Unwanted Tears Shed
by Sarah
Chapter Name, Flying Arrow of Jealousy #20, enjoy!
"Die my reincarnation!" Sarama screamed out, letting the arrow fly forward towards the frightened girl. Once the demon slayer had released the bow string she was crushed with her own thoughts.
'You're going to kill her, an innocent soul, why?' Sarama kept her face emotionless as she thought, 'She deserves it, she deserves to die, if she doesn't Kirashu will just fall even more in love with her...'
Sarama watched as the arrow sped forward, it was covered in dark energy, and the demon slayer could feel the same dark energy covering her, not knowing that if it completely overtook her that there would be no returning to her emotions before. She would feel no love, no care, no sympathy, no compassion, and she would also be completely emotionless, except for the feeling of hate.
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Kirashu saw the arrow and it slowly registered in his mind that the arrow was heading toward Siasku. Siasku sat there, completely petrified, and too scared to think clearly. Kirashu pushed the young girl to the side just in time to save her life, but in doing so he endangered his as the arrow pierced threw his chest, and he landed on the ground with a loud groan. Sarama stood there, completely still and in the same poise which she was in to send the arrow.
'Kirashu, no... I didn't mean for it to hit you.'
Suddenly, the black energy which had almost turned her into the thing which she dreaded the most disappeared, and she walked quickly over to the half-demon's side, noticing that Siasku was all ready by his side, looking down at the injured Kirashu with pure disbelief and complete sadness in her eyes.
"Kirashu... Kirashu!" The young girl screamed out, crying as she hung her head over the half-demon.
"Move girl," Sarama was now by Kirashu's side, staring down with concern in her blue eyes as she looked at Kirashu with the arrow in his heart. Kirashu didn't say anything, his eyes didn't show any concern as he looked at the two woman.
"You won't hurt Kirashu again!" Siasku exclaimed with surprising fierceness in her voice, and the demon slayer could feel the energy field which she was putting around herself and Kirashu, pushing Sarama backwards.
'Such pure energy, the girl is afraid, scared, and angry, I must talk to her. I have to save Kirashu, he can't die yet.'
"Listen, I must get to Kirashu, I know how to heal him, the arrow was intended for you, not Kirashu. I know now that I was blinded by my emotions, and attacked you blinding, please, I must get to Kirashu." Siasku's blazing eyes softened and the energy field which was keeping Sarama at bay was gone. The demon slayer walked over to Kirashu's form, bending down on the opposite side of Siasku as she went to grab the arrow and dislodge it from the half-demon's chest. It took every strength within her to pull the arrow out, it was full of dark energy, and this made Kirashu's wound even worse.
'He will die because of the wound if I don't heal it, I won't have much in me, but I must do it.'
The demon slayer blocked out all of her negative thoughts as she placed her hands on Kirashu and glowed a light blue, and Siasku watched as the wound was slowly, but surely, healing.
'Wow, she is really strong, she's healing him from a near death wound. But ... why? I thought she said she hated him....' Sarama finally finished healing the half-demon, but the amount of energy and the weak body which she was in made her collapse on top of him. Kirashu blinked his eyes slowly, feeling completely fine as he watched the demon slayer put the last of her energy into healing him. The half-demon didn't struggle to get her off of himself, instead he placed his hand on her head.
'Sarama, why do you have such resentment against Siasku? I couldn't let you kill her, somehow I knew you would save me though, I know that the same woman I fell in love with is still deep inside you.' The half-demon then bent his head as he took in her scent, thinking to himself, 'Your once sweet scent is now just what you were made of, but... every time I've meet you the same scent of lilacs and lavenders comes to my nose, mixed with rain and lightning, why?'
Kirashu realized that she must have masked her scent, 'Knowing her, she was probably embarrassed by her scent.' Kirashu thought to himself as he looked into her now opening blue eyes.
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Siasku watched the two, she didn't know how she felt, but the young girl knew that she was confused, and she also felt hurt.
'Don't forget that Kirashu and Sarama were mates, something inside her must still love Kirashu.' Siasku thought to herself as she watched Sarama slowly open her blue eyes and stare into Kirashu's golden eyes. The two seemed to not acknowledge anything around them, only each other.
'You knew this would happen girl.' A voice inside Siasku's told herself, but she merely held her head in defeat as she thought back, 'But... I was never prepared for it to hurt this much.'
Sarama and Kirashu both stared at each other what seemed to be hours for the young Siasku but it was only a minute or two.
'Such beautiful, golden eyes, I can see why I fell in love with him so many years ago.' Sarama thought to herself. But, the woman wouldn't be freed from her hate that easily, after thinking this an evil voice countered, 'Beautiful, but you never expected those eyes to stare down at you without concern watching you fall to your death, did you?'
