Mad About You
Chapter 10: Scarlet
AN: I decided to put this chapter out in celebration of the new BB episode that came on today! Yes, I'm stuck watching the horrendous dub.
And yes, this is another songfic! BWAHAHAHA! The song is "Scarlet" from Ayashi no Ceres. I put the lyrics in brackets because when I upload stuff to ff.net it spaces out wrong, and last time it got all jumbled together. So this time you know what you're reading.
Also, this chapter will be rather sad. Not angst, but sad because it has sick children in it. I almost cried when I wrote it. Be warned.
I'm going to take the time now to answer any questions people asked in their reviews.
Dranzer: No it wasn't a dream, but remember they aren't officially together yet. ^^ There's lots of fanfics around that describe the kiss, and I probably will again soon. I'll let you know in the beginning before it happens though, okay? And I'm not using big words. . .
Zidane: Yes, Kai's grandfather does like to piss him off, huh? I put him in this chapter just for you!
Blue_Pheonix: I have a fan?! Cool! I don't want Kai to sing because I can't even *imagine* it happening! Can you honestly picture Kai singing? *laughs* It would also be out-of-character.
Thanks to everyone else who reviewed too! I read them all, and thanks so much for the feedback! Keep em' coming! Now on to the fanfic!
* {haruka na hoshizora ni yume wa mada miemasu ka? osanai ano hi yori azayaka desu ka? mune ni afurete tsunoru omoi nemuri wasurete jounetsu no iro
Can you still see your dreams in the distant, starry sky? Are they more vivid than they were when you were little? When one forgets to put the emotions that overflow in her heart to rest, they burn the color of passion.}
The weekend that followed Ayame and Kai's first kiss speeded by in a blur. It was all Kai could think about for two days.
He had let out all of his passion in that kiss, his love for Ayame, and all of the feelings that he had kept bottled up inside him all his life. Afterwards Kai had felt so relieved, but now that it was Monday morning, he was a bit apprehensive to go to school today.
He wasn't afraid, though, of course.
He was just. . .
There was no word for it.
He had also tried talking to Rei and Max on the phone that weekend, who had in turn tried to call Ayame on 4-way, but her guardian had said that she wasn't home.
Kai wasn't sure if she was avoiding him or not.
As he headed to his locker today, Ayame was standing there, fidgeting with her books as usual.
Kai's body stiffened when he saw her, but he still continued to his locker. When he reached it he said nothing, as he did every day. He tried to be as natural as possible, but it was hard when she started staring at him.
"Kai, my guardian said that you and Max and Rei tried to call this weekend. What about?" she asked him. Kai looked over at her. She was obviously trying to pretend that nothing happened.
Did that mean that she didn't like him?
"It was nothing important." He tried to change the subject. "Where were you?" he asked, trying to sound uninterested, but at the same time wanting a conversation. Ayame shoved some more books in her locker.
"The hospital," She said calmly. Kai tried his best not to sound worried when she spoke, but it crept in to his voice anyway.
{tatoe tookute mo kitto tadoritsukeru tsuyoku shinjite'ta ano hi no watashi ga ima mo kokoro de nemutte-iru GARASU no bara yori mo hakanakute moroi no ni yume miru koto wa naze sadame na no deshou
I used to believe without a doubt that I could reach my dreams, no matter how far off they were. But that me from long ago now sleeps inside my heart. Dreams are more fragile and fleeting than a glass rose, so then why are we destined to dream?}
"Why? What happened?" he asked. Ayame looked at him confused.
"What do you mean?" Kai didn't answer and then she realized what he was asking.
He was worried about her.
"Oh, I wasn't hurt or anything! You see I volunteer at the children's hospital on weekends and sometimes after school," she explained. Kai let out a silent breath of relief.
"You really don't care about yourself," Kai blurted without realizing it.
"What?"
"Oh, nothing."
Ayame finally finished with her locker and turned to Kai.
"You should come with me sometimes. I was thinking of going later today. Want to come?" she smiled her usual grin. Kai really wanted to go with her.
