Decisions
Disclaimer: I don't own Harry Potter and co. or the Britney Spears' song.
Note: Ok, this is my first fanfiction, and for some crazy reason, I decided
to add a song in, so I hope its ok and that everyone likes it. This whole
chapter is written in the perspective of Hermione. Oh, and thanks to all my
lovely reviewers: StickyElf, VeriaMatnn, hpfan87, Ratty, Brandonluvr,
Jales992 and houdinishideaway Sorry I couldn't update sooner, but what with
exams and all.
**********
I can't believe it. Is Draco asking me to do what I think he is? What the
hell am I going to do.
I used to think
I had the answers to everything,
"Granger, stop staring at me. So, are you going to do it, or do I have to
tell Krumy-wumy your little secret?"
"I, I don't know." I stammered. Crap, what is happening to me?
But now I know
that life doesn't always go my way.
"Well then, I better be off. I have got a whole heap of owls to send out
now." A huge, evil smile broke out his face.
Feels like I'm caught in the middle
That's when I realize.
"Wait, I'll do it. Meet me at Hagrids house at 11.30pm tonight. And bring
some, some stuff."
I'm not a girl
Not yet a women.
All I need is time
A moment that is mine
While I'm in between.
I'm not a girl.
What the hell did I just say? Why did I say that? I stormed back up to the
Gryfindor common room with tears in my eyes. I plunged down into my usual
seat, disappointed not to see Harry.If I told him everything, he would know
what to do.
What was happening to me? Do I really love Viktor that much? As much as to
sacrifice my virginity to the one guy I truly hate? How could this be
happening to me? Last year, my life was perfect. I was a prefect, Viktor
and I were just friends so there was nothing to worry about and..
"Hey Hermione, wake up. Where have you been?" Ron asked. "And how come you
weren't in Potions? I have been trying to find you everywhere! I need help
with my homework."
Oh no. He did just not help me for help with his homework, did he? How
bloody selfish! As if I don't have better things to worry about!
"Hermione? Um, is anything wrong? Why are you looking at me like that?"
OOPS, he knows something is wrong. Better put on my sweet, goody-two shoes
act on, or he might get annoying.
"I'm sorry, nothing is wrong. I just, just don't feel well. I think I need
a nap. Hey, if you see harry, can you tell him I need to talk to him. Get
Ginny to come and get me, when he is free. OK?"
It's time that I
Learn to face up to things on my own
I went upstairs to my room, and started crying. I was only 17. I didn't
want to do it with Draco. The thought makes me want to barf! But I knew I
had to. It was choosing between Viktor finding out who I was, and sleeping
with Draco. It should have been an easy decision. Why why why did I have to
lie to Viktor in the first place? If he finds out I am born to muggle
parents, then he'll kill me. But if I sleep with Malfoy then, then. then it
probably wouldn't be so bad, I guess. I was probably just blowing this
whole thing out of proportion.
I've seen so much more than you know,
Don't tell me to shut my eyes
I mean, I was doing it in the name of love. Yeah, I was, so what am I
worrying about? I got back out of bed and marched down the stairs seeing a
new light. Hey, in 5 years, I will probably look back at this and laugh!
I'm not a girl
Not yet a woman
"Hey Herm. Ron said you wanted to talk to me?" Harry said.
"Oh. that. Hey listen, it was nothing. I just wanted to, to copy your
potion notes, but I'll get them off you later I suppose." Phew, luckily I
thought of something quickly, because I decided it would not be the perfect
time to tell Harry about this.
"Are you sure that's it? Because Ron said you were acting kinda, kinda
funny."
"Oh, you know Ron." I replied. "He was probably just being over dramatic as
usual. Hey, lets go down to dinner."
All I need is time
A moment that is mine
While I'm in between
I'm not a girl
We were sitting down at the table; Harry, Ron and I, when someone tapped me
and whispered something gently into my ear.
"You ready for tonight, sexy? Because it is gonna be big!"
I turned around, knowing that it was Draco, but wanting to prove myself
wrong.
But if you look at me closely
You will see it in my eyes
This girl will always find her way
He was gone. No one was there. Was I imaging things? I quickly shot a look
down to the Slyrithin table, but he wasn't there. Great, so now I was
loosing my mind. This isn't fair. I can't take it anymore. I'm going mad! I
had to get out of here. I can't do this. Why did I tell him that I would?
How stupid was I? Oh, I am so confused!
I'm not a girl
(I'm not a girl don't tell me what to believe)
Not yet a woman
(I'm just trying to find the woman in me)
All I need is time
(All I need is time)
A moment that is mine
While I'm in between
I'm not a girl.
After eating, we Ron and I went up to the common room while Harry went to
the library. There was still no sign of Draco, and I was getting really
nervous.
"What is it with you Hermione? You haven't said anything all night!" Ron
said.
"Yeah, I'm just confused."
I'm not a girl
Not yet a woman
We took our usual places next to the fireplace. Before I knew it, it was
11pm.
"I'm going to sleep now. Night Ron."
"Goodnight. Sleep well." He replied.
Yeah right! I walked up the stairs, leading to my room, still not decided
about what I should do.
All I need is time
A moment that is mine
While I'm in between.
And before I knew it, my feet were leading me to Hagrids' hut. This was it.
There was no turning back.
I'm not a girl.
A/N So. did everyone like it? I'm sorry if it was a bit confusing! Please
review! Even if you thought it was crap. I have heaps of other chapters up
my sleave, (which will go into more detail). Ok, review now!