'No, I didn't...' Sarama thought as her eyes immediately becoming sad and she broke their gaze and stood up to leave.
"I'm sorry I harmed you, Kirashu. And you also, I had no control of myself." Sarama looked at Siasku, as she tried her best to keep the memory of her and Kirashu hugging in the back of her mind. The demon slayer left after she said these words and didn't turn back, her vacant heart telling her to go back to the half-demon, to be held by him, to kiss him, to love him, but she walked on, knowing that she would continue wandering aimlessly.
'I cannot control my emotions, and I may hurt Kirashu, Kokiyu, and my reincarnation if I were to travel with them, and I will not have myself do that.'
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Kirashu called out to Sarama like he always did, but the demon slayer kept on walking, and he stood there with his head hanging in silent defeat again.
'I don't think I can watch these scenes much longer, Kirashu is always so sad after Sarama leaves, and he really does love her, while me...' The young girl suddenly looked up and blushed bright red as she shook her head, 'No, I don't love him! I mean, he's overly protective, which is actionably kind of cute to watch... Wait, no girl, don't, we're just friends, nothing more, nothing less.'
Siasku looked over at Kirashu, her heart suddenly breaking at the half-demon's sad look as she thought, 'Well, probably something less, I doubt he thinks me as a friend, he just protects me because I look like the demon slayer, and I'm her reincarnation.'
Kirashu looked up from the ground he was staring at and looked over at Siasku, he took unsure steps toward her as he noticed she looked as sad as he felt.
"Siasku, are you all right?" The half-demon stared at the young girl, his golden eyes suddenly filled with concern.
"I'm fine Kirashu... really, I don't get attacked that often, that's all," Siasku said with a halfhearted smile.
'I will not cry, I will not cry,' the young girl thought to herself as she looked down at the ground and fought the tears in her eyes.
"I don't believe you..." The half-demon said, giving her a small smile which almost made her heart jump in her throat. Without another thought she walked over to him and hugged him, smiling as she said barely above a whisper in his ear, "You know, you should smile more often..."
Kirashu almost backed away from her when he heard this, thinking to himself, 'Please don't tell me she's falling in love with me... No, that can't be true, I've been a jerk most of the time, except these times when I don't have it in me to push her away.'
"You shouldn't act tough when you know you aren't feeling it..."
"Sometimes you have to act tough because you need to, and other people need you to." Siasku told him, burying her face deeper in his white hair, feeling her tears disappear as she felt so comforted in the half-demon's arms. Too soon Kirashu lightly pushed the young girl out of the embrace, feeling a smile trying to force it's way upon his lips, but he kept his usual gruff look on his face.
"We should go see if Kokiyu is all right, I hope she is. I wonder if she ran into Sarama, would she hurt Kokiyu?" Siasku asked with concern, her eyes boring into Kirashu's as she bit her lower lip uneasily.
"No, Sarama would never hurt Kokiyu, I am sure of that."
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Just then the now healed Kokiyu walked into the campsite, looking at Kirashu and Siasku's confused and hurt faces she asked one thing, "What did I miss?"
Siasku was the first to speak, "Well, Sarama came, and she shot an arrow at me, but Kirashu jumped in the way of it, and saved me. Then she walked over and healed Kirashu, and after that she left."
Kokiyu looked at the now blushing Kirashu and Siasku as she said softly, "Seems like I missed a lot."
"What about you, Kokiyu? Are you feeling better now? Did you meet Sarama?" The young girl shot questions at the older woman.
"Yes, I'm okay, I met Sarama when you guys left, and she didn't try to hurt me. She did heal all of my wounds which I got and she told me to keep my heart pure, and take care," Kokiyu said with a sad smile.
'I guess that Kirashu was right, Sarama would never hurt Kokiyu, and it must have been very hard for her to heal Kokiyu, and she must have healed Kokiyu before she healed Kirashu.' Siasku thought to herself, looking at the two and how they seemed to be having a silent conversation, and a thought suddenly hit the young girl hard.
'They really cared about the demon slayer, and they still do. It must kill them to see her the way she is now, being brought back from death like that and now having to sadly wander the earth.'
Kirashu looked over at Siasku, nodding to her as he said, "We better go, and find that damn Nasaou before he finds us. We haven't ran into the coward yet but something tells me if we do it won't be good news."
Siasku woke up from her thoughts and nodded at the half-demon and the three headed out again, not sure where they would be going, but knowing that whoever this Nasaou was that his evil had to be ended.
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SARAH BARAH IS BACK! *ahem* Excuse me, but she's my best (and only) reviewer, and very cool. Anyways, LONG chapter, eee, yes. Sarama still has her other emotions, though she thinks she only hates things, that isn't true, cause she still feels other feelings. What did you think of the chapter name? Couldn't think of anything else, hmmm. Anyway, hope you enjoyed the chapter, next should be up soon!
by Sarah
Chapter Name, Flying Arrow of Jealousy #20, enjoy!
