Authors note: Music is supposed to inspire people and I never really
believed it, but now I do. I was sitting thinking about what to write my
next fic about and then Family Portrait by Pink came on and this idea came
to me at once. Then I went to listen to all the songs on The Eminem Show,
thinking about my idea before I actually sat down and started typing. This
fic is made up of the diaries of 4 different people, i will say whose diary
it is to make it easier to understand but it should be pretty obvious.
Please R&R
Things with Carter didn't work out so Abby ran away. She got pregnant, got married, had a baby, got divorced, got pregnant again, got married again and had another baby. 7 years later.......
Thursday 27th March
********The step-daughter~Kacey***************
Dear diary, You know the feeling you get when things just won't go right. I want to talk to someone about it, I can't talk to mom, we aren't close anymore and lets just say that I don't get along with Derek. I haven't talked to mom properly since she married Derek, the only reason that I live with them is because I'm her daughter and she has some sort of twisted sense of duty. I want to go live with dad, but he's in prison for attempted murder, let me just say he didn't take it that well when he found put about Derek. Mom was with Derek behind his back and when he found out and mom asked for a divorce he went nuts and chased after mom with a gun. He never wanted to hurt her, I know that but I know he loved her and when he found out he felt humiliated. So he got charged with attempted murder and I can go see him about once a month, but it's hard to talk to someone when during visits you're being watched by some stupid guards. Anyways, lately I've been distracted, my grades at school have fallen because often I 'forget' to go. Mom yelled, Derek yelled, I yelled back and Ceara cried. She's six years old, poor kid and although she's my sister I never talk to her. I just wish that mom could find someone else, someone who treats her the way I know she wishes Derek would.
******The mother~Abby*********************
Dear diary, Today there was a massive fight between me, Derek and Kacey. The school phoned and said that she hadn't turned up for three days in a row and wanted an explanation. Well I asked her and she just said that school was boring. I miss the days when we used to sit and talk, those days seem so far away, it's hard to believe they were only just before I met Derek. I'm making meeting Derek sound like a bad thing and it really wasn't, he a nice man, he's a good father, I just, well I guess I just wish that Kacey didn't hate him so much. I don't know why she hates Derek and idolises her drunken father. Steve was a drunk, I only married him because I got pregnant and I guess I felt like I could understand him. I'm a drunk too remember. But Steve is a different kind of drunk, for gods sake he chased me down the street with a gun! So I met Derek and fell as much in love with him as his Irish accent. So anyway I'm worried about Kacey but I'm not going to let her come between me and happiness. I'm happy with Derek and I'm not going to change that for anyone, least of all Kacey. I'm happy, I'm happy I guess if I say that enough I'll start to believe it.
************The step-father~Derek*************
Dear diary, Kacey got in trouble, again. Not attending school, the normal thing. Can't say I give a toss, it's not like she's my real daughter. I reckon I should be feeling more worried and care more, but it's hard to care about someone who really never gave you a chance. But Kacey yelled at Abby and I know it's upsetting her more than she's showing. I wish I could read her mind, it would make things a lot easier. I would be able to know what she really wanted. This happens every time, Abby convinces herself that Kacey is going to 'mend her ways', become something she's not, a good girl. Then Kacey goes and gets into trouble again and upsets Abby again and everything goes round in a circle. Abby isn't the only one who gets upset, I know Ceara does. She cries every time the family has a big argument and I know how much everything is hurting her. Kacey has never even tried to get along with Ceara, I remember the day Abby gave birth, Kacey was nine and she ran out of the hospital and we couldn't find her for two days. Everything in this family comes down to Kacey, every up, every down and it shouldn't. Kacey is tearing the family that I've tried so hard to build up apart.
**************The sister~Ceara******************
Kacey got in trouble again today. I cried , I always do i'm such a cry baby. That's what Kacey always calls me when she isn't calling me ginger nut, or skanky whore. I know more naughty words than anyone in my school, thanks to Ceara. I don't want to grow up like Kacey, I want to grow up and make a lot of money and buy mommy lots of presents and daddy and maybe even Kacey. I always get Kacey a Christmas present, she never gets me one. She always throws whatever I get her at the wall. Last Christmas I made her a pretty box to put her things in, it took me ages and ages and ages to make and it look so pretty but she broke it. That made me cry too.
