Chapter 19: win some lose some

Title: Reunion time.

Author: Nikka

Author notes: Hi everyone, If you need to know about summary, rate and all the rest it's all in chapter 1 I'll just remind you that English is not my native tongue so you may find some spelling & grammar mistakes, you're more then welcome to let me know about them but remember you may find them while you read the story. Have fun.

Disclaimer: Angel & Buffy's characters are not my creation (wish they were) they belong to Joss Whedon and David Greenwalt. Other characters that are not familiar from the show do belong to me.

Author's remark: My chapters as of ch 12 will no longer be reproof by Sigma due to the fact that I have no internet and I'm asking someone else to post the remaining chapters for me. I want to take this opportunity and thank sigma for all the help. And I hope you will continue reading my story even without the excellent work sigma has done. Thank you again sigma for all your great work.

"She climbed into bed a bit scared. It was the first time in over two years she felt uncomfortable around him. She didn't like that feeling. She covered her self with the blanket and turned to the side her back facing him. She hopped he wouldn't say anything, she hopped he wouldn't force her to talk. She was so confused she didn't know what to say or feel. She couldn't handle it, not tonight at least.

"Cor?" he said softly waiting for a reply. Cordelia sighed softly she knew she couldn't back out now.

"Yeah." She said without turning.

"I know it's late and I know we said we'll talk about it tomorrow but…" he paused for a moment, then continued. "I can't leave it like that." There was a quiet moment. "I thought maybe we can talk about it now, if we're already awake." He lay there quietly waiting for her reaction.

"I don't know what to say." She said quietly.

"What do you mean? And can you look at me?" he asked when she still hadn't turned. She turned around and faced him and then set up, she couldn't just lie there and talk to him about this it was too wired even for her. He did the same.

"You're waiting for an answer, an answer I don't have." She said trying not to look in his eyes.

"Oh… I understand." He said in a disappointed tune.

"No you don't understand. You think that just because I don't have an answer for you that means I don't feel the same way, well you're wrong!" she said firmly.

"So you do feel the same?" His eyes lit up.

"No Angel." She rolled her eyes. "You don't get it." She said in despair.

"Don't get what?" He seemed more confused.

"That you're the one who doesn't feel the same."

"Me?!" Angel raised his voice. Conor made a soft noise that made Angel lower his tune. "But how can you say that, I'm the one who started the whole thing, I'm the one who said I love you, I'm the one …"

"Who's still in love with his ex." She completed the sentence for him. Angel looked at her disbelieving. He couldn't believe she was saying those things, not after all they've been through, not after what he told her.

"Is that what you think, that I'm in love with Buffy?" He asked calmly.

"I didn't till now, but…" She stopped searching for words. "What you said to me, to her. The way you acted…" He stopped her.

"That doesn't mean a thing, I explained all of that."

"I know Angel but the way you looked at her, the way you were together."

"What Cor?" he didn't understand where she was going with that.

Don't you get it? She loves you, she always have and probably always will." She took a big breath. "And you love her still, and that kills me. Every time you're near her it's like something inside of you changes, you're a different men around her."

Cor, I don't know what Buffy feels and to be honest I don't care. I know how I feel and I… I love Cordelia chase." His words echoed in her head.

"I love the way you get angry when I leave Weapons laying around, I love how your smile lights up the room. I love the way you help people, I love the way you talk, I love every aspect of you good and bad." He stopped talking and looked at her, she seemed shocked, confused and…

"There's a bad aspect of me?" She asked. He smiled; he also loved that about her.

"I'm scared Angel." She whispered. "I'm scared I'll lose you, and I'm scared it will be because of me." He didn't need to ask what she meant, he already knew. He has seen this expression before; he has seen that look in the eyes of the woman he loved before. He remembered it all.

"Talk about history repeating itself." He said.

"I'm sorry Angel." She lowered her head.

"Don't be." He touched her chin softly and raised her head turning it towards him. "It's not your fault, it's mine always mine." He reached his hand out and touched her cheek softly, she smiled letting him love her.

"I love you Cor." He whispered softly.

"I love you too Angel, I have been for a long time."

He smiled. For the first time in a long time he felt complete. He wanted this moment, this night to continue forever. He looked at her knowing it was all right to love her now. He leaned forward and softly kissed her lips. She didn't say anything she just kissed him back. He wrapped his arms around her, kissing her passionately, knowing this is all he can do. This is the only way he can show her how much he loves her, how much she means to him. She let him take her into his arms, she felt happy and at peace. She felt loved.