"Whatever."
"Okay, I'll meet you here later. I'd better go before I'm late," she added and hurried off to class.
Kai smiled after her.
Wait. . .
He was smiling?
Gross!
But was this a date?
Kai highly doubted that Ayame had the courage to ask him out on a date, but the again she had surprised him with that kiss. Maybe, just maybe, she liked him the way that he liked her.
Maybe the kiss wasn't a fluke after all.
Either way, Kai couldn't stand being without her. Having her in his arms the way she had been before felt too good for him to lose her. If the weekend had been any longer he probably would have killed himself.
{futatsu no yume ga ai ni natte ai ni narenai koto mo atte hito wa hitori da to; wakariaitai no ni; nante muzukashii kotoba wa muryoku de; toki ni wa gin no NAIFU ni naru
Sometimes two dreams can turn into love, but there are also times when they can't. Even when they're alone, people want to share their feelings, but it can be so hard. Words are powerless to express one's feelings, and sometimes they become a silver knife.}
Especially after being alone with his grandfather for 2 days.
*flashback*
"I thought you were only taking your friend home. You've been gone for hours," his grandfather asked after Kai had come home on Friday.
"That a crime?" Kai asked coyly.
"Not at all. I thought your girlfriend wasn't that type of girl, though."
"What's that supposed to mean?" Kai asked suspiciously.
"Nothing. Think what you want of it, but I hope you used protection."
He didn't think that they had. . . ?
Kai's hand balled itself in to a fist and he raised it to punch his grandfather in the face, but then he stopped himself. He knew better.
"You're lucky you're old," he remarked with a slight smirk on his face. Then Kai stalked off as fast as he could without running.
*End Flashback*
Kai remembered the weekend's odd events like a movie in his head. He wasn't paying attention where he was going in the hallway and ran in to something hard. Both him and the person fell over on to the floor. Kai looked up.
It was Tyson.
"Hey dude, why don't you look where you're going!" Tyson started and then realized that it was Kai who he had hit.
"You watch out, Tyson."
"Kai, you never daydream. What's up with you?" Tyson asked, regaining his dropped books and standing up.
Kai completely ignored him and headed for class.
*
The rest of the school day went by as it has every day that Kai had been there. Boring, weird, and immensely slow.
That afternoon, Kai waited by his locker for Ayame.
What if she never showed up?
Just as he thought that, however, Ayame appeared coming toward him.
"Ready?" Kai didn't respond, so she assumed that he was and lead the way out of the building.
Kai followed her a few blocks down the street to the children's hospital. He followed her inside and Ayame said something to the lady at the desk. She nodded and Kai followed Ayame to yet another room where she told him to wait for a few minutes.
She left the room and returned wearing sea-green hospital scrubs.
"Come on; I want to show you something." The headed down the hallway a bit before Kai finally spoke.
"Why do you do this?" he asked, crossing his arms with a frown on his face.
"There's two reasons. I want to show you one of them," she said seriously. Ayame was hardly ever serious around Kai, and now she seemed different. She was acting almost like him.
They reached a room with a large sign on the door titled "Cancer Patients." Kai was almost nervous to go inside. He didn't like watching sick and sad children, but the room was anything but sad.
As soon as the children, who were all about 6 or 7 years old, saw Ayame, they smiled and ran to hug her. Aya grinned brightly at Kai.
"This is where I get my cheerfulness from," she joked. Several of the children seemed to be afraid of Kai but one little girl pulled on his pants.
"Hello," she said and smiled. Kai looked down to see that she was bald. "My name is Cari. What's yours?" At first Kai was reluctant to speak to her, but then he worked up his courage and said something.
"Kai."
"I like your face, Kai. I like blue." Ayame almost burst in to tears because she was laughing so hard when she heard Cari say that. Kai glared at her and she only laughed harder.
Cari didn't seem to understand what was so funny, so she just grabbed Kai's hand and pulled him over to her bed. Ayame was still with the other children. She talked to him for a few minutes before Ayame spoke.