"Die my reincarnation!" Sarama screamed out, letting the arrow fly forward towards the frightened girl. Once the demon slayer had released the bow string she was crushed with her own thoughts.
'You're going to kill her, an innocent soul, why?' Sarama kept her face emotionless as she thought, 'She deserves it, she deserves to die, if she doesn't Kirashu will just fall even more in love with her...'
Sarama watched as the arrow sped forward, it was covered in dark energy, and the demon slayer could feel the same dark energy covering her, not knowing that if it completely overtook her that there would be no returning to her emotions before. She would feel no love, no care, no sympathy, no compassion, and she would also be completely emotionless, except for the feeling of hate.
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Kirashu saw the arrow and it slowly registered in his mind that the arrow was heading toward Siasku. Siasku sat there, completely petrified, and too scared to think clearly. Kirashu pushed the young girl to the side just in time to save her life, but in doing so he endangered his as the arrow pierced threw his chest, and he landed on the ground with a loud groan. Sarama stood there, completely still and in the same poise which she was in to send the arrow.
'Kirashu, no... I didn't mean for it to hit you.'
Suddenly, the black energy which had almost turned her into the thing which she dreaded the most disappeared, and she walked quickly over to the half-demon's side, noticing that Siasku was all ready by his side, looking down at the injured Kirashu with pure disbelief and complete sadness in her eyes.
"Kirashu... Kirashu!" The young girl screamed out, crying as she hung her head over the half-demon.
"Move girl," Sarama was now by Kirashu's side, staring down with concern in her blue eyes as she looked at Kirashu with the arrow in his heart. Kirashu didn't say anything, his eyes didn't show any concern as he looked at the two woman.
"You won't hurt Kirashu again!" Siasku exclaimed with surprising fierceness in her voice, and the demon slayer could feel the energy field which she was putting around herself and Kirashu, pushing Sarama backwards.
'Such pure energy, the girl is afraid, scared, and angry, I must talk to her. I have to save Kirashu, he can't die yet.'
"Listen, I must get to Kirashu, I know how to heal him, the arrow was intended for you, not Kirashu. I know now that I was blinded by my emotions, and attacked you blinding, please, I must get to Kirashu." Siasku's blazing eyes softened and the energy field which was keeping Sarama at bay was gone. The demon slayer walked over to Kirashu's form, bending down on the opposite side of Siasku as she went to grab the arrow and dislodge it from the half-demon's chest. It took every strength within her to pull the arrow out, it was full of dark energy, and this made Kirashu's wound even worse.
'He will die because of the wound if I don't heal it, I won't have much in me, but I must do it.'
The demon slayer blocked out all of her negative thoughts as she placed her hands on Kirashu and glowed a light blue, and Siasku watched as the wound was slowly, but surely, healing.
'Wow, she is really strong, she's healing him from a near death wound. But ... why? I thought she said she hated him....' Sarama finally finished healing the half-demon, but the amount of energy and the weak body which she was in made her collapse on top of him. Kirashu blinked his eyes slowly, feeling completely fine as he watched the demon slayer put the last of her energy into healing him. The half-demon didn't struggle to get her off of himself, instead he placed his hand on her head.
'Sarama, why do you have such resentment against Siasku? I couldn't let you kill her, somehow I knew you would save me though, I know that the same woman I fell in love with is still deep inside you.' The half-demon then bent his head as he took in her scent, thinking to himself, 'Your once sweet scent is now just what you were made of, but... every time I've meet you the same scent of lilacs and lavenders comes to my nose, mixed with rain and lightning, why?'
Kirashu realized that she must have masked her scent, 'Knowing her, she was probably embarrassed by her scent.' Kirashu thought to himself as he looked into her now opening blue eyes.
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Siasku watched the two, she didn't know how she felt, but the young girl knew that she was confused, and she also felt hurt.
'Don't forget that Kirashu and Sarama were mates, something inside her must still love Kirashu.' Siasku thought to herself as she watched Sarama slowly open her blue eyes and stare into Kirashu's golden eyes. The two seemed to not acknowledge anything around them, only each other.
'You knew this would happen girl.' A voice inside Siasku's told herself, but she merely held her head in defeat as she thought back, 'But... I was never prepared for it to hurt this much.'
Sarama and Kirashu both stared at each other what seemed to be hours for the young Siasku but it was only a minute or two.
'Such beautiful, golden eyes, I can see why I fell in love with him so many years ago.' Sarama thought to herself. But, the woman wouldn't be freed from her hate that easily, after thinking this an evil voice countered, 'Beautiful, but you never expected those eyes to stare down at you without concern watching you fall to your death, did you?'
'No, I didn't...' Sarama thought as her eyes immediately becoming sad and she broke their gaze and stood up to leave.