"Good morning Luv." He greeted her as she entered the kitchen.

"What are you doing here Spike?" she asked in a cranky voice.

"I came to see how you were doing." She looked at him trying to find out his secret agenda.

"Don't look at me like that, it's the truth scouts honor." He smiled raising his arm up and doing the sign.

"And of course I believe the oath of a soulless demon." She said as she poured cereals into the bowl.

"No need to use name calling." He said sarcastically trying to avoid her remark.

"Good morning Buffy, Spike." Dawn greeted everyone as she came into the kitchen. She didn't find it odd to see Spike there, she actually found it very normal and that fact bothered Buffy.

"Don't you have somewhere else to be?" Buffy asked when she noticed Spike was still there.

"Trying to get rid of me are you, before your guests wake up?" He teased her.

"Spike!" she was starting to lose her patience. "Just leave!" she ordered.

"Not until I'm convinced your fine." He set down on one of the stools and crossed his hands while making a not so serious expression.

"Will breaking your arm convince you I'm fine?" She asked sarcastically.

"Fine I'll go but I think you're too late." He said with a smile.

"Too late for what?" she asked curiously.

He pointed towards the entrance, "your guests are already up."

She looked back to the doorway where Angel, Cordelia With Conor and Lorne stood. They all seemed embarrassed but not as much as Buffy.

"Hi." She said and quickly got up. "How did you sleep?' She asked trying to change the topic.

"Well I have to say that for a sofa as a bed it wasn't that bad." Lorne said while rubbing his lower back.

"I'm sorry I didn't have anywhere else to put you." Buffy apologized.

"Don't be, where the one who showed up all of the sudden." Angel said as he gave Lorne a look that said –SHUT UP!

"Me and Dawn are finished and Spike was just about to leave so you have the kitchen all to yourself." Buffy said as she noticed that the bunch was still standing in the doorway.

Dawn walked out Buffy after her. Then Buffy came back grabbed Spike by the arm and dragged him out of there.

"What's wrong with you? Don't you know when you're not welcomed?" Buffy said when they left the kitchen.

"You know us vampires. You invite us once and it never ends."

"Spike!" She was trying not to lose it. "Please leave. Now!"

This time he had no clever remark or a witty comeback. He grabbed his blanked that was on the stairs. "I only wanted to make sure you were fine." He said and covered himself with the blanket as he ran out.

'Damn it' she said to herself. He always did that. He would act like a moron most of the time and then when she finally got mad he became this… almost normal person. Then she always felt bad for yelling at him.

"Dawn!" she cried out. "Are you ready?" She asked.

"In a minute." Dawn yelled from upstairs.

"You have exactly 2 minutes till Xander shows up after that your walking to school." As she said that the door opened and Xander came in.

He didn't know what to say after last night, so he just stood there waiting to see what Buffy would do.

"Hi Xand, how are you?" Buffy asked in a very normal and usual tune.

"Me? I'm… I'm fine." He said surprised. Buffy noticed he was uncomfortable.

"Look Xander I know you're feeling pretty wired, so don't be Okay? She looked at him and he seemed even more confused. "We need to talk but not now, not like this. We'll do it later all of us okay?" This time she waited for an answer.

"Sure Buff, what ever you want, you're the boss." She smiled. "Now where's Dawn, we'll be late." And just as he asked…

"D-A-W-NNNN!" Buffy yelled so loud that Xander covered his ears.

"I'm coming." She yelled back as she ran down the stairs. "I need just a minute she said to Xander and she throw the bag to him and ran to the kitchen.

"Are you going to be here when I come home from school?" She asked Cordy.

"Yeah we'll be here, now hurry before you'll miss your ride." Dawn smiled said Bye gave Conor a quick kiss and ran out.

"I'm ready." Dawn said as she walked through the corridor.

"Have a nice day." Buffy greeted the two as they walked out the door.

She went to the living room to clean it up a bit. A few minutes later Angel, Cordy and Lorne came in.

"Need a hand?" Cordelia offered to help.

"No, I'm almost done. Besides I have to go." Buffy said.

"Anything wrong?" Angel asked concerned.

"No, I have a few errands, nothing special." Angel nodded. "Here's the spear key in case you want to go somewhere." She gave Cordelia the key.

"That won't be necessary I'll be here." Angel said and looked out the window. It was a very sunny day today.

