Mad About You
Chapter 7: Ai Sincere Heart
AN: Thanks for the reviews, but I can't do what you asked me to do. It would give me a heart attack. And it would be very OOC. Sorry he can't sing, but I'm not THAT talented a writer! ^^ j/k. But I'll do the next best thing, make Kai mega jealous! This is pretty obvious, but I don't own the anime Excel Saga or the theme song. The translation is below the japanese lyrics, and I found it on AnimeLyrics. It so fits this story! This is gonna be fun.
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Sore wa ai ja nai. Ai wa sore ja nai. Ai shite 'ru kedo ai sarete wa inai.
This is not love. Love is not this. I love, but I am not loved.
Kai sat up in bed the next morning thinking. He had had a funny dream last night. He tried his best not to think of it, but it was just so hard.
He and Ayame had had a project to do for English, so the two of them had journeyed out to Ayame's house. Her father ended up not being home, so they had decided to start their project first. But Aya hadn't had anything on her mind but Kai apparently, because the second they Got inside, she had grabbed Kai and kissed him.
Kesshite ai ja nai... Ketsu wa ai ja nai... Ai shite 'ru kedo motometari wa shinai...
By no means is this love. Sex isn't love. I love, but I do not seek love out.
And of course, right after she had kissed him in the dream, his grandfather had burst in the room telling him to get up and get out. He didn't really want this at all, but since the dream was over, he decided to just get up anyway.
Kono mi sasagete inochi nagedashi Wakime mo furazu Tada hitasura ni Damashite sukashite yoko-hairi Tanin wo fumitaoshi keri wo kamashite
I lift up my body, throw down my life. I won't let my gaze waver to the sides, Only be earnest Tricking, searching, interfering, Trampling down other people!
As soon as he stood up however, he realized that he needed to change his sheets. Apparently his dream had stirred up some inner feelings he hadn't known about.
He grabbed his sheets off the bed and went to the laundry room, hoping that his grandfather wasn't anywhere around. As soon as the dryer was on, his grandfather appeared in the doorway, blocking Kai's only exit.
"What are you doing?" he asked suspiciously.
"Washing my sheets. That a crime?" Kai asked dangerously.
"I hope you haven't forgotten why we're here," his grandfather said to him. He seemed like he would be yelling if his voice wasn't so groggily. "You are only here because you've been so bad at your other schools, Kai. You're here to study and pass, not think of girls." Kai's eyebrows raised for a split second, but he quickly recovered.
"I don't know what you mean." His grandfather stepped out of the way and Kai practically ran up the stairs.
He wasn't really so transparent, was he?
Kai dressed quickly and grabbed his stuff. He was out the door in a few seconds.
Tonzura koite! Tonzura koite! Tonzura koite! Tonzura koite! Tonzura koite! Tonzura koite! Tonzura koite!
And we get the hell out! And we get the hell out! And we get the hell out! And we get the hell out! And we get the hell out! And we get the hell out! And we get the hell out!
Kai dodged up the street until he as sure he was out of his grandfather's earshot.
What the hell was wrong with him?
It was just a dream, right?
So why did his grandfather say those things?
Why was he dreaming about her anyway?
What was so special about her?
Why him?
Kai kept asking himself these questions the entire way to school. He stopped paying attention to where he was going, because he thought he knew the way. He did, but he didn't anticipate tripping.
Kai started to fall over, and there just happened to be a lamppost directly in front of him.
Banana no kawa de koronde mo Sore wa subete ano kata no tame... Shiite iu nara sore wa kitto Ai to iu na no chuuseishin...
Even if we slip on banana peels, This is all for his sake. I must say it, this is surely A kind of loyalty you might call love.
He banged his head on the post and fell over.
Kai sat up quickly, hoping no one was around and looking. He was in luck.
"Damnit!" His face really hurt.
"Kai?" It was Rei.
How could he have not seen Rei?
"What happened to your face? It's a big red spot there." He pointed.
"I'm aware," Kai said, sounding quite annoyed. He rubbed his face lightly and stood up. Then he started walking again.
"So why'd you fall? You walked straight in to that lamppost!" Rei asked curiously. "I doubt that it was an accident. So what were you thinking about?" There was a slight smile on his face.
