Bleed for Me
By Siren
Hey guys! I'm glad you liked the last chapter!
Aarien: I like your pen name! I'm glad you liked the last chapter!
Hana: Yes, I purposely gave that chapter the title 'Gandalf the Gay'. This story is set a year or two after the war of the Ring. You'll find out about Avarier soon, possibly even in this chapter, I haven't decided yet. Oh, rum! Rum is nice! Yes, I have morbid interests too. I am insane. O.o
Crazynutcase: Glad you liked it, lol.
Marie: Four times a week? O.o; I'll try, lol. A gray stallion huh? Weird but sounds beautiful. So farting near a fire WOULD cause an explosion? Uh oh…*Runs to stop friends* NO! SHE SAYS IT WOULD! DON'T DO IT!!!
Elf Cowgirl: I think Final Fantasy 11 will be coming out soon. I hope it will anyway. I'm halfway through with Final Fantasy 10, I beat my Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers game, and I'm almost done with Lord of the Rings: The Fellowship of the Rings. You'll find out why Avarier killed the elf soon.
Tap-dancing hobbit: Eh, tell your sister to get a sense of humor, lol.
Aquitaineg: Oh, vodka! I haven't thought of that! I'll keep that in mind for later chapters, lol.
I tried to write: Thanks! ^_^
Seren: It's okay. Astaider and Hodoer are elves. They're very, er, moody. I don't know why. I just type whatever pops into my head. *Shrugs*
Shire Elf: Mwahahaha. ^_^
Cassie-bear 01: At least you didn't get bucked off. What kind of horse do you have? *Takes healthy thing of cookie dough* THANK YOU!!!
Manson-goth-chick: Thanks!
Arwen: Painted toenails, check. *Backs away from the fire* EEP. 0.0
Crystal: I love your story! I'll read it after I post this chapter, kay?
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I'm not at the campsite anymore.
I'm walking in the woods of Lothlorien, holding a lantern in one of my hands. Elves walk past me, murmuring in soft, melodious voices. Some of the elves are singing, their voices weaving around me like a spell. Tolkien wasn't kidding, their voices really do sound like the chiming of bells. It's beautiful. All of the Lothlorien elves are dressed in pale colors, most of them white or silver. It's strange to see all the elves pass by me, and not hear their footsteps. I hear a light chuckle behind me and turn around. I don't see anyone. Where did all of the elves go?
"Looking for someone?"
Feeling my muscles tense, I turn around to see Avarier looking at me with a smile tugging at his lips. "You," I answer. Avarier grins and takes a step towards me. "Well you've found me," he says, a note of teasing in his voice. I smile, and start walking with him. "So, how have you been faring?" he asks. I shrug, a smile still on my face. "Well, so far the elves and I have met up with Gandalf, got attacked by orcs, and got really, really drunk. You?" Avarier laughs, and I love the sound of it. It doesn't sound like the elves'. It sounds real. Tangible. "Well, I set out for Gondor a few days before you did. Nothing exciting has happened." Aw, poor boy.
"I've missed you."
I stop walking and look at him. "You miss me?" I ask, my voice higher than I'd like it to be. Avarier looks away, his cheeks turning red. "Yes, well, you're the first person who really talked to me at Rivendell. The elves aren't exactly fond of me." I nod. "Right. You attacked an elf," I say, partly to remind myself of what he had done. Avarier and Hodoer made me promise that I would stay away from him. But is it my fault if he invades my dreams? "Why did you attack the elf?" I ask, breaking the momentary silence. I see his jaw clench, and I can tell he's uncomfortable with the subject. "I'd rather not talk about it." I sigh, knowing I'm not going to get anywhere with him.