"I have to go get your medicine, Cari. You stay with Kai, okay?" Cari smiled and nodded.
"You love her, don't you?" Cari asked once Ayame had left. Kai almost fell of the bed. He was surprised that this little girl knew anything about love. When he didn't answer, however, Cari spoke to him again.
"I like her, too. She gives me hope. She told me they'll help me because they helped her." Kai was confused now.
"Who helped her? With what?"
"The doctors. Miss Ayame is like me." Cari grinned as though this were the best thing in the world.
"What?" Kai didn't understand at all. Then all of a sudden it was as if someone flicked on the lights in Kai's brain.
Ayame was like Cari.
Ayame had cancer.
"I'll be back!" Kai said to Cari.
He practically jumped off the bed and ran from the room.
He thought he saw Ayame go into a storage closet around the corner, so Kai followed her inside.
"Ayame. . ." Her head whirled around as she looked at a bewildered Kai. Suddenly his mask was back on, but it didn't hide the worry in his voice.
"Why didn't you tell me?" has asked her urgently.
"Tell you what?" she asked.
"That you have cancer." Ayame's eyes suddenly widened slightly. She was obviously shocked that Kai knew this in the first place.
"Who told you that?"
"Cari, but that's not the point," Kai blurted. "Here I am thinking that we're friends and you don't tell me one of the most important things about you? Why would you-" Ayame covered his mouth with her hand to silence him.
"It's not nearly as bad as you think, Kai. It's in remission. There's nothing wrong with me right now."
"But it could be."
"I would've told you."
"Then why didn't you?"
"Because I honestly didn't think that you'd care. You've never expressed any feelings towards me, Kai, so I wasn't sure If you thought of us as friends or not." Kai was taken aback by her comment, but he didn't show it.
"We ARE friends."
Ayame looked as though she were going to glomp him again. She had stars in her eyes and she was grinning broadly.
"Thank you Kai." She grabbed him by the waist and hugged him tightly. She didn't let go, so he decided that there was nothing wrong with hugging her back.
So he did.
Eventually they let go of each other and they both headed from the closet.
As they exited, Ayame waved to another passing volunteer. It was a boy. He seemed to be about their age, and he had red hair.
"Hey Tala!" Ayame called out to him. The boy turned and Kai was immediately jealous. He wasn't the best looking boy in the world, but she sure wasn't unattractive either.
"Aya-chan! What's up?" He headed over to her and Kai.
"Nothing. This is Kai. Kai, this is Tala." Kai nodded as though he didn't care and Tala frowned.
"You haven't dumped me, have you Aya?" has asked, half-joking, half not.
Ayame had a boyfriend.
That's why she had pretended like they hadn't kissed before.
She was loyal to him, this Tala character.
"Of course not." Kai could tell that she was uncomfortable, but the kiss still didn't seem like it meant anything to her.
*
"Thanks for coming with me today, Kai," Ayame said once they had left the hospital.
"Mm-hmm," Kai answered irritably. His heart wanted nothing more than to say that he loved her, but his brain wouldn't let him. Especially after meeting this Tala-character.
{hito wa hitori da to wakariaitai no ni nante muzukashii kotoba wa muryoku de toki ni wa gin no NAIFU ni... tatoe tookute mo kitto tadoritsukeru tsuyoku shinjite'ta ano hi no watashi ga ima mo kokoro de nemutte-iru.
Even when they're alone, people want to share their feelings, but it can be so hard. Words are powerless to express one's feelings, and sometimes they become a silver knife. I used to believe without a doubt that I could reach my dreams, no matter how far off they were. But that me from long ago now sleeps inside my heart.}
AN: I did NOT expect this to come out this way at all, but oh well. I really didn't expect Tala to be in it. I've never even seen him in the show, but from what I hear he's serious and arrogant; almost like Kai. So if he's OOC, it's not my fault. ^^ Please R&R! Thanks!