Kai shuddered and his shoulders tensed.
What if Rei knew?
What if Rei found out?
What if he told Tyson? He'd never live it down!
What if he told Ayame?
Then he stopped. If he told someone else besides Max, it might make him feel better.
Make it go away.
And even if Rei did tell everyone else, which, Kai noted, would be completely out of character, Kai could just deny it.
Who would believe it, anyway?
Kai couldn't even have friends, let alone a crush! But he did have friends, didn't he? Rei and Max, and sometimes Tyson and Kenny were his friends.
And Ayame.
Ayame.
But he didn't love her!
Itsu mo ai ja nai... Ai wa itsu mo ja nai... Ai sare-sugicha kono mi ga mochimashen...
This is never love Love is never this This body of mine just can't take any more love!
"Rei, I have to tell you something."
Rei looked really surprised.
"Wha- why are you confiding in me?"
"I need someone else to know besides Max."
"Um, Kai-"
"Listen to me," Kai said and started walking again. "We're almost to school, so you need to hear this now. You can't tell anyone."
"Okay, shoot."
"I'm-I think-I'm in-lo-lo-" Before Kai could get it out, Rei interrupted him.
"Kai, before you finish, you should know that I'm not-I don't go that way."
"What?" Kai didn't understand him. He was too busy thinking of the words to say.
"I'm not fruity," Rei said simply. Kai looked up at him. It took a few more seconds before he understood what Rei was saying.
"NOT YOU! AYAME!" Rei looked relieved.
"Oh, okay then. Sorry." Then he looked up. "So you love Ayame?"
"Well, not exactly love, maybe just a-"
"You can't have it both ways, Kai. It's either or," Rei explained.
Ima ga chansu da O-kaidoku! Guramu ikura de kono mi mo douzo! Guumin wo aite ni hito-soudou shinbun busata ni naru mae ni!
Now's my chance to decipher it! Please tell me how much a gram costs! There could be a revolution of the ignorant masses but the newspapers would remain silent!
"Okay fine, so I love her."
"Good of you to admit it."
"Yeah. I gotta go," Kai said slowly.
"But we have to go to school! We're only a block away!" Rei protested.
"I forgot something- at home!" Kai lied. He didn't want to be near Rei anymore. Not now that he knew. He needed time.
Tonzura koite! Tonzura koite! Tonzura koite! Tonzura koite! Tonzura koite! Tonzura koite Tonzura koite!
And we get the hell out! And we get the hell out! And we get the hell out! And we get the hell out! And we get the hell out! And we get the hell out! And we get the hell out!
After he saw Rei get to the school entrance, he continued to school, hopefully without distractions. He didn't think he could handle telling anyone else his secret.
Especially since he still wasn't sure if it was love or not.
But then he thought about it and.
Hito no michi sura hazurete mo. Sore wa tabun ano kata no tame... Migaeri nado motomeyashinai Ai yori fukai chuuseishin...
People go their own ways. This is probably for her sake. I won't ask for anything in return. My loyalty is deeper than love.
Kai finally got to school and for the first time in a while, he wasn't late.
Good.
He headed to his locker and there she was.
He stared at her for a few seconds before continuing to his own locker.
"Hey, Kai! Guess what!"
"What?" he asked, trying to sound like he normally did when she said something - bored and uninterested.
"The auditions are tomorrow! I'm trying for the lead, but that means I might have to kiss Tatsuhiko, and it wouldn't feel right kissing a friend. What do you think I should do?" she asked.
"Good luck. I think you should try out. Just kiss him; it won't mean anything." Ayame smiled at him and kept rummaging through her locker.
"I like you, Kai. You give good advice." And with that, she walked away, forgetting to close her locker again.
Ochite yuku no mo oboreru no mo, Nani mo kamo ga ano kata no tame, Baka demo aho demo kamawanai; Ai to iu na no chuuseishin...
I might fall down and die, and I might drown, But everything's for his sake I might be an idiot, I might be a fool, but I don't care; This is a loyalty you might call love.
She didn't like Tatsuhiko at all! And she might even like Kai the same way he liked her! Kai smiled as he headed to gym, feeling much better than he had for days.
AN: That's it! I liked this chapter, but nothing has happened yet! Maybe next time! *wink* Please review!
