Author's Note: It has been a while hasn't it? Anyways, I am now updating and I hope that I get some more reviews; it will make me a very happy person. Anyways. Please enjoy!!! I also changed the rating due to the fact that I did not want any lemons in this story anymore. It would just ruin the plot more than you can imagine.
Disclaimer: I don't own Sailor Moon.
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~*It's A Far Better Thing*~
~*Unanswerable pt. 1 *~
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September 2003Mina slowly slid off of Kazuki's back as they landed on Darien's balcony. It had been Mina's idea to show up there, and instead of having a beaten up sailor scout walk through the front door, she had decided that it would be most appropriate to appear on his balcony, and hopefully he wouldn't care. After all this was Darien and he had seen much worse.
After setting her feet down on the cement, Mina felt that invisible barrier around her disperse, and her knees collapse. Kazuki barely managed to snake an arm around her waist to keep her from falling, and immediately, Mina clung to him.
Glancing around the area, they noticed that plenty of damage had occurred, although the lightening did seem to have stopped the skies were still slightly dark. On the way over to Darien's apartment, they had stopped to watch the battle that was still ensuing between Lita and that demon beast. However, it seemed as though something was interfering, and as much as they both wanted to go back, they knew that it was dangerous and that they should still stay at Darien's until either Lita, or that demon won.
Mina still thought that the latter would win, due to the fact that her friend was dispelling energy at an alarming rate. Mina knew that Lita would try her best to defeat that new threat, even if it meant giving her life to do so. She hated that fact immensely. And Mina knew that she would have stayed to help if only given the chance, but it did not happen. Perhaps if Kazuki had not been around it would have been different, but in all truth, she owed her life to him.
Clutching onto Kazuki's arm tightly, Mina glanced around Darien's balcony, to find his balcony door open. She motioned to Kazuki, who took her to notice, and they both walked inside, only to find Darien sitting on his couch, staring at the wall ahead of him as though something dear to him had died.
"Darien?" Mina asked quietly, hoping to get his attention. If she didn't then she would definitely know that something was wrong, and she knew that with the state that he was in now, she would be the one to have to deal with.
Darien turned his eyes towards her momentarily before turning away and staring at the blank white wall once more. She definitely knew that something was wrong. After releasing Kazuki's arm, whom gave her a look of displeasure at the notion, she stumbled over to him, and plopped down on the couch next to her friend.
"Darien, what's wrong?" She asked kindly, motioning to Kazuki to rest on the recliner. When he obeyed her silent command she returned her attention to Darien, who seemed to be eying Mina with disinterest.
"Serena's gone." He stated after a brief moment of silence. Tilting her head to the side, Mina actually glanced around the apartment and noticed that there was in fact a lack of Serena. Where ever the boisterous blonde hair gone to seemed to have upset Darien a great deal.
"Where did she go?" Kazuki suddenly asked, getting Darien to turn his cerulean blue eyes on him for the first time since they had arrived. Shaking his head ruefully he looked back towards Mina."She went over the balcony." He stated simply his eyes focusing on her a great deal. Mina could not help but feel that he was actually looking at her for the first time since she had actually become his friend. But for some odd reason she didn't feel any reaction when Darien stated that her friend had fallen over the balcony.
"You know," Darien started, sitting up and grabbing some of Mina's hair in his hand," your hair is a lot like Serena's." Mina responded by gently withdrawing her hair from his hand, while Kazuki let out a soft grunt, and shifted uncomfortably in his seat.
"She wouldn't let me touch her. I just didn't get it, it was as though she was feeling things that I couldn't, and then she jumped over it. Maybe she went to go see what was happening over at the park." Shrugging nonchalantly Darien stood up and walked over to the sliding glass door, pushing it open all the way. Kazuki and Mina both watched him momentarily before realizing that the two large energies had disappeared.
Now all that was left from what they saw was a blinding silver light, and then, it abruptly disappeared. What the cause of it was only apparent. Serena. But then, if Serena was alive, why was he acting as though she had died. Only moments ago he was speaking of her as if she had died?
Perhaps if Mina had seen the girl fall over the balcony she would have assumed that her friend died, and perhaps not, but Darien definitely was not acting like himself. Maybe due to the fact that Serena was still alive it would make Darien turn back to his normal self, but the fact of the matter was, everyone was acting differently now that this new enemy was after not only Serena's heart but the lives of her friends as well.
"Kazuki?" Darien asked suddenly. Startled out of her thoughts Mina looked at her long time friend, noticing that he was staring at Kazuki with a threatening glare. Something was definitely wrong, if only Mina could find out what it was.
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Serena stood up and wiped the dirt off of her clothes. Everything was becoming so complicated, and she just had thoughts of actually wanting to kill someone. Normally she killed someone every day, but it did not taint her innocence. This time it wasn't to protect those that she loved, although it was the excuse she wanted to give herself, it was to ease her conscious.
Kurai had said that she was selfish for allowing her friends to suffer just so she could be with the person that she loved. Kurai had said that she was thinking only of herself and no one else. If that was the case then why had she attempted to save Lita? Even though she couldn't save her, it was some sort of sign that she cared for her friends enough to risk her own life just to save them.
