Chapter 3: Confused Feelings
Disclaimer: I don't own Harry Potter, Draco, Hermione blah blah blah. You
know the story.
Note: Thank so much to: VeriaAtann, Fleur, hpfan87, Darkfire22 and
houdinishideaway for reviewing my story. I'm sorry about this, but I had to
use another Britney Spears song (It fits in well.) But I promise this is
the last time! Please Read and Review!
*****
I woke up and looked over at my alarm clock. Damn, it was 10.30am. I had
missed half of transfiguration already. Oh well, I only got back from
Hagrids' hut at around 3 this morning. I had done it. I was now, a woman!
Say hello to the girl that I am
You gonna have to see it through my perspective
I knew that I really shouldn't have done anything with Draco, but I
couldn't help. I had to, if I wanted to see Viktor again.
I need to make mistakes just to learn who I am
And I don't wanna be so damn protected
I got dressed and grabbed my books and ran to class. I wasn't too worried
about McGonagal, because I knew exactly how to get around her. I was more
worried about what Draco would say, whenever I see him. I knocked on the
door and entered.
"Sorry Professor, I was feeling really sick so I slept in. But I think I'm
up to coming to class now, so I can I please join?" I begged, with my false
"goody - two - shoes" tone.
"Sure. I do hope you're up to it. You are looking a bit paler this morning.
Take a seat." She replied.
I walked past an extremely tired looking Malfoy, and sat down next to Ron.
"Are you better? What's wrong? I never knew you were sick! What happened?"
He questioned.
Oh my god, sometimes I feel so sorry for Ron. I mean, how dumb could you
get?
"Oh, I was feeling a bit sluggish this morning, but I'm all right now," I
lied.
"Oh, well. that's a relief!
I kept sensing Draco's eyes on me. I could feel them looking at every curve
my body owned. I felt like he was invisibly unwrapping all my clothes, and
there was nothing I could do about it.
There must be another way
Because I believe in taking chances,
But who am I to say
What a girl is to do, god I need some answers
Oh my god. That didn't just happen did it? Someone please tell me that when
Malfoy winked at me, my heart did not just skip a beat. No, I must of been
imagining things. Why would he wink at me? He doesn't like me. He is just
using me.
What am I to do to win my life
(You are fine and I don't worry)
How am I supposed to know what's right
(You just gotta do it your way)
But then, why did my heart skip a beat? What the hell is happening here?
I can't help the way I feel
But my life has been so overprotected.
No, I love Viktor. I'm just letting my imagination run away with me as
usual. He did not just wink at me, and I do not want him to. I love Viktor.
That is why I did what I did last night. This is so crazy. I didn't even
enjoy it last night. Well, not really. Besides, Malfoy hates me. Ok, I am
not having this argument with myself. This is ridiculous!
I could hear the bell ringing, marking the end of class. I got up slowly,
trying to avoid all eye-contact with him, when he approached me.
"So, been talking to your boyfriend lately?" He questioned slyly.
"That's, that's none of your business." Stuttered. Why was I afraid of
him? It doesn't make any sense!
I tell them what I like, what I want, and what I don't
But every time I do, I stand corrected
"I think you're forgetting what I know."
"No, please. I did what you wanted last night. What else do you want?"
"Oh, you'll see! Meet me in the library at 5pm today. And come alone." And
with that, he walked off. What could he possibly want with me in the
library? And come alone? Why?
Things that I've been told
I can't believe what I hear about the world
I realize I'm over-protected
No way in hell was I going. I've had enough.
There must be another way
Coz I believe in taking chances
But who am I to say
What a girl is to do, god I need some answers
I walked to my next class with Harry and Ron. I really wanted to tell Harry
what was happening with Draco and Viktor, but stupid Ron was there, and he
just wouldn't understand.
What am I to do to win my life
(You are fine and I don't worry)
How am I supposed to know what's right
(You just gotta do it your way)
I can't help the way I feel
But my life has been so overprotected
Finally, when Ron walked off to go to the bathroom, I got a chance to talk
to Harry.