AN: Thanks for the reviews, but I can't do what you asked me to do. It would give me a heart attack. And it would be very OOC. Sorry he can't sing, but I'm not THAT talented a writer! ^^ j/k. But I'll do the next best thing, make Kai mega jealous! This is pretty obvious, but I don't own the anime Excel Saga or the theme song. The translation is below the japanese lyrics, and I found it on AnimeLyrics. It so fits this story! This is gonna be fun.
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Sore wa ai ja nai. Ai wa sore ja nai. Ai shite 'ru kedo ai sarete wa inai.
This is not love. Love is not this. I love, but I am not loved.
Kai sat up in bed the next morning thinking. He had had a funny dream last night. He tried his best not to think of it, but it was just so hard.
He and Ayame had had a project to do for English, so the two of them had journeyed out to Ayame's house. Her father ended up not being home, so they had decided to start their project first. But Aya hadn't had anything on her mind but Kai apparently, because the second they Got inside, she had grabbed Kai and kissed him.
Kesshite ai ja nai... Ketsu wa ai ja nai... Ai shite 'ru kedo motometari wa shinai...
By no means is this love. Sex isn't love. I love, but I do not seek love out.
And of course, right after she had kissed him in the dream, his grandfather had burst in the room telling him to get up and get out. He didn't really want this at all, but since the dream was over, he decided to just get up anyway.
Kono mi sasagete inochi nagedashi Wakime mo furazu Tada hitasura ni Damashite sukashite yoko-hairi Tanin wo fumitaoshi keri wo kamashite
I lift up my body, throw down my life. I won't let my gaze waver to the sides, Only be earnest Tricking, searching, interfering, Trampling down other people!
As soon as he stood up however, he realized that he needed to change his sheets. Apparently his dream had stirred up some inner feelings he hadn't known about.
He grabbed his sheets off the bed and went to the laundry room, hoping that his grandfather wasn't anywhere around. As soon as the dryer was on, his grandfather appeared in the doorway, blocking Kai's only exit.
"What are you doing?" he asked suspiciously.
"Washing my sheets. That a crime?" Kai asked dangerously.
"I hope you haven't forgotten why we're here," his grandfather said to him. He seemed like he would be yelling if his voice wasn't so groggily. "You are only here because you've been so bad at your other schools, Kai. You're here to study and pass, not think of girls." Kai's eyebrows raised for a split second, but he quickly recovered.
"I don't know what you mean." His grandfather stepped out of the way and Kai practically ran up the stairs.
He wasn't really so transparent, was he?
Kai dressed quickly and grabbed his stuff. He was out the door in a few seconds.
Tonzura koite! Tonzura koite! Tonzura koite! Tonzura koite! Tonzura koite! Tonzura koite! Tonzura koite!
And we get the hell out! And we get the hell out! And we get the hell out! And we get the hell out! And we get the hell out! And we get the hell out! And we get the hell out!
Kai dodged up the street until he as sure he was out of his grandfather's earshot.
What the hell was wrong with him?
It was just a dream, right?
So why did his grandfather say those things?
Why was he dreaming about her anyway?
What was so special about her?
Why him?
Kai kept asking himself these questions the entire way to school. He stopped paying attention to where he was going, because he thought he knew the way. He did, but he didn't anticipate tripping.
Kai started to fall over, and there just happened to be a lamppost directly in front of him.
Banana no kawa de koronde mo Sore wa subete ano kata no tame... Shiite iu nara sore wa kitto Ai to iu na no chuuseishin...
Even if we slip on banana peels, This is all for his sake. I must say it, this is surely A kind of loyalty you might call love.
He banged his head on the post and fell over.
Kai sat up quickly, hoping no one was around and looking. He was in luck.
"Damnit!" His face really hurt.
"Kai?" It was Rei.
How could he have not seen Rei?
"What happened to your face? It's a big red spot there." He pointed.
"I'm aware," Kai said, sounding quite annoyed. He rubbed his face lightly and stood up. Then he started walking again.
"So why'd you fall? You walked straight in to that lamppost!" Rei asked curiously. "I doubt that it was an accident. So what were you thinking about?" There was a slight smile on his face.
Kai shuddered and his shoulders tensed.