"I'm sorry I harmed you, Kirashu. And you also, I had no control of myself." Sarama looked at Siasku, as she tried her best to keep the memory of her and Kirashu hugging in the back of her mind. The demon slayer left after she said these words and didn't turn back, her vacant heart telling her to go back to the half-demon, to be held by him, to kiss him, to love him, but she walked on, knowing that she would continue wandering aimlessly.
'I cannot control my emotions, and I may hurt Kirashu, Kokiyu, and my reincarnation if I were to travel with them, and I will not have myself do that.'
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Kirashu called out to Sarama like he always did, but the demon slayer kept on walking, and he stood there with his head hanging in silent defeat again.
'I don't think I can watch these scenes much longer, Kirashu is always so sad after Sarama leaves, and he really does love her, while me...' The young girl suddenly looked up and blushed bright red as she shook her head, 'No, I don't love him! I mean, he's overly protective, which is actionably kind of cute to watch... Wait, no girl, don't, we're just friends, nothing more, nothing less.'
Siasku looked over at Kirashu, her heart suddenly breaking at the half-demon's sad look as she thought, 'Well, probably something less, I doubt he thinks me as a friend, he just protects me because I look like the demon slayer, and I'm her reincarnation.'
Kirashu looked up from the ground he was staring at and looked over at Siasku, he took unsure steps toward her as he noticed she looked as sad as he felt.
"Siasku, are you all right?" The half-demon stared at the young girl, his golden eyes suddenly filled with concern.
"I'm fine Kirashu... really, I don't get attacked that often, that's all," Siasku said with a halfhearted smile.
'I will not cry, I will not cry,' the young girl thought to herself as she looked down at the ground and fought the tears in her eyes.
"I don't believe you..." The half-demon said, giving her a small smile which almost made her heart jump in her throat. Without another thought she walked over to him and hugged him, smiling as she said barely above a whisper in his ear, "You know, you should smile more often..."
Kirashu almost backed away from her when he heard this, thinking to himself, 'Please don't tell me she's falling in love with me... No, that can't be true, I've been a jerk most of the time, except these times when I don't have it in me to push her away.'
"You shouldn't act tough when you know you aren't feeling it..."
"Sometimes you have to act tough because you need to, and other people need you to." Siasku told him, burying her face deeper in his white hair, feeling her tears disappear as she felt so comforted in the half-demon's arms. Too soon Kirashu lightly pushed the young girl out of the embrace, feeling a smile trying to force it's way upon his lips, but he kept his usual gruff look on his face.
"We should go see if Kokiyu is all right, I hope she is. I wonder if she ran into Sarama, would she hurt Kokiyu?" Siasku asked with concern, her eyes boring into Kirashu's as she bit her lower lip uneasily.
"No, Sarama would never hurt Kokiyu, I am sure of that."
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Just then the now healed Kokiyu walked into the campsite, looking at Kirashu and Siasku's confused and hurt faces she asked one thing, "What did I miss?"
Siasku was the first to speak, "Well, Sarama came, and she shot an arrow at me, but Kirashu jumped in the way of it, and saved me. Then she walked over and healed Kirashu, and after that she left."
Kokiyu looked at the now blushing Kirashu and Siasku as she said softly, "Seems like I missed a lot."
"What about you, Kokiyu? Are you feeling better now? Did you meet Sarama?" The young girl shot questions at the older woman.
"Yes, I'm okay, I met Sarama when you guys left, and she didn't try to hurt me. She did heal all of my wounds which I got and she told me to keep my heart pure, and take care," Kokiyu said with a sad smile.
'I guess that Kirashu was right, Sarama would never hurt Kokiyu, and it must have been very hard for her to heal Kokiyu, and she must have healed Kokiyu before she healed Kirashu.' Siasku thought to herself, looking at the two and how they seemed to be having a silent conversation, and a thought suddenly hit the young girl hard.
'They really cared about the demon slayer, and they still do. It must kill them to see her the way she is now, being brought back from death like that and now having to sadly wander the earth.'
Kirashu looked over at Siasku, nodding to her as he said, "We better go, and find that damn Nasaou before he finds us. We haven't ran into the coward yet but something tells me if we do it won't be good news."
Siasku woke up from her thoughts and nodded at the half-demon and the three headed out again, not sure where they would be going, but knowing that whoever this Nasaou was that his evil had to be ended.
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SARAH BARAH IS BACK! *ahem* Excuse me, but she's my best (and only) reviewer, and very cool. Anyways, LONG chapter, eee, yes. Sarama still has her other emotions, though she thinks she only hates things, that isn't true, cause she still feels other feelings. What did you think of the chapter name? Couldn't think of anything else, hmmm. Anyway, hope you enjoyed the chapter, next should be up soon!