(A/N) I think that you might like this chapter best. It's very interesting.
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C.D. Weasley: thanks for the review. I've done my best on the paragraph thing )sorry I hate paragraphing.
Now that I think about it I still feel really strongly about Lucius and {very} deep down I still love him but this long away from him and the way he's changed turns love into hate. Of course there is a bond that can never be broken between us because of what I am and I feel the same way about Siri. I can still remember the scent he used have and that god awful sneer he had toward James and Sirius. Lucius and I got together in Sixth year as soon as I and Severus broke up (a second time). When we'd been dating for about a year and a half (by the way he did know about my being a werewolf) there was this end of the year ball that Albus announced. I had wondered why it said that we needed dress robes. I'll just take you back then shall I?
[FLASHBACK] "Lily which should I wear? The Black Silk or the Green and Silver Velvet?"
"Which ever you want Kris."
"Lily! You aren't helping."
"Green. You know Lucius adores you in those colors."
"So are you going to wear the ones Jamie bought for you?"
"I don't really want to go but Sirius convinced me, so yhea I guess." {Downstairs in the Great hall}
(Lucius and Krissey) "Beautiful darling."
"I hoped you'd like it."
"May I have this dance?"
"Of course" {Song plays in background} He proposed to me Verse 1: Oooh. Oh yhea. It was Valentine's day February the fourteenth, My baby took me to a special place. Said he had a suprise for me. he told me to close my eyes so that I could not see and When them up he was on one knee reachin for my hand that's when
Chorus: He proposed to me he proposed with a diamond ring I started cryin tears filled my eyes He placed on my finger and I said yes He proposed to me Baby proposed with a diamond ring I couldn't believe it I looked in his eyes and I said Yes
Verse 2: I'll never forget that night It was Eight forty three pm to be precise he looked in my eyes and said "You've made me the happiest man alive" as soon as I got home I called my mother on the phone said "Momma you won't believe what just happened to me"
Chorus: He proposed to me he proposed with a diamond ring I started cryin tears filled my eyes He placed on my finger and I said yes He proposed to me Baby proposed with a diamond ring for the rest of our lives I couldn't believe it I looked in his eyes and I said Yes
Verse 3: cause we will be together baby and this I know See we will love forever baby my heart told me so See if you promise to hold me tight and never let me go we will be husband and wife for the rest of our lives
Chorus: He proposed to me he proposed with a diamond ring I started cryin (My baby asked me to love him so I'm gonna love him) He placed on my finger and I said yes He proposed to me Baby proposed with a diamond ring I couldn't believe it I looked in his eyes and I said Yes
After the dance he pulled me aside. "Kris, uh I uh want to ask you something."
"Shoot."
I turned my head back to watch Lily and Jamie dancing. Once I returned my attention to Lucius he was on one knee holding a black box. He took several deep breaths before finally gathering the courage.
"Wi-Willyoumarryme?"
"Hunh?"
"Will you marry me?"
I smiled an authentic smile, I hadn't done that for ages. "Of course!"
He wrapped me tightly in his arms and passionately kissed me. We decided to break the news at our end of the year party since we still had two days of school left. I still to this day don't understand the hate between he and the mauarders. He and Sirius I get but not Jamie James. Lils, as I figured she would, noticed the twenty four carat dimond ring with a emerald in the center and a silver painted gold band.
{In Gryffindor girls seventh year dormitory} "Ooh Kris where'd you get that?" Lily asked spotting the ring.
"Lucius."
"Krissey Nicole that looks like an engagement ring, well actually a wedding ring but you get the point. Are you--"
"I can't say."
"Oh my god! You are! You're engaged. Wow! That is so cool, maybe we could have our weddings on the same day?"
"What? What did you say?"
"Jamese proposed. Over by the fountain."
"That is so awesome."
{At the end of seventh year party} "HEY. HELLOOO! MAY I PLEASE HAVE EVERYONE'S ATTENTION, like NOW! Thank you. I just have a few announcements to make, actually two but that's ok. First of all I would like to congratulate Mr. James Steven Potter on his engagenent to MY best friend in the world, Ms. Lily Chaundice Evans."
James blushed and Lily grinned, while everyone in the area except the Slytherins whooped and cheered.
"Next of all I would like to announce that they aren't the only ones who happen to be engaged. I myself happened to get engaged last night as well."
"Who?" James asked me.
"Please step up here and give them a speech darling. We all know that you love attention."
Lucius stepped up to the center, the mauarders were at a loss for words.
