Warnings: 5xR, yaoi (1x2), angst, after EW.
(Wufei: AC 207)
I don't think any of us noticed the pain constantly swimming in her eyes until it was too late. Looking back, I can't help but wonder how we could be so blind, so oblivious to what was happening. So now we kick ourselves over and over again, hoping to somehow find a way to go back in time and change our ignorance into knowledge, and when that doesn't work, we all find our own ways to cope.
Yuy has taken up near-permanent residence outside her door, only breaking when either Barton or Maxwell can relieve him. He won't let me stand guard, I don't press the issue. Maxwell attempts to tackle the problem with his almost clichŽ exuberance, bringing her flowers, candy, teddy bears, checkers, chinese finger traps... Hilde is almost as bad, except with her it's baked goods – cookies, cakes, pies... Winner is attempting a desperate race against time, throwing money at the drug companies in hopes of a wonder cure. And I...
I...
I mostly sit.
(from the personal journal of Relena Peacecraft Dorlian)
May 17, AC 201
Duo and Heero celebrated their one year anniversary yesterday. It was a small affair, close friends only – meaning the other pilots, myself, Hilde, Sally, and Lady Une.
It's strange, I've never really gotten a chance to sit down and talk to the other pilots before this. I've only become truly close to both Duo and Heero in the last couple of years, since Une has both of them alternate back and forth as my bodyguard. I'm so glad that I finally got over my stupid crush on Heero – it's much easier to be friends with someone when you aren't forcing them to hide from you all of the time.
I talk to Quatre on the comm. sometimes, he's a reliable source for information on companies and corporations. Trowa I really don't see at all, since he doesn't stay in one place for very long, and we never seemed to have that much in common, though Duo always insists that we might be more similar than we'll ever know.
The party itself was a grand success, excusing the fact that Chang chose to show up two hours late, and then stayed in the shadows for the rest of the evening.
Nothing else of interest, with the exception of Une confiding in me that she'll have a surprise waiting at my office tomorrow morning. I can hardly wait.
Doctor gave me a new prescription today, supposed to help with the pain. Hope it's supposed to take a while to take affect, since no noticeable results yet.
(Wufei: AC 207)
Though it's rather callous of me, I'd have to say that one of the things I miss the most is her cooking. I don't know what they were supposed to be teaching her at those private schools, but if nothing else they must have had an very good home economics classes, because she has always been an excellent cook.
She was actually giving me lessons, going over the steps with me, pointing out what I was doing wrong. I was coming along pretty well when she got sick...
I haven't been eating that much lately, I don't know whether it's because I miss her cooking or because I'm just not hungry. Duo insists on coming by with these casseroles that he's made, but for some reason I can never choke any of it down. I think he and the others are worried about me.
But really, I just don't know anymore...