Chapter 10: Scarlet
AN: I decided to put this chapter out in celebration of the new BB episode that came on today! Yes, I'm stuck watching the horrendous dub.
And yes, this is another songfic! BWAHAHAHA! The song is "Scarlet" from Ayashi no Ceres. I put the lyrics in brackets because when I upload stuff to ff.net it spaces out wrong, and last time it got all jumbled together. So this time you know what you're reading.
Also, this chapter will be rather sad. Not angst, but sad because it has sick children in it. I almost cried when I wrote it. Be warned.
I'm going to take the time now to answer any questions people asked in their reviews.
Dranzer: No it wasn't a dream, but remember they aren't officially together yet. ^^ There's lots of fanfics around that describe the kiss, and I probably will again soon. I'll let you know in the beginning before it happens though, okay? And I'm not using big words. . .
Zidane: Yes, Kai's grandfather does like to piss him off, huh? I put him in this chapter just for you!
Blue_Pheonix: I have a fan?! Cool! I don't want Kai to sing because I can't even *imagine* it happening! Can you honestly picture Kai singing? *laughs* It would also be out-of-character.
Thanks to everyone else who reviewed too! I read them all, and thanks so much for the feedback! Keep em' coming! Now on to the fanfic!
* {haruka na hoshizora ni yume wa mada miemasu ka? osanai ano hi yori azayaka desu ka? mune ni afurete tsunoru omoi nemuri wasurete jounetsu no iro
Can you still see your dreams in the distant, starry sky? Are they more vivid than they were when you were little? When one forgets to put the emotions that overflow in her heart to rest, they burn the color of passion.}
The weekend that followed Ayame and Kai's first kiss speeded by in a blur. It was all Kai could think about for two days.
He had let out all of his passion in that kiss, his love for Ayame, and all of the feelings that he had kept bottled up inside him all his life. Afterwards Kai had felt so relieved, but now that it was Monday morning, he was a bit apprehensive to go to school today.
He wasn't afraid, though, of course.
He was just. . .
There was no word for it.
He had also tried talking to Rei and Max on the phone that weekend, who had in turn tried to call Ayame on 4-way, but her guardian had said that she wasn't home.
Kai wasn't sure if she was avoiding him or not.
As he headed to his locker today, Ayame was standing there, fidgeting with her books as usual.
Kai's body stiffened when he saw her, but he still continued to his locker. When he reached it he said nothing, as he did every day. He tried to be as natural as possible, but it was hard when she started staring at him.
"Kai, my guardian said that you and Max and Rei tried to call this weekend. What about?" she asked him. Kai looked over at her. She was obviously trying to pretend that nothing happened.
Did that mean that she didn't like him?
"It was nothing important." He tried to change the subject. "Where were you?" he asked, trying to sound uninterested, but at the same time wanting a conversation. Ayame shoved some more books in her locker.
"The hospital," She said calmly. Kai tried his best not to sound worried when she spoke, but it crept in to his voice anyway.
{tatoe tookute mo kitto tadoritsukeru tsuyoku shinjite'ta ano hi no watashi ga ima mo kokoro de nemutte-iru GARASU no bara yori mo hakanakute moroi no ni yume miru koto wa naze sadame na no deshou
I used to believe without a doubt that I could reach my dreams, no matter how far off they were. But that me from long ago now sleeps inside my heart. Dreams are more fragile and fleeting than a glass rose, so then why are we destined to dream?}
"Why? What happened?" he asked. Ayame looked at him confused.
"What do you mean?" Kai didn't answer and then she realized what he was asking.
He was worried about her.
"Oh, I wasn't hurt or anything! You see I volunteer at the children's hospital on weekends and sometimes after school," she explained. Kai let out a silent breath of relief.
"You really don't care about yourself," Kai blurted without realizing it.
"What?"
"Oh, nothing."
Ayame finally finished with her locker and turned to Kai.
"You should come with me sometimes. I was thinking of going later today. Want to come?" she smiled her usual grin. Kai really wanted to go with her.
