Title:  Remorse
Author: Lisa Anne
Rating: G-PG..I mention some weapons...maybe PG?  I don't know.
Summary: I was watching "Becoming 2" the other day and an idea popped into my head.  It's a twist on the episode.  Buffy doesn't end up leaving, Angel doesn't go to hell, pretty much everything else that happened in season 2 has happened.   I really don't like the name of the title so it will probably be changed as I go along.  
Spoilers: No spoilers..just dialogue from the end of "Becoming 2"
Disclaimer: I unfortunately don't own any of these people (if I did Buffy wouldn't be ending this season).  Also, the beginning dialogue is from the end of "Becoming 2"  Email: buffygal8880@yahoo.com ....Please send me feedback because this is the second fanfic,. This is my first multi-chapter fanfic.

Chapter 1

"Buffy?  What's going on?  Where are we?  I don't remember?" Angel asked startled.

            Buffy brought down her sword.  She looked at Angel with disbelief.  "Angel?"

            "Your hurt," Angel told Buffy as he grew closer to her and observed her cut.  "Buffy, God, I feel like I haven't seen you in months.  Oh God, everything is so muddled.  I-oh! Oh Buffy."  Buffy and Angel both had tears running down their cheeks. 

            Just as they embraced one another Acathla began to rumble and began to open.  Angel pulled away from Buffy.  "What's wrong?"

            Buffy tried to reassure herself as she touched Angel's lips with her fingers.  "Shhhh, don't worry about it."  Angel kisses Buffy as the vortex began to open.   The tears in her eyes continued to flow like a river.  "I love you" was all she could manage to say.

            Angel was staring into her eyes and also said, "I love you."

            "Close your eyes," Buffy told Angel.  As he closed his eyes, Buffy kisses him one more time.  A small smile appears on Angel's face.  Buffy picked up the sword and was about to stab Angel.  Tears flowed from Buffy's green eyes again.  She screamed, "I can't do this!" and dropped the sword.  She walked away from Angel and then fell to her knees.

            "Buffy, what is it?" Angel asked.  He was then on his knees next to the only woman he had ever loved.

            Buffy stared into Angel's big brown eyes as her lips trembled.  "You-you didn't notice the orangish-yellow light coming from that rocky thingy?  That's Acathla, he's going to suck us all into hell.  There's one way to stop him but-" tears rolled off her face as she hugged Angel.  "I don't want to do that."

            Angel pulled away from Buffy.  Both of his hands were on Buffy's shoulders.  He looked deep into her green eyes and tried not to cry for her.  "What is it?  Why is this happening? H-how do we stop it?"

            Angel wiped Buffy's tears away.  Her sad eyes looked back into his eyes.  This started because of Angelus, and you- Angelus wanted to destroy the world.  Your blood opened the vertex.  It's the only thing that can stop it.  Angel, I have already lost you once, I don't want you to die.  I want you here, with me.  I've missed you.  I love you."  Buffy explained as a fresh set of tears found their way to her face.  She buried herself into Angel's chest.

            Angel's jaw was wide open.  The last six months or so had been just a blur.  The last memory that he had was the night when he and Buffy each shared one another and when they showed their love for each other.   He remembered waking up and watching Buffy sleep.  That was it.  He briefly remembered Spike and Drusilla.

            He pulled Buffy from his chest.  His tears too flowed from his eyes and reached the floor.  He grabbed both of Buffy's hands and kissed them.  He then let her tears flow into his hands as he cupped her cheeks. 

            "Listen, I have done enough already.  I have to do thi-"  He was interrupted by Buffy shaking her head.

            "No, Angel, you'll die…no, I won't let you do it."

            "Shhh, Buffy, It's alright.  I can just imagine what I could have done as Angelus.  God, all of the pain I cau-.  It doesn't matter now.  I'm ready, if I have to do this to keep everyone safe, if I have started this already, I'm going to finish it.  I have to do this."

