Disclaimer: I don't own GH or the characters. Songs by: Michelle Branch [where are you now?]; Michelle Branch [tuesday morning]; Remy Zero [smile]
Part 5
My eyes were set on my shoes as I walked toward Georgie. I was almost fully passed her when she called out to me. "Dillon?"
I froze and looked up. I didn't want to speak at the moment. She smiled softly at me. I could see the red in her eyes, even with the sun setting in the background. I knew what she wanted. And I didn't want to deal with it again.
[...maybe i'd be better on my own, no one ever seems to understand me it's easier for me to be alone, but there's still a piece of me that feels so empty...]
"Where have you been?" she asked me.
I sighed lightly. "Around," I told her, looking back to a spot on the walk. I didn't want to do this. I really didn't want to do this…
"What's wrong?" she asked me, lightly. I glanced into her eyes, slightly shocked; no one had ever asked me that. Not for months.
"Why does something have to be wrong?" I countered.
Georgie squinted and looked into my eyes. I could tell she was trying to comprehend why I was doing what I was. "Dillon?" she asked softly.
I didn't respond. I just started to walk again. I just wanted to get away from her before I did something else stupid. Like kiss her… again.
[...If I had known then that these things happen would they have happened with you...]
This time, she just let me go. Part of me desired her to chase after me again. A small piece of me wanted her to run after me. I wanted to hold her, hug her, and maybe even kiss her. I wanted to know that the next time I did, she wasn't going to think about Lucas, or how strange it was. I wanted to make sure she knew how I felt about her. Only, I knew I could never tell her.
[… I may not smile as you turn and walk away, my heart just falls on every word you say but I will not fight 'cause you will listen...]
How could I be such an idiot? I wondered. Why am I running away from the only one I ever cared about?