Chapter 11
Lily sat down next to a harness. She couldn't believe what just happened.
"What was I thinking?"
'Nothing.'
"You again, can't you just leave me alone?"
'Not until you give in to your feelings.'
"Oke, I get it, I wont get rid of you. EVER."
'No, just give in and I'm gone.'
"What do you want this time?"
'Tell me, would you have minded it if James had kissed you?'
"Yes... No... Yes... No... I mean yes."
'Make up your mind and be honest.'
"No, I wouldn't have. It's just, there's so much about James I still don't know, it's holding me back. If James would just tell what happened last summer I would feel a lot better giving in. I'd know he trusts me."
'See, that wasn't so hard?'
"You know, I feel a lot better now. Thanks."
'No problem.'
Lily got up and went to bed.
~~~~~~
It was at the end of January, Lily as asleep, when she was awoken by something move under her pillow. She looked and found the mirror James had given her, shaking. Ever since she got it, she had been sleeping with it under her pillow, waiting for it to shake. And now it was finally shaking. It was 1 o'clock in the morning and James wanted to speak to her.
"What's up, James?"
"Remember that conversation we had at the beginning of the year?"
"Yeah, why?"
"You promised to listen to me, even in the middle of the night."
"Wanna talk now?"
"Only if you don't mind."
"Why would I?"
"Meet me in the common room get dressed, I don't want the others to hear it."
"Be there in a minute."
Lily closed the mirror and jumped out of bed, got dressed and went down to the common room. James was already sitting there, waiting.
"Hé, where we going and what if we get caught?"
"Don't worry, we won't get caught."
He showed her his invisibility cloak.
"That doesn't answer where we're going."
"You'll see. Come here, please?"
As soon as she came close to him, he threw the cloak over them. They were really walking close together. James pulled a map out of his robes.
"To avoid teachers." He whispered.
Lily noticed she liked being close to him.
They were coming down the marble stairs into the entrance hall through the door and outside.
"Where we going?"
"We're almost there."
They crossed the grounds and stopped at the lake. James got out from under the cloak and sat down under the tree the Marauders usually sat. Lily pulled of the cloak and sat down next to him.
"You wanted to talk about what happened this summer."
"Yeah."
"Just begin where you want to."
"Oke, well my parents had to go to a funeral in the U.S. of somebody I didn't knew, so I would spent the first two weeks of my vacation with my uncle and aunt. They had three children. Two boys and a girl. The eldest son was about my age, only a few months younger. I had my apparation test during the first week. Jake, that was his name, would have his the last week of summer break. If I would pass, Jake and I would go on a camping trip, we were very close."
Tears began to fill James' eyes, but they didn't fall.
"Just take a deep breath and continue."
James did what he was told and continued.
"Well, I passed and we went on the trip. Everything was going great, until one day we woke up to a strange noise that wasn't suppose to be there, in the middle of the woods. So when we went to have a look, there were Darth Eaters all over the place. Jake couldn't apparate yet and I didn't want to leave him there alone. They weren't really happy about us being there and we had to run."
James swallowed his tears away, took a deep breath again and continued.
"I was running in front and we knew we were followed. Then I heard a noise and turned around. Jake had fallen and the Darth Eaters had surrounded us. I watched them kill Jake and then they turned to kill me. I couldn't do anything, but apparate out of there. I had to lead my uncle to where Jakes body was. If never feel so helpless in my hole life when I saw him lying there."
By the time he was finished, James couldn't control his tear anymore. He let them run down freely.
Lily sat there, shocked. She didn't know what she expected, but it definitely wasn't this. She saw the tears run down James' face and without a thought she pulled him into a hug. Holding him, rocking him like a baby. She didn't know how long they sat there, but she didn't care. James was calming down and relaxed.
"You oke?"
"Yeah. You know, this is the first time I've talked about it. It's like a bolder is been lifted of my hart. Thanks for listening."
"It's oke. I promised I would, didn't I?"
"Yeah."
"But I don't understand why you didn't tell Sirius."
"I thought he would laugh to see me cry, 'cause I knew I would if I talked about it for the first time."
"Well, I think you should tell Sirius about it in a week or so. It's your choice to tell Remus and Peter, but Sirius really cares about you. Your like his brother."
"I'll do that."
"Now, lets get back and get some sleep."
James nodded and Lily helped him up, threw the cloak back over them and got the map out of James' pocket. She knew she had to get them back, 'cause James was to distracted.
~~~~~~
They made it back to the tower without to many trouble. Lily pulled of the cloak again and gave it back to James together with the map.
"Good night, James."
She got to her toes and gave him a soft kiss on his cheek.
"Night Lily."
She walked up to her dorm again and got back to bed, but she knew she wouldn't get back to sleep.
'Planning to give in to your feelings now?'
"Yeah."
'He, no #what do you want# today?'
"Nope."
'You kissed him.'
"It didn't mean anything."
'I know, but it was still a kiss.'
"I won't deny that."
'You love him.'
"I know."
'Now, let him know.'
"I know the perfect time and place for that."
'Where and when?'
"Wouldn't you like to know."
'I'll find out you know.'
"Just leave."
'Now, I know you again.'
"You sure?"
There was no answer.
~~~~~~
It was almost Valentines day. James had done exactly what Lily said. He had told Sirius what happened and Sirius had actually come to Lily to thank her for being so patient with his friend. Lily had grown closer to James and Sirius after that.