"Harry, I really need to tell you something." I said.
"Oh, what is it?" He replied.
"Well, it all started with." And I told him everything. In fact, we decided
to skip Herbology just to talk.
"I can't believe it." He kept saying. "That little prick. I'll kill him."
(I couldn't tell who he was talking about. Viktor or Malfoy. After what
felt like a long period of silence, he said something.
"I've got a plan. I'll come with you to the library and you can tell him
that you don't want to play his little games anymore. And if he tries
anything, I'll be there to stop him."
I couldn't believe what I was hearing. Harry was a real friend. I was so
happy. We walked off to grab some lunch, and spent the rest of the day,
both nervous and excited about what was to come.
Finally, 5o'clock came. Harry and I walked off to the library together.
I need time, I need space
He was already there, and didn't look very happy to see us.
"I thought I told you to come alone."
"Shut up." I said. "I have had enough of you blackmailing me. I'm sick of
you using me."
I don't need nobody telling me what I wanna
What I'm what, what, what I'm gonna do about my destiny
Nobody's telling me just what I wanna do
I'm just so fed up of people telling me to be
Someone else but me.
"What are you saying, freak? That you want me to tell Viktor?" He asked.
"No," Harry cut in. "Because if you do, you will have me to deal with."
"Oh, I'm so scared Potter!"
"Yeah well, you will be by the time I'm finished with you." He said, and
punched Malfoy in the ribs. We walked off laughing. I wish I told Harry
ages ago about Viktor. I don't even care if Malfoy tells Viktor about me
anymore. Harry will be able to finish him off.
And we walked backed up to our common room in hysterics about Malfoys'
facial expressions. It felt as though I was getting my life back on track!
*********
A/N So. you like? Sorry if this chapter wasn't that eventful, but I had to
do this, before I can make anything else happen. So stay tuned for more! I
won't be able to update for a week (because of exams) but after that, there
will be heaps. Please review everyone, because I find them really helpful.
If you have any ideas, feel free to let me know! Ok, now review all you
good people!
Disclaimer: I don't own Harry Potter, Draco, Hermione blah blah blah. You
know the story.
Note: Thank so much to: VeriaAtann, Fleur, hpfan87, Darkfire22 and
houdinishideaway for reviewing my story. I'm sorry about this, but I had to
use another Britney Spears song (It fits in well.) But I promise this is
the last time! Please Read and Review!
*****
I woke up and looked over at my alarm clock. Damn, it was 10.30am. I had
missed half of transfiguration already. Oh well, I only got back from
Hagrids' hut at around 3 this morning. I had done it. I was now, a woman!
Say hello to the girl that I am
You gonna have to see it through my perspective
I knew that I really shouldn't have done anything with Draco, but I
couldn't help. I had to, if I wanted to see Viktor again.
I need to make mistakes just to learn who I am
And I don't wanna be so damn protected
I got dressed and grabbed my books and ran to class. I wasn't too worried
about McGonagal, because I knew exactly how to get around her. I was more
worried about what Draco would say, whenever I see him. I knocked on the
door and entered.
"Sorry Professor, I was feeling really sick so I slept in. But I think I'm
up to coming to class now, so I can I please join?" I begged, with my false
"goody - two - shoes" tone.
"Sure. I do hope you're up to it. You are looking a bit paler this morning.
Take a seat." She replied.
I walked past an extremely tired looking Malfoy, and sat down next to Ron.
"Are you better? What's wrong? I never knew you were sick! What happened?"
He questioned.
Oh my god, sometimes I feel so sorry for Ron. I mean, how dumb could you
get?
"Oh, I was feeling a bit sluggish this morning, but I'm all right now," I
lied.
"Oh, well. that's a relief!
I kept sensing Draco's eyes on me. I could feel them looking at every curve
my body owned. I felt like he was invisibly unwrapping all my clothes, and
there was nothing I could do about it.
