BOYS & GIRLS - Chapter 7
"Do you love me?"
The question took Rachel off guard. Love? Ross?. A lot of people had asked her the same question, but this was the first time she even considered it
"Ross.. I..." Rachel was speachless, she just didn't know how to answer
"The night we spent together" interrupted Ross "was the most wonderful expercience I've had on my entire life. For the first time I felt totally happy, I felt complete... I saw my life from a whole different perspective and nothing scared me. Not next test, or pleaced my parents... my future, nothig mattered for me on that moment, cause I was there... with you, and that was all I needed... it was just you and me, the rest of the world just stop excisting. I felt like nothing else had any importance as long as you were on my arms. I still can't understand why this whole thing was a mistake for you, cause nothing had ever been more right for me"
Rachel was speechless "I... I didn't know you felt that way... I. I don't know what to say"
"You don't have to say anything... I don't need you to say something... and I don't want you to feel sorry for me either... I don't want your pitty. I should have known you were gonna react this way cause anything that even comes close to real intimacy terrifies you, just the simple idea of feeling something for someone makes you run away... I'm not Chip, or Steve, and I'm pretty sure I'm not a player like Paolo. But all this doesn't matter now, I'm not gonna bother you anymore. You don't have to feel guilty for me"
"What do you mean?" asked Rachel, still really confused
"I'm leaving in two days" replied in a hard tone Ross
"What?!"
"I'm leaving... I'm going to England for a couple of years. to get my PHD"
"But... but you said to me that you could make it here?... why do you have to go?"
"Cause there's nothing to keep me here, is it?" he asked her looking into her eyes, giving her the last chance to take what he was offering. Rachel didn't reply. It was just too much information in too little time, she was still speachless
"Yeah I thought so" said Ross in a bitter tone "now if you excuse me there are some pappers I need to pick up, so I'll be on my way to get the plane tickets"
"Why... why are you doing this to me?" was all Rachel managed to say
"Why am I doing this to you?" almost yelled Ross really pissed "I'm not doing ANYTHING to you, I'm doing this for ME. Here's a breaking news to you Rachel... MY WORLD DOESN'T REVOLVES AROUND YOU. Would you grow up already?!, stop being so selfish once and for all"
Ross stormed to his room, and then left the house, slamming the door. He was really mad at Rachel. He still had a tiny hope that she will ask him to stay, but she didn't, and that was IT. He wasn't gonna let her ruin his life, he needed to get away, get a new life... away from her and from all the heartaches she had given him this past 3 years. Everything was just not worth it anymore.
"Do you love me?" Ross' question was all Rachel could think about while she cried on the house "How can I know" she said to herself "how can I know if I love him... I've never known how it feels..."
*~*
Rachel had been laying on her bed holding a pic of her and Ross for the past two days crying, she just couldn't stop snobbing. Imagine her life without Ross was harder than she had thought, and that was killing her.
Monica and Phoebe checked on her constantly, but she just didn't wanna see anyone. Ross had left to his parent's house a bit after his argument with her and hadn't return ever since, so she hadn't had the opportunity of talking to him again, although that wouldn't had made any difference... she still wasn't sure if what she was feeling was love.
"Hey Rach" greeted Phoebe entering Rachel's room "how are ya feeling?"
"Like sh¡t Pheebs" replied Rachel, covering her face with a pillow "I really wanna be alone"
"I know... but I'm not gonna leave you alone. You have to get up from that bed and run to tell him what you feel, you're still on time"
"Pheebs, I still don't KNOW what I feel for him"
"I think you know... you just don't wanna accept it. Rachel, you KNOW Ross is more than a friend for you. Come on!!, if it was Chandler or Joey the one leaving you wouldn't be this affected... and you know it" Phoebe hugged her "beside... he's your lobster, I've always known that"
"He's my what...?" asked Rachel breaking the hug
"He's your lobster... I told Ross the same thing the day we met, I've always known you two are meant to be together... you're just perfect for each other"
"But... but what do you mean with that 'lobster' thing?"
