Disclaimer: i don't own the
characters or songs... songs by: third eye blind [can't get away]; & norah
jones [don't know why]
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Part 4
I ended up at the pier of all
places. I sat on the wooden ground, hands on the edges. I wanted to jump in the
water and swim away. I'd messed everything up. I lost control for a few seconds
and probably ruined a whole friendship. The only good thing I had going for me
in this god-forsaken town.
[…I miss the way it
was before no one even knew me your eyes looked right through me…]
I wondered if there had been someone else in there
that day. The day we first met; the day Georgie practically jumped me. I
wondered if there was someone else there, would she have still chosen me? Although, I didn't regret any of our kisses; in fact, I believe
I savored them, as if they'd always be rare.
I sighed, angry at myself. Why
did I have to be so stupid? She'd chased me down to talk about it: sort things
out, and what do I do? I flip out. I run away. What is
wrong with me? I've never been like that in the past…
I'd been on the pier for a few hours before getting
up. There was something calming about having only water in front of me and the
thoughts in my mind around. Something soothing. I
can't ignore my feelings for Georgie anymore, I
realized, but at the same time, as much as I want
to get away, hide even, from her, I don't want to. I can't stay away from her…
I was beginning to confuse myself.
Standing, I started back to the
sidewalk.
Upon turning a corner, I heard
voices and held back. I stretched my head around to see Georgie standing with
her back to me. She was arguing with Lucas. I started to listen. "Georgie,
I'm just trying to help you," Lucas told her. Help
her with what? I thought to myself.
"I know
that, Lucas. I'm not
an idiot! I just don't get why? We've been over this: Dillon is just a friend.
My best friend, nevertheless, and nothing you say will change that!"
"Georgie…" he began,
"Just listen to me. Dillon is bad news.
Alright? All he'll do is bring
you down with him. Don't you get that? He's no good!" I felt a stream of
anger flow through me.
Even though I couldn't see
Georgie, I knew she had tears welding in her eyes. Lucas had done nothing but
harm her, especially lately, and now he was 'looking out for her'? There was
something else there. There had to be. I glanced over to see what was
happening, the silence between them wasn't usual for a fight.
I saw Lucas place a hand on
Georgie's cheek, stepping closer to her. He looked her up and down. "I'm
just trying to help, Georgie…"
She turned her head away from
him. I saw a tear escape her eye and travel down her soft cheek. I fought the
temptation to come out and hit Lucas for hurting her so much. "I know,"
Georgie's voice was soft in the air. I almost missed it, myself. Lucas leaned
forward, kissing her cheek.
"I'll see you later kiddo,
alright?" Georgie just nodded as he left. I fell onto the wall at my back,
fight another urge.
[...something
has to make you run; I don't know why I didn't come...]
I suppressed the urge to run to Georgie and hold her. I stood there, while I heard her soft cry in the late afternoon. Then, after a few moments, I heard her footsteps, soft in my direction. I stepped back, cleared my face, and started forward again.