Disclaimer: I don't own Harry Potter and co. or the Britney Spears' song.
Note: Ok, this is my first fanfiction, and for some crazy reason, I decided
to add a song in, so I hope its ok and that everyone likes it. This whole
chapter is written in the perspective of Hermione. Oh, and thanks to all my
lovely reviewers: StickyElf, VeriaMatnn, hpfan87, Ratty, Brandonluvr,
Jales992 and houdinishideaway Sorry I couldn't update sooner, but what with
exams and all.
**********
I can't believe it. Is Draco asking me to do what I think he is? What the
hell am I going to do.
I used to think
I had the answers to everything,
"Granger, stop staring at me. So, are you going to do it, or do I have to
tell Krumy-wumy your little secret?"
"I, I don't know." I stammered. Crap, what is happening to me?
But now I know
that life doesn't always go my way.
"Well then, I better be off. I have got a whole heap of owls to send out
now." A huge, evil smile broke out his face.
Feels like I'm caught in the middle
That's when I realize.
"Wait, I'll do it. Meet me at Hagrids house at 11.30pm tonight. And bring
some, some stuff."
I'm not a girl
Not yet a women.
All I need is time
A moment that is mine
While I'm in between.
I'm not a girl.
What the hell did I just say? Why did I say that? I stormed back up to the
Gryfindor common room with tears in my eyes. I plunged down into my usual
seat, disappointed not to see Harry.If I told him everything, he would know
what to do.
What was happening to me? Do I really love Viktor that much? As much as to
sacrifice my virginity to the one guy I truly hate? How could this be
happening to me? Last year, my life was perfect. I was a prefect, Viktor
and I were just friends so there was nothing to worry about and..
"Hey Hermione, wake up. Where have you been?" Ron asked. "And how come you
weren't in Potions? I have been trying to find you everywhere! I need help
with my homework."
Oh no. He did just not help me for help with his homework, did he? How
bloody selfish! As if I don't have better things to worry about!
"Hermione? Um, is anything wrong? Why are you looking at me like that?"
OOPS, he knows something is wrong. Better put on my sweet, goody-two shoes
act on, or he might get annoying.
"I'm sorry, nothing is wrong. I just, just don't feel well. I think I need
a nap. Hey, if you see harry, can you tell him I need to talk to him. Get
Ginny to come and get me, when he is free. OK?"
It's time that I
Learn to face up to things on my own
I went upstairs to my room, and started crying. I was only 17. I didn't
want to do it with Draco. The thought makes me want to barf! But I knew I
had to. It was choosing between Viktor finding out who I was, and sleeping
with Draco. It should have been an easy decision. Why why why did I have to
lie to Viktor in the first place? If he finds out I am born to muggle
parents, then he'll kill me. But if I sleep with Malfoy then, then. then it
probably wouldn't be so bad, I guess. I was probably just blowing this
whole thing out of proportion.
I've seen so much more than you know,
Don't tell me to shut my eyes
I mean, I was doing it in the name of love. Yeah, I was, so what am I
worrying about? I got back out of bed and marched down the stairs seeing a
new light. Hey, in 5 years, I will probably look back at this and laugh!
I'm not a girl
Not yet a woman
"Hey Herm. Ron said you wanted to talk to me?" Harry said.
"Oh. that. Hey listen, it was nothing. I just wanted to, to copy your
potion notes, but I'll get them off you later I suppose." Phew, luckily I
thought of something quickly, because I decided it would not be the perfect
time to tell Harry about this.
"Are you sure that's it? Because Ron said you were acting kinda, kinda
funny."
"Oh, you know Ron." I replied. "He was probably just being over dramatic as
usual. Hey, lets go down to dinner."
All I need is time
A moment that is mine
While I'm in between
I'm not a girl
We were sitting down at the table; Harry, Ron and I, when someone tapped me
and whispered something gently into my ear.
"You ready for tonight, sexy? Because it is gonna be big!"
I turned around, knowing that it was Draco, but wanting to prove myself
wrong.
But if you look at me closely
You will see it in my eyes
This girl will always find her way
He was gone. No one was there. Was I imaging things? I quickly shot a look
down to the Slyrithin table, but he wasn't there. Great, so now I was
loosing my mind. This isn't fair. I can't take it anymore. I'm going mad! I
had to get out of here. I can't do this. Why did I tell him that I would?
How stupid was I? Oh, I am so confused!
I'm not a girl
(I'm not a girl don't tell me what to believe)
Not yet a woman
(I'm just trying to find the woman in me)
All I need is time
(All I need is time)
A moment that is mine
While I'm in between
I'm not a girl.
After eating, we Ron and I went up to the common room while Harry went to
the library. There was still no sign of Draco, and I was getting really
nervous.
"What is it with you Hermione? You haven't said anything all night!" Ron
said.
"Yeah, I'm just confused."
I'm not a girl
Not yet a woman
We took our usual places next to the fireplace. Before I knew it, it was
11pm.
"I'm going to sleep now. Night Ron."
"Goodnight. Sleep well." He replied.
Yeah right! I walked up the stairs, leading to my room, still not decided
about what I should do.
All I need is time
A moment that is mine
While I'm in between.
And before I knew it, my feet were leading me to Hagrids' hut. This was it.
There was no turning back.
I'm not a girl.
A/N So. did everyone like it? I'm sorry if it was a bit confusing! Please
review! Even if you thought it was crap. I have heaps of other chapters up
my sleave, (which will go into more detail). Ok, review now!