"Well, it's a known fact that Lobsters fall in love and mate for life Rach, and that's how it's going to be with Ross... something for the rest of your life. But I can't be the one telling you what you feel, altough is pretty obvious for me and for the rest of the gang... you just have to realize it by yourself. And I think you'll have to realize it between the next 2 hours, cause Ross' plane is leaving at 4pm"
"At... at 4?"
"Yup... you need to make up your mind soon... I just came to tell you that" said Phoebe before leaving her alone in her room one more time
Rachel sit on her bed and looked at the pic she had on her hands. It was from a road trip the gang took after her first year in college. She had broken up with Steve a couple of month before, and was still feeling a little down back then. The picture showed her and Ross sitting on a rock with a lake behind them, he was hugging her in a really sweet way, and she was smiling, that had been the first time she smiled that day, she could remember the moment that pic was taken like it was yesterday... she had been feeling down all day, not just because of the Steve thing, but also cause her parents were splitting up and she was feeling totally alone
***FLASHBACK***FLASHBACK***
Rachel was sitting on a rock by herself, far away from the rest of the gang, deep in her thoughts. Ross approached to her with a beer on one hand and a diet coke on the other. He sat next to her and handed her the diet coke, she looked at him and thanked with a really weak smile. Both remained silent for a while.
"Come here" said Ross hugging her "it's ok... you know you can cry your eyes out if you want" Ross kissed her forehead
"I don't wanna cry... I'm tired of crying... this whole thing about my parents had made me wonder a lot of things"
"Like what?"
"I know they didn't love each other that much... but I'm affraid I'll never find someone who loves me, and who will love me forever... I don't wanna end up like them"
"But you can't find the right person if you shut your heart for love, you should give it a try..."
"Look who's talking" joked Rachel
"It's different Rach, cause I'm in love..." he said looking straight into her eyes, giving her shivers down the spine "I'm deeply in love with somebody, I know she's the right one, but I'm too coward, I'm affraid of telling her"
"Really Ross... in love?!... wow!"
"Yeah, I am. And there's a guy out there for you too. A guy who will kill for you to give him a chance to make you happy. The problem is that if you keep this 'I don't need anyone' attitud, you'll never notice him"
"You think?... but... but how am I going to know when the right guy comes in my way?... I mean... what does it feel like?"
"Weren't... weren't you in love with Steve?" asked Ross kind of nervous
"I thought I was... but how can I know... I mean, he made me feel some really great things, but I have nothing to compare it... explain me what do you feel for that girl... and I'll tell ya' if I was in love"
"Well..." started Ross, as he held her hands and looked into her eyes one more time "She's the reason why I wake up every morning and the sun doesn't come until I see her gorgeous smile. And when she speaks, her voice is like a sweetest lullaby, you know... peaceful and beautiful. Her eyes are the two most amazing emeralds in the whole world, and her hair is more soft and perfect than the most expensive silk. When I see her, my stomach hurts and I feel like I can't breath, my legs start shaking, and the head spins me around, but inspite of all that is the most wonderful feeling in the whole world, cause it cames with an absolute peace and warm. Not to see her, would be like one day without sun. And when she cries, all I want is to hold her, protect her, kiss her and make her feel like everything will be ok, make her feel like anything that whatever is wrong I can make it right, cause for her I'd be able to do even the imposibles, I'd go to the moon and back in a day if she wants so. There are so many things she makes me feel Rach, it's too hard to put the rest in words. But when it's love, you just know it, without much explanation or definition. You just know it... you just feel it"
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Rachel remembered she had wanted with all her heart to be that girl, to be loved that way, without knowing she really was that girl... Now she knew it, and yet she was letting him slip away "Oh my God!..." said Rachel to herself "he was right... you just know it".
She go up really quickly, grabbed her coat and stormed out.... Ross couldn't go, she loved him, and she knew it now... she wouldn't let him go... not this time
*~*
Rachel left the house running, leaving the rest of the gang stunned
"For a girl who hasn't left her bedroom in 2 days, she really knows how to run" commented Chandler
"Where's she going?" asked Monica
"I think she finally realized she's in love" replied Phoebe grinning
Luckyly Rachel took the first cab that passed by, she only had half hour to catch Ross before he had to take the plane, and she couldn't be a minute late or she'd lose him this time forever.