Lily sat down next to a harness. She couldn't believe what just happened.
"What was I thinking?"
'Nothing.'
"You again, can't you just leave me alone?"
'Not until you give in to your feelings.'
"Oke, I get it, I wont get rid of you. EVER."
'No, just give in and I'm gone.'
"What do you want this time?"
'Tell me, would you have minded it if James had kissed you?'
"Yes... No... Yes... No... I mean yes."
'Make up your mind and be honest.'
"No, I wouldn't have. It's just, there's so much about James I still don't know, it's holding me back. If James would just tell what happened last summer I would feel a lot better giving in. I'd know he trusts me."
'See, that wasn't so hard?'
"You know, I feel a lot better now. Thanks."
'No problem.'
Lily got up and went to bed.
~~~~~~
It was at the end of January, Lily as asleep, when she was awoken by something move under her pillow. She looked and found the mirror James had given her, shaking. Ever since she got it, she had been sleeping with it under her pillow, waiting for it to shake. And now it was finally shaking. It was 1 o'clock in the morning and James wanted to speak to her.
"What's up, James?"
"Remember that conversation we had at the beginning of the year?"
"Yeah, why?"
"You promised to listen to me, even in the middle of the night."
"Wanna talk now?"
"Only if you don't mind."
"Why would I?"
"Meet me in the common room get dressed, I don't want the others to hear it."
"Be there in a minute."
Lily closed the mirror and jumped out of bed, got dressed and went down to the common room. James was already sitting there, waiting.
"Hé, where we going and what if we get caught?"
"Don't worry, we won't get caught."
He showed her his invisibility cloak.
"That doesn't answer where we're going."
"You'll see. Come here, please?"
As soon as she came close to him, he threw the cloak over them. They were really walking close together. James pulled a map out of his robes.
"To avoid teachers." He whispered.
Lily noticed she liked being close to him.
They were coming down the marble stairs into the entrance hall through the door and outside.
"Where we going?"
"We're almost there."
They crossed the grounds and stopped at the lake. James got out from under the cloak and sat down under the tree the Marauders usually sat. Lily pulled of the cloak and sat down next to him.
"You wanted to talk about what happened this summer."
"Yeah."
"Just begin where you want to."
"Oke, well my parents had to go to a funeral in the U.S. of somebody I didn't knew, so I would spent the first two weeks of my vacation with my uncle and aunt. They had three children. Two boys and a girl. The eldest son was about my age, only a few months younger. I had my apparation test during the first week. Jake, that was his name, would have his the last week of summer break. If I would pass, Jake and I would go on a camping trip, we were very close."
Tears began to fill James' eyes, but they didn't fall.
"Just take a deep breath and continue."
James did what he was told and continued.
"Well, I passed and we went on the trip. Everything was going great, until one day we woke up to a strange noise that wasn't suppose to be there, in the middle of the woods. So when we went to have a look, there were Darth Eaters all over the place. Jake couldn't apparate yet and I didn't want to leave him there alone. They weren't really happy about us being there and we had to run."
James swallowed his tears away, took a deep breath again and continued.
"I was running in front and we knew we were followed. Then I heard a noise and turned around. Jake had fallen and the Darth Eaters had surrounded us. I watched them kill Jake and then they turned to kill me. I couldn't do anything, but apparate out of there. I had to lead my uncle to where Jakes body was. If never feel so helpless in my hole life when I saw him lying there."
By the time he was finished, James couldn't control his tear anymore. He let them run down freely.
Lily sat there, shocked. She didn't know what she expected, but it definitely wasn't this. She saw the tears run down James' face and without a thought she pulled him into a hug. Holding him, rocking him like a baby. She didn't know how long they sat there, but she didn't care. James was calming down and relaxed.
"You oke?"
"Yeah. You know, this is the first time I've talked about it. It's like a bolder is been lifted of my hart. Thanks for listening."
"It's oke. I promised I would, didn't I?"
"Yeah."
"But I don't understand why you didn't tell Sirius."
"I thought he would laugh to see me cry, 'cause I knew I would if I talked about it for the first time."
"Well, I think you should tell Sirius about it in a week or so. It's your choice to tell Remus and Peter, but Sirius really cares about you. Your like his brother."
"I'll do that."
"Now, lets get back and get some sleep."
James nodded and Lily helped him up, threw the cloak back over them and got the map out of James' pocket. She knew she had to get them back, 'cause James was to distracted.
~~~~~~
They made it back to the tower without to many trouble. Lily pulled of the cloak again and gave it back to James together with the map.
"Good night, James."
She got to her toes and gave him a soft kiss on his cheek.
"Night Lily."
She walked up to her dorm again and got back to bed, but she knew she wouldn't get back to sleep.
'Planning to give in to your feelings now?'
"Yeah."
'He, no #what do you want# today?'
"Nope."
'You kissed him.'
"It didn't mean anything."
'I know, but it was still a kiss.'
"I won't deny that."
'You love him.'
"I know."
'Now, let him know.'
"I know the perfect time and place for that."
'Where and when?'
"Wouldn't you like to know."
'I'll find out you know.'
"Just leave."
'Now, I know you again.'
"You sure?"
There was no answer.
~~~~~~
It was almost Valentines day. James had done exactly what Lily said. He had told Sirius what happened and Sirius had actually come to Lily to thank her for being so patient with his friend. Lily had grown closer to James and Sirius after that.