiled internally as he felt a sort of dejavu feeling take over him. Wasn't it not too long ago that he had this same little talk with Yami?
"Often times when a person is not quite use to experiencing new types of emotion, let's say for example the feelings of being in love with someone, they usually first try to reason with their emotions through denial. That it usually the reason why they lash out at the person that they care about, or even try to push them away. However, love isn't something that a person can rationalize……….I guess that's why they usually say that the smartest person in the world would probably be the first one to save it and the last person to love it."
Kaiba had grown very silent as he took in Yugi's words. Yugi could tell that Kaiba was making the same mistakes Yami had made by trying to think too much about the situation. It was funny how much the two of them were so alike and yet so completely different. "I guess I kind of feel sorry for people like that."
"Hmm?" questiond Kaiba a bit too anxiously.
"Well, what I mean is people like that are usually the ones who think so hard about the situation that they usually completely miss the whole point. Sadly by the time that they do, it's usually too late." " Yugi smiled internally as he noticed the bemused expression on Kaiba's face. He could honestly say he had never seen that one before. "What I would advise that a person like that do is be honest with themselves and start thinking less with their heads and more with their hearts. It might be the least used muscle in their body, but that is the only way they'll be able to handle situations like this, otherwise both them and the person that they care about will lose!"
"So your saying that Anzu should shape up or shape out?" frowned Kaiba as he finally responded to Yugi's little speech.
"Anuz!?! Who ever said I was talkin about Anzu!?!" laughed Yugi somewhat satirically as he headed out the door. "See you around Kaiba!" He shouted as he waved himself out the shop.
"…………." Seto stood there in silence as he continued to dwell on Yugi's words. He wasn't sure what to think about the situation. It was pretty obvious to him that Yugi had caught on to him pretty quickly and only stuck around to help him out. Although he hated to have to depend on Yugi, Seto had to talk to someone. So in all reality Yugi was the closes person he could actually call a friend and had a decent amount of sense. Besides Seto just figured he would owe Yugi another one. However what Yugi had said wasn't quite the answer that Kaiba had expected, or better said wanted! Now he was even more confused.
"………damn you Mutou!" growled Kaiba under his breath. "Anzu was right about you! You are a little tougher than you let on…….a lot stronger than I am……..at least right now!"
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As Seto made his way down the quiet street he couldn't help but hesitate. Everything that Yugi had said was probably true, however Seto knew the only way he could solve his problem was to see Anzu again.
Lately he just couldn't seem to get her out of his head. Although he tried everything that he thought best, his dilemma just always seemed to get worse and worse. It was as though he was swimming towards the beach, but only seemed to drift further and further away from it. He just couldn't understand what was so special about Anzu.
Sure she was a pretty attractive girl, but Seto had still been approached by much better looking girls before. So Seto had to admit that the way that Anzu looked wasn't what was affecting him, although it was an added bonus.
Perhaps maybe Seto just felt differently about Anzu because he had never had a real kind of relationship with any kind of women figure before. He never had any sisters, his mother died so long ago that he could barely remember what she looked like, and Gozubaro was so damn rude and moody that women were so appalled by him that even all his secretaries were men! Yes, Seto could honestly say that Anzu was probably the first female figure that he had ever grown so attached too. But was that the only reason why he felt the way that he did about her? If any women had come along would he feel the same way about her too?
No, that couldn't be true. Many women had approached Seto before, and he had never been moved enough by their antics to even bat and eye. There was just something that was different about her. Something Seto just couldn't quite describe. There was the way that she was able to handle his foul attitude, not be completely repelled by it, and also most importantly, the way she could bring out the other person in him. Anzu had some how done much more than just move Seto, she had basically pushed him off the almighty pedestal that he and everyone else had put him on. She had somehow made him do things he never thought he would do. Things such as buying flowers and presents, spouting out love crazed nonsense, and even acting out actions as dumb as kissing someone on merely an impulse.
And for why? He wasn't really sure, but for some reason, Anzu had given him the chance that no one else had ever really thought twice about giving him. Okay maybe it was because he didn't deserve it, but somewhere along the way, Anzu had set aside her feelings and decided to give Seto that chance.
It seemd that no matter how many times Seto tried to push her away or knock her down, she was still always there for him, smiling…laughing…caring…
"Seto?" questioned a soft voice, violently shocking Seto from out of his thoughts.
"A-Anzu," he stammered as he came face to face with the source of his afflictions. Little did Seto know, Anzu was also making her way home and the paths had somehow crossed along the way.
Although Anzu was a little curious as to why Seto was walking around her neighborhood, Anzu decided not to dwell on the matter, and just tell Seto what was on her mind. Ever since Yami had told Anzu how he felt, Anzu had been overcome with guilt. First of all the guilt of trying to deceive Yami, and second of all the guilt of using Seto. She knew deep in her heart that Yami would forgive her, but Seto was a different story.
Yami was in love with Anzu and was one of her closes friends, but she wasn't exactly sure about how Seto felt about her. Sure he had to care about her little, otherwise he wouldn't have wasted his time hanging around her, but what was the true extent of his feelings?