"To La Guardia airport" she said to the driver "and please do it as fast as you can"
"I'm sorry miss, but there's a huge traffic-jam on the way to the airport"
"There's no other way to get there?" she asked concern
"I'm affraid not. But I'll see what I can do"
*~*
Rachel looked at her match one more time, like she had done for the past 20 minutes "3:57, and I'm still here". She was stuck on a traffic that seemed not wanting to move, and still she was 10 minutes away from the airport "I'll never get there on time" she thought as she started to cry again.
"Don't cry miss" said the driver "We'll get there, and if it's mean to be, u'll catch him... don't worry"
The cab finally parked on the front of the airport and Rachel got out of the car running. She looked at her watch once again, it was 4:21. She run all over the place looking for him, waiting that hopefully he hadn't left. But it was too late, he was on his way to England, and she was on her way to never find the real love again. "This is the part on the movie where I ran into the plane, sat next to him and told him that I love him" she thought "but real life never is like a movie". She sat on the waiting area and looked around one more time. She deserve it, she thought, she had hurt him so bad so many times before, and now was her turn. Simple as that. "How could I be so blind?" she said as she started to cry once again "He was standing in front of my the whole time and I never saw him".
She stood up to leave, she didn't had anything else to do there, she wipe her tears and walk toward the main door. "I guess it wasn't meant to be" she said to herself looking down, not paying attention to where she was walking to, causing her to bump into a pile of bags.
"Are u ok?" asked the owner of the bags, helping her standing. "Rachel?"
Rachel looked up for the first time "Ro... Ross??... what are u doing here?"
"I could ask u the same question, and yet mine would make more sense... I'm going to England, remember?"
"Yeah, I know... but u took the 4 o'clock plane"
"No, I changed my fly for the 5:30pm one... can u tell me now what are U doing here?... I thought we put things pretty clear the other day" he said coldly, avoiding her eyes
Rachel took out the picture of her and Ross she was looking at that afternoon from her purse and showed it to him "do u remember this road trip?"
Ross looked confused at her, he had no idea what was the point of all these "Yes, vividly. U were really sad that day" he said as he looked at the picture and smiling a bit "And I made u smile"
"As so many times after that, u've always had the power of making me smile when I'm feeling down" he raise his eyes from the picture and finally met hers for a tiny moment, he couldn't let himself fall into that again, it'd make everything even harder than already was "Remember the conversation we had that day?" she asked
"What conversation?... we spent the whole afternoon talking"
"When I asked u what it felt like to be in love..., remember?"
"Yes, I remember"
"The girl u were talking about... was her me?" she asked shydly
"Yes, it was u" Ross looked away for a moment, he couldn't take this anymore "What do u really want here Rach?"
"You have no idea how many times I remembered that conversation and wanted to be that girl. I still can't believe I was so blind that I couldn't see I actually WAS thet girl. Ross, please don't go"
"I can't stay here and carry on with the whole 'I'm ur best friend' act Rachel, it hurts too much and I'm tired of it"
"But... but... u still don't get it, do u?"
Rachel looked at him, he was looking down one more time, both of them remained silent for a while
"Ross, I love you" she said approaching to him
"What?" he asked speechless, those were the words he had always wanted to hear
"I love you, and I know it now. Everything you descrived to me on that conversation, everything you said it felt to be in love, is what I feel for you, is what you make me feel... and you were right, you just know it, you just feel it. And I believe I've always known it, but I was too affraid to accept it. But you know what frighten me more?... the idea of spending the rest of my life without you. I love you Ross, I really do"
"It's... it's too late now"
"No. Everything that you said about the night we spent together I felt it too, and it scared me. I was scared to lose you, but I was even more scared to let myself love you, cause everytime I let love in somebody comes along and took it away and it hurts so bad. And this time the feeling is even stronger and bigger than I've ever felt, and if by any chance I'd get hurt, I don't think I'll be able to recover from that. But I'm tired of being afraid"
"Rach I... I..."