We come to a stop in the center of a clearing. I look up and see a ring of elves surrounding us. Haldir steps forward and looks at me accusingly. "You're breaking your promise," he hisses. I frown and look to my side, only to see that Avarier is gone. Pouting I look up at the elf in front of me. "Great, you scared him off." Haldir simply glares at me. "You know what? You just ruined a perfectly good dream. You know what I say to party poopers?" I lift up the lantern, which now contains a black light. (You know, the kind they have at parties and where anything white glows.) I hold up the black light, and all of the elves' clothing glows blindingly. Haldir winces and covers his eyes. Grinning mischievously, I let out a laugh. I lower the lantern and close my eyes, a smile still on my face.
When I open my eyes, I'm back at the campsite, lying on the ground. I sit up and see my companions looking at me with raised eyebrows. "What? I can't have a nice dream?" They simply shake their heads and go back to packing. Letting out a sigh, I stand up and start to roll up my bedroll. While I pack, my thoughts stray to Avarier. That dream got me to thinking about his situation. Now that he refused to tell me what happened, I wanted to know even more. I roll my eyes at my thoughts. It was a dream! I don't think it's even possible for him to stray into my dreams. And what was the deal with Haldir? How did he know about my promise? Ugh, it's probably just my conscience arguing with itself.
Once everything is packed, I haul myself onto Telcoer's back. I gather the reins into my hand and ride in the back of our little group. My mind has gone on autopilot, allowing me to analyze my dream. Normally my dreams are too weird or meaningless to analyze, but this one is different. Sure I've thought about Avarier since I've started on this trip. But I never thought I'd dream about him. Why was I in Lothlorien? Why was he in Lothlorien? And why the hell did I have a black light? Temporarily blinding Haldir was pretty sweet though.
"Siren?"
I perk up and look to my left to see Legolas riding beside me. Wait, wasn't he in the front before? "What is it?" I ask, wanting to get back to my thinking. Oh, if only my teachers could hear that one. "You look troubled. Are you all right?" I nod, and force a smile. "I'm fine. Just thinkin'," I say. It's not really a lie. Legolas looks at me, not believing a word of it. "You've never been prone to 'just think'. What's wrong?" His voice holds a hint of concern. "I told you, I'm fine. Gee you're a nosy one." Legolas frowns but doesn't press any further. "Well if you ever want to talk, I'm here." I nod and look ahead.
We ride on for a few hours, and I'm growing bored again. Just as I'm about to fall out of the saddle from boredom, I see something that catches my eye. It's a form, walking down the road. What really surprises me though, is that I recognize the person. "Avarier?" I can't stop myself from grinning, and nudge Telcoer into a trot. I trot ahead of the group and come up behind Avarier.
"Avarier!"
He turns around and looks at me in surprise. "Siren?" I'm grinning like an idiot and slow Telcoer down to a walk. "What are you doing here? I thought you'd be miles ahead of us!" He smiles and shrugs. "My horse got spooked, bucked me off and ran away. I've been walking for two days now." Still grinning madly, I tap the saddle. "Than hop on. You can ride with me." Avarier's grin widens and he moves to sit behind me when a voice rings out behind me.
"Siren!"
I turn to see the others trotting up to us. Astaider, Hodoer and Legolas are scowling in disapproval, but Gandalf is looking at him with a hint of amusement in his eyes. "Hello there. I am Gandalf the Gray. You know lady Siren?" Avarier nods, looking at Gandalf in amazement. "Yes sir. I met her in Rivendell." I ignore the glares of the elves and look at Gandalf pleadingly. "His horse got spooked and ran off. Can he ride with us?" The elves open their mouths to argue, but Gandalf comes to the rescue. "I don't see why not. Are you heading for Gondor?" Avarier nods. "All right than. You may travel with us." I let out a squeak of happiness, and Avarier laughs as he sits in the saddle behind me.
He wraps his arms around my waist, and Telcoer starts walking. I feel him rest his chin on my shoulder and his breath on my ear. "I missed you," he whispers. I feel a blush spread across my cheeks and smile. "I missed you too," I whisper back, wary of the elves' hearing. I know that I must sound like some silly schoolgirl, but it feels great to have his arms around me. I lean back a bit in his embrace, feeling the warmth of his body against mine. I chance a look back at the elves and see them looking venomously at the back of Avarier's form. I sigh and look ahead again.