"I would like to say, well nothing really, she was right I do love attention...but I love her more."
{Later that night} "Krissey you can't marry Malfoy."
"Stop! I can bloody well marry who ever I want to Sirius Christepher Black. Got me?"
"He won't let us around you anymore, though."
"Look, he can't stop you. He hasn't stopped us from seeing each other and I've been living with him since fourth year when my parents died."
"But--But, Please don't Messrs. I love you too much to allow you to go through with this."
"YOU CAN"T STOP ME!!! Besides you wouldn't have said that last year, it would have been more like,...Good that filthy prat deserves to be treated like that. Especially after what kind of attitude she's had with us. I hope she gets involved with Voldemort that way I can kill her and not get arrested. Correct?"
"NO, of course not. Kris I've loved you since the day we met in Diagon Alley. It hasn't changed."
"Dear god, Siri that was first year, seven years ago. We didn't even know that there was such a word. Much less that it actually had a meaning."
"I-I don't know what to do! Um I guess this is goodbye then."
"Siri, It'll never be goodbye between us and I never want to hear that. Do you understand? Yes I do love you but it would never work out."
"FINE THEN! GO ON! Go Join Voldemort's Goons."
I stormed off. It was all I could do to keep from strangling him, and god knows that had Lily been there she would have told me to go for it and she'd keep a lookout. We were quite the pair though, best friends since Remus and I broke up in second year. Her and Sev kept me from killing myself over the mauarders. Then again I may be partially the reason James got kicked in the groin so much.
I left the next day with my year book at hand, I grinned the entire time I was walking away. As soon as Lucius and I were out of the grounds and back home his father decided to invite someone to dinner by the name of Tom Riddle. I figured out who he was as soon as knocked on the door. Suddenly I felt this terribly strange urge to throw myself at his feet and ask for that terrible design that Lily had given to him. I wanted to convert to the dark side and feel the rush of life in danger knowing I could be killed at any second. I have no idea why I wanted it so badly, but I do know that Lucius felt it too. I could see it in his eyes and I believe Tom could see through the both of us.
"You must be Ms. Sylvester." he said kissing my hand. "Mr. Malfoy has told me much about you. I'm sorry I couldn't have been here over the last few years to meet her Christepher."
"Thank you Mr. Riddle."
"Charming isn't she? Please call me Tom."
"Okay, thank you Tom."
"And how are you Lucius?"
"Great, if you'd stop hitting on my fincae." he replied sarcastically. "She's too young for you."
"Oh really now is she?" Voldemort retorted just as mouthy.
"Now now boys."
After we had dinner the three of us went out on the estate looking around. All we found were some really wierd lizards: they blew up, were reborn, and then turned six shades of blue split in half and began the process once again.
"Odd little creatures aren't the Ms. Sylvester or should I say soon to be Mrs. Malfoy?"
"Krissey would be fine Tom. Have you heard from Lily recently?"
"No not at all actually. Do you know why she refused to be my right hand girl and or wife?"
"Yhea she's in love with James they're engaged."
"POTTER! Well I hope she's happy with the estranging git."
"Sounds kind of like what one of his friends told me only it went something like this: Don't marry Malfoy, Blah Blah Blah, Go join Voldemort's goons."
"Remind me to thank him Personally would you?"
I turned my attention to Lucius because I had realised that he had not said one word in the entire time we had been outside and he didn't seem to be paying attention to the conversation going on.
"What are you thinking about?"
"Hunh? Oh not much really just about the sides."
"I kind of want to go to the dark side and feel that rush in life. What about You?"
"Definetly dark. I love the rush as well. What about you Tom?"
"Rearrange the letters in my name and tell me what you find. Tom Marvolo Riddle."
"Voldemort---Lord.........I and am."
"Very good Krissey. Now rearrange the words."
"I am Lord Voldemort? You? You are Lord Voldemort?"
"Correct and if you were serious then come and I shall give you the tests. And of course the mark."
The both of us followed Tom unto his dwelling in the Alendoren Cave, off the coast of Albania, and there we proceeded to be cursed continually for hours on end. We were then branded and cursed once more. He told us that if the scar burned then it ment he needed us and that we were to apprate to him immediately. For the next few months we done as he wished and had hardly any time at all to plan the wedding. Then it happened I got pregnant with Draco Alexander Malfoy, Lucius' son.