"I need you, and that's a really hard thing for me to accept, but it's a whole lot easier than imagine my life without you. You're my lobster Ross" said Rachel in her last attempt of convincing him
"Lobster?" asked Ross confused
Rachel smiled at him "Phoebe told me that lobsters fall in love and mate for life, and that just like the lobsters, our life is something for the rest of our lifes, no matter what"
Ross just looked at her, without saying anything, he didn't know what to do, or what to say, or even if all this was real.
Rachel looked at him, he had an expressless look on his face, she just couldn't read them. What was he thinking? She didn't know. There was just one last thing to do.
She grabbed him by the jacket and kissed him "does that makes the things more clear for you?" she said after breaking the kiss.
He looked at her face one more time, he knew every curve, every inch of her face, he had memorized it a thousand times, and yet everytime he looked at her she seemed more beautiful "No, but maybe this will" he said before kissing her one more time, this time more long and filled with all the love he wanted to give her.
They broke the kiss and remained hugging for a while
"All passengers for fly 2458 to London, please abord through gate 24B"
"Ok" said Ross breaking the hug "I think that's me"
"What?" asked Rachel heartbroken "you're... you're leaving anyway?!"
"You haven't asked me to stay" replied Ross grinning.
Rachel hit him placefully on the chest and kissed him one more time "please stay honey!" she said with a sweet voice
"Ok" he replied kissing her again
*~*
Ross and Rachel entered to the house still kissing and holding each other, they couldn't just let go. Ross drop one of the bags he had on one hand when he put his hand or Rachel's face. The hit of the bag on the floor made a big noise, and it took Monica and Chandler, who were fooling around on the couch without noticing Ross and Rachel precense, out of guard.
"What was that?" asked Chandler, standing up "Ross?! Rach?!.. what... what are you doing here?"
"Ross!!?" screamed Monica also standing up
Ross let go of Rachel, and walk towards the couch "WHAT WERE YOU DOING TO MY SISTER?" yelled at Chandler
"We were just... we were just..." replied nervous Chandler
"You and Chandler?" asked Rachel with a hurt look on her face "and you didn't tell me anything?"
"We just... we just... we didn't want anyone to find out until we were sure this was going somewhere" said Monica "but then the whole secret thing kind of get out of control... I'm sorry Rach"
"It's ok... it's ok... I don't care" said Rachel still really hurt "I just thought we were best friends, but it's ok now"
"See what you did..." said Ross, still very pissed "You made Rachel cry"
"Are u... are u two together?" asked Monica
"Yes" replied Ross smiling as he hugged Rachel who was also smiling
"Congratulations man!!" said Chandler hugging Ross
"My brother and my best friend... this is so great" said Monica hugging them too
Phoebe and Joey entered to the house as the rest of the gang was still hugging each other in a big group hug
"Hey!, why are you all hugging without us?" complained Phoebe
"Ross and Rachel are together" said Monica, lifting her head from the hug
"And Chandler and Monica too" added Rachel
Phoebe and Joey joined to the hug "we kind of knew about Chandler and Monica... but I'm so happy for you and Ross!!" said Phoebe
The gang remained loked in a big hug group for a while. After they broke it, everybody's mood was way better
"That's what I needed" comented Phoebe
"Yeah I know... me too" said Rachel giving Ross a pick on the lips
"See, I told ya when we all met... 3 girls and 3 boys, I knew we will end hooking up between us"
"Yeah well, you've always had faith on us Pheebs" said Ross looking at Rachel "since day one"
"And you have faith on us honey?" asked him Rachel
"More than on anything in the world" replied Ross before kissing her one more time
"HEEEEY!!... GET A ROOM!!" yelled Phoebe joking
"Let's?" asked Ross smiling
"Let's" replied Rachel smiling back at him
Both run upstairs giggling
"Animals" yelled joking at them Monica
THE END...
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Ok, that was my first fic. It was a lame end, I know. But it turns out that it was the hardest part to write, I don't know why
I'm already working on a new fic, but I won't post it until I have the whole thing written, cause I don't want to get blocked on the middle of the fic, I hate when writters don't end up their fics
Please review the whole thing now. I really hope you liked it, cause I love writting it
"Do you love me?"