"Oh." Buffy wished she hadn't said that it must kill him that on a beautiful day like this he can't go out with his son for a walk.

"Well I better go. Enjoy." She grabbed her bag and left.

The doorbell rang. Cordy went to see who is it.

"Gunn Hi." She greeted him and let him in.

"Where's Fred?" Angel asked when Gunn came into the living room.

She went with Anya to the store, I told her I'll meet her there."

"Why didn't you go with her?" Lorne asked.

"Actually that's why I'm here. I wasn't clear about the time."

"The time?" Angel asked.

"Yeah, when are we leaving?"

"Didn't I tell you?" Angel seemed surprised, so did Gunn.

"Tell me what?"

"We decided to stay another day." Cordy explained.

"What? Why?" Gunn was surprised.

"It's a long story, but the good part is you get to spend this wonderful day with Fred. You know Sunnydale has a lot to offer. Gunn looked at her with a funny expression. "Well maybe not a lot but still..." Cordy hoped her offer would make the 'not consulting you part' disappear.

Gunn had an angry expression on his face but as he began to think about it more and more he started to like the idea.

"You're right!" he said to Cordy with a smile. Anyone else cares to join us?" He offered.

"Give me 5 minutes I'll put on a big hat and take Conor for a day out, he'll love it." Lorne said and looked at Angel and Cordy for approval. Angel nodded his head.

Lorne smiled and took Conor upstairs to get him ready.

"5 minutes Lorne, hurry up." Gunn yelled. He hated waiting for Lorne to get ready.

"And Wes where is he?" Cordy asked Gunn.

"He's with that other British guy… Giles. They're at the magic shop."

Are you coming?" Gunn asked Cordy.

"No I think I'll stay here." Angel felt bad that because of him she'll miss a day off, which she needed badly.

"Cor, you should go. Enjoy the day, meet old friends, your parents." He said trying to convince her to spend the day outside.

"Angel, My parents moved away, I have no old friends I want to meet, except the ones I already met, and I can certainly enjoy the day here, relaxing." She smiled at him and he decided not to push her anymore.

"Ready." Lorne said as he and Conor came down the stairs. He put Conor in the pram. Angel kissed Conor as they all left.

Now they had the house to themselves, they were all alone, for the first time in a long time.

She knocked on the heavy door another time. "I know your there where else can you be its day time, so OPEN UP!" she yelled at the door.

A few seconds later the door opened slightly, not more then a crack. She pushed it open and got in closing the door behind her.

"I thought you didn't want to see me?" He asked.

"I don't." she answered.

"So, you're here because?" He wondered.

"You always do that you know." She walked towards the couch were he lay staring at the TV.

"Do what exactly?" He inquired.

"You act like Spike…" he interrupted her.

"Meaning?" he asked.

"Like a moron." She said and he nodded. "And then you say or do something nice that makes me feel bad for acting the way I towards you." She stopped looking at him.

"And that's why you're here?" He asked still not looking at her.

"Yes, well no, I…" She was confused.

"So what is it slayer, yes." He got up and stood right in front of her their faces so close to one another. "Or no?"

She didn't say anything it was almost like he had some kind of hold on her.

"I think I know why you're here." He said.

"And why is that?" she asked still not moving away.

"You wanted to see me and you're using this as an excuse." He moved a step closer and grabbed her waist pulling her close to him.

"You would think that wouldn't you?" She said to him, and then she moved her lips close to his mouth. "You wish Spike." She whispered and pushed him away.

He looked stunned. "So what the baldy hell do you want? Can't you just leave me to be?" He yelled at her. "What happened this time princes someone broke your heart. Another ex-boyfriend who prefers to be with someone else or anywhere else but here with you." He laughed when he saw the angry expression on her face. "You tell me I can only wish to be with you, but maybe it's the other way around, maybe you should wish I'll stay and won't leave you like all the rest did." Buffy looked at him angry, she wanted to hit him so badly but knew it would only make him feel like he has won.

He came close to her again, she didn't move. He leaned his head and whispered in her ear, "Did Angel & Cordelia found the bed comfortable enough?" Before he knew what hit him, she did. She punched him right in the nose. It bled. "How many time can I tell you NOT THE NOSE!" he screamed at her as he fell to his knees grabbing his nose.

"You should have thought about it sooner." She walked pass him and opened the door wide open letting the sun in. "Have a pleasant day Spike." She said as she walked out leaving the door open.

"Thanks a lot slayer, do come again." He yelled.

TBC.

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