Friday 29th March
**************The step-daughter****************
Dear diary, Yesterday Mom made me go to school. She dropped me outside, instead of letting me walk there and watched me go in. School was pretty crappy and all those cheerleaders get kicks out of making fun of how I dress and act. They're the kind of people who think it's a tragedy if they forget to put on some mascara, excuse me while I barf. The only think that got me through the day was Doug, he's my best friend, nothing more, no matter how much people tease me about him. They assume that just because my best friend is a guy we must be going out, puh-leese. We've known each other since I moved here and he's the only person who actually doesn't think i'm a ho. I guess Cathy and Neesha are okay people, but to tell the truth they annoy me. SO anyways school sucked and I was supposed to walk home with Ceara, but I thought screw that and walked home with doug. Then mom got all annoyed with me and got very, very worried when Ceara didn't show up after a few hours. She phoned the police and at about midnight mom got a call from a hospital in Chicago saying that Ceara was there. She got into the car with Derek and drove there, leaving me in the house on my own. I had Doug over and we chatted watched movies and ate popcorn. It's 10 am now and I haven't heard anything from mom, can't say I care.
***********The daughter*****************
Kacey didn't walk home with me yesterday and so I got on a big, big, bus to go home. But it didn't take me home, after a few hours I got to a big, big city. It was quite scary and this lady saw me and chased after me. I fell over and cut my face on some glass, it hurt. The lady took me to this place where there were lots of hurt and sick people, like me and sat down with me and held my hand while a nice man put some stitches in my face. He was very nice to me and asked where my mommy was and I told him what happened. He said that my sister sounded like an average teenager and he made me laugh. He said I could call him Dr Carter. Then a nice lady who he called Susan came in and said that she needed my mommy's name so she could phone her and tell her where I said , so I told her mommy's name. Then after a bit she came in and talked to Dr Carter and said that the Abby was Abby Lockhart. He was shocked but then I started crying because I missed mommy and he let me sit on his lap while he told me a story and I fell asleep there. Then I woke up and mommy was there, I think she knew the doctor because she talked to him in a way my friend's parents talk to each other. Mommy doesn't talk to daddy that way.
************The mother***************
Dear diary, Well, today Kacey went to school but she didn't walk back with Ceara like I told her to and as a result Ceara got lost. I phoned the police and a few hours later I got a phone call. It was Susan Lewis, would you believe it. She said that my daughter was here, I don't think she knew who I was. So I said,
"Susan? It's me Abby, you know, i used to be Abby Lockhart,"
She was surprised. She told me that Ceara was okay, she was found and came in for a few stitches. So I got into the car with Derek and drove to Chicago. When we got there it turned out that Carter had treated Ceara. He was sitting in curtain 3 and she was asleep in his arms. It was a very sweet sight. I had forgotten how much I miss him, he's a good person. It makes me wonder why things didn't work out between us. He told me and Derek that she was okay and I woke her up and Derek took her to the car. I was left in the room with Carter,
"so," I said to him and he smiled at me the way he used to. He said that it was good to see me again. It almost annoyed me that he wasn't upset that I had got married and had children. He gave me his phone number, he moved house and said that if I wanted I could call him and we could chat. We're back now and I keep on staring at the number, wanting to call him, but knowing I can't. Not if I want to keep my family together.
***********The step-father***********
Dear diary, Well Kacey hit the jackpot. She lost Ceara. Ceara turned up in an ER in Chicago and IO had to drive there with a very upset Abby in the car. When we got there Kacey was asleep on some doctor that Abby seemed to know. She was okay, just had a few stitched put in her face. I went to the car with Ceara and we waited a while for Abby to get back to the car. She took a while, it makes me wonder what she was saying to the doctor. I know Abby used to be a nurse, maybe she was friends with him, maybe she was more than friends with him. I guess I felt jealous. Abby is mine, I own her, she's my wife. I don't want to feel like this. I want to feel happy. Not much chance with Kacey around to ruin things.