The question took Rachel off guard. Love? Ross?. A lot of people had asked her the same question, but this was the first time she even considered it
"Ross.. I..." Rachel was speachless, she just didn't know how to answer
"The night we spent together" interrupted Ross "was the most wonderful expercience I've had on my entire life. For the first time I felt totally happy, I felt complete... I saw my life from a whole different perspective and nothing scared me. Not next test, or pleaced my parents... my future, nothig mattered for me on that moment, cause I was there... with you, and that was all I needed... it was just you and me, the rest of the world just stop excisting. I felt like nothing else had any importance as long as you were on my arms. I still can't understand why this whole thing was a mistake for you, cause nothing had ever been more right for me"
Rachel was speechless "I... I didn't know you felt that way... I. I don't know what to say"
"You don't have to say anything... I don't need you to say something... and I don't want you to feel sorry for me either... I don't want your pitty. I should have known you were gonna react this way cause anything that even comes close to real intimacy terrifies you, just the simple idea of feeling something for someone makes you run away... I'm not Chip, or Steve, and I'm pretty sure I'm not a player like Paolo. But all this doesn't matter now, I'm not gonna bother you anymore. You don't have to feel guilty for me"
"What do you mean?" asked Rachel, still really confused
"I'm leaving in two days" replied in a hard tone Ross
"What?!"
"I'm leaving... I'm going to England for a couple of years. to get my PHD"
"But... but you said to me that you could make it here?... why do you have to go?"
"Cause there's nothing to keep me here, is it?" he asked her looking into her eyes, giving her the last chance to take what he was offering. Rachel didn't reply. It was just too much information in too little time, she was still speachless
"Yeah I thought so" said Ross in a bitter tone "now if you excuse me there are some pappers I need to pick up, so I'll be on my way to get the plane tickets"
"Why... why are you doing this to me?" was all Rachel managed to say
"Why am I doing this to you?" almost yelled Ross really pissed "I'm not doing ANYTHING to you, I'm doing this for ME. Here's a breaking news to you Rachel... MY WORLD DOESN'T REVOLVES AROUND YOU. Would you grow up already?!, stop being so selfish once and for all"
Ross stormed to his room, and then left the house, slamming the door. He was really mad at Rachel. He still had a tiny hope that she will ask him to stay, but she didn't, and that was IT. He wasn't gonna let her ruin his life, he needed to get away, get a new life... away from her and from all the heartaches she had given him this past 3 years. Everything was just not worth it anymore.
"Do you love me?" Ross' question was all Rachel could think about while she cried on the house "How can I know" she said to herself "how can I know if I love him... I've never known how it feels..."
*~*
Rachel had been laying on her bed holding a pic of her and Ross for the past two days crying, she just couldn't stop snobbing. Imagine her life without Ross was harder than she had thought, and that was killing her.
Monica and Phoebe checked on her constantly, but she just didn't wanna see anyone. Ross had left to his parent's house a bit after his argument with her and hadn't return ever since, so she hadn't had the opportunity of talking to him again, although that wouldn't had made any difference... she still wasn't sure if what she was feeling was love.
"Hey Rach" greeted Phoebe entering Rachel's room "how are ya feeling?"
"Like sh¡t Pheebs" replied Rachel, covering her face with a pillow "I really wanna be alone"
"I know... but I'm not gonna leave you alone. You have to get up from that bed and run to tell him what you feel, you're still on time"
"Pheebs, I still don't KNOW what I feel for him"
"I think you know... you just don't wanna accept it. Rachel, you KNOW Ross is more than a friend for you. Come on!!, if it was Chandler or Joey the one leaving you wouldn't be this affected... and you know it" Phoebe hugged her "beside... he's your lobster, I've always known that"
"He's my what...?" asked Rachel breaking the hug
"He's your lobster... I told Ross the same thing the day we met, I've always known you two are meant to be together... you're just perfect for each other"
"But... but what do you mean with that 'lobster' thing?"
