Here's chapter two! Thanks so much for the reviews. I'm going nuts
for Shia LaBeouf, well I've been into him for quite some time now, where's
he going lately? Seems his craze has died down, poor thing. I don't want
him to blend into the child star category. Anywhoo, on with the chap.
Disclaimer: Please, like I could think up something like Degrassi? I just add on to it is all.
Just for the record, I don't know any Canadian cities seeing as how I'm American, so if I mess up on saying the names of cities and such, you can correct me, I'd actually appreciate it.
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It was great just laughing with Ellie. She was great when she was in a good mood, but otherwise she was, well, on the bad side. I'm not one to judge, but when you come right down to it, Ellie is a bad egg. She steals anything she thinks she might need, drinks like a fish, smokes like a chimney, and well it just didn't sit well with me. Why should it right? I mean, so what if I was her best friend in the entire world and she was the only one that would accept my changes? God, I'm horrible.
I was in such a good mood that I smiled at a complete stranger. She was a plain girl, sort of on the chubby side, but other than that she seemed really nice. I have that instinct; I can see people's auras and crap. Well, I like to put it that way at least. I wanted to say hi to her, she looked lonely. I don't know why I didn't, maybe I didn't want to ruin the moment Ellie and I were having.
"Hey, focus!" Ellie snapped her fingers in front of my face. I shook my head and stared at her, my eyes slightly glazed over. "What's with you?"
"I was just thinking."
"Yeah, you do a lot of that lately." She started walking, apparently wanting me to follow her. We headed in the direction of my locker.
"You say that like it's a bad thing." I smiled. So we proceeded to my locker, the thought of the girl slowly slipping from my mind.
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"So anyway, Spinner totally was trying to flirt with me and since that comment he made the other day, I didn't want like, anything to do with the bastard." I heard a disembodied voice fill the room as I walked into my History class; it was clear but had a certain twang to it. I walked into the room and noticed a girl with perfectly quaffed blonde hair talking to an African-American girl and another girl who was quite plump, but very pretty.
"You should just dump him if you don't like him." The plump girl suggested.
"God, Terri, I can't do that. I'm not going to break his heart, that would totally crush him." She looked at the African-American girl. "Besides, he's too cute to be let go."
"You have a point." The African-American girl said.
"Well then maybe you should talk about your problem, Paige. You're not really leading a healthy relationship by this cat-and-mouse game. I mean, Hazel you have to agree with me." Terri looked at the two girls who looked at each other with an amused expression.
"Ter, that's the only way it can be done. You can't have a relationship where the couple is, ugh, equal. He has to be on his knees begging for your attention!" Paige exclaimed. Hazel nodded in agreement.
"You two are crazy." Terri shook her head and slipped into her seat, twiddling her pen and scribbling stuff in her new notebook.
"You'll learn in due time, Ter." Paige patted Terri's head and giggled, then she sighed and looked around, her eyes settling on me. I felt horrified. What was she going to say?
"Excuse me, don't you know it's rude to listen in on other people's conversations? Where have YOUR manners gone off too?" She asked me. I felt so horrible it was almost incomprehensible. I don't understand why I get those hard-hitting emotions all the time, it just strikes me all of the sudden and I start saying stupid things.
"I-I don't know." I stumbled. Paige looked me up and down; sizing me up, Hazel and Terri were looking at me now too. Hazel with a look identical to Paige's, and Terri with a mixed look of pity and as if she'd been harassed by my eavesdropping.
"Well I suggest you go find them before you get hurt, hun." She snapped. Normally someone would feel good when someone called them "hun", but when this Paige girl said it, it hurt you. Right in the middle of your stomach, like a bullet.
I tilted my head towards the floor, staring at the speckled linoleum. I took the seat in front of Paige but immediately felt a tap on my shoulder. I turned around solemnly, afraid of what she would say.
"You can't sit here, I won't be able to see with you sitting in front of me." She smiled sweetly as if what she just said was nice or complimenting. This really hurt me. All my life I've been struggling with my weight, I'm thinner now than I was a couple years ago, but I'm still chubby. She didn't need to point it out. I wondered how Terri felt about this comment and she looked even more harassed.
