10
Kari drove me to the subway and let me out.
"Okay takeru your sure you'll be fine?"
"Yeah, i guess all i can do now is go home." I grabbed my book bag up. "Thanks Kari."
I closed the door as she drove off, i folded the note up and stuck my hand in my pocket and turnded down the stairs to the subway. As i dug a little deeper in my pocket I felt cold metal and pulled out Matts harmonica. I stopped in my tracks, I forgot I had this. It was like a symbol of love almost, a last good bye. I stuck it back into my pocket and felt a piece of paper and tugged on it. It was a picture of Me and Matt taken not too long ago. The corners were creased and it looked like it was in pretty bad shape, my eyes once again filled with tears at the sight of matt smiling and holding me lovingly. memories of lastnight when we made love for the first time flashed before my eyes, the way he took in consideration about how I felt, to make sure i was ok, to be gentle with me.
"Hey faggot."
I turned my head only to be knocked down to the ground, my picture fell in front of me as I reached for it, straining to pick it up, someone grabbed it up and tore it into pieces. I was kicked in my side as they all aughed. These were boyd form my school doing this to me, i figured by now everyone had to of seen me and Matt kiss in his car lastnight after the concert. I cried as they taunted me, trying to sheild my ears with my hands one of the boys were knocked to the ground by someone decked out in all black with a long trench coat on with a guitar case. He held the guitar by its neck and swung it around hitting the boys who were kicking and pulling on my hair. I felt blood race down my chin, the syruppy taste on my tounges as i coughed it up as well, spitting it out on to pavment of the subways floors. I tried to sit up as i was brought into an embrace. The strangers tears pattered on my skin as i slowly leaned into his chest breathing in a familiar scent.
"oni...onisan?"
He just continued to cry as he held me close.
"oh takeru im so sorry, for everything."
"No dont be."
He held me closer as i pressed my face into his chest clenching onto his trench in my hand tightly. Matt cried? I saw him, heard him. I tried to comfort him, but at this point I felt nothing but helpless, what could I do to soothe his aching pains of what had happened to us? He was hurt even more than I was.
"I was going to leave you."
I nodded. "yeah you were."
"I didnt want to, i just wanted to save you from me and i wanted to protect you from the world and everyone in it. I wanted you to live a sheltered life with me. I wanted you to feel protected, to be happy...." He paused.
"I do."
His heart paused at my words. He held me closer as he broke down some more, i hated to see matt cry, i always felt like it was my fault he was crying.
"I love you so much Takeru."
There and then i felt complete, that nothing could bring me down, i was in-destructable. My heart was filled with joy, pain, and saddness all at the same time. My head swirled in lust, envy, and love, i was so happy at that moment I blocked out the rest of the world. I knew that my Yama-kun would be with me no matter what. That he would protect me from everything that was dangerous. At that moment our hearts beat as one, our lips pressed together in a tight embrace of love and happiness, our fingers laced as he walked me back home for the whole world to see. Nothing mattered to me but one thing that day, My onisan.
~Owari~
Kari drove me to the subway and let me out.
"Okay takeru your sure you'll be fine?"
"Yeah, i guess all i can do now is go home." I grabbed my book bag up. "Thanks Kari."
I closed the door as she drove off, i folded the note up and stuck my hand in my pocket and turnded down the stairs to the subway. As i dug a little deeper in my pocket I felt cold metal and pulled out Matts harmonica. I stopped in my tracks, I forgot I had this. It was like a symbol of love almost, a last good bye. I stuck it back into my pocket and felt a piece of paper and tugged on it. It was a picture of Me and Matt taken not too long ago. The corners were creased and it looked like it was in pretty bad shape, my eyes once again filled with tears at the sight of matt smiling and holding me lovingly. memories of lastnight when we made love for the first time flashed before my eyes, the way he took in consideration about how I felt, to make sure i was ok, to be gentle with me.
"Hey faggot."
I turned my head only to be knocked down to the ground, my picture fell in front of me as I reached for it, straining to pick it up, someone grabbed it up and tore it into pieces. I was kicked in my side as they all aughed. These were boyd form my school doing this to me, i figured by now everyone had to of seen me and Matt kiss in his car lastnight after the concert. I cried as they taunted me, trying to sheild my ears with my hands one of the boys were knocked to the ground by someone decked out in all black with a long trench coat on with a guitar case. He held the guitar by its neck and swung it around hitting the boys who were kicking and pulling on my hair. I felt blood race down my chin, the syruppy taste on my tounges as i coughed it up as well, spitting it out on to pavment of the subways floors. I tried to sit up as i was brought into an embrace. The strangers tears pattered on my skin as i slowly leaned into his chest breathing in a familiar scent.
"oni...onisan?"
He just continued to cry as he held me close.
"oh takeru im so sorry, for everything."
"No dont be."
He held me closer as i pressed my face into his chest clenching onto his trench in my hand tightly. Matt cried? I saw him, heard him. I tried to comfort him, but at this point I felt nothing but helpless, what could I do to soothe his aching pains of what had happened to us? He was hurt even more than I was.
"I was going to leave you."
I nodded. "yeah you were."
"I didnt want to, i just wanted to save you from me and i wanted to protect you from the world and everyone in it. I wanted you to live a sheltered life with me. I wanted you to feel protected, to be happy...." He paused.
"I do."
His heart paused at my words. He held me closer as he broke down some more, i hated to see matt cry, i always felt like it was my fault he was crying.
"I love you so much Takeru."
There and then i felt complete, that nothing could bring me down, i was in-destructable. My heart was filled with joy, pain, and saddness all at the same time. My head swirled in lust, envy, and love, i was so happy at that moment I blocked out the rest of the world. I knew that my Yama-kun would be with me no matter what. That he would protect me from everything that was dangerous. At that moment our hearts beat as one, our lips pressed together in a tight embrace of love and happiness, our fingers laced as he walked me back home for the whole world to see. Nothing mattered to me but one thing that day, My onisan.
~Owari~