Things with Carter didn't work out so Abby ran away. She got pregnant, got married, had a baby, got divorced, got pregnant again, got married again and had another baby. 7 years later.......
Thursday 27th March
********The step-daughter~Kacey***************
Dear diary, You know the feeling you get when things just won't go right. I want to talk to someone about it, I can't talk to mom, we aren't close anymore and lets just say that I don't get along with Derek. I haven't talked to mom properly since she married Derek, the only reason that I live with them is because I'm her daughter and she has some sort of twisted sense of duty. I want to go live with dad, but he's in prison for attempted murder, let me just say he didn't take it that well when he found put about Derek. Mom was with Derek behind his back and when he found out and mom asked for a divorce he went nuts and chased after mom with a gun. He never wanted to hurt her, I know that but I know he loved her and when he found out he felt humiliated. So he got charged with attempted murder and I can go see him about once a month, but it's hard to talk to someone when during visits you're being watched by some stupid guards. Anyways, lately I've been distracted, my grades at school have fallen because often I 'forget' to go. Mom yelled, Derek yelled, I yelled back and Ceara cried. She's six years old, poor kid and although she's my sister I never talk to her. I just wish that mom could find someone else, someone who treats her the way I know she wishes Derek would.
******The mother~Abby*********************
Dear diary, Today there was a massive fight between me, Derek and Kacey. The school phoned and said that she hadn't turned up for three days in a row and wanted an explanation. Well I asked her and she just said that school was boring. I miss the days when we used to sit and talk, those days seem so far away, it's hard to believe they were only just before I met Derek. I'm making meeting Derek sound like a bad thing and it really wasn't, he a nice man, he's a good father, I just, well I guess I just wish that Kacey didn't hate him so much. I don't know why she hates Derek and idolises her drunken father. Steve was a drunk, I only married him because I got pregnant and I guess I felt like I could understand him. I'm a drunk too remember. But Steve is a different kind of drunk, for gods sake he chased me down the street with a gun! So I met Derek and fell as much in love with him as his Irish accent. So anyway I'm worried about Kacey but I'm not going to let her come between me and happiness. I'm happy with Derek and I'm not going to change that for anyone, least of all Kacey. I'm happy, I'm happy I guess if I say that enough I'll start to believe it.
************The step-father~Derek*************
Dear diary, Kacey got in trouble, again. Not attending school, the normal thing. Can't say I give a toss, it's not like she's my real daughter. I reckon I should be feeling more worried and care more, but it's hard to care about someone who really never gave you a chance. But Kacey yelled at Abby and I know it's upsetting her more than she's showing. I wish I could read her mind, it would make things a lot easier. I would be able to know what she really wanted. This happens every time, Abby convinces herself that Kacey is going to 'mend her ways', become something she's not, a good girl. Then Kacey goes and gets into trouble again and upsets Abby again and everything goes round in a circle. Abby isn't the only one who gets upset, I know Ceara does. She cries every time the family has a big argument and I know how much everything is hurting her. Kacey has never even tried to get along with Ceara, I remember the day Abby gave birth, Kacey was nine and she ran out of the hospital and we couldn't find her for two days. Everything in this family comes down to Kacey, every up, every down and it shouldn't. Kacey is tearing the family that I've tried so hard to build up apart.
**************The sister~Ceara******************
Kacey got in trouble again today. I cried , I always do i'm such a cry baby. That's what Kacey always calls me when she isn't calling me ginger nut, or skanky whore. I know more naughty words than anyone in my school, thanks to Ceara. I don't want to grow up like Kacey, I want to grow up and make a lot of money and buy mommy lots of presents and daddy and maybe even Kacey. I always get Kacey a Christmas present, she never gets me one. She always throws whatever I get her at the wall. Last Christmas I made her a pretty box to put her things in, it took me ages and ages and ages to make and it look so pretty but she broke it. That made me cry too.
