Mad About You
Chapter 11: Confessions
AN: I knew I'd lose reviews with the last chapter, but I risked it. Oh well, I guess. I still got reviews, they were just different people than usual. I'm going back to my normal thing though now. Anywho, I'll post my responses to the reviews that I needed to.
Jeri101: Okay Chelsums, you are stupid. ^^ Not really, you just need to CATCH UP! *Coughs* WATCH MORE BEYBLADE! You must see the beauty that is Kai. Oh, and you might want to note that I'm going to seriously make this fic a combination of Everwood and some show where two enemies work together and become friends. I can't think of the title. ^^
Paiku: *imitates Kenshin Himura* Suicide is not the answer! Anywho, don't fret! Tala will not win! Because. . . *breathes heavily* HE IS KAI'S FATHER! *coughs* Okay, so that made no sense whatsoever, but I had to say it and um. . . let me just shut up now.
Kitty cat: HEY! Don't stop reading! Kai will tell her! Eventually. ^^ Sometime in the near future. *cough cough cough hint hint cough* Just know that it's NOT OVER YET!!!! BWAHAHAHA! I think I've lost my mind. No more potato chips for me tonight.
Van Nash: I have read some of her fics. And they scare me, not that it's a bad thing. Especially the one called Elan Vitale. I don't really get them though, because I have no idea who Kenji and Uriko are.
Thank you to everyone else who reviewed my story. If you want your name to be mentioned in my little thanks thingy above, you have to write a longer review or ask me a question! Yes, I'm bribing you; so what!? ^^' Oh, and lately I've noticed a lot of girls talking about how they love Kai. Well, you know what?
HE'S MINE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Well, uh, okay, that was lovely. Um, on to the fic!
**
Kai didn't sleep well at all that night.
All he could think about was Tala.
Tala and Ayame. . .
Maybe Ayame wasn't sloppy when she had kissed Kai because she had already kissed Tala first.
Maybe it wasn't her first kiss.
And it would only get worse in school the next day.
God, why did he have to love her anyway? Why couldn't it be some other girl, a girl that would actually want him that he wouldn't want? It would be so much easier to reject her!
But it was so much harder to reject her when he was the one who was in love; not her.
"Goddamnit Ayame!" Kai screamed aloud in his room. He was completely alone, even though he knew his grandfather was lurking about somewhere in the house, waiting to make Kai's life a living nightmare.
But Kai didn't really care anymore.
It was only about 5AM but Kai didn't care. He grabbed his school bag and headed out the front door.
He reached Aya's just as the sun was rising. He knew that he was waking everyone up when he rang the doorbell, but when Ayame answered the door, he was shocked.
"Kai, are you aware of how early it is?" she grinned and beckoned for him to enter. Kai followed suit and followed Aya to her room in which she closed the door.
"So why are you here so early?" Ayame asked again.
"Why are you up so early?" Kai answered her question with another question.
"I was talking to Tala all night long."
WHAT THE HELL!?
What was that supposed to mean?
The calm expression on Aya's face told Kai that she meant something different, though at the time, he wasn't exactly thinking logically.
If he had been, he wouldn't be here right now.
"WHAT!?" he exclaimed.
"He called last night. I've been getting the sniffles lately. He was worried so we talked."
"Oh."
"So, did you want to tell me something? My guardian is going to start getting annoyed if you keep ringing the doorbell all early in the morning like you have been lately," she giggled, trying to keep quiet.
"No, nothing."
"Then why are you here?" Realizing that it sounded rude the way she had said it, she added, "Not that I'm complaining or anything. I could use the company. Tala and I just hung up."
Kai said nothing for ten minutes.
"Does Tatsuhiko know?" he finally spoke, making Ayame jump in surprise. She folded her hands in front of her and leaned her head on them as she laid sideways on her bed.
"Know what?"
"About Tala."
"I'm not sure. Why would he care?"
What the hell, Kai thought. Might as well tell her.
"He likes you," he burst out. Ayame's eyes widened.
"Nuh-uh!" she cried.
"Yuh-huh," Kai teased her with his words, but at the same time he was disgusted with himself for ever using weird language like that.
"No way! That's not funny, Kai!" She was laughing.
"Yes way, and frankly, I think it's hilarious." Ayame rolled over on to her back and reached up and poked Kai in the chest.
"I never thought you could joke around, Kai. Never ever!"
"Never ever?" he repeated her words. "Great use of the English language, Aya."
Ayame froze.
"Do you realize that you just called my Aya?" Kai froze too, but only long enough for Ayame to poke him again.