Something tells me this isn't going to be a smooth trip.
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Well, whatever told me that, it was right. We stop for the night and dismount. I grab my pack and start to set up my bedroll, when I see shadows looming over me. I look up to see Hodoer and Astaider hovering over me, frowns on their faces. "Hey guys. What's up?" They don't answer, but Hodoer grabs my arm and yanks me to my feet. I yelp as they start to pull me away from the camp. Avarier moves to help me, but Legolas steps in front of him. "We need to talk," I hear the elf growl.
Once we're out of hearing range (for me anyway), Hodoer lets my arm go. I rub the sore flesh and frown. "What the hell are you doing?" I hiss. "You promised us that you would not associate with that mortal!" Astaider snaps. "Look, he's a good guy! I don't know why he attacked that elf, but I'm sure he has a good reason!" The two elves in front of me narrow their eyes. "Elves do not provoke mortals into attacking them," Hodoer says through clenched teeth. I lift an eyebrow. "Yeah? Well you're provoking me right now," I retort.
"The fact of the matter is, is that he is a dangerous person and you broke your promise to us," Astaider says. I glare at the two of them. "Avarier is a good person. I will not stop being his friend," I say firmly. The two elves share a glance. "Than you will stop being friends with us," Hodoer says. "Yes, we will not endanger ourselves just because you refuse to see the truth." I stare at them in anger and disbelief. "I can't believe you two! Avarier is innocent, and you'd throw my friendship away because I choose to be his friend?" Astaider says nothing a walks back to the camp. Hodoer brushes past me, but stops for a moment. "You threw away our friendship first," she says coolly, and walks away.
I stare at their retreating forms, still not able to process what just happened. I walk back to the camp, and see Legolas and Avarier about to face off.
"You will stay away from her mortal," Legolas warns. Avarier doesn't seem to take the hint and stands his ground. "I am not criminal. If she chooses to be my friend, than that is her choice." Legolas's eyes flash with fury. "You attacked one of my kind. I will not trust you to be near her!"
I've had enough.
"ENOUGH!" I shout. Legolas and Avarier stop arguing and look at me. I step between the two of them and look up at the elf. "Legolas, Avarier will not hurt me. And he's right, it's my choice. I choose to give him the benefit of the doubt." He opens his mouth to say something, but I cut him off. "Don't say anything. You're all acting like a bunch of bratty children. Now stop this bullshit before I bash all of your heads in with Gandalf's staff."
"Leave me out of this," the old wizard says.
I roll my eyes, ignoring him. Legolas looks at Avarier, than at me. "If you choose to place your trust in him than you are a fool." I cross my arms over my chest and shrug. "I think we've already decided that I'm a bit of an idiot. But in this case, I don't think I am." Legolas huffs, and turns to go by Astaider and Hodoer. Once he sits down, I sigh and turn to Avarier. "And you. You are going to tell me exactly what happened with the elf you attacked and don't lie to me or else I will beg Legolas to kick your ass." Avarier sighs and nods.
Don't know who to trust
No surprise
Everyone feels so far away from me
Heavy thoughts sift through dust
And the lies
Avarier and I sit down on my bedroll and I wait for him to begin. "The attack happened two years ago. I already told you that my mother was fascinated with elves." I nod and wait for him to continue. "Well, she had gone to an elf to learn their language. They ended up forming a friendship, and my mother was happy. But after a few months, something happened." I lean closer to him. "What happened?" I ask.