It didn't matter to Anzu anymore, because she knew now the only thing left for her to do was to be honest with both Seto and Yami. She knew now that she could never be with Yami. Not after what she had done, and she also knew now that she didn't even deserve Seto's friendship. Where had she gone so wrong?
"I'm glad you're here Seto. You see we need to talk. First of all I just want to apologize for the way I treated you before-"
Seto couldn't help but get lost in Anzu's deep blue sapphires. Although they both had blue eyes, Seto had to admit that her's were so much more alive then his. They held a passion for life that Seto knew he would never be able to grasp. At this point he didn't care what Anzu was saying because he knew deep in his heart that he had already forgiven her. And then before he had time to think the meaning of Yugi's words finally hit him as he got lost into Anzu's eyes.
"Anzu!" interrupted Seto just as she was about to get to the root of her conversation. "Anzu I think, no I know that I'm, that I…..love you." Seto could feel his face burning as he realized that he was completely embarrassed from just blurting out his feelings. What could he have been thinking?
Anzu suddenly chocked as she could no longer find her voice. Instead she just stared at Seto in a daze. At first Seto was too just shocked with himself to say anything either, however after a long period of silence went by, Seto suddenly began to feel his frustrations rise. 'Why won't she say anything? Shout, yell, scream, hug me, kiss me, punch me, or tell me that you hate me, just do anything!'
To Seto's surprise Anzu chose to pick none of the above. "Why Seto? Why now?" she cried as she fell into his chest. Seto froze up as he stared down at her in utter surprise. "You just can't! You can't be in love with me you idiot."
Now Seto was even more confused. "Don't you see that you can't be in love with a person like me. Not someone who, who, who has only been using you!!"
"What are you talking about," snapped Seto threatfully as his suspicions begin to rise.
"Seto I have to tell you. I know it's too late, but you deserve to know. You see Seto the only reason why I first came to see you that day at your mansion and all the days after was because I only wanted to use you!"
"You see all this time I have been in love with Yami, but I thought Yami didn't feel the same way about me. So then I decided to use you to make Yami jealous! I never thought that things would go this far, and I never thought that I would grow to care about y-"
Anzu felt her blood freeze as she heard Seto begin to laugh. It was an unnerving laugh that would have frightened even the devil. Anzu tried to back away from Seto however his grip on her had suddenly grown very tight. At this point Anzu wasn't sure what to do as pangs of panic begin to attack her mind.
"Ha ha ha, so it was all just a trick just one big lie, aye?" chuckled Seto as he stared down at Anzu fiercely. "All this time that I had trusted you, opened myself up to you. You were only using me?"
"Seto I'm so sorry I -"
"You? Your sorry?" scoffed Seto in a bewildered tone. "If anyone should be sorry, it should be me for being such a damn fool." Scowled Seto as he forcefully threw Anzu away from him and spat. "I should have known that everything we shared, everything you told me was nothing more than a lie!"
"Seto that's not true you-"
"It's Kaiba to you!" thundered Seto as he cut Anzu off again. "And why should I believe anything you have to say to me now? What more do you want from me Anzu. If you want to succeed in humiliating me any further you can save yourself the trouble. I don't think you could stab me any worse than you have now."
"Seto I'm so sorry," cried Anzu as she could no longer take it. Without anymore moment's waste Anzu took off running in the direction of her house leaving only pieces of her broken heart and tears behind.
Seto watched as Anzu ran off as he held his fist tightly to his sides. With his last ounce of strength Seto turned and punched a hole in a nearby brick wall. "Dammit! What a fool I am! How could I let myself be tricked so easily? How could I have been so weak!?!" At this point Seto was so angry that he didn't even seem to notice that he had broken a few bones in his hand and that his face was now flooded with tears. "Never, never again….never again will I ever let myself be tricked! Never again will I cry for the person I foolishly put my faith in. Never again will I ever care about that girl! I've been fooled for the last time. Anzu Mazaki, it's over between us!"
To be continued……
Quote of the week: "It takes a big man to cry, and an even bigger man to laugh at him, and a even bigger man to ask why."
Oh no! How could I end the chapter like that! Aren't I like one of the evilest people! Hehheh :)! You know isn't it just so interesting how much different Yami and Seto can be. Put them in the same situation and things turn out completely different. Well what did you guys expect? Seto ain't no touchy feely guy! So does this mean it's really over (gasp)? Don't lose hope yet S/A fans. You guys have been reading my fic to know that things aren't always what they seem and the story can take a twist pretty quickly. Then again I don't want to be too predictable.
Well I think I have about four more chapters to go before this fic is through so alot can still happen……… You know over the course of this chapter I've come to realize something… I'm really jealous of Anzu! How can she horde both guys to herself! That's not fair! Wait what do you mean I'm the stupid idiot who wrote the fic! Oh well, I guess I only have myself to blame. At least I can still have Jonouchi!
Well I guess that's it for now and I will be looking forward to all your reviews! Love and peaceout!