Unwanted Tears Shed
by Sarah
Chapter Name, Heartbreak and Hatred #19, enjoy!
Sarama stood watching Kokiyu, feeling pain in her nonexistent heart as she watched Kokiyu lay against the ground, she feel the pain and hurt coming from the young woman.
'Why would Kokiyu be hurting? What is hurting her?' The demon slayer asked herself as she closed her eyes and concentrated hard on the young woman's thoughts, finding them a jumble of confusion but she finally saw a kiss between Kokiyu and a demon that looked familiar to her, this demon attacking her, and then she couldn't see anything more. Something told her to just leave Kokiyu, but she couldn't leave the woman alone when she was heartbroken like this.
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"Kokiyu," the young woman tensed up at the sound of the emotionless voice saying her name. She went to grab her bow and arrow but stopped herself when she saw the familiar clothes of Sarama.
"Sarama?" Kokiyu said the demon slayer's name slowly, afraid that it might be someone else, but she was happy to see it was her and she hugged Sarama tightly. When Kokiyu looked into the demon slayer's eyes she saw a softness in them that she had seen when Sarama was first brought to life.
"Kokiyu, what's wrong?" The demon slayer's voice softened at asking this, and Kokiyu looked away, wondering how she would explain what happened.
"Sarama, I know that you loved before, didn't it hurt you when you tried to stop loving someone?"
The demon slayer looked at Kokiyu, not sure what to say to her to make the young woman feel better, she thought that she was void of these emotions of love, concern, and much more, that she only had hatred, but she felt a pang of concern and sympathy as she looked at Kokiyu, and noticed the tears falling down her cheeks. Sarama unconsciously ripped off a piece of her kimono, handing it to Kokiyu as she looked away.
"You shouldn't talk to me about such things Kokiyu, I cannot give out as good advice as I did when I was alive. All which I want as long as I'm allowed to travel on the earth is revenge, and all which I feel is hatred, it is what keeps me alive, what keeps this body moving."
Kokiyu rubbed the piece of clothing against her tear soaked cheeks as she shook her head. "Sarama, I don't believe that! You are the same as you were alive! If you only felt hatred you would have left me here alone, you have other emotions, you can't just be filled with hate!" Kokiyu shook her head in disbelief, looking into the demon slayer's blank eyes, and even though her blue eyes seemed to be dead to emotion she could see flashes of sadness, confusion, and sympathy.
"Kokiyu, I know this hurts you for me to say such things, but they are true, I feel only hate, and I want only vengeance from Kirashu, for him betraying me." The demon slayer's eyes burned with hatred as she said this, seeming to confirm the hatred which she was speaking of, but Kokiyu still refused to believe such things.
"You can't possibly be filled with hate, I know, I look into your eyes, and they aren't completely blank, they don't just show hatred, I know you Sarama, you're like an older sister to me, you can't just be filled with hate, you just can't."
Unshed tears threatened to fall onto Kokiyu's and Sarama placed her hands on the young woman's shoulders, trying to comfort her as best as she could, "I'm sorry Kokiyu, but my last thought as I was still alive was that I hated Kirashu, this hatred tainted me, and I am afraid I can never go back to how I was before. It was amazing how much you have grown up, my dear Kokiyu. I still look at you and see you as the bright faced little girl I first met."
Sarama smiled sadly after she said this, feeling her nonexistent wrench forward, but unsure why it was, these emotions she felt had only just appeared, but the young woman had always broken threw her barriers, like Kirashu had, and even after death she was still doing it.
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The demon slayer decided that she wouldn't be able to get her revenge on Kirashu if he found her now, her old strength was gone, drained by the hatred momentarily leaving her at the sight of Kokiyu's sad form.
"Which reminds me..." Sarama said in an emotionless tone, the woman placed her hands on Kokiyu's arm, glowing a slight blue as she felt herself healing the young woman, and also catching some of Kokiyu's memories as she did so.