"Well, it's a known fact that Lobsters fall in love and mate for life Rach, and that's how it's going to be with Ross... something for the rest of your life. But I can't be the one telling you what you feel, altough is pretty obvious for me and for the rest of the gang... you just have to realize it by yourself. And I think you'll have to realize it between the next 2 hours, cause Ross' plane is leaving at 4pm"
"At... at 4?"
"Yup... you need to make up your mind soon... I just came to tell you that" said Phoebe before leaving her alone in her room one more time
Rachel sit on her bed and looked at the pic she had on her hands. It was from a road trip the gang took after her first year in college. She had broken up with Steve a couple of month before, and was still feeling a little down back then. The picture showed her and Ross sitting on a rock with a lake behind them, he was hugging her in a really sweet way, and she was smiling, that had been the first time she smiled that day, she could remember the moment that pic was taken like it was yesterday... she had been feeling down all day, not just because of the Steve thing, but also cause her parents were splitting up and she was feeling totally alone
***FLASHBACK***FLASHBACK***
Rachel was sitting on a rock by herself, far away from the rest of the gang, deep in her thoughts. Ross approached to her with a beer on one hand and a diet coke on the other. He sat next to her and handed her the diet coke, she looked at him and thanked with a really weak smile. Both remained silent for a while.
"Come here" said Ross hugging her "it's ok... you know you can cry your eyes out if you want" Ross kissed her forehead
"I don't wanna cry... I'm tired of crying... this whole thing about my parents had made me wonder a lot of things"
"Like what?"
"I know they didn't love each other that much... but I'm affraid I'll never find someone who loves me, and who will love me forever... I don't wanna end up like them"
"But you can't find the right person if you shut your heart for love, you should give it a try..."
"Look who's talking" joked Rachel
"It's different Rach, cause I'm in love..." he said looking straight into her eyes, giving her shivers down the spine "I'm deeply in love with somebody, I know she's the right one, but I'm too coward, I'm affraid of telling her"
"Really Ross... in love?!... wow!"
"Yeah, I am. And there's a guy out there for you too. A guy who will kill for you to give him a chance to make you happy. The problem is that if you keep this 'I don't need anyone' attitud, you'll never notice him"
"You think?... but... but how am I going to know when the right guy comes in my way?... I mean... what does it feel like?"
"Weren't... weren't you in love with Steve?" asked Ross kind of nervous
"I thought I was... but how can I know... I mean, he made me feel some really great things, but I have nothing to compare it... explain me what do you feel for that girl... and I'll tell ya' if I was in love"
"Well..." started Ross, as he held her hands and looked into her eyes one more time "She's the reason why I wake up every morning and the sun doesn't come until I see her gorgeous smile. And when she speaks, her voice is like a sweetest lullaby, you know... peaceful and beautiful. Her eyes are the two most amazing emeralds in the whole world, and her hair is more soft and perfect than the most expensive silk. When I see her, my stomach hurts and I feel like I can't breath, my legs start shaking, and the head spins me around, but inspite of all that is the most wonderful feeling in the whole world, cause it cames with an absolute peace and warm. Not to see her, would be like one day without sun. And when she cries, all I want is to hold her, protect her, kiss her and make her feel like everything will be ok, make her feel like anything that whatever is wrong I can make it right, cause for her I'd be able to do even the imposibles, I'd go to the moon and back in a day if she wants so. There are so many things she makes me feel Rach, it's too hard to put the rest in words. But when it's love, you just know it, without much explanation or definition. You just know it... you just feel it"
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Rachel remembered she had wanted with all her heart to be that girl, to be loved that way, without knowing she really was that girl... Now she knew it, and yet she was letting him slip away "Oh my God!..." said Rachel to herself "he was right... you just know it".
She go up really quickly, grabbed her coat and stormed out.... Ross couldn't go, she loved him, and she knew it now... she wouldn't let him go... not this time
*~*
Rachel left the house running, leaving the rest of the gang stunned
"For a girl who hasn't left her bedroom in 2 days, she really knows how to run" commented Chandler
"Where's she going?" asked Monica
"I think she finally realized she's in love" replied Phoebe grinning
Luckyly Rachel took the first cab that passed by, she only had half hour to catch Ross before he had to take the plane, and she couldn't be a minute late or she'd lose him this time forever.