"So you ARE a human being, huh, Kai? I didn't know you were capable of using nicknames!" Kai stopped frowning and smirked.
"Stop poking me! It tickles!" he cried, completely out-of-character.
He didn't care though.
He loved this girl.
Nothing would ever change that.
The worst part was that he knew it himself.
"Oh, so you're ticklish?" She sat up and started tickling Kai loosely, so that he could back away if he wanted to. It didn't matter though, because before she could get a good grip, Kai had flipped her on to her back and started tickling her too.
Ayame playfully tried to kick Kai away but his hands held her shoulders in place tightly. He climbed on top of her gently to hold her in place.
"Kai, stop, it tickles!" she managed to cry in between laughs, but she knew she wouldn't win.
"Sorry, but you started it," Kai smirked. "Say 'uncle'."
Ayame was laughing so hard she was crying now.
"Unc-un-uncle-" Kai finally stopped tickling her and gazed down at her tear- streaked face. She was still laughing, but it was dying down and Kai only stared at her.
Why did she have to be this fun?
Why did he enjoy being with her? Like this. . .
Why did he love her?
Kai tried to remember before. When exactly was it when he realized that this was love and not a crush? Kai couldn't even remember back that far. It had only been a few months since he had first met her, and already it seemed like an eternity. As soon as he had met Ayame he had felt as though he had already assimilated into this new school, this new town, these new people. . .
Then Kai had remembered it.
When he had kissed her.
That was when he was absolutely positive that he loved her.
The moment that their lips had touched, Kai didn't want to ever leave her again.
But she had a boyfriend.
"Kai? Are you alright?"
Ayame's words rushed into Kai's mind and brought him back to reality.
"What?" Kai asked, still sitting on top of her.
"You spaced out," Ayame responded, blinking a few times.
Kai got up finally and headed for the door.
"Kai, it's getting late. Why don't you just walk to school with me since you have your stuff here anyway." Kai stopped at the doorway but didn't turn around. He knew what he had to tell her.
"I can't walk to school with you today or ever, Ayame. We can't be friends anymore, and I can't come over here anymore. During every class you will not sit next to me ever again, and on projects you will work with someone else." Ayame only stared at him for a while, waiting for him to speak.
But he didn't.
Kai headed out of her bedroom and grabbed his things. He rushed as fast as he could. He didn't want Ayame's shock to disappear because he knew he'd have to explain if he did.
As soon as he reached for the front door handle, he heard Ayame call out his name.
"What?"
"Why did you say those things to me? I thought we were just having fun. . ." her voice was barely above a whisper.
"Do you want to know the truth?" Kai asked, his voice just above a whisper as well. He was still looking away from her, and his hair was covering his eyes so that Ayame couldn't see them even if he had been facing her.
She hesitated, then, "Yes." Kai took in a deep breath.
"It's because of Tala. I've never met him personally, and the way you talk about him he seems to be such a great guy. I can't compare to that. I'm nothing like that, Ayame, and I'm sorry, but I'll only get between you two."
"Kai, you can still be my friend. Having a boyfriend doesn't mean-"
"You're missing the point, Ayame." Kai's voice seemed annoyed and it grew louder. "I want to be more than your friend. I'm in love with you and I can't help it. I hate myself because of it, but I know it could never happen anyway, especially because you have a boyfriend, but I can't forget about you." Kai's hands were balled into a tight fist and they were shaking.
Ayame reached out as slowly as she could and gently grabbed Kai's hand. She took another step forward and leaned her forehead on his back. Kai could feel her tears through his shirt, and he could feel her head shaking slightly as she tried to hold in her crying.
"Kai, I-" her voice was choked slightly. "I love you, too." Kai's eyes widened slightly, but he regained his composure quickly and spoke.
"Ayame, because I can't forget about you, you have to forget about me. I'm not going to be your friend anymore." He pulled the front door open, tore himself from her grip, and left the apartment for school.
**
Kai knew he had hurt Ayame terribly, but it had shocked him to just hear those words coming from her mouth.
But he was worried about himself more.
About what he would do without her.
Kai couldn't push this out of his mind like he usually did in situations like these. He was the tough guy, the heartless, jerk, who no one wanted to be friends with, and who liked it that way.
And it was all he could do to keep from crying.
***
AN: AWWW! Kai was so OOC in that chapter it wasn't even funny. This turned out ABSOLUTELY NOTHING like I had planned it, and it's REALLY not a good thing, but it's not awful either I guess. I just have major writers block. Please give me some ideas in your reviews about what should happen next or you won't have another chapter for a loooong time! *hint hint*
Chapter 11: Confessions
AN: I knew I'd lose reviews with the last chapter, but I risked it. Oh well, I guess. I still got reviews, they were just different people than usual. I'm going back to my normal thing though now. Anywho, I'll post my responses to the reviews that I needed to.