'"Well, you might need my help, and how could I not travel with such a beautiful woman?"'
Sarama noticed that the very familiar looking demon asked Kokiyu this, the young woman blushing in reply. Many other memories came to the demon slayer, a couple which had Siasku and Kirashu, and a very painful one where Kirashu had his hands wrapped around her reincarnation's waist. Sarama felt immediate jealousy in seeing this, but once she saw this image it quickly disappeared, and Sarama opened her eyes to see Kokiyu was completely healed.
"I can tell you really cared for this demon in your memories, is he the one who hurt you, isn't he?"
Sarama tried her best to shake off the feeling of jealousy which threatened to overtake her.
"Yes, he did, but... I don't think he meant to, he was always so nice, especially for a demon, but he turned out to be the same demon who nearly killed me after your ... death, Sarama."
The demon slayer looked at the young woman, she had never thought of how her death had affected her, but she knew that it couldn't have been easy. Sarama stood up to leave, remembering that she wouldn't be able to fight against Kirashu if he came right now.
"Kokiyu, I'm going to leave, but... I would tell you to seek revenge on this demon, but this will not help you. I just want to tell you, to keep your heart pure, and be patient. Love is true torture, but to finally be loved is a wonderful thing, but never easy. As you can see in my case, it ended in heartbreak and hatred, I hope for such a thing to never happen to you, take care Kokiyu."
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With that said the demon slayer disappeared into the darkness, giving one last sad glance at Kokiyu before her eyes turning to their original, blank and emotionless state.
"Wait! Sarama!" But it was no use, the woman was gone, and she was left alone again.
'I should go see the others, before they worry too much, hopefully this pain in my heart will go away.'
Kokiyu stood up shakily at first, and then walked surely to the campsite, still feeling confused about what happened that day.
'I wonder where Onisou is now... No, don't think about that, he left you, and he's not coming back, just get used to it.'
But, the young woman knew that she would never just forget about it, Onisou was the first male to catch her heart, whenever she saw him she could feel her heart speed up and her breathing quicken. She never knew that the demon was the one who had attacked her when she was younger, that she was the one who had killed his brother, it just seemed so wrong that they would felt such things toward each other before finding out the truth, at least, Kokiyu knew that she did.
'I guess that fate is just cruel, bringing back Sarama to only hate, bringing Onisou back to me for me to care for, and then rip away, and bring Siasku to Kirashu only to know that he still loves Sarama, and always will. Fate seems to enjoy in watching us all be miserable.'
Kokiyu thought to herself bitterly as she stared at the ground listlessly, cursing Fate as she did so.
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'I will kill her, she will not escape.' Sarama kept on thinking repeatedly in her head, jealousy and anger seeming to be tearing her apart as the demon slayer gripped her bow tightly. The memory of her young reincarnation and the half-demon she loved hugging each other played over and over again in her head, as if she had seen it with her own eyes.
'Why does it hurt so much? Why am I so angry? I thought that I only hated him, this shouldn't be bothering me so much...'
But it did bother her, it seemed to almost drive her crazy with the rage which she felt, and Sarama walked determinedly to where Kirashu and Siasku were resting at now, with only one thought in her mind, to finally kill her reincarnation. Something inside her tried to rationalize what she was thinking, but she refused to be rational.
'I will end her life with my own hands.'
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Siasku looked at Kirashu threw the flickering flames of the fire. The lighting which the flames were creating the perfect light upon the half-demon's features, and she found herself smiling as her eyes laid on Kirashu's dog ears. '
His ears are so cute... I wish I could rub them, I bet he would like it too.' But the young girl just lightly shook her head, and resisted the temptation as a frown graced her usually cheerful face as she remembered what had happened that day between Kokiyu and the handsome Onisou.