What if Rei knew?
What if Rei found out?
What if he told Tyson? He'd never live it down!
What if he told Ayame?
Then he stopped. If he told someone else besides Max, it might make him feel better.
Make it go away.
And even if Rei did tell everyone else, which, Kai noted, would be completely out of character, Kai could just deny it.
Who would believe it, anyway?
Kai couldn't even have friends, let alone a crush! But he did have friends, didn't he? Rei and Max, and sometimes Tyson and Kenny were his friends.
And Ayame.
Ayame.
But he didn't love her!
Itsu mo ai ja nai... Ai wa itsu mo ja nai... Ai sare-sugicha kono mi ga mochimashen...
This is never love Love is never this This body of mine just can't take any more love!
"Rei, I have to tell you something."
Rei looked really surprised.
"Wha- why are you confiding in me?"
"I need someone else to know besides Max."
"Um, Kai-"
"Listen to me," Kai said and started walking again. "We're almost to school, so you need to hear this now. You can't tell anyone."
"Okay, shoot."
"I'm-I think-I'm in-lo-lo-" Before Kai could get it out, Rei interrupted him.
"Kai, before you finish, you should know that I'm not-I don't go that way."
"What?" Kai didn't understand him. He was too busy thinking of the words to say.
"I'm not fruity," Rei said simply. Kai looked up at him. It took a few more seconds before he understood what Rei was saying.
"NOT YOU! AYAME!" Rei looked relieved.
"Oh, okay then. Sorry." Then he looked up. "So you love Ayame?"
"Well, not exactly love, maybe just a-"
"You can't have it both ways, Kai. It's either or," Rei explained.
Ima ga chansu da O-kaidoku! Guramu ikura de kono mi mo douzo! Guumin wo aite ni hito-soudou shinbun busata ni naru mae ni!
Now's my chance to decipher it! Please tell me how much a gram costs! There could be a revolution of the ignorant masses but the newspapers would remain silent!
"Okay fine, so I love her."
"Good of you to admit it."
"Yeah. I gotta go," Kai said slowly.
"But we have to go to school! We're only a block away!" Rei protested.
"I forgot something- at home!" Kai lied. He didn't want to be near Rei anymore. Not now that he knew. He needed time.
Tonzura koite! Tonzura koite! Tonzura koite! Tonzura koite! Tonzura koite! Tonzura koite Tonzura koite!
And we get the hell out! And we get the hell out! And we get the hell out! And we get the hell out! And we get the hell out! And we get the hell out! And we get the hell out!
After he saw Rei get to the school entrance, he continued to school, hopefully without distractions. He didn't think he could handle telling anyone else his secret.
Especially since he still wasn't sure if it was love or not.
But then he thought about it and.
Hito no michi sura hazurete mo. Sore wa tabun ano kata no tame... Migaeri nado motomeyashinai Ai yori fukai chuuseishin...
People go their own ways. This is probably for her sake. I won't ask for anything in return. My loyalty is deeper than love.
Kai finally got to school and for the first time in a while, he wasn't late.
Good.
He headed to his locker and there she was.
He stared at her for a few seconds before continuing to his own locker.
"Hey, Kai! Guess what!"
"What?" he asked, trying to sound like he normally did when she said something - bored and uninterested.
"The auditions are tomorrow! I'm trying for the lead, but that means I might have to kiss Tatsuhiko, and it wouldn't feel right kissing a friend. What do you think I should do?" she asked.
"Good luck. I think you should try out. Just kiss him; it won't mean anything." Ayame smiled at him and kept rummaging through her locker.
"I like you, Kai. You give good advice." And with that, she walked away, forgetting to close her locker again.
Ochite yuku no mo oboreru no mo, Nani mo kamo ga ano kata no tame, Baka demo aho demo kamawanai; Ai to iu na no chuuseishin...
I might fall down and die, and I might drown, But everything's for his sake I might be an idiot, I might be a fool, but I don't care; This is a loyalty you might call love.
She didn't like Tatsuhiko at all! And she might even like Kai the same way he liked her! Kai smiled as he headed to gym, feeling much better than he had for days.
AN: That's it! I liked this chapter, but nothing has happened yet! Maybe next time! *wink* Please review!