There must be another way
Because I believe in taking chances,
But who am I to say
What a girl is to do, god I need some answers
Oh my god. That didn't just happen did it? Someone please tell me that when
Malfoy winked at me, my heart did not just skip a beat. No, I must of been
imagining things. Why would he wink at me? He doesn't like me. He is just
using me.
What am I to do to win my life
(You are fine and I don't worry)
How am I supposed to know what's right
(You just gotta do it your way)
But then, why did my heart skip a beat? What the hell is happening here?
I can't help the way I feel
But my life has been so overprotected.
No, I love Viktor. I'm just letting my imagination run away with me as
usual. He did not just wink at me, and I do not want him to. I love Viktor.
That is why I did what I did last night. This is so crazy. I didn't even
enjoy it last night. Well, not really. Besides, Malfoy hates me. Ok, I am
not having this argument with myself. This is ridiculous!
I could hear the bell ringing, marking the end of class. I got up slowly,
trying to avoid all eye-contact with him, when he approached me.
"So, been talking to your boyfriend lately?" He questioned slyly.
"That's, that's none of your business." Stuttered. Why was I afraid of
him? It doesn't make any sense!
I tell them what I like, what I want, and what I don't
But every time I do, I stand corrected
"I think you're forgetting what I know."
"No, please. I did what you wanted last night. What else do you want?"
"Oh, you'll see! Meet me in the library at 5pm today. And come alone." And
with that, he walked off. What could he possibly want with me in the
library? And come alone? Why?
Things that I've been told
I can't believe what I hear about the world
I realize I'm over-protected
No way in hell was I going. I've had enough.
There must be another way
Coz I believe in taking chances
But who am I to say
What a girl is to do, god I need some answers
I walked to my next class with Harry and Ron. I really wanted to tell Harry
what was happening with Draco and Viktor, but stupid Ron was there, and he
just wouldn't understand.
What am I to do to win my life
(You are fine and I don't worry)
How am I supposed to know what's right
(You just gotta do it your way)
I can't help the way I feel
But my life has been so overprotected
Finally, when Ron walked off to go to the bathroom, I got a chance to talk
to Harry.
"Harry, I really need to tell you something." I said.
"Oh, what is it?" He replied.
"Well, it all started with." And I told him everything. In fact, we decided
to skip Herbology just to talk.
"I can't believe it." He kept saying. "That little prick. I'll kill him."
(I couldn't tell who he was talking about. Viktor or Malfoy. After what
felt like a long period of silence, he said something.
"I've got a plan. I'll come with you to the library and you can tell him
that you don't want to play his little games anymore. And if he tries
anything, I'll be there to stop him."
I couldn't believe what I was hearing. Harry was a real friend. I was so
happy. We walked off to grab some lunch, and spent the rest of the day,
both nervous and excited about what was to come.
Finally, 5o'clock came. Harry and I walked off to the library together.
I need time, I need space
He was already there, and didn't look very happy to see us.
"I thought I told you to come alone."
"Shut up." I said. "I have had enough of you blackmailing me. I'm sick of
you using me."
I don't need nobody telling me what I wanna
What I'm what, what, what I'm gonna do about my destiny
Nobody's telling me just what I wanna do
I'm just so fed up of people telling me to be
Someone else but me.
"What are you saying, freak? That you want me to tell Viktor?" He asked.
"No," Harry cut in. "Because if you do, you will have me to deal with."
"Oh, I'm so scared Potter!"
"Yeah well, you will be by the time I'm finished with you." He said, and
punched Malfoy in the ribs. We walked off laughing. I wish I told Harry
ages ago about Viktor. I don't even care if Malfoy tells Viktor about me
anymore. Harry will be able to finish him off.
And we walked backed up to our common room in hysterics about Malfoys'
facial expressions. It felt as though I was getting my life back on track!
*********
A/N So. you like? Sorry if this chapter wasn't that eventful, but I had to
do this, before I can make anything else happen. So stay tuned for more! I
won't be able to update for a week (because of exams) but after that, there
will be heaps. Please review everyone, because I find them really helpful.
If you have any ideas, feel free to let me know! Ok, now review all you
good people!