But the fact of the matter remained that they would not have to fight if she simply gave into what Kurai wanted. The only thing holding her back now was the fact that Darien would be lonely without her, and she just didn't want to. Though now that she knew Kurai was absolutely serious about killing her friends just to get her, it made her think of whether or not he would end up killing her.
It was a possibility, but why would he go through extremes to kill the one he lusted for with such intensity that he would kill her friends, just to get the message through her head? Closing her eyes Serena decided that it was time to get back to Darien's house.
'Darien…what would you do if I decided to take Kurai up on his offer?' Serena knew that answer already though. He would do his best to stop her, but Serena wasn't seriously thinking about giving her heart up to Kurai. She just couldn't, it wouldn't seem right. But then, if she did not do what he wanted the remainder of her friends would be killed.
Tears slowly found their way to her face as she thought of what Kurai had said. It was either the lives of her friends, or Darien living without her. Shaking her head and wiping the tears away from her face she knew that she was in fact being selfish, and that either course she took that she would be giving up her happiness.
So which was she supposed to choose? Not being able to find the answer to that question, she made sure her eyes were dry, before walking back to Darien's house.
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Serena was bombarded with questions when she entered Darien's apartment. She didn't really feel like answering them as her eyes landed on Kazuki, a sudden familiarity over coming her senses. There was definitely something about him that reminded her of Kurai, like his smooth silky voice, and his long luxurious hair, but the look in his eyes suggested that he was different. His eyes were kinder, and softer, not cold and cruel like Kurai's had been, and not nearly as empty.
Lifting a hand to silence her blonde friend, Serena walked over to the couch and sat down next to an ever-silent Darien. Her heart wrenched when he silently slipped his hand into hers, and it only made the situation she was forced to make even harder. Mina was the only friend that she had left, and if Kurai targeted her, then all that would be left were friends outside her inner circle.
She really didn't feel like endangering them at all. As Darien laced their fingers together, she could feel all tension leave him. He had to have been really worried about her, and she knew that if Mina and Kazuki did leave, then Darien would definitely show the anger he was feeling towards her. And Serena knew that without a doubt he was angry with her.
She would have been angry at Darien too if he fell off of a balcony without any warning. Sighing tightly, she gripped Darien's hand, giving him a silent apology. After a moment she felt his hand squeeze hers once more, and she knew that he had forgiven her, but he had a lot to say about what had happened.
After everyone was situated inside his living room, Mina looked at her blonde friend expectantly. However, Serena had her eyes glued to Kazuki once again, but this it wasn't a hateful glare. It was as though she were inspecting him and comparing him, for whatever reason she didn't know, but she was going to find out.
"So Serena what happened when you jumped over the balcony?" Mina decided to ask first. Serena closed her eyes and leaned into Darien's chest, thinking and rethinking her answer. She knew that she couldn't tell them the entire truth, so after a moment of thinking of her options she decided to settle with the half-truth.
"I transformed into Princess Serenity and sort of glided the rest of the way the battlefield." She answered simply. She glanced at Kazuki once more, noticing how he acted as though that were some kind of normality, something that he heard everyday. But she couldn't start lying now, after all he had seen her transform into Sailor Moon, and seeing as to how Mina was still in her sailor fuku then he probably already knew about it.
"Ok, what happened when you got to the battle field?" Serena scowled. She didn't exactly want to give out this information, but it was necessary.
"I saw my past and my future." She stated steadily. That simple comment got several raised eyebrows, so Serena knew that she would have to elaborate.
"Well during the time I was at the battle field, two things happened. I learned something and I fought. Before I went to fight, I pulled into myself, and I saw my past and future self. They both taught me something extremely important, and about the guy we are up against." Serena stated, noticing how Kazuki seemed to stiffen at her words. Closing her eyes she stood up slowly before walking towards Darien's bedroom.
"I'm kinda exhausted from the battle and from the confrontation I had with Father Jupiter and Kurai, so I'm gonna take a little nap." Serena said as she watched Kazuki from the corner of her eyes. She noticed that he stiffened considerably. Turning around to face him, she watched as her two friends immediately averted their attention towards him, obviously sensing his discomfort. It was just so completely laughable.
Serena shook her head slowly, gaining the attention back to her and smiled calmly at her friends.
"Don't worry about it. We will talk about it later." She said quietly before walking into Darien's room and shutting the door behind her. She immediately fell onto his bed, the exhaustion only too apparent. Slowly she closed her eyes, allowing the torment of kissing another man eat her alive, before she allowed the tears to fall.
And it was with those tears that she fell into a restless sleep.
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A/N: This chapter sucks. Oh well. That's what you get when it's only six measly pages. This is where I end it. It has been hard to update, and I'm sorry that this is so short, but I honestly do not feel like typing anymore. So I will simply post the second part to this chapter later. And hopefully you guys will live with it. Anyhoozles have a wonderful day, and I will update this story in about a week.
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