When I woke up I was in a small dark room filled with the sounds of a
muggle band that played over and over again. One of my few favorites.
Saliva "Always" :
Verse 1: I hear a voice say don't be so blind it's telling me all these things that you would probably hide Am I your one and only desire am I the reason you breathe or am I the reason you cry
Chorus: Always Always Always Always Always Always I just can't live without you Always Always Always Always
Verse 2: I feel like you don't want me around I guess I'll pack all my things I guess I'll see you around it's all been bottled up until now as I walk out your door all I can hear is the sound
Chorus: Always Always Always Always Always Always I just can't live without you I love you I hate you I can't get around you I breathe you I taste you I can't live without you I just can't take anymore this life of solitude I guess that I'm out the door and now I'm done with you
Verse 3: I left my hand around your heart Why would you tear my world apart Always Always Always Always
Verse 4: I see the blood all over your hands does it make you feel more like a man Was this all just a part of your plan the pistol shaking in my hands and all I hear is the sound
Chorus: I love you I hate you I can't get around you I breathe you I taste you I can't live without you I just can't take anymore this life of solitude I guess that I'm out the door and now I'm done with you
Verse 5: I love you I hate you I can't live without you I love you I hate you I can't live without you I just can't take anymore this life of solitude I pick myself off the floor and now I'm done with you Always Always Always {End Song}
It reminded me of how I felt about all those I thought I loved, I remembered the pain and hell they had put me through. I could feel nothing toward them anymore. Then Severus walked in, tsking at me.
"What did I do now?"
"Don't you remember? The bridge, the dagger?"
"Oh no, Again. Let me guess, Once again you Stopped me?"
"Un-huh."
"Why did you do that?"
"Relax, Sirius is on his way."
"WHAT?!!? Ugh, I can't believe you asked that-that-UGH!!....You know I would really love to kill you right now."
"I take it you and him are in a fight."
"No, we're getting married next week..Of COURSE we're fighting. And if I never see the prat again it'll be too soon for me."
I blacked out again.
When I awoke I heard Sirius' voice, he was getting ready to read my poetry, I didn't open my eyes, I wanted to hear what he thought.
Third Year, when we were fighting:
Eyes Brimming With Tears(1)
Vision blurred
Emotion stirred
Temples throbbing
Head bobbing
Feelings hurt
Treated like dirt
Face gets paler
Realizing you're a failure
Second year when me and Remie broke up:
The Strong One(2)
Forced to portray a smile,
when everyone's in tears.
You were the stron one all the while,
Over all these years.
Wishing I could thank you,
You are worth everything to me.
My shoulder's here for you too,
If only you could see.
Your shoulder's soaked with all my tears,
My eyes seem all cried out.
You still have open arms there,
And again I decide to pout.
I'm sorry I can't change me,
So you could be able to cry.
The strong one, I am too weak to be,
But believe me I do try.
Seventh year night before graduation:
One Last Disappointment
I've always been faulty,
Blame it on me.
Would you be happier,
If Iwasn't to be?
My life's just a rental,
You can't bare to lose.
Don't hug me too tight,
I might start to bruise.
I reject all the love,
That I don't recieve.
The hurt that I feel,
You would never believe.
I am a failure,
And everything less.
I am nothin but a disppointment,
Right now I confess.
I dwell on things,
I can never repair.
There's nothing left to live for,
I wish some would care.
The scars on my arms,
Will forvever remain.
They take me back to the days,
The days full of pain.
My hurt is a scab,
I pick til it bleeds.
The hurt and pain I go through,
My razor now feeds.
The record is broken,
I can't stop the cuts.
I thought I could bare it,
But it just hurts too much.
I'll disappoint you once more,
And then I will go.
How sorry I was,
You'll never know.
The blood leaves my body,
I cannot go back.
I had no other choices,
It's love that I lack.
There will be no more pain,
I'll force you through.
I'm sorry I failed again.
This was all my fault,
Don't ever blame it on you.
Today when I was upstairs:
Betryal(3)
An echo fades in to the night,
an eerie mournful sound.
A shooting star disappers form sight,
and I crumnle to the ground.
There is no life within this garden;
my sobs are the only sound.
I hade poisoned the honeyed fountain
where your love could be found.
Dazed, I stare at the stars above,
my grieving howls fill th night!
Unintended betrayal of love
has hidden you from my sight.
I remember how it used to be
when we shared our fears and delights.
You are a treasured friend to me.
How can I make things right?
Feeling afraid, cold and lonely,
I long to tell you how I feel,
but you don't want to hear me.
The pain for you is much too real.
Should I back away and build a wall
and block away how I feel?
Or, should I give you a call?
We both need some time to heal.
An echo fades into the night
as out friendship disapppears.
How do I know what is right?
How can I ease my fears?
If I do give you a call again,
would thi old woulnds reappear?
I can't stand to cause you pain.
Hurting you again is my worst fear.
By the time he'd finished reading them he was crying I could hear the sobs escaping his tender lips. I knew that I truly loved him more than life it's self. I slowly opened my eyes and turned to face him. I reached out to touch him but he pulled away.
"You were right Kris, I would've never fought with you and I would've understood, I'm no better than Voldemort himself."
"That's not true Si, I never want to hear you say that again. Look I love you and I know I do. Let's get out of here and go see Lils and Jamie, hunh?"
"Yhea ok I guess."
"Come On now. Dry your eyes and help me up."
He done as I asked and then there was the last meeting of the mauarders.
(A/N:) If you guys have any thing you would like to see please tell me. And please review, flames are welcome, although they will be used to blow up the camden county high school j/k. If there is anything at all even if it is Slash or terribly Slytherin and evil. Oh and for those of you who don't know, Krissey was sorted into Gryffindor and then in second year she is told that they think the sorting hat malfunctioned and is resorted into Slytherin.