'Poor Kokiyu, I don't know what happened between Onisou and her, but she seemed heartbroken, I wished I could stay and try to make her feel better. Kirashu seems to be distant, he must be thinking about Kokiyu, he did tell me before that Kokiyu is like a little sister to him. He must feel like he wasn't able to protect her from the heartbreak she must be feeling right now.'
Siasku noticed how the half-demon's shoulders bent forward even more, and his head dropped down farther in silent defeat. Without even thinking about what she was doing Siasku sat next to him, uncertain what to do but knowing that she wanted to make him feel better.
The young girl placed an unsure hand on his shoulder, and watched as the half-demon looked startled at the unexpected contact but he relaxed as he saw that it was only Siasku. Kirashu noticed the sympathetic gaze he was getting from Siasku's blue eyes, and he growled slightly as he said, "What the hell do you want you dumb girl? And why are you looking at me like that?"
Siasku noticed that suspicious look in Kirashu's golden eyes and didn't pay attention to his gruff questions as she asked the half-demon softly, "Are you okay Kirashu?"
The half-demon looked taken aback by her question but merely shook his head. "Feh, I'm fine, why wouldn't I...?"
The same suspicion came back into his eyes as he side-glanced at the girl and noticed that her face was thoughtful, her blue eyes suddenly piercing through his for a mere second before turning to their soft gaze.
"Kirashu, you did tell me Kokiyu is like a little sister to you, of course this bothers you that you couldn't protect her from what happened today..."
"She's a grown woman, of course she can protect herself fine," Kirashu said as he tried his best to steer away from the conversation, but Siasku wouldn't let him.
"You know what I mean, Kirashu." Siasku said with a playful smile, her eyes dancing with the flickering flames. Before the half-demon could object to her comment he smelled a familiar scent come to his nose and turned his head to see Sarama standing there in her usual proud stance, body tense as she stood there with a bow and arrow ready.
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Another cliffhanger, they're fun to make, mwa ha ha. Not like anyone will read this far. *low grumble* I envy people who get like 40 reviews, 30, hey, even 20, lol. I know, stop with the self pity, bah humbug. *sniffle*
by Sarah
Chapter Name, Heartbreak and Hatred #19, enjoy!
Sarama stood watching Kokiyu, feeling pain in her nonexistent heart as she watched Kokiyu lay against the ground, she feel the pain and hurt coming from the young woman.
'Why would Kokiyu be hurting? What is hurting her?' The demon slayer asked herself as she closed her eyes and concentrated hard on the young woman's thoughts, finding them a jumble of confusion but she finally saw a kiss between Kokiyu and a demon that looked familiar to her, this demon attacking her, and then she couldn't see anything more. Something told her to just leave Kokiyu, but she couldn't leave the woman alone when she was heartbroken like this.
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"Kokiyu," the young woman tensed up at the sound of the emotionless voice saying her name. She went to grab her bow and arrow but stopped herself when she saw the familiar clothes of Sarama.
"Sarama?" Kokiyu said the demon slayer's name slowly, afraid that it might be someone else, but she was happy to see it was her and she hugged Sarama tightly. When Kokiyu looked into the demon slayer's eyes she saw a softness in them that she had seen when Sarama was first brought to life.
"Kokiyu, what's wrong?" The demon slayer's voice softened at asking this, and Kokiyu looked away, wondering how she would explain what happened.
"Sarama, I know that you loved before, didn't it hurt you when you tried to stop loving someone?"
The demon slayer looked at Kokiyu, not sure what to say to her to make the young woman feel better, she thought that she was void of these emotions of love, concern, and much more, that she only had hatred, but she felt a pang of concern and sympathy as she looked at Kokiyu, and noticed the tears falling down her cheeks. Sarama unconsciously ripped off a piece of her kimono, handing it to Kokiyu as she looked away.
"You shouldn't talk to me about such things Kokiyu, I cannot give out as good advice as I did when I was alive. All which I want as long as I'm allowed to travel on the earth is revenge, and all which I feel is hatred, it is what keeps me alive, what keeps this body moving."