            Buffy shook her head again.  He stood up before she could say or do anything.  In the matter of a few seconds, Angel was gone.  The orange-yellow became dim and then disappeared.

            Buffy was weak and feel to the floor sobbing.  She was alone.  After a few moments, she picked herself up.  She stared at the sculpture of Acaltha.  She then stood up and searched for something hard, like a shovel or an ax.  She found a pick ax and began to hack away at Acaltha.  First she hit his mouth, then his eyes and then she aimed towards his neck.  He was in many pieces.  Buffy then stopped and she began to cry again.  She cried very loudly.  She dropped the pick ax and another piece of Acaltha feel to the ground.

            Finally, with no tears left, Buffy began to walk away from the whole thing.  She couldn't stand looking around where Angel was just standing less than ten minutes ago.  She walked out into the small garden where about a half hour ago she and Angelus were fighting and probably would have fought to the death if they kept at it.  The sun was beginning to rise when she heard a thumbing sound coming from the room she just left.   She wondered if by destroying Acathla she somehow opened the vertex again.  She ran in and saw Angel lying on the floor.

            "Angel?"  She whispered.  "Angel, is-, is that you?"  She asked, as she grew closer to him.

Looking up with tears in his eyes, he answered, "Buffy?"

Buffy ran and sat next to Angel.  She cradled him in her arms.  "Angel!" She said as she kissed his cheeks, his eyes, his nose and then his lips.   "Why are you here?  Why did you come back?"

"They didn't want me.  The demons in the Hell dimensions didn't want me.  They could spell my soul and didn't want me.    Oh Buffy, I am so happy to be here…with you.

"Me too," Buffy said as they shared more kisses.  Buffy finally helped Angel to stand up.  He was weak.  She helped him to a near by chair.

            "Angel, I love you, I do and I am glad that you are here with me and your you…your not Angelus any more, but I have to see how the others are.  Giles, Xander, Willow, I have to know they are alright."

            "All right?  Did I hurt them?"

            Buffy shook her head.  "Angelus, he-well, did horrible things.  He tortured Giles and-"

            "Is he alive?" Angel asked afraid to find out the answer.

            "I don't know.  Xander came with me to get him out of here and- well, I know they made it out, they aren't here."

            "And Willow and the others?"

            "Oz and Cordy are okay, they didn't get hurt.  Willow is in the hospital with head injuries.  She was conscious the last time I spoke to her. Kendra is dead."

Angel shook his head with disbelief.  How could he have hurt so many people and not remember?   "Angelus did all of that?"      

            "No, Drusilla.  She and some vamps went into the library.  I was on my way to-here, Kendra and the others were staying at the library.  Drusilla and the vamps kidnapped Giles and hurt the others.  She personally killed Kendra.  The police-oh my God! The police! They are out looking for me.  They think it was me who did all of that  I….I just ran off."

            Angel was in a trance.  He was old enough to be every ones ancestors, but he cared about all of them as if they were all his family.  He loved them, even Xander.  He was very upset that he hurt all of them.  "And Jenny?  Did  she get out?"

            He didn't know Jenny Calendar that well.  All he knew was that she helped his friends out and that Giles loved her. 

            Buffy felt the color leave her face.  Angel really didn't remember what happened.  "Angel, Jenny is dead.  She has been dead for months.  Angelus killed her.  He snapped her neck because sh-she was trying to get your-his soul back."

            Tears found their way back to Angel's eyes.  He felt true remorse and he was truly sorry.  "Oh my god.  I'm-I'm sorry.  I didn't kno-"

            Buffy knelt in front of him.  She brought her fingers to his lips.  Shhhh….it's all right, it's all over.  It wasn't you."   She said as she held his hand.  "Angel, why don't you get some rest.  I'll check on the others.  I'll come back with some blood from the butcher shop."

            Buffy helped Angel to bed in another room.  She covered him up and stayed with him until he fell asleep.  She kissed his head before she went out in search of her friends.            

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