Saliva "Always" :
Verse 1: I hear a voice say don't be so blind it's telling me all these things that you would probably hide Am I your one and only desire am I the reason you breathe or am I the reason you cry
Chorus: Always Always Always Always Always Always I just can't live without you Always Always Always Always
Verse 2: I feel like you don't want me around I guess I'll pack all my things I guess I'll see you around it's all been bottled up until now as I walk out your door all I can hear is the sound
Chorus: Always Always Always Always Always Always I just can't live without you I love you I hate you I can't get around you I breathe you I taste you I can't live without you I just can't take anymore this life of solitude I guess that I'm out the door and now I'm done with you
Verse 3: I left my hand around your heart Why would you tear my world apart Always Always Always Always
Verse 4: I see the blood all over your hands does it make you feel more like a man Was this all just a part of your plan the pistol shaking in my hands and all I hear is the sound
Chorus: I love you I hate you I can't get around you I breathe you I taste you I can't live without you I just can't take anymore this life of solitude I guess that I'm out the door and now I'm done with you
Verse 5: I love you I hate you I can't live without you I love you I hate you I can't live without you I just can't take anymore this life of solitude I pick myself off the floor and now I'm done with you Always Always Always {End Song}
It reminded me of how I felt about all those I thought I loved, I remembered the pain and hell they had put me through. I could feel nothing toward them anymore. Then Severus walked in, tsking at me.
"What did I do now?"
"Don't you remember? The bridge, the dagger?"
"Oh no, Again. Let me guess, Once again you Stopped me?"
"Un-huh."
"Why did you do that?"
"Relax, Sirius is on his way."
"WHAT?!!? Ugh, I can't believe you asked that-that-UGH!!....You know I would really love to kill you right now."
"I take it you and him are in a fight."
"No, we're getting married next week..Of COURSE we're fighting. And if I never see the prat again it'll be too soon for me."
I blacked out again.
When I awoke I heard Sirius' voice, he was getting ready to read my poetry, I didn't open my eyes, I wanted to hear what he thought.
Third Year, when we were fighting:
Eyes Brimming With Tears(1)
Vision blurred
Emotion stirred
Temples throbbing
Head bobbing
Feelings hurt
Treated like dirt
Face gets paler
Realizing you're a failure
Second year when me and Remie broke up:
The Strong One(2)
Forced to portray a smile,
when everyone's in tears.
You were the stron one all the while,
Over all these years.
Wishing I could thank you,
You are worth everything to me.
My shoulder's here for you too,
If only you could see.
Your shoulder's soaked with all my tears,
My eyes seem all cried out.
You still have open arms there,
And again I decide to pout.
I'm sorry I can't change me,
So you could be able to cry.
The strong one, I am too weak to be,
But believe me I do try.
Seventh year night before graduation:
One Last Disappointment
I've always been faulty,
Blame it on me.
Would you be happier,
If Iwasn't to be?
My life's just a rental,
You can't bare to lose.
Don't hug me too tight,
I might start to bruise.
I reject all the love,
That I don't recieve.
The hurt that I feel,
You would never believe.
I am a failure,
And everything less.
I am nothin but a disppointment,
Right now I confess.
I dwell on things,
I can never repair.
There's nothing left to live for,
I wish some would care.
The scars on my arms,
Will forvever remain.
They take me back to the days,
The days full of pain.
My hurt is a scab,
I pick til it bleeds.
The hurt and pain I go through,
My razor now feeds.
The record is broken,
I can't stop the cuts.
I thought I could bare it,
But it just hurts too much.
I'll disappoint you once more,
And then I will go.
How sorry I was,
You'll never know.
The blood leaves my body,
I cannot go back.
I had no other choices,
It's love that I lack.
There will be no more pain,
I'll force you through.
I'm sorry I failed again.
This was all my fault,
Don't ever blame it on you.
Today when I was upstairs:
Betryal(3)
An echo fades in to the night,
an eerie mournful sound.
A shooting star disappers form sight,
and I crumnle to the ground.
There is no life within this garden;
my sobs are the only sound.
I hade poisoned the honeyed fountain
where your love could be found.
Dazed, I stare at the stars above,
my grieving howls fill th night!
Unintended betrayal of love
has hidden you from my sight.
I remember how it used to be
when we shared our fears and delights.
You are a treasured friend to me.
How can I make things right?
Feeling afraid, cold and lonely,
I long to tell you how I feel,
but you don't want to hear me.
The pain for you is much too real.
Should I back away and build a wall
and block away how I feel?
Or, should I give you a call?
We both need some time to heal.
An echo fades into the night
as out friendship disapppears.
How do I know what is right?
How can I ease my fears?
If I do give you a call again,
would thi old woulnds reappear?
I can't stand to cause you pain.
Hurting you again is my worst fear.
By the time he'd finished reading them he was crying I could hear the sobs escaping his tender lips. I knew that I truly loved him more than life it's self. I slowly opened my eyes and turned to face him. I reached out to touch him but he pulled away.
"You were right Kris, I would've never fought with you and I would've understood, I'm no better than Voldemort himself."
"That's not true Si, I never want to hear you say that again. Look I love you and I know I do. Let's get out of here and go see Lils and Jamie, hunh?"
"Yhea ok I guess."
"Come On now. Dry your eyes and help me up."
He done as I asked and then there was the last meeting of the mauarders.
(A/N:) If you guys have any thing you would like to see please tell me. And please review, flames are welcome, although they will be used to blow up the camden county high school j/k. If there is anything at all even if it is Slash or terribly Slytherin and evil. Oh and for those of you who don't know, Krissey was sorted into Gryffindor and then in second year she is told that they think the sorting hat malfunctioned and is resorted into Slytherin.