Friday 29th March
**************The step-daughter****************
Dear diary, Yesterday Mom made me go to school. She dropped me outside, instead of letting me walk there and watched me go in. School was pretty crappy and all those cheerleaders get kicks out of making fun of how I dress and act. They're the kind of people who think it's a tragedy if they forget to put on some mascara, excuse me while I barf. The only think that got me through the day was Doug, he's my best friend, nothing more, no matter how much people tease me about him. They assume that just because my best friend is a guy we must be going out, puh-leese. We've known each other since I moved here and he's the only person who actually doesn't think i'm a ho. I guess Cathy and Neesha are okay people, but to tell the truth they annoy me. SO anyways school sucked and I was supposed to walk home with Ceara, but I thought screw that and walked home with doug. Then mom got all annoyed with me and got very, very worried when Ceara didn't show up after a few hours. She phoned the police and at about midnight mom got a call from a hospital in Chicago saying that Ceara was there. She got into the car with Derek and drove there, leaving me in the house on my own. I had Doug over and we chatted watched movies and ate popcorn. It's 10 am now and I haven't heard anything from mom, can't say I care.
***********The daughter*****************
Kacey didn't walk home with me yesterday and so I got on a big, big, bus to go home. But it didn't take me home, after a few hours I got to a big, big city. It was quite scary and this lady saw me and chased after me. I fell over and cut my face on some glass, it hurt. The lady took me to this place where there were lots of hurt and sick people, like me and sat down with me and held my hand while a nice man put some stitches in my face. He was very nice to me and asked where my mommy was and I told him what happened. He said that my sister sounded like an average teenager and he made me laugh. He said I could call him Dr Carter. Then a nice lady who he called Susan came in and said that she needed my mommy's name so she could phone her and tell her where I said , so I told her mommy's name. Then after a bit she came in and talked to Dr Carter and said that the Abby was Abby Lockhart. He was shocked but then I started crying because I missed mommy and he let me sit on his lap while he told me a story and I fell asleep there. Then I woke up and mommy was there, I think she knew the doctor because she talked to him in a way my friend's parents talk to each other. Mommy doesn't talk to daddy that way.
************The mother***************
Dear diary, Well, today Kacey went to school but she didn't walk back with Ceara like I told her to and as a result Ceara got lost. I phoned the police and a few hours later I got a phone call. It was Susan Lewis, would you believe it. She said that my daughter was here, I don't think she knew who I was. So I said,
"Susan? It's me Abby, you know, i used to be Abby Lockhart,"
She was surprised. She told me that Ceara was okay, she was found and came in for a few stitches. So I got into the car with Derek and drove to Chicago. When we got there it turned out that Carter had treated Ceara. He was sitting in curtain 3 and she was asleep in his arms. It was a very sweet sight. I had forgotten how much I miss him, he's a good person. It makes me wonder why things didn't work out between us. He told me and Derek that she was okay and I woke her up and Derek took her to the car. I was left in the room with Carter,
"so," I said to him and he smiled at me the way he used to. He said that it was good to see me again. It almost annoyed me that he wasn't upset that I had got married and had children. He gave me his phone number, he moved house and said that if I wanted I could call him and we could chat. We're back now and I keep on staring at the number, wanting to call him, but knowing I can't. Not if I want to keep my family together.
***********The step-father***********
Dear diary, Well Kacey hit the jackpot. She lost Ceara. Ceara turned up in an ER in Chicago and IO had to drive there with a very upset Abby in the car. When we got there Kacey was asleep on some doctor that Abby seemed to know. She was okay, just had a few stitched put in her face. I went to the car with Ceara and we waited a while for Abby to get back to the car. She took a while, it makes me wonder what she was saying to the doctor. I know Abby used to be a nurse, maybe she was friends with him, maybe she was more than friends with him. I guess I felt jealous. Abby is mine, I own her, she's my wife. I don't want to feel like this. I want to feel happy. Not much chance with Kacey around to ruin things.