Kokiyu rubbed the piece of clothing against her tear soaked cheeks as she shook her head. "Sarama, I don't believe that! You are the same as you were alive! If you only felt hatred you would have left me here alone, you have other emotions, you can't just be filled with hate!" Kokiyu shook her head in disbelief, looking into the demon slayer's blank eyes, and even though her blue eyes seemed to be dead to emotion she could see flashes of sadness, confusion, and sympathy.
"Kokiyu, I know this hurts you for me to say such things, but they are true, I feel only hate, and I want only vengeance from Kirashu, for him betraying me." The demon slayer's eyes burned with hatred as she said this, seeming to confirm the hatred which she was speaking of, but Kokiyu still refused to believe such things.
"You can't possibly be filled with hate, I know, I look into your eyes, and they aren't completely blank, they don't just show hatred, I know you Sarama, you're like an older sister to me, you can't just be filled with hate, you just can't."
Unshed tears threatened to fall onto Kokiyu's and Sarama placed her hands on the young woman's shoulders, trying to comfort her as best as she could, "I'm sorry Kokiyu, but my last thought as I was still alive was that I hated Kirashu, this hatred tainted me, and I am afraid I can never go back to how I was before. It was amazing how much you have grown up, my dear Kokiyu. I still look at you and see you as the bright faced little girl I first met."
Sarama smiled sadly after she said this, feeling her nonexistent wrench forward, but unsure why it was, these emotions she felt had only just appeared, but the young woman had always broken threw her barriers, like Kirashu had, and even after death she was still doing it.
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The demon slayer decided that she wouldn't be able to get her revenge on Kirashu if he found her now, her old strength was gone, drained by the hatred momentarily leaving her at the sight of Kokiyu's sad form.
"Which reminds me..." Sarama said in an emotionless tone, the woman placed her hands on Kokiyu's arm, glowing a slight blue as she felt herself healing the young woman, and also catching some of Kokiyu's memories as she did so.
'"Well, you might need my help, and how could I not travel with such a beautiful woman?"'
Sarama noticed that the very familiar looking demon asked Kokiyu this, the young woman blushing in reply. Many other memories came to the demon slayer, a couple which had Siasku and Kirashu, and a very painful one where Kirashu had his hands wrapped around her reincarnation's waist. Sarama felt immediate jealousy in seeing this, but once she saw this image it quickly disappeared, and Sarama opened her eyes to see Kokiyu was completely healed.
"I can tell you really cared for this demon in your memories, is he the one who hurt you, isn't he?"
Sarama tried her best to shake off the feeling of jealousy which threatened to overtake her.
"Yes, he did, but... I don't think he meant to, he was always so nice, especially for a demon, but he turned out to be the same demon who nearly killed me after your ... death, Sarama."
The demon slayer looked at the young woman, she had never thought of how her death had affected her, but she knew that it couldn't have been easy. Sarama stood up to leave, remembering that she wouldn't be able to fight against Kirashu if he came right now.
"Kokiyu, I'm going to leave, but... I would tell you to seek revenge on this demon, but this will not help you. I just want to tell you, to keep your heart pure, and be patient. Love is true torture, but to finally be loved is a wonderful thing, but never easy. As you can see in my case, it ended in heartbreak and hatred, I hope for such a thing to never happen to you, take care Kokiyu."
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With that said the demon slayer disappeared into the darkness, giving one last sad glance at Kokiyu before her eyes turning to their original, blank and emotionless state.
"Wait! Sarama!" But it was no use, the woman was gone, and she was left alone again.
'I should go see the others, before they worry too much, hopefully this pain in my heart will go away.'
Kokiyu stood up shakily at first, and then walked surely to the campsite, still feeling confused about what happened that day.
'I wonder where Onisou is now... No, don't think about that, he left you, and he's not coming back, just get used to it.'
