Unwanted Tears Shed
by Sarah
Chapter Name, A Sudden Decision #10, enjoy!
After the three had returned to Kokiyu's village they soon left, heading back into the forest and setting up camp there. Siasku noted that Kirashu seemed distant from her and Kokiyu, again. She wished that he would act happier, and of course more polite but the half-demon always seemed to be covering up his feelings. The half-demon caught the young girl's gaze as he stared into her eyes with a strange intensity to his golden eyes but quickly adverted them to the setting sunset.
"It's amazing how such a regular thing in life, such as the sun setting, or the sun rising, can be different every time and just as beautiful," Siasku said softly, turning her eyes to Kirashu again as she looked away from the sunset.
"Feh, it's all right. Might get pretty damn boring for some."
Siasku just smiled at as she said gently, "It never gets boring with me, always a wonderful sight every time."
Kirashu fought a smile at the young girl's words, and turned his eyes toward the sunset again, suddenly a familiar scent came to his nose, Sarama's scent. Kirashu ran off without a second thought, he knew that he was probably just being hopeful but he had to see for himself. Siasku called out to the half-demon but he was running very quickly and in a very determined way.
'I've seen him run like this before, wait a second, that was when he was looking for that demon who stole Sarama's ashes! Is she alive?'
Before Siasku knew what she was doing she was calling Sosiyu and ran to the stallion as he appeared in front of her and she was chasing after the half-demon, "Kirashu!" The young girl called out again, but the half-demon was gone from her sight, and she pushed the stallion forward after him.
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Sarama stood still for a few seconds, she could feel the presence of Kirashu nearby, and didn't know quite what to do. She finally decided to have the half-demon come to her. She knew that once he caught her scent he would find her, all which she had to was wait.
Sarama suddenly saw Kirashu appear out of the forest, and his eyes widened in disbelief as he stammered out a barely audible, "Sarama..."
The demon slayer stared back at him, a cold smile played upon her lips as she smiled at him and asked, "Are you disappointed that I am alive, Kirashu?"
The half-demon merely blinked and took a step towards her, his golden eyes were filled with hurt and sadness.
"Sarama, why would you ever think I would want you to die? And see you die in front of my eyes again? It was my fault that I couldn't save you the first time, and then my fault again, I'm worthless. Everyday your death haunts me, I couldn't protect you..."
Sarama felt her coldness disappear, her hatred cease, the half-demon was in true pain, not physically, but emotionally, she could see it in his eyes.
'I thought ... he wanted my death?' The demon slayer thought to herself as he took another step towards her.
"I saw you watch me fall to my death, Kirashu. You mean to say that you did not wish such a thing?"
Again the half-demon took another step towards her, his golden eyes still showing the same pain and hurt. "Of course I wouldn't want you to die, I don't know what happened that day. Most of my memories of that day have been erased, I don't know how, but I know I would never harm you, you've always been in my mind Sarama."
The demon slayer was now the one to walk to the half-demon, her blue eyes staring into his. The two finally faced each other and Sarama was the first one to embrace the half-demon, bringing him into a tight hug, and softly spoke his name.
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Siasku had arrived just after Kirashu had entered the forest, she withheld a gasp when she saw the demon slayer standing there, seeming to be awaiting the half-demon. The young girl noticed the change in the half-demon's golden eyes, they were filled with sadness and hurt, and seeing his reaction to the demon slayer she knew that Kirashu had not hated the woman, look she had first thought, but he felt much more for her.
She watched as the demon slayer brought the half-demon into a tight embrace, she softly said his name and the two closed their eyes. Siasku looked away from the couple, realizing that this wasn't a good idea to follow the half-demon.
'What am I doing here, I shouldn't have followed him, but... I was afraid he might get hurt, wandering by himself. But, why would I? He is a half-demon, of course he can take care of himself.'
Siasku felt herself feeling a strange feeling in her stomach at the sight which she was witnessing, but she didn't know why.
'He doesn't even think of me as a friend, why should I be feeling bad? Just as a weakling...' With this thought the young girl reluctantly started to walk away, accidentally stepping on a twig and alerting the two of her presence.
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The two broke from their embrace when they heard the sound of a twig breaking and readied themselves for an attack. But, they noticed that it was Siasku, who was looking very embarrassed and uncomfortable. Kirashu didn't know what he was feeling when he looked into the young girl's almost hurt eyes, but he knew that she was also confused. He never wanted to explain his relationship with Sarama to the girl, he didn't want to relive the pain of the memories.