"Sorry." I mumbled sadly. I moved to the last seat in the farthest corner of the room. I tried to freeze my tears; she'd probably feel good watching me cry. My inferiority complex led me to believe that all girls were like this at Degrassi.
My next two periods I had two guys, one of them tall and one of them with a nice afro, talking about me. I think they were making fun of my clothes or my size or my hair or something, but I saw them pointing at me. You can just imagine how much better that made me feel.
Lunch was going to be Limbo. I dreaded it, I would be standing there in the cafeteria by myself looking helplessly around, waiting for someone to say I could sit with them, though knowing inside that no one would.
I walked slowly to the cafeteria. Loud sounds were protruding from the vast room. It had a high ceiling and what seemed like a hundred or so tables. Nearly every one of them was filled with high school and middle school students. I sighed, wishing I knew at least one person, and got into the line for pizza. Maybe some good food would calm me down.
While I was waiting in line I saw those two guys looking at me again.
"Look Spin, it's that chick." I heard the afro boy whisper. Spinner nodded and smiled mockingly. I immediately stopped listening, knowing that they were just going to start passing judgment towards me. I hugged my empty tray and waited for the line to slowly easy up.
After I got my pizza and chocolate milk I paid the lady and slowly walked around the tables, just looking at people laughing and having a good time. This was torture.
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"So you want to go to the mall after school today?" Ellie inquired. I sighed, nibbling on my salad and sipping some of my Pepsi. School was going to be easy this year, just like it was last year. At least I get a break; I hear next year is the hardest year anyway.
"I don't have any money." I answered. She laughed that laugh that meant: "You are so ignorant." I eyed her, knowing she didn't have money either and knowing that she wasn't planning on paying anyway.
"So?"
"I thought you said you were gonna stop that."
"Stop what?"
"You know what I'm talking about, Ellie." I looked her straight in the eye as she rolled them. She never listened to me. She never seemed to understand that shoplifting is dangerous and not to mention, illegal.
She started yapping away about how I was always trying to change her, and I tuned her out to people watch. Just then, I saw that girl I saw this morning. She was walking around the tables looking sad and lost. That overwhelming feeling rushed through me again and before I knew it I was yelling for her. She turned my way and looked surprised that I was talking to her.
"Hey, you wanna sit with us?" I asked her with a big smile on my face. She returned the smile but eyed Ellie wearily. Ellie was not looking happy since I had just ignored her to talk to some other girl. Ellie was impatient like that.
"Um, sure, if that's OK." The girl said politely. She placed her tray next to mine and sat down.
"Of course it's OK or she wouldn't have offered." Ellie said. The girl looked offended.
"Don't take Ellie personally, she's always a bitch." I waved Ellie off. The girl laughed and so did Ellie, though Ellie's was not totally whole-heartedly.
"So what's your name?" I asked. She sipped her chocolate milk and wiped her face as if she'd spilt something on it.
"Um, Sarah Barnes. I just moved here from Quebec." She said quietly. This amused me, Quebec was mostly country, she must've not have been used to seeing Degrassi, though it's not quite as metropolitan as downtown Toronto.
"Wow that's interesting, did you own a farm there or something?" Ellie asked sarcastically. I could tell that Ellie had not taken a liking to this girl, if a sarcastic comment was made twice she meant business.
"Er, no we lived in a town called Edensville. It was really small but not a farming community or anything." She answered wearily.
"Yeah, that's great. So, Ash, we're going to the mall right?" Ellie ignored Sarah completely and just resumed talking to me as if she didn't exist. I resented Ellie for this.
"Yeah we are, and Sarah, do you want to come with us?" I wanted to be nice. Sarah did seem interesting despite her shy appearance.
"Um, I don't know, I'll have to ask my dad." She shrugged and blushed.
"Alright, well here's my number so you can call me after school."
"Thanks, that would be awesome." She looked genuinely happy as I wrote my number on a napkin and handed it to her. I felt awesome. I haven't felt like that in a long time.
"No problem." I smiled. "No problem at all." I wish now I hadn't agreed to go at all.
