Disclaimer: To cut the long story short: Own nothing, don't sue. Yeah. I am getting really unoriginal in my disclaimers, sigh.
Notes + warnings:
- Chapter 2: Sometimes
ft. Kurei/Kurenai
- Don't know much about Kurei, forgive me for any OOC-ness, don't kill me,
thanks.
- Everything here is based from the anime…cos I didn't read the manga. Yet.
Bwahahhaha.
- Urm…sappy? You be the judge.
Waiting To Exhale
written by: da*mouse
Sometimes it's wrong
And sometimes it's right
"Feelings are of no use to me, or to you. So get rid of them." His adoptive father's cold eyes bore into his, challenging him to contradict his words.
Feelings…love?
He thought of all he had been through since his childhood.
I can't feel…I can't love…
"I know." His voice was as cold as the older man's eyes.
"Good. See to it that you do."
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But that was all before…she came along…and showed him how to feel, how to love.
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Sometimes it's wrong
"Kurei…?"
He turned away, refusing to look at her. "Leave."
He felt a hand at his sleeve, and heard her pleading voice. "Why?"
His fingers curled into a fist. "I don't love you."
Liar…you do love her.
But you can't love her…
He then felt her arms around his waist, the weight of her body on his back. "But I do."
"I do…love you…Kurei…"
Those words, and her closeness was all it took to break his barrier, the barrier he had so painfully constructed. He couldn't hold himself back, couldn't hide what he felt.
Not anymore.
He turned around and hugged her fiercely.
"Kurenai…"
And sometimes it's right
It was a beautiful day in spring, and they were taking a stroll through his
garden. He stopped by a bush of blooming, blood-red roses. Picking one, he
handed it to her.
She took it, smiling at him softly, touching the silky petals of the flower.
"It's beautiful." She hooked her arm with his, and leaned against him.
Not as beautiful as you. He
looked at her, never feeling more contented in his life.
Sometimes it's wrong…
"I told you to rid yourself of feelings!" Mori hissed, his tone ugly.
A foot came crushing down on Kurei's face.
He grimaced in pain, and then forced out his words. "I…Kurei…had rid myself of all feelings, long ago."
"Liar!"
Angered, Mori kicked him repeatedly.
"No! Kurei!" Kurenai broke free of the men holding her and threw herself protectively over Kurei.
"Do you think you could hide it from me? I know all about you and her."
"She was nothing but your test of loyalty."
Kurenai…stay away…please…go…go…
"I…don't…have…any…emotions…" He choked out.
His features contorted with fury, Mori lifted his foot again, only to be stopped by Kurenai.
"No, Kouran-sama! Please…"
Smiling evilly, Mori then took out a small device. Immediately, he knew what it was.
Immediately, he knew what was going to happen.
Snatches of Mori's words wisped past his ears, but he wasn't listening. It was futile, it was useless.
Numbly, he watched as Mori pressed the remote control.
He watched as Kurenai fell.
"NO! KURENAI!"
"I'm sorry…Kurei…I only wanted to be with you…forever."
He watched as she died.
Grief, devastation, sorrow, regret. All of those overwhelmed him.
The first person he had ever loved.
He who never knew how to cry, shed his first tears.
Sometimes it's wrong
And sometimes it's right
He raised his arm, tears still streaming down his cheeks.
"I shall…fulfill your wish. You will be with me…forever."
What was wrong or right, he didn't know anymore. He couldn't tell, and he didn't care.
All he cared was now that she was with him.
Forever.
-Finis-
da*mouse ®
posted 22nd
September 2003
1.27 p.m.
Uhh…no Tokiya/Fuuko for this part of the song, cos I thought Kurei and Kurenai
would fit in better. Sorry to Kurei fans who thought I just butchered his personality,
a thousand apologies, *mouse bows in apology* as I wrote with what I know from
the anime.
I promised Tokiya/Fuuko for the next section, though. Already had an idea on what to write, bwhahahaha.
As usual, please review/comment/flame/whatever…just
let me know you've been here and read it! :)
By the way, none of the chapters are connected, if you guys want to know.