Sarama felt her hatred renewed at the sight of the girl, and she didn't know why, she thought that her hatred could finally be buried at the sight of Kirashu's sad and pained face, but seeing this girl she felt a strange emotion take over her.
'It isn't hatred is it? This young girl has never done anything to me.'
Kirashu noticed how the two were staring at each other and he felt uneasy as he watched the demon slayer's reaction. Sarama's eyes flashed dangerously as a little voice told her one thing, 'Kill her.'
She fought this, knowing that the girl was completely innocent, and that she could never hurt another human being.
'She has what is rightfully yours, your soul. You can't live much longer with the small amount which you have, unless you wish to steal souls from the innocent.'
Finally, she could no longer fight the voice, she brought out her bow and arrow and pointed it towards the girl, who was completely afraid as she saw the look on her face and knew that the woman wanted to kill her, but she couldn't move a muscle at her intense gaze, and felt fear grip her even more when she pointed her bow and arrow towards her. Kirashu immediately jumped in front of her and outstretched his arms, trying his best to protect Siasku.
"Sarama, what are you doing? Why do you have your bow and arrow pointed at Siasku?"
Since Kirashu was protecting the young girl she looked at him with saddened eyes, knowing that if he would risk his life for her that he must have feelings for her also.
"Do you love this girl, Kirashu?"
Author's Corral:
Ahhh, a sudden decision for our half-demon. Who will he choose, Sarama or Siasku? Oh, yes, and as you can see I moved this story over to InuYasha, I know I don't use the characters but I think it fits better here than where it was. I will also be gone for a trip for six days and I don't know if I will be able to update or not, so if I don't update for a while I'm just on a good ol' vacation.
Next Chapter:
Chapter Eleven, Do I, or don't I:
Just then, the half-demon's thoughts were interrupted by a youkai who seemed to jump out of nowhere. The demon had long, black hair which was braided behind his back, a refined and handsome face, dark blue eyes, and he was wearing animal furs for clothing. Kirashu stepped in front of Kokiyu and Siasku, fingering his sword as he growled at him and said in a dangereous tone, "Who the hell are you?!"
by Sarah
Chapter Name, A Sudden Decision #10, enjoy!
After the three had returned to Kokiyu's village they soon left, heading back into the forest and setting up camp there. Siasku noted that Kirashu seemed distant from her and Kokiyu, again. She wished that he would act happier, and of course more polite but the half-demon always seemed to be covering up his feelings. The half-demon caught the young girl's gaze as he stared into her eyes with a strange intensity to his golden eyes but quickly adverted them to the setting sunset.
"It's amazing how such a regular thing in life, such as the sun setting, or the sun rising, can be different every time and just as beautiful," Siasku said softly, turning her eyes to Kirashu again as she looked away from the sunset.
"Feh, it's all right. Might get pretty damn boring for some."
Siasku just smiled at as she said gently, "It never gets boring with me, always a wonderful sight every time."
Kirashu fought a smile at the young girl's words, and turned his eyes toward the sunset again, suddenly a familiar scent came to his nose, Sarama's scent. Kirashu ran off without a second thought, he knew that he was probably just being hopeful but he had to see for himself. Siasku called out to the half-demon but he was running very quickly and in a very determined way.
'I've seen him run like this before, wait a second, that was when he was looking for that demon who stole Sarama's ashes! Is she alive?'
Before Siasku knew what she was doing she was calling Sosiyu and ran to the stallion as he appeared in front of her and she was chasing after the half-demon, "Kirashu!" The young girl called out again, but the half-demon was gone from her sight, and she pushed the stallion forward after him.
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Sarama stood still for a few seconds, she could feel the presence of Kirashu nearby, and didn't know quite what to do. She finally decided to have the half-demon come to her. She knew that once he caught her scent he would find her, all which she had to was wait.
Sarama suddenly saw Kirashu appear out of the forest, and his eyes widened in disbelief as he stammered out a barely audible, "Sarama..."
The demon slayer stared back at him, a cold smile played upon her lips as she smiled at him and asked, "Are you disappointed that I am alive, Kirashu?"
The half-demon merely blinked and took a step towards her, his golden eyes were filled with hurt and sadness.