"Whatever."
"Okay, I'll meet you here later. I'd better go before I'm late," she added and hurried off to class.
Kai smiled after her.
Wait. . .
He was smiling?
Gross!
But was this a date?
Kai highly doubted that Ayame had the courage to ask him out on a date, but the again she had surprised him with that kiss. Maybe, just maybe, she liked him the way that he liked her.
Maybe the kiss wasn't a fluke after all.
Either way, Kai couldn't stand being without her. Having her in his arms the way she had been before felt too good for him to lose her. If the weekend had been any longer he probably would have killed himself.
{futatsu no yume ga ai ni natte ai ni narenai koto mo atte hito wa hitori da to; wakariaitai no ni; nante muzukashii kotoba wa muryoku de; toki ni wa gin no NAIFU ni naru
Sometimes two dreams can turn into love, but there are also times when they can't. Even when they're alone, people want to share their feelings, but it can be so hard. Words are powerless to express one's feelings, and sometimes they become a silver knife.}
Especially after being alone with his grandfather for 2 days.
*flashback*
"I thought you were only taking your friend home. You've been gone for hours," his grandfather asked after Kai had come home on Friday.
"That a crime?" Kai asked coyly.
"Not at all. I thought your girlfriend wasn't that type of girl, though."
"What's that supposed to mean?" Kai asked suspiciously.
"Nothing. Think what you want of it, but I hope you used protection."
He didn't think that they had. . . ?
Kai's hand balled itself in to a fist and he raised it to punch his grandfather in the face, but then he stopped himself. He knew better.
"You're lucky you're old," he remarked with a slight smirk on his face. Then Kai stalked off as fast as he could without running.
*End Flashback*
Kai remembered the weekend's odd events like a movie in his head. He wasn't paying attention where he was going in the hallway and ran in to something hard. Both him and the person fell over on to the floor. Kai looked up.
It was Tyson.
"Hey dude, why don't you look where you're going!" Tyson started and then realized that it was Kai who he had hit.
"You watch out, Tyson."
"Kai, you never daydream. What's up with you?" Tyson asked, regaining his dropped books and standing up.
Kai completely ignored him and headed for class.
*
The rest of the school day went by as it has every day that Kai had been there. Boring, weird, and immensely slow.
That afternoon, Kai waited by his locker for Ayame.
What if she never showed up?
Just as he thought that, however, Ayame appeared coming toward him.
"Ready?" Kai didn't respond, so she assumed that he was and lead the way out of the building.
Kai followed her a few blocks down the street to the children's hospital. He followed her inside and Ayame said something to the lady at the desk. She nodded and Kai followed Ayame to yet another room where she told him to wait for a few minutes.
She left the room and returned wearing sea-green hospital scrubs.
"Come on; I want to show you something." The headed down the hallway a bit before Kai finally spoke.
"Why do you do this?" he asked, crossing his arms with a frown on his face.
"There's two reasons. I want to show you one of them," she said seriously. Ayame was hardly ever serious around Kai, and now she seemed different. She was acting almost like him.
They reached a room with a large sign on the door titled "Cancer Patients." Kai was almost nervous to go inside. He didn't like watching sick and sad children, but the room was anything but sad.
As soon as the children, who were all about 6 or 7 years old, saw Ayame, they smiled and ran to hug her. Aya grinned brightly at Kai.
"This is where I get my cheerfulness from," she joked. Several of the children seemed to be afraid of Kai but one little girl pulled on his pants.
"Hello," she said and smiled. Kai looked down to see that she was bald. "My name is Cari. What's yours?" At first Kai was reluctant to speak to her, but then he worked up his courage and said something.
"Kai."
"I like your face, Kai. I like blue." Ayame almost burst in to tears because she was laughing so hard when she heard Cari say that. Kai glared at her and she only laughed harder.
Cari didn't seem to understand what was so funny, so she just grabbed Kai's hand and pulled him over to her bed. Ayame was still with the other children. She talked to him for a few minutes before Ayame spoke.