But, the young woman knew that she would never just forget about it, Onisou was the first male to catch her heart, whenever she saw him she could feel her heart speed up and her breathing quicken. She never knew that the demon was the one who had attacked her when she was younger, that she was the one who had killed his brother, it just seemed so wrong that they would felt such things toward each other before finding out the truth, at least, Kokiyu knew that she did.
'I guess that fate is just cruel, bringing back Sarama to only hate, bringing Onisou back to me for me to care for, and then rip away, and bring Siasku to Kirashu only to know that he still loves Sarama, and always will. Fate seems to enjoy in watching us all be miserable.'
Kokiyu thought to herself bitterly as she stared at the ground listlessly, cursing Fate as she did so.
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'I will kill her, she will not escape.' Sarama kept on thinking repeatedly in her head, jealousy and anger seeming to be tearing her apart as the demon slayer gripped her bow tightly. The memory of her young reincarnation and the half-demon she loved hugging each other played over and over again in her head, as if she had seen it with her own eyes.
'Why does it hurt so much? Why am I so angry? I thought that I only hated him, this shouldn't be bothering me so much...'
But it did bother her, it seemed to almost drive her crazy with the rage which she felt, and Sarama walked determinedly to where Kirashu and Siasku were resting at now, with only one thought in her mind, to finally kill her reincarnation. Something inside her tried to rationalize what she was thinking, but she refused to be rational.
'I will end her life with my own hands.'
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Siasku looked at Kirashu threw the flickering flames of the fire. The lighting which the flames were creating the perfect light upon the half-demon's features, and she found herself smiling as her eyes laid on Kirashu's dog ears. '
His ears are so cute... I wish I could rub them, I bet he would like it too.' But the young girl just lightly shook her head, and resisted the temptation as a frown graced her usually cheerful face as she remembered what had happened that day between Kokiyu and the handsome Onisou.
'Poor Kokiyu, I don't know what happened between Onisou and her, but she seemed heartbroken, I wished I could stay and try to make her feel better. Kirashu seems to be distant, he must be thinking about Kokiyu, he did tell me before that Kokiyu is like a little sister to him. He must feel like he wasn't able to protect her from the heartbreak she must be feeling right now.'
Siasku noticed how the half-demon's shoulders bent forward even more, and his head dropped down farther in silent defeat. Without even thinking about what she was doing Siasku sat next to him, uncertain what to do but knowing that she wanted to make him feel better.
The young girl placed an unsure hand on his shoulder, and watched as the half-demon looked startled at the unexpected contact but he relaxed as he saw that it was only Siasku. Kirashu noticed the sympathetic gaze he was getting from Siasku's blue eyes, and he growled slightly as he said, "What the hell do you want you dumb girl? And why are you looking at me like that?"
Siasku noticed that suspicious look in Kirashu's golden eyes and didn't pay attention to his gruff questions as she asked the half-demon softly, "Are you okay Kirashu?"
The half-demon looked taken aback by her question but merely shook his head. "Feh, I'm fine, why wouldn't I...?"
The same suspicion came back into his eyes as he side-glanced at the girl and noticed that her face was thoughtful, her blue eyes suddenly piercing through his for a mere second before turning to their soft gaze.
"Kirashu, you did tell me Kokiyu is like a little sister to you, of course this bothers you that you couldn't protect her from what happened today..."
"She's a grown woman, of course she can protect herself fine," Kirashu said as he tried his best to steer away from the conversation, but Siasku wouldn't let him.
"You know what I mean, Kirashu." Siasku said with a playful smile, her eyes dancing with the flickering flames. Before the half-demon could object to her comment he smelled a familiar scent come to his nose and turned his head to see Sarama standing there in her usual proud stance, body tense as she stood there with a bow and arrow ready.
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Another cliffhanger, they're fun to make, mwa ha ha. Not like anyone will read this far. *low grumble* I envy people who get like 40 reviews, 30, hey, even 20, lol. I know, stop with the self pity, bah humbug. *sniffle*