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A/N: Well, that's the end so far. This was longer than a lot of my other chapters ever were. Hope you enjoy! Reviews would be mucho appreciated!!!
Disclaimer: Please, like I could think up something like Degrassi? I just add on to it is all.
Just for the record, I don't know any Canadian cities seeing as how I'm American, so if I mess up on saying the names of cities and such, you can correct me, I'd actually appreciate it.
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It was great just laughing with Ellie. She was great when she was in a good mood, but otherwise she was, well, on the bad side. I'm not one to judge, but when you come right down to it, Ellie is a bad egg. She steals anything she thinks she might need, drinks like a fish, smokes like a chimney, and well it just didn't sit well with me. Why should it right? I mean, so what if I was her best friend in the entire world and she was the only one that would accept my changes? God, I'm horrible.
I was in such a good mood that I smiled at a complete stranger. She was a plain girl, sort of on the chubby side, but other than that she seemed really nice. I have that instinct; I can see people's auras and crap. Well, I like to put it that way at least. I wanted to say hi to her, she looked lonely. I don't know why I didn't, maybe I didn't want to ruin the moment Ellie and I were having.
"Hey, focus!" Ellie snapped her fingers in front of my face. I shook my head and stared at her, my eyes slightly glazed over. "What's with you?"
"I was just thinking."
"Yeah, you do a lot of that lately." She started walking, apparently wanting me to follow her. We headed in the direction of my locker.
"You say that like it's a bad thing." I smiled. So we proceeded to my locker, the thought of the girl slowly slipping from my mind.
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"So anyway, Spinner totally was trying to flirt with me and since that comment he made the other day, I didn't want like, anything to do with the bastard." I heard a disembodied voice fill the room as I walked into my History class; it was clear but had a certain twang to it. I walked into the room and noticed a girl with perfectly quaffed blonde hair talking to an African-American girl and another girl who was quite plump, but very pretty.
"You should just dump him if you don't like him." The plump girl suggested.
"God, Terri, I can't do that. I'm not going to break his heart, that would totally crush him." She looked at the African-American girl. "Besides, he's too cute to be let go."
"You have a point." The African-American girl said.
"Well then maybe you should talk about your problem, Paige. You're not really leading a healthy relationship by this cat-and-mouse game. I mean, Hazel you have to agree with me." Terri looked at the two girls who looked at each other with an amused expression.
"Ter, that's the only way it can be done. You can't have a relationship where the couple is, ugh, equal. He has to be on his knees begging for your attention!" Paige exclaimed. Hazel nodded in agreement.
"You two are crazy." Terri shook her head and slipped into her seat, twiddling her pen and scribbling stuff in her new notebook.
"You'll learn in due time, Ter." Paige patted Terri's head and giggled, then she sighed and looked around, her eyes settling on me. I felt horrified. What was she going to say?
"Excuse me, don't you know it's rude to listen in on other people's conversations? Where have YOUR manners gone off too?" She asked me. I felt so horrible it was almost incomprehensible. I don't understand why I get those hard-hitting emotions all the time, it just strikes me all of the sudden and I start saying stupid things.
"I-I don't know." I stumbled. Paige looked me up and down; sizing me up, Hazel and Terri were looking at me now too. Hazel with a look identical to Paige's, and Terri with a mixed look of pity and as if she'd been harassed by my eavesdropping.
"Well I suggest you go find them before you get hurt, hun." She snapped. Normally someone would feel good when someone called them "hun", but when this Paige girl said it, it hurt you. Right in the middle of your stomach, like a bullet.
I tilted my head towards the floor, staring at the speckled linoleum. I took the seat in front of Paige but immediately felt a tap on my shoulder. I turned around solemnly, afraid of what she would say.
"You can't sit here, I won't be able to see with you sitting in front of me." She smiled sweetly as if what she just said was nice or complimenting. This really hurt me. All my life I've been struggling with my weight, I'm thinner now than I was a couple years ago, but I'm still chubby. She didn't need to point it out. I wondered how Terri felt about this comment and she looked even more harassed.