"To La Guardia airport" she said to the driver "and please do it as fast as you can"
"I'm sorry miss, but there's a huge traffic-jam on the way to the airport"
"There's no other way to get there?" she asked concern
"I'm affraid not. But I'll see what I can do"
*~*
Rachel looked at her match one more time, like she had done for the past 20 minutes "3:57, and I'm still here". She was stuck on a traffic that seemed not wanting to move, and still she was 10 minutes away from the airport "I'll never get there on time" she thought as she started to cry again.
"Don't cry miss" said the driver "We'll get there, and if it's mean to be, u'll catch him... don't worry"
The cab finally parked on the front of the airport and Rachel got out of the car running. She looked at her watch once again, it was 4:21. She run all over the place looking for him, waiting that hopefully he hadn't left. But it was too late, he was on his way to England, and she was on her way to never find the real love again. "This is the part on the movie where I ran into the plane, sat next to him and told him that I love him" she thought "but real life never is like a movie". She sat on the waiting area and looked around one more time. She deserve it, she thought, she had hurt him so bad so many times before, and now was her turn. Simple as that. "How could I be so blind?" she said as she started to cry once again "He was standing in front of my the whole time and I never saw him".
She stood up to leave, she didn't had anything else to do there, she wipe her tears and walk toward the main door. "I guess it wasn't meant to be" she said to herself looking down, not paying attention to where she was walking to, causing her to bump into a pile of bags.
"Are u ok?" asked the owner of the bags, helping her standing. "Rachel?"
Rachel looked up for the first time "Ro... Ross??... what are u doing here?"
"I could ask u the same question, and yet mine would make more sense... I'm going to England, remember?"
"Yeah, I know... but u took the 4 o'clock plane"
"No, I changed my fly for the 5:30pm one... can u tell me now what are U doing here?... I thought we put things pretty clear the other day" he said coldly, avoiding her eyes
Rachel took out the picture of her and Ross she was looking at that afternoon from her purse and showed it to him "do u remember this road trip?"
Ross looked confused at her, he had no idea what was the point of all these "Yes, vividly. U were really sad that day" he said as he looked at the picture and smiling a bit "And I made u smile"
"As so many times after that, u've always had the power of making me smile when I'm feeling down" he raise his eyes from the picture and finally met hers for a tiny moment, he couldn't let himself fall into that again, it'd make everything even harder than already was "Remember the conversation we had that day?" she asked
"What conversation?... we spent the whole afternoon talking"
"When I asked u what it felt like to be in love..., remember?"
"Yes, I remember"
"The girl u were talking about... was her me?" she asked shydly
"Yes, it was u" Ross looked away for a moment, he couldn't take this anymore "What do u really want here Rach?"
"You have no idea how many times I remembered that conversation and wanted to be that girl. I still can't believe I was so blind that I couldn't see I actually WAS thet girl. Ross, please don't go"
"I can't stay here and carry on with the whole 'I'm ur best friend' act Rachel, it hurts too much and I'm tired of it"
"But... but... u still don't get it, do u?"
Rachel looked at him, he was looking down one more time, both of them remained silent for a while
"Ross, I love you" she said approaching to him
"What?" he asked speechless, those were the words he had always wanted to hear
"I love you, and I know it now. Everything you descrived to me on that conversation, everything you said it felt to be in love, is what I feel for you, is what you make me feel... and you were right, you just know it, you just feel it. And I believe I've always known it, but I was too affraid to accept it. But you know what frighten me more?... the idea of spending the rest of my life without you. I love you Ross, I really do"
"It's... it's too late now"
"No. Everything that you said about the night we spent together I felt it too, and it scared me. I was scared to lose you, but I was even more scared to let myself love you, cause everytime I let love in somebody comes along and took it away and it hurts so bad. And this time the feeling is even stronger and bigger than I've ever felt, and if by any chance I'd get hurt, I don't think I'll be able to recover from that. But I'm tired of being afraid"
"Rach I... I..."