"I have to go get your medicine, Cari. You stay with Kai, okay?" Cari smiled and nodded.
"You love her, don't you?" Cari asked once Ayame had left. Kai almost fell of the bed. He was surprised that this little girl knew anything about love. When he didn't answer, however, Cari spoke to him again.
"I like her, too. She gives me hope. She told me they'll help me because they helped her." Kai was confused now.
"Who helped her? With what?"
"The doctors. Miss Ayame is like me." Cari grinned as though this were the best thing in the world.
"What?" Kai didn't understand at all. Then all of a sudden it was as if someone flicked on the lights in Kai's brain.
Ayame was like Cari.
Ayame had cancer.
"I'll be back!" Kai said to Cari.
He practically jumped off the bed and ran from the room.
He thought he saw Ayame go into a storage closet around the corner, so Kai followed her inside.
"Ayame. . ." Her head whirled around as she looked at a bewildered Kai. Suddenly his mask was back on, but it didn't hide the worry in his voice.
"Why didn't you tell me?" has asked her urgently.
"Tell you what?" she asked.
"That you have cancer." Ayame's eyes suddenly widened slightly. She was obviously shocked that Kai knew this in the first place.
"Who told you that?"
"Cari, but that's not the point," Kai blurted. "Here I am thinking that we're friends and you don't tell me one of the most important things about you? Why would you-" Ayame covered his mouth with her hand to silence him.
"It's not nearly as bad as you think, Kai. It's in remission. There's nothing wrong with me right now."
"But it could be."
"I would've told you."
"Then why didn't you?"
"Because I honestly didn't think that you'd care. You've never expressed any feelings towards me, Kai, so I wasn't sure If you thought of us as friends or not." Kai was taken aback by her comment, but he didn't show it.
"We ARE friends."
Ayame looked as though she were going to glomp him again. She had stars in her eyes and she was grinning broadly.
"Thank you Kai." She grabbed him by the waist and hugged him tightly. She didn't let go, so he decided that there was nothing wrong with hugging her back.
So he did.
Eventually they let go of each other and they both headed from the closet.
As they exited, Ayame waved to another passing volunteer. It was a boy. He seemed to be about their age, and he had red hair.
"Hey Tala!" Ayame called out to him. The boy turned and Kai was immediately jealous. He wasn't the best looking boy in the world, but she sure wasn't unattractive either.
"Aya-chan! What's up?" He headed over to her and Kai.
"Nothing. This is Kai. Kai, this is Tala." Kai nodded as though he didn't care and Tala frowned.
"You haven't dumped me, have you Aya?" has asked, half-joking, half not.
Ayame had a boyfriend.
That's why she had pretended like they hadn't kissed before.
She was loyal to him, this Tala character.
"Of course not." Kai could tell that she was uncomfortable, but the kiss still didn't seem like it meant anything to her.
*
"Thanks for coming with me today, Kai," Ayame said once they had left the hospital.
"Mm-hmm," Kai answered irritably. His heart wanted nothing more than to say that he loved her, but his brain wouldn't let him. Especially after meeting this Tala-character.
{hito wa hitori da to wakariaitai no ni nante muzukashii kotoba wa muryoku de toki ni wa gin no NAIFU ni... tatoe tookute mo kitto tadoritsukeru tsuyoku shinjite'ta ano hi no watashi ga ima mo kokoro de nemutte-iru.
Even when they're alone, people want to share their feelings, but it can be so hard. Words are powerless to express one's feelings, and sometimes they become a silver knife. I used to believe without a doubt that I could reach my dreams, no matter how far off they were. But that me from long ago now sleeps inside my heart.}
AN: I did NOT expect this to come out this way at all, but oh well. I really didn't expect Tala to be in it. I've never even seen him in the show, but from what I hear he's serious and arrogant; almost like Kai. So if he's OOC, it's not my fault. ^^ Please R&R! Thanks!