Trying not to break
But I'm so tired of this deceit
Every time I try to make myself
Get back up on my feet
All I ever think about is this
All the tiring time between
And how
Trying to put my trust in you
Just takes so much out of me
"He forced himself upon my mother. She was devastated. I wanted to alert the authorities, but she begged me not to. She said she would feel humiliated. A week after she told me what happened, I saw the elf. Something inside of me snapped. I went mad with rage and attacked him. It took three guards to pull me off of him," he finishes. I stare at him with wide eyes. "I knew you had a good reason. Didn't you tell this to lord Aragorn? I'm sure he would've understood!" Avarier shakes his head. "By telling lord Aragorn what happened, I would have to tell him about my mother. I couldn't go against her wishes."
Oh Avarier… "But that's not fair! It wasn't your fault! That elf got what he deserved!" He smiles faintly. "You are the first person I've told this to. You're the first person to believe me innocent, even without knowing about my reasons for attacking the elf." I grin and shrug. "I'm not your average person." He smiles again. "I can tell." He leans in a bit, the firelight highlighting his features. He's so close… I lean in and brush my lips against his, unable to help myself.
I take everything from inside
And throw it all away
'Cause I swear
For the last time
I won't trust myself with you
I feel him tense at my touch, and move to pull away, but he puts a hand on my neck and pulls me close again. His kiss is gentle, yet firm, and I deepen it. His hand kneads my neck and I let out a small moan.
Tension is building inside
Steadily
Everyone feels so far away from me
Heavy thoughts forcing their way
Out of me
I pull away, needing air. I open my eyes and smile. Avarier is smiling as well, and his hand slips from my neck to my cheek. His thumb strokes my chin and I lean in for another kiss, closing my eyes. I brush my lips against…COLD WOOD? I open my eyes to see Gandalf's staff between us. "What the fu…" I look up and see Gandalf looking down at us in amusement. "That's quite enough children," he says. I pout and see Avarier blush crimson. "Get some rest. We enter Gondor tomorrow." I roll my eyes and flop down onto my bedroll.
I feel Avarier's lips against my temple and smile. "Sweet dreams," he whispers, and goes to lay down a few feet away. Yeah, sweet dreams…
I won't trust myself with you
I won't waste myself on you
Waste myself on you
You
2 Be Continued
A.N.-The song belongs to Linkin Park, and the song is 'From the Inside'.
By Siren
Hey guys! I'm glad you liked the last chapter!
Aarien: I like your pen name! I'm glad you liked the last chapter!
Hana: Yes, I purposely gave that chapter the title 'Gandalf the Gay'. This story is set a year or two after the war of the Ring. You'll find out about Avarier soon, possibly even in this chapter, I haven't decided yet. Oh, rum! Rum is nice! Yes, I have morbid interests too. I am insane. O.o
Crazynutcase: Glad you liked it, lol.
Marie: Four times a week? O.o; I'll try, lol. A gray stallion huh? Weird but sounds beautiful. So farting near a fire WOULD cause an explosion? Uh oh…*Runs to stop friends* NO! SHE SAYS IT WOULD! DON'T DO IT!!!
Elf Cowgirl: I think Final Fantasy 11 will be coming out soon. I hope it will anyway. I'm halfway through with Final Fantasy 10, I beat my Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers game, and I'm almost done with Lord of the Rings: The Fellowship of the Rings. You'll find out why Avarier killed the elf soon.
Tap-dancing hobbit: Eh, tell your sister to get a sense of humor, lol.
Aquitaineg: Oh, vodka! I haven't thought of that! I'll keep that in mind for later chapters, lol.
I tried to write: Thanks! ^_^
Seren: It's okay. Astaider and Hodoer are elves. They're very, er, moody. I don't know why. I just type whatever pops into my head. *Shrugs*
Shire Elf: Mwahahaha. ^_^
Cassie-bear 01: At least you didn't get bucked off. What kind of horse do you have? *Takes healthy thing of cookie dough* THANK YOU!!!
Manson-goth-chick: Thanks!
Arwen: Painted toenails, check. *Backs away from the fire* EEP. 0.0
Crystal: I love your story! I'll read it after I post this chapter, kay?
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I'm not at the campsite anymore.