Lucius started drinking to escape the pain in which had been inflicted on him by Tom and the other Death Eaters as they were called except for myself. I was excluded from the events of the nine months I was craving odd things and trying not to strangle the bloody hell out of Lucius for making me fat and tired all the time. Believe me he paid for that at the hospital, I believe that not even skele-gro helped the bones in his left hand. That was the one I had squeezed terribly hard while pushing to get a ten and a half inch baby that weighed seven pounds out of a hole the size of a lemon. I literally wanted to kill him over that one.
The night I returned from the hospital we got into a fight because Vira, Lucius' little sister had said that Narcissa Sikora had been over to visit Lucius for the past week and they never left his room.
"What was Serena doing here?"
"Who? Oh, Oh Narcissa. She was here congratulating me about Draco."
"For an entire week and spent entirely in YOUR room? Please? And Don't lie to me."
"What business is it of yours?"
"The fact that I'm your fincae oh and of course that I am the mother of your only son!!!----You've been drinking again haven't you? Or where you Main lining?"
"I have been drinking but I haven't been taking drug shots, you probably have though."
"Figures you're drunk, you cheated on me, and you accused me of doing the bullshit that you know killed my mother. I'm sorry I can't do this when you keep drinking because you become such a fascist asshole. I'll be at Sev's once you sober up, that is if you're ready to apologise."
I apprated to Severus' home and asked if Draco and I could stay knowing that he would say yes I magicked a crib for Draco and layed down on the couch. A few days later, I suspect after Lucius' had sobered up a bit, I recieved a poem by mail.
Six Silent Tears
Last night before I went to bed, thoughts of you filled my troubled head.
Though I've not cried this way in many years, out on my pillow fell six silent tears.
The first was for your smile that I miss, and your tender lips that I long to kiss.
The second was for your angel face, and the thoughts of your warm loving embrace.
The third came as no surprise, as I thought of your beautiful eyes.
After this the fourth came rolling, instead of my pillow it was you I should have been holding.
The fifth came for one reason alone, I felt my love for you was not fully shown.
I really love and miss you my dear, and there just fell the sixth silent tear.
~Love Always~ Lucius Malfoy
I missed him dearly so I forgave him but he ended up doing it again only this time he forced those at the Ministry, where he was working, to sign him custiody and then kicked me out of the house. I moved in with Sirius after I finally gave in and agreed he was right. I told them all I had heard except that I was on Voldemort's side.
C.D. Weasley: thanks for the review. I've done my best on the paragraph thing )sorry I hate paragraphing.
Now that I think about it I still feel really strongly about Lucius and {very} deep down I still love him but this long away from him and the way he's changed turns love into hate. Of course there is a bond that can never be broken between us because of what I am and I feel the same way about Siri. I can still remember the scent he used have and that god awful sneer he had toward James and Sirius. Lucius and I got together in Sixth year as soon as I and Severus broke up (a second time). When we'd been dating for about a year and a half (by the way he did know about my being a werewolf) there was this end of the year ball that Albus announced. I had wondered why it said that we needed dress robes. I'll just take you back then shall I?
[FLASHBACK] "Lily which should I wear? The Black Silk or the Green and Silver Velvet?"
"Which ever you want Kris."
"Lily! You aren't helping."
"Green. You know Lucius adores you in those colors."
"So are you going to wear the ones Jamie bought for you?"
"I don't really want to go but Sirius convinced me, so yhea I guess." {Downstairs in the Great hall}
(Lucius and Krissey) "Beautiful darling."
"I hoped you'd like it."
"May I have this dance?"
"Of course" {Song plays in background} He proposed to me Verse 1: Oooh. Oh yhea. It was Valentine's day February the fourteenth, My baby took me to a special place. Said he had a suprise for me. he told me to close my eyes so that I could not see and When them up he was on one knee reachin for my hand that's when
Chorus: He proposed to me he proposed with a diamond ring I started cryin tears filled my eyes He placed on my finger and I said yes He proposed to me Baby proposed with a diamond ring I couldn't believe it I looked in his eyes and I said Yes
Verse 2: I'll never forget that night It was Eight forty three pm to be precise he looked in my eyes and said "You've made me the happiest man alive" as soon as I got home I called my mother on the phone said "Momma you won't believe what just happened to me"
Chorus: He proposed to me he proposed with a diamond ring I started cryin tears filled my eyes He placed on my finger and I said yes He proposed to me Baby proposed with a diamond ring for the rest of our lives I couldn't believe it I looked in his eyes and I said Yes
Verse 3: cause we will be together baby and this I know See we will love forever baby my heart told me so See if you promise to hold me tight and never let me go we will be husband and wife for the rest of our lives
Chorus: He proposed to me he proposed with a diamond ring I started cryin (My baby asked me to love him so I'm gonna love him) He placed on my finger and I said yes He proposed to me Baby proposed with a diamond ring I couldn't believe it I looked in his eyes and I said Yes
After the dance he pulled me aside. "Kris, uh I uh want to ask you something."