Jeri101: Okay Chelsums, you are stupid. ^^ Not really, you just need to CATCH UP! *Coughs* WATCH MORE BEYBLADE! You must see the beauty that is Kai. Oh, and you might want to note that I'm going to seriously make this fic a combination of Everwood and some show where two enemies work together and become friends. I can't think of the title. ^^
Paiku: *imitates Kenshin Himura* Suicide is not the answer! Anywho, don't fret! Tala will not win! Because. . . *breathes heavily* HE IS KAI'S FATHER! *coughs* Okay, so that made no sense whatsoever, but I had to say it and um. . . let me just shut up now.
Kitty cat: HEY! Don't stop reading! Kai will tell her! Eventually. ^^ Sometime in the near future. *cough cough cough hint hint cough* Just know that it's NOT OVER YET!!!! BWAHAHAHA! I think I've lost my mind. No more potato chips for me tonight.
Van Nash: I have read some of her fics. And they scare me, not that it's a bad thing. Especially the one called Elan Vitale. I don't really get them though, because I have no idea who Kenji and Uriko are.
Thank you to everyone else who reviewed my story. If you want your name to be mentioned in my little thanks thingy above, you have to write a longer review or ask me a question! Yes, I'm bribing you; so what!? ^^' Oh, and lately I've noticed a lot of girls talking about how they love Kai. Well, you know what?
HE'S MINE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Well, uh, okay, that was lovely. Um, on to the fic!
**
Kai didn't sleep well at all that night.
All he could think about was Tala.
Tala and Ayame. . .
Maybe Ayame wasn't sloppy when she had kissed Kai because she had already kissed Tala first.
Maybe it wasn't her first kiss.
And it would only get worse in school the next day.
God, why did he have to love her anyway? Why couldn't it be some other girl, a girl that would actually want him that he wouldn't want? It would be so much easier to reject her!
But it was so much harder to reject her when he was the one who was in love; not her.
"Goddamnit Ayame!" Kai screamed aloud in his room. He was completely alone, even though he knew his grandfather was lurking about somewhere in the house, waiting to make Kai's life a living nightmare.
But Kai didn't really care anymore.
It was only about 5AM but Kai didn't care. He grabbed his school bag and headed out the front door.
He reached Aya's just as the sun was rising. He knew that he was waking everyone up when he rang the doorbell, but when Ayame answered the door, he was shocked.
"Kai, are you aware of how early it is?" she grinned and beckoned for him to enter. Kai followed suit and followed Aya to her room in which she closed the door.
"So why are you here so early?" Ayame asked again.
"Why are you up so early?" Kai answered her question with another question.
"I was talking to Tala all night long."
WHAT THE HELL!?
What was that supposed to mean?
The calm expression on Aya's face told Kai that she meant something different, though at the time, he wasn't exactly thinking logically.
If he had been, he wouldn't be here right now.
"WHAT!?" he exclaimed.
"He called last night. I've been getting the sniffles lately. He was worried so we talked."
"Oh."
"So, did you want to tell me something? My guardian is going to start getting annoyed if you keep ringing the doorbell all early in the morning like you have been lately," she giggled, trying to keep quiet.
"No, nothing."
"Then why are you here?" Realizing that it sounded rude the way she had said it, she added, "Not that I'm complaining or anything. I could use the company. Tala and I just hung up."
Kai said nothing for ten minutes.
"Does Tatsuhiko know?" he finally spoke, making Ayame jump in surprise. She folded her hands in front of her and leaned her head on them as she laid sideways on her bed.
"Know what?"
"About Tala."
"I'm not sure. Why would he care?"
What the hell, Kai thought. Might as well tell her.
"He likes you," he burst out. Ayame's eyes widened.
"Nuh-uh!" she cried.
"Yuh-huh," Kai teased her with his words, but at the same time he was disgusted with himself for ever using weird language like that.
"No way! That's not funny, Kai!" She was laughing.
"Yes way, and frankly, I think it's hilarious." Ayame rolled over on to her back and reached up and poked Kai in the chest.
"I never thought you could joke around, Kai. Never ever!"
"Never ever?" he repeated her words. "Great use of the English language, Aya."
Ayame froze.
"Do you realize that you just called my Aya?" Kai froze too, but only long enough for Ayame to poke him again.