"Sorry." I mumbled sadly. I moved to the last seat in the farthest corner of the room. I tried to freeze my tears; she'd probably feel good watching me cry. My inferiority complex led me to believe that all girls were like this at Degrassi.
My next two periods I had two guys, one of them tall and one of them with a nice afro, talking about me. I think they were making fun of my clothes or my size or my hair or something, but I saw them pointing at me. You can just imagine how much better that made me feel.
Lunch was going to be Limbo. I dreaded it, I would be standing there in the cafeteria by myself looking helplessly around, waiting for someone to say I could sit with them, though knowing inside that no one would.
I walked slowly to the cafeteria. Loud sounds were protruding from the vast room. It had a high ceiling and what seemed like a hundred or so tables. Nearly every one of them was filled with high school and middle school students. I sighed, wishing I knew at least one person, and got into the line for pizza. Maybe some good food would calm me down.
While I was waiting in line I saw those two guys looking at me again.
"Look Spin, it's that chick." I heard the afro boy whisper. Spinner nodded and smiled mockingly. I immediately stopped listening, knowing that they were just going to start passing judgment towards me. I hugged my empty tray and waited for the line to slowly easy up.
After I got my pizza and chocolate milk I paid the lady and slowly walked around the tables, just looking at people laughing and having a good time. This was torture.
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"So you want to go to the mall after school today?" Ellie inquired. I sighed, nibbling on my salad and sipping some of my Pepsi. School was going to be easy this year, just like it was last year. At least I get a break; I hear next year is the hardest year anyway.
"I don't have any money." I answered. She laughed that laugh that meant: "You are so ignorant." I eyed her, knowing she didn't have money either and knowing that she wasn't planning on paying anyway.
"So?"
"I thought you said you were gonna stop that."
"Stop what?"
"You know what I'm talking about, Ellie." I looked her straight in the eye as she rolled them. She never listened to me. She never seemed to understand that shoplifting is dangerous and not to mention, illegal.
She started yapping away about how I was always trying to change her, and I tuned her out to people watch. Just then, I saw that girl I saw this morning. She was walking around the tables looking sad and lost. That overwhelming feeling rushed through me again and before I knew it I was yelling for her. She turned my way and looked surprised that I was talking to her.
"Hey, you wanna sit with us?" I asked her with a big smile on my face. She returned the smile but eyed Ellie wearily. Ellie was not looking happy since I had just ignored her to talk to some other girl. Ellie was impatient like that.
"Um, sure, if that's OK." The girl said politely. She placed her tray next to mine and sat down.
"Of course it's OK or she wouldn't have offered." Ellie said. The girl looked offended.
"Don't take Ellie personally, she's always a bitch." I waved Ellie off. The girl laughed and so did Ellie, though Ellie's was not totally whole-heartedly.
"So what's your name?" I asked. She sipped her chocolate milk and wiped her face as if she'd spilt something on it.
"Um, Sarah Barnes. I just moved here from Quebec." She said quietly. This amused me, Quebec was mostly country, she must've not have been used to seeing Degrassi, though it's not quite as metropolitan as downtown Toronto.
"Wow that's interesting, did you own a farm there or something?" Ellie asked sarcastically. I could tell that Ellie had not taken a liking to this girl, if a sarcastic comment was made twice she meant business.
"Er, no we lived in a town called Edensville. It was really small but not a farming community or anything." She answered wearily.
"Yeah, that's great. So, Ash, we're going to the mall right?" Ellie ignored Sarah completely and just resumed talking to me as if she didn't exist. I resented Ellie for this.
"Yeah we are, and Sarah, do you want to come with us?" I wanted to be nice. Sarah did seem interesting despite her shy appearance.
"Um, I don't know, I'll have to ask my dad." She shrugged and blushed.
"Alright, well here's my number so you can call me after school."
"Thanks, that would be awesome." She looked genuinely happy as I wrote my number on a napkin and handed it to her. I felt awesome. I haven't felt like that in a long time.
"No problem." I smiled. "No problem at all." I wish now I hadn't agreed to go at all.
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A/N: Well, that's the end so far. This was longer than a lot of my other chapters ever were. Hope you enjoy! Reviews would be mucho appreciated!!!