"Shoot."
I turned my head back to watch Lily and Jamie dancing. Once I returned my attention to Lucius he was on one knee holding a black box. He took several deep breaths before finally gathering the courage.
"Wi-Willyoumarryme?"
"Hunh?"
"Will you marry me?"
I smiled an authentic smile, I hadn't done that for ages. "Of course!"
He wrapped me tightly in his arms and passionately kissed me. We decided to break the news at our end of the year party since we still had two days of school left. I still to this day don't understand the hate between he and the mauarders. He and Sirius I get but not Jamie James. Lils, as I figured she would, noticed the twenty four carat dimond ring with a emerald in the center and a silver painted gold band.
{In Gryffindor girls seventh year dormitory} "Ooh Kris where'd you get that?" Lily asked spotting the ring.
"Lucius."
"Krissey Nicole that looks like an engagement ring, well actually a wedding ring but you get the point. Are you--"
"I can't say."
"Oh my god! You are! You're engaged. Wow! That is so cool, maybe we could have our weddings on the same day?"
"What? What did you say?"
"Jamese proposed. Over by the fountain."
"That is so awesome."
{At the end of seventh year party} "HEY. HELLOOO! MAY I PLEASE HAVE EVERYONE'S ATTENTION, like NOW! Thank you. I just have a few announcements to make, actually two but that's ok. First of all I would like to congratulate Mr. James Steven Potter on his engagenent to MY best friend in the world, Ms. Lily Chaundice Evans."
James blushed and Lily grinned, while everyone in the area except the Slytherins whooped and cheered.
"Next of all I would like to announce that they aren't the only ones who happen to be engaged. I myself happened to get engaged last night as well."
"Who?" James asked me.
"Please step up here and give them a speech darling. We all know that you love attention."
Lucius stepped up to the center, the mauarders were at a loss for words.
"I would like to say, well nothing really, she was right I do love attention...but I love her more."
{Later that night} "Krissey you can't marry Malfoy."
"Stop! I can bloody well marry who ever I want to Sirius Christepher Black. Got me?"
"He won't let us around you anymore, though."
"Look, he can't stop you. He hasn't stopped us from seeing each other and I've been living with him since fourth year when my parents died."
"But--But, Please don't Messrs. I love you too much to allow you to go through with this."
"YOU CAN"T STOP ME!!! Besides you wouldn't have said that last year, it would have been more like,...Good that filthy prat deserves to be treated like that. Especially after what kind of attitude she's had with us. I hope she gets involved with Voldemort that way I can kill her and not get arrested. Correct?"
"NO, of course not. Kris I've loved you since the day we met in Diagon Alley. It hasn't changed."
"Dear god, Siri that was first year, seven years ago. We didn't even know that there was such a word. Much less that it actually had a meaning."
"I-I don't know what to do! Um I guess this is goodbye then."
"Siri, It'll never be goodbye between us and I never want to hear that. Do you understand? Yes I do love you but it would never work out."
"FINE THEN! GO ON! Go Join Voldemort's Goons."
I stormed off. It was all I could do to keep from strangling him, and god knows that had Lily been there she would have told me to go for it and she'd keep a lookout. We were quite the pair though, best friends since Remus and I broke up in second year. Her and Sev kept me from killing myself over the mauarders. Then again I may be partially the reason James got kicked in the groin so much.
I left the next day with my year book at hand, I grinned the entire time I was walking away. As soon as Lucius and I were out of the grounds and back home his father decided to invite someone to dinner by the name of Tom Riddle. I figured out who he was as soon as knocked on the door. Suddenly I felt this terribly strange urge to throw myself at his feet and ask for that terrible design that Lily had given to him. I wanted to convert to the dark side and feel the rush of life in danger knowing I could be killed at any second. I have no idea why I wanted it so badly, but I do know that Lucius felt it too. I could see it in his eyes and I believe Tom could see through the both of us.
"You must be Ms. Sylvester." he said kissing my hand. "Mr. Malfoy has told me much about you. I'm sorry I couldn't have been here over the last few years to meet her Christepher."
"Thank you Mr. Riddle."