"So you ARE a human being, huh, Kai? I didn't know you were capable of using nicknames!" Kai stopped frowning and smirked.
"Stop poking me! It tickles!" he cried, completely out-of-character.
He didn't care though.
He loved this girl.
Nothing would ever change that.
The worst part was that he knew it himself.
"Oh, so you're ticklish?" She sat up and started tickling Kai loosely, so that he could back away if he wanted to. It didn't matter though, because before she could get a good grip, Kai had flipped her on to her back and started tickling her too.
Ayame playfully tried to kick Kai away but his hands held her shoulders in place tightly. He climbed on top of her gently to hold her in place.
"Kai, stop, it tickles!" she managed to cry in between laughs, but she knew she wouldn't win.
"Sorry, but you started it," Kai smirked. "Say 'uncle'."
Ayame was laughing so hard she was crying now.
"Unc-un-uncle-" Kai finally stopped tickling her and gazed down at her tear- streaked face. She was still laughing, but it was dying down and Kai only stared at her.
Why did she have to be this fun?
Why did he enjoy being with her? Like this. . .
Why did he love her?
Kai tried to remember before. When exactly was it when he realized that this was love and not a crush? Kai couldn't even remember back that far. It had only been a few months since he had first met her, and already it seemed like an eternity. As soon as he had met Ayame he had felt as though he had already assimilated into this new school, this new town, these new people. . .
Then Kai had remembered it.
When he had kissed her.
That was when he was absolutely positive that he loved her.
The moment that their lips had touched, Kai didn't want to ever leave her again.
But she had a boyfriend.
"Kai? Are you alright?"
Ayame's words rushed into Kai's mind and brought him back to reality.
"What?" Kai asked, still sitting on top of her.
"You spaced out," Ayame responded, blinking a few times.
Kai got up finally and headed for the door.
"Kai, it's getting late. Why don't you just walk to school with me since you have your stuff here anyway." Kai stopped at the doorway but didn't turn around. He knew what he had to tell her.
"I can't walk to school with you today or ever, Ayame. We can't be friends anymore, and I can't come over here anymore. During every class you will not sit next to me ever again, and on projects you will work with someone else." Ayame only stared at him for a while, waiting for him to speak.
But he didn't.
Kai headed out of her bedroom and grabbed his things. He rushed as fast as he could. He didn't want Ayame's shock to disappear because he knew he'd have to explain if he did.
As soon as he reached for the front door handle, he heard Ayame call out his name.
"What?"
"Why did you say those things to me? I thought we were just having fun. . ." her voice was barely above a whisper.
"Do you want to know the truth?" Kai asked, his voice just above a whisper as well. He was still looking away from her, and his hair was covering his eyes so that Ayame couldn't see them even if he had been facing her.
She hesitated, then, "Yes." Kai took in a deep breath.
"It's because of Tala. I've never met him personally, and the way you talk about him he seems to be such a great guy. I can't compare to that. I'm nothing like that, Ayame, and I'm sorry, but I'll only get between you two."
"Kai, you can still be my friend. Having a boyfriend doesn't mean-"
"You're missing the point, Ayame." Kai's voice seemed annoyed and it grew louder. "I want to be more than your friend. I'm in love with you and I can't help it. I hate myself because of it, but I know it could never happen anyway, especially because you have a boyfriend, but I can't forget about you." Kai's hands were balled into a tight fist and they were shaking.
Ayame reached out as slowly as she could and gently grabbed Kai's hand. She took another step forward and leaned her forehead on his back. Kai could feel her tears through his shirt, and he could feel her head shaking slightly as she tried to hold in her crying.
"Kai, I-" her voice was choked slightly. "I love you, too." Kai's eyes widened slightly, but he regained his composure quickly and spoke.
"Ayame, because I can't forget about you, you have to forget about me. I'm not going to be your friend anymore." He pulled the front door open, tore himself from her grip, and left the apartment for school.
**
Kai knew he had hurt Ayame terribly, but it had shocked him to just hear those words coming from her mouth.
But he was worried about himself more.
About what he would do without her.
Kai couldn't push this out of his mind like he usually did in situations like these. He was the tough guy, the heartless, jerk, who no one wanted to be friends with, and who liked it that way.
And it was all he could do to keep from crying.
***
AN: AWWW! Kai was so OOC in that chapter it wasn't even funny. This turned out ABSOLUTELY NOTHING like I had planned it, and it's REALLY not a good thing, but it's not awful either I guess. I just have major writers block. Please give me some ideas in your reviews about what should happen next or you won't have another chapter for a loooong time! *hint hint*