"I need you, and that's a really hard thing for me to accept, but it's a whole lot easier than imagine my life without you. You're my lobster Ross" said Rachel in her last attempt of convincing him
"Lobster?" asked Ross confused
Rachel smiled at him "Phoebe told me that lobsters fall in love and mate for life, and that just like the lobsters, our life is something for the rest of our lifes, no matter what"
Ross just looked at her, without saying anything, he didn't know what to do, or what to say, or even if all this was real.
Rachel looked at him, he had an expressless look on his face, she just couldn't read them. What was he thinking? She didn't know. There was just one last thing to do.
She grabbed him by the jacket and kissed him "does that makes the things more clear for you?" she said after breaking the kiss.
He looked at her face one more time, he knew every curve, every inch of her face, he had memorized it a thousand times, and yet everytime he looked at her she seemed more beautiful "No, but maybe this will" he said before kissing her one more time, this time more long and filled with all the love he wanted to give her.
They broke the kiss and remained hugging for a while
"All passengers for fly 2458 to London, please abord through gate 24B"
"Ok" said Ross breaking the hug "I think that's me"
"What?" asked Rachel heartbroken "you're... you're leaving anyway?!"
"You haven't asked me to stay" replied Ross grinning.
Rachel hit him placefully on the chest and kissed him one more time "please stay honey!" she said with a sweet voice
"Ok" he replied kissing her again
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Ross and Rachel entered to the house still kissing and holding each other, they couldn't just let go. Ross drop one of the bags he had on one hand when he put his hand or Rachel's face. The hit of the bag on the floor made a big noise, and it took Monica and Chandler, who were fooling around on the couch without noticing Ross and Rachel precense, out of guard.
"What was that?" asked Chandler, standing up "Ross?! Rach?!.. what... what are you doing here?"
"Ross!!?" screamed Monica also standing up
Ross let go of Rachel, and walk towards the couch "WHAT WERE YOU DOING TO MY SISTER?" yelled at Chandler
"We were just... we were just..." replied nervous Chandler
"You and Chandler?" asked Rachel with a hurt look on her face "and you didn't tell me anything?"
"We just... we just... we didn't want anyone to find out until we were sure this was going somewhere" said Monica "but then the whole secret thing kind of get out of control... I'm sorry Rach"
"It's ok... it's ok... I don't care" said Rachel still really hurt "I just thought we were best friends, but it's ok now"
"See what you did..." said Ross, still very pissed "You made Rachel cry"
"Are u... are u two together?" asked Monica
"Yes" replied Ross smiling as he hugged Rachel who was also smiling
"Congratulations man!!" said Chandler hugging Ross
"My brother and my best friend... this is so great" said Monica hugging them too
Phoebe and Joey entered to the house as the rest of the gang was still hugging each other in a big group hug
"Hey!, why are you all hugging without us?" complained Phoebe
"Ross and Rachel are together" said Monica, lifting her head from the hug
"And Chandler and Monica too" added Rachel
Phoebe and Joey joined to the hug "we kind of knew about Chandler and Monica... but I'm so happy for you and Ross!!" said Phoebe
The gang remained loked in a big hug group for a while. After they broke it, everybody's mood was way better
"That's what I needed" comented Phoebe
"Yeah I know... me too" said Rachel giving Ross a pick on the lips
"See, I told ya when we all met... 3 girls and 3 boys, I knew we will end hooking up between us"
"Yeah well, you've always had faith on us Pheebs" said Ross looking at Rachel "since day one"
"And you have faith on us honey?" asked him Rachel
"More than on anything in the world" replied Ross before kissing her one more time
"HEEEEY!!... GET A ROOM!!" yelled Phoebe joking
"Let's?" asked Ross smiling
"Let's" replied Rachel smiling back at him
Both run upstairs giggling
"Animals" yelled joking at them Monica
THE END...
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Ok, that was my first fic. It was a lame end, I know. But it turns out that it was the hardest part to write, I don't know why
I'm already working on a new fic, but I won't post it until I have the whole thing written, cause I don't want to get blocked on the middle of the fic, I hate when writters don't end up their fics
Please review the whole thing now. I really hope you liked it, cause I love writting it