"Sarama, why would you ever think I would want you to die? And see you die in front of my eyes again? It was my fault that I couldn't save you the first time, and then my fault again, I'm worthless. Everyday your death haunts me, I couldn't protect you..."
Sarama felt her coldness disappear, her hatred cease, the half-demon was in true pain, not physically, but emotionally, she could see it in his eyes.
'I thought ... he wanted my death?' The demon slayer thought to herself as he took another step towards her.
"I saw you watch me fall to my death, Kirashu. You mean to say that you did not wish such a thing?"
Again the half-demon took another step towards her, his golden eyes still showing the same pain and hurt. "Of course I wouldn't want you to die, I don't know what happened that day. Most of my memories of that day have been erased, I don't know how, but I know I would never harm you, you've always been in my mind Sarama."
The demon slayer was now the one to walk to the half-demon, her blue eyes staring into his. The two finally faced each other and Sarama was the first one to embrace the half-demon, bringing him into a tight hug, and softly spoke his name.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Siasku had arrived just after Kirashu had entered the forest, she withheld a gasp when she saw the demon slayer standing there, seeming to be awaiting the half-demon. The young girl noticed the change in the half-demon's golden eyes, they were filled with sadness and hurt, and seeing his reaction to the demon slayer she knew that Kirashu had not hated the woman, look she had first thought, but he felt much more for her.
She watched as the demon slayer brought the half-demon into a tight embrace, she softly said his name and the two closed their eyes. Siasku looked away from the couple, realizing that this wasn't a good idea to follow the half-demon.
'What am I doing here, I shouldn't have followed him, but... I was afraid he might get hurt, wandering by himself. But, why would I? He is a half-demon, of course he can take care of himself.'
Siasku felt herself feeling a strange feeling in her stomach at the sight which she was witnessing, but she didn't know why.
'He doesn't even think of me as a friend, why should I be feeling bad? Just as a weakling...' With this thought the young girl reluctantly started to walk away, accidentally stepping on a twig and alerting the two of her presence.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
The two broke from their embrace when they heard the sound of a twig breaking and readied themselves for an attack. But, they noticed that it was Siasku, who was looking very embarrassed and uncomfortable. Kirashu didn't know what he was feeling when he looked into the young girl's almost hurt eyes, but he knew that she was also confused. He never wanted to explain his relationship with Sarama to the girl, he didn't want to relive the pain of the memories.
Sarama felt her hatred renewed at the sight of the girl, and she didn't know why, she thought that her hatred could finally be buried at the sight of Kirashu's sad and pained face, but seeing this girl she felt a strange emotion take over her.
'It isn't hatred is it? This young girl has never done anything to me.'
Kirashu noticed how the two were staring at each other and he felt uneasy as he watched the demon slayer's reaction. Sarama's eyes flashed dangerously as a little voice told her one thing, 'Kill her.'
She fought this, knowing that the girl was completely innocent, and that she could never hurt another human being.
'She has what is rightfully yours, your soul. You can't live much longer with the small amount which you have, unless you wish to steal souls from the innocent.'
Finally, she could no longer fight the voice, she brought out her bow and arrow and pointed it towards the girl, who was completely afraid as she saw the look on her face and knew that the woman wanted to kill her, but she couldn't move a muscle at her intense gaze, and felt fear grip her even more when she pointed her bow and arrow towards her. Kirashu immediately jumped in front of her and outstretched his arms, trying his best to protect Siasku.
"Sarama, what are you doing? Why do you have your bow and arrow pointed at Siasku?"
Since Kirashu was protecting the young girl she looked at him with saddened eyes, knowing that if he would risk his life for her that he must have feelings for her also.
"Do you love this girl, Kirashu?"
Author's Corral:
Ahhh, a sudden decision for our half-demon. Who will he choose, Sarama or Siasku? Oh, yes, and as you can see I moved this story over to InuYasha, I know I don't use the characters but I think it fits better here than where it was. I will also be gone for a trip for six days and I don't know if I will be able to update or not, so if I don't update for a while I'm just on a good ol' vacation.
Next Chapter:
Chapter Eleven, Do I, or don't I:
Just then, the half-demon's thoughts were interrupted by a youkai who seemed to jump out of nowhere. The demon had long, black hair which was braided behind his back, a refined and handsome face, dark blue eyes, and he was wearing animal furs for clothing. Kirashu stepped in front of Kokiyu and Siasku, fingering his sword as he growled at him and said in a dangereous tone, "Who the hell are you?!"