I'm walking in the woods of Lothlorien, holding a lantern in one of my hands. Elves walk past me, murmuring in soft, melodious voices. Some of the elves are singing, their voices weaving around me like a spell. Tolkien wasn't kidding, their voices really do sound like the chiming of bells. It's beautiful. All of the Lothlorien elves are dressed in pale colors, most of them white or silver. It's strange to see all the elves pass by me, and not hear their footsteps. I hear a light chuckle behind me and turn around. I don't see anyone. Where did all of the elves go?
"Looking for someone?"
Feeling my muscles tense, I turn around to see Avarier looking at me with a smile tugging at his lips. "You," I answer. Avarier grins and takes a step towards me. "Well you've found me," he says, a note of teasing in his voice. I smile, and start walking with him. "So, how have you been faring?" he asks. I shrug, a smile still on my face. "Well, so far the elves and I have met up with Gandalf, got attacked by orcs, and got really, really drunk. You?" Avarier laughs, and I love the sound of it. It doesn't sound like the elves'. It sounds real. Tangible. "Well, I set out for Gondor a few days before you did. Nothing exciting has happened." Aw, poor boy.
"I've missed you."
I stop walking and look at him. "You miss me?" I ask, my voice higher than I'd like it to be. Avarier looks away, his cheeks turning red. "Yes, well, you're the first person who really talked to me at Rivendell. The elves aren't exactly fond of me." I nod. "Right. You attacked an elf," I say, partly to remind myself of what he had done. Avarier and Hodoer made me promise that I would stay away from him. But is it my fault if he invades my dreams? "Why did you attack the elf?" I ask, breaking the momentary silence. I see his jaw clench, and I can tell he's uncomfortable with the subject. "I'd rather not talk about it." I sigh, knowing I'm not going to get anywhere with him.
We come to a stop in the center of a clearing. I look up and see a ring of elves surrounding us. Haldir steps forward and looks at me accusingly. "You're breaking your promise," he hisses. I frown and look to my side, only to see that Avarier is gone. Pouting I look up at the elf in front of me. "Great, you scared him off." Haldir simply glares at me. "You know what? You just ruined a perfectly good dream. You know what I say to party poopers?" I lift up the lantern, which now contains a black light. (You know, the kind they have at parties and where anything white glows.) I hold up the black light, and all of the elves' clothing glows blindingly. Haldir winces and covers his eyes. Grinning mischievously, I let out a laugh. I lower the lantern and close my eyes, a smile still on my face.
When I open my eyes, I'm back at the campsite, lying on the ground. I sit up and see my companions looking at me with raised eyebrows. "What? I can't have a nice dream?" They simply shake their heads and go back to packing. Letting out a sigh, I stand up and start to roll up my bedroll. While I pack, my thoughts stray to Avarier. That dream got me to thinking about his situation. Now that he refused to tell me what happened, I wanted to know even more. I roll my eyes at my thoughts. It was a dream! I don't think it's even possible for him to stray into my dreams. And what was the deal with Haldir? How did he know about my promise? Ugh, it's probably just my conscience arguing with itself.
Once everything is packed, I haul myself onto Telcoer's back. I gather the reins into my hand and ride in the back of our little group. My mind has gone on autopilot, allowing me to analyze my dream. Normally my dreams are too weird or meaningless to analyze, but this one is different. Sure I've thought about Avarier since I've started on this trip. But I never thought I'd dream about him. Why was I in Lothlorien? Why was he in Lothlorien? And why the hell did I have a black light? Temporarily blinding Haldir was pretty sweet though.
"Siren?"
I perk up and look to my left to see Legolas riding beside me. Wait, wasn't he in the front before? "What is it?" I ask, wanting to get back to my thinking. Oh, if only my teachers could hear that one. "You look troubled. Are you all right?" I nod, and force a smile. "I'm fine. Just thinkin'," I say. It's not really a lie. Legolas looks at me, not believing a word of it. "You've never been prone to 'just think'. What's wrong?" His voice holds a hint of concern. "I told you, I'm fine. Gee you're a nosy one." Legolas frowns but doesn't press any further. "Well if you ever want to talk, I'm here." I nod and look ahead.