"Charming isn't she? Please call me Tom."
"Okay, thank you Tom."
"And how are you Lucius?"
"Great, if you'd stop hitting on my fincae." he replied sarcastically. "She's too young for you."
"Oh really now is she?" Voldemort retorted just as mouthy.
"Now now boys."
After we had dinner the three of us went out on the estate looking around. All we found were some really wierd lizards: they blew up, were reborn, and then turned six shades of blue split in half and began the process once again.
"Odd little creatures aren't the Ms. Sylvester or should I say soon to be Mrs. Malfoy?"
"Krissey would be fine Tom. Have you heard from Lily recently?"
"No not at all actually. Do you know why she refused to be my right hand girl and or wife?"
"Yhea she's in love with James they're engaged."
"POTTER! Well I hope she's happy with the estranging git."
"Sounds kind of like what one of his friends told me only it went something like this: Don't marry Malfoy, Blah Blah Blah, Go join Voldemort's goons."
"Remind me to thank him Personally would you?"
I turned my attention to Lucius because I had realised that he had not said one word in the entire time we had been outside and he didn't seem to be paying attention to the conversation going on.
"What are you thinking about?"
"Hunh? Oh not much really just about the sides."
"I kind of want to go to the dark side and feel that rush in life. What about You?"
"Definetly dark. I love the rush as well. What about you Tom?"
"Rearrange the letters in my name and tell me what you find. Tom Marvolo Riddle."
"Voldemort---Lord.........I and am."
"Very good Krissey. Now rearrange the words."
"I am Lord Voldemort? You? You are Lord Voldemort?"
"Correct and if you were serious then come and I shall give you the tests. And of course the mark."
The both of us followed Tom unto his dwelling in the Alendoren Cave, off the coast of Albania, and there we proceeded to be cursed continually for hours on end. We were then branded and cursed once more. He told us that if the scar burned then it ment he needed us and that we were to apprate to him immediately. For the next few months we done as he wished and had hardly any time at all to plan the wedding. Then it happened I got pregnant with Draco Alexander Malfoy, Lucius' son.
Lucius started drinking to escape the pain in which had been inflicted on him by Tom and the other Death Eaters as they were called except for myself. I was excluded from the events of the nine months I was craving odd things and trying not to strangle the bloody hell out of Lucius for making me fat and tired all the time. Believe me he paid for that at the hospital, I believe that not even skele-gro helped the bones in his left hand. That was the one I had squeezed terribly hard while pushing to get a ten and a half inch baby that weighed seven pounds out of a hole the size of a lemon. I literally wanted to kill him over that one.
The night I returned from the hospital we got into a fight because Vira, Lucius' little sister had said that Narcissa Sikora had been over to visit Lucius for the past week and they never left his room.
"What was Serena doing here?"
"Who? Oh, Oh Narcissa. She was here congratulating me about Draco."
"For an entire week and spent entirely in YOUR room? Please? And Don't lie to me."
"What business is it of yours?"
"The fact that I'm your fincae oh and of course that I am the mother of your only son!!!----You've been drinking again haven't you? Or where you Main lining?"
"I have been drinking but I haven't been taking drug shots, you probably have though."
"Figures you're drunk, you cheated on me, and you accused me of doing the bullshit that you know killed my mother. I'm sorry I can't do this when you keep drinking because you become such a fascist asshole. I'll be at Sev's once you sober up, that is if you're ready to apologise."
I apprated to Severus' home and asked if Draco and I could stay knowing that he would say yes I magicked a crib for Draco and layed down on the couch. A few days later, I suspect after Lucius' had sobered up a bit, I recieved a poem by mail.
Six Silent Tears
Last night before I went to bed, thoughts of you filled my troubled head.
Though I've not cried this way in many years, out on my pillow fell six silent tears.
The first was for your smile that I miss, and your tender lips that I long to kiss.
The second was for your angel face, and the thoughts of your warm loving embrace.
The third came as no surprise, as I thought of your beautiful eyes.
After this the fourth came rolling, instead of my pillow it was you I should have been holding.
The fifth came for one reason alone, I felt my love for you was not fully shown.
I really love and miss you my dear, and there just fell the sixth silent tear.
~Love Always~ Lucius Malfoy
I missed him dearly so I forgave him but he ended up doing it again only this time he forced those at the Ministry, where he was working, to sign him custiody and then kicked me out of the house. I moved in with Sirius after I finally gave in and agreed he was right. I told them all I had heard except that I was on Voldemort's side.