We ride on for a few hours, and I'm growing bored again. Just as I'm about to fall out of the saddle from boredom, I see something that catches my eye. It's a form, walking down the road. What really surprises me though, is that I recognize the person. "Avarier?" I can't stop myself from grinning, and nudge Telcoer into a trot. I trot ahead of the group and come up behind Avarier.
"Avarier!"
He turns around and looks at me in surprise. "Siren?" I'm grinning like an idiot and slow Telcoer down to a walk. "What are you doing here? I thought you'd be miles ahead of us!" He smiles and shrugs. "My horse got spooked, bucked me off and ran away. I've been walking for two days now." Still grinning madly, I tap the saddle. "Than hop on. You can ride with me." Avarier's grin widens and he moves to sit behind me when a voice rings out behind me.
"Siren!"
I turn to see the others trotting up to us. Astaider, Hodoer and Legolas are scowling in disapproval, but Gandalf is looking at him with a hint of amusement in his eyes. "Hello there. I am Gandalf the Gray. You know lady Siren?" Avarier nods, looking at Gandalf in amazement. "Yes sir. I met her in Rivendell." I ignore the glares of the elves and look at Gandalf pleadingly. "His horse got spooked and ran off. Can he ride with us?" The elves open their mouths to argue, but Gandalf comes to the rescue. "I don't see why not. Are you heading for Gondor?" Avarier nods. "All right than. You may travel with us." I let out a squeak of happiness, and Avarier laughs as he sits in the saddle behind me.
He wraps his arms around my waist, and Telcoer starts walking. I feel him rest his chin on my shoulder and his breath on my ear. "I missed you," he whispers. I feel a blush spread across my cheeks and smile. "I missed you too," I whisper back, wary of the elves' hearing. I know that I must sound like some silly schoolgirl, but it feels great to have his arms around me. I lean back a bit in his embrace, feeling the warmth of his body against mine. I chance a look back at the elves and see them looking venomously at the back of Avarier's form. I sigh and look ahead again.
Something tells me this isn't going to be a smooth trip.
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Well, whatever told me that, it was right. We stop for the night and dismount. I grab my pack and start to set up my bedroll, when I see shadows looming over me. I look up to see Hodoer and Astaider hovering over me, frowns on their faces. "Hey guys. What's up?" They don't answer, but Hodoer grabs my arm and yanks me to my feet. I yelp as they start to pull me away from the camp. Avarier moves to help me, but Legolas steps in front of him. "We need to talk," I hear the elf growl.
Once we're out of hearing range (for me anyway), Hodoer lets my arm go. I rub the sore flesh and frown. "What the hell are you doing?" I hiss. "You promised us that you would not associate with that mortal!" Astaider snaps. "Look, he's a good guy! I don't know why he attacked that elf, but I'm sure he has a good reason!" The two elves in front of me narrow their eyes. "Elves do not provoke mortals into attacking them," Hodoer says through clenched teeth. I lift an eyebrow. "Yeah? Well you're provoking me right now," I retort.
"The fact of the matter is, is that he is a dangerous person and you broke your promise to us," Astaider says. I glare at the two of them. "Avarier is a good person. I will not stop being his friend," I say firmly. The two elves share a glance. "Than you will stop being friends with us," Hodoer says. "Yes, we will not endanger ourselves just because you refuse to see the truth." I stare at them in anger and disbelief. "I can't believe you two! Avarier is innocent, and you'd throw my friendship away because I choose to be his friend?" Astaider says nothing a walks back to the camp. Hodoer brushes past me, but stops for a moment. "You threw away our friendship first," she says coolly, and walks away.
I stare at their retreating forms, still not able to process what just happened. I walk back to the camp, and see Legolas and Avarier about to face off.
"You will stay away from her mortal," Legolas warns. Avarier doesn't seem to take the hint and stands his ground. "I am not criminal. If she chooses to be my friend, than that is her choice." Legolas's eyes flash with fury. "You attacked one of my kind. I will not trust you to be near her!"
I've had enough.
"ENOUGH!" I shout. Legolas and Avarier stop arguing and look at me. I step between the two of them and look up at the elf. "Legolas, Avarier will not hurt me. And he's right, it's my choice. I choose to give him the benefit of the doubt." He opens his mouth to say something, but I cut him off. "Don't say anything. You're all acting like a bunch of bratty children. Now stop this bullshit before I bash all of your heads in with Gandalf's staff."
"Leave me out of this," the old wizard says.
I roll my eyes, ignoring him. Legolas looks at Avarier, than at me. "If you choose to place your trust in him than you are a fool." I cross my arms over my chest and shrug. "I think we've already decided that I'm a bit of an idiot. But in this case, I don't think I am." Legolas huffs, and turns to go by Astaider and Hodoer. Once he sits down, I sigh and turn to Avarier. "And you. You are going to tell me exactly what happened with the elf you attacked and don't lie to me or else I will beg Legolas to kick your ass." Avarier sighs and nods.
Don't know who to trust
No surprise
Everyone feels so far away from me
Heavy thoughts sift through dust
And the lies
Avarier and I sit down on my bedroll and I wait for him to begin. "The attack happened two years ago. I already told you that my mother was fascinated with elves." I nod and wait for him to continue. "Well, she had gone to an elf to learn their language. They ended up forming a friendship, and my mother was happy. But after a few months, something happened." I lean closer to him. "What happened?" I ask.
Trying not to break
But I'm so tired of this deceit
Every time I try to make myself
Get back up on my feet
All I ever think about is this
All the tiring time between
And how
Trying to put my trust in you
Just takes so much out of me
"He forced himself upon my mother. She was devastated. I wanted to alert the authorities, but she begged me not to. She said she would feel humiliated. A week after she told me what happened, I saw the elf. Something inside of me snapped. I went mad with rage and attacked him. It took three guards to pull me off of him," he finishes. I stare at him with wide eyes. "I knew you had a good reason. Didn't you tell this to lord Aragorn? I'm sure he would've understood!" Avarier shakes his head. "By telling lord Aragorn what happened, I would have to tell him about my mother. I couldn't go against her wishes."
Oh Avarier… "But that's not fair! It wasn't your fault! That elf got what he deserved!" He smiles faintly. "You are the first person I've told this to. You're the first person to believe me innocent, even without knowing about my reasons for attacking the elf." I grin and shrug. "I'm not your average person." He smiles again. "I can tell." He leans in a bit, the firelight highlighting his features. He's so close… I lean in and brush my lips against his, unable to help myself.
I take everything from inside
And throw it all away
'Cause I swear
For the last time
I won't trust myself with you
I feel him tense at my touch, and move to pull away, but he puts a hand on my neck and pulls me close again. His kiss is gentle, yet firm, and I deepen it. His hand kneads my neck and I let out a small moan.
Tension is building inside
Steadily
Everyone feels so far away from me
Heavy thoughts forcing their way
Out of me
I pull away, needing air. I open my eyes and smile. Avarier is smiling as well, and his hand slips from my neck to my cheek. His thumb strokes my chin and I lean in for another kiss, closing my eyes. I brush my lips against…COLD WOOD? I open my eyes to see Gandalf's staff between us. "What the fu…" I look up and see Gandalf looking down at us in amusement. "That's quite enough children," he says. I pout and see Avarier blush crimson. "Get some rest. We enter Gondor tomorrow." I roll my eyes and flop down onto my bedroll.
I feel Avarier's lips against my temple and smile. "Sweet dreams," he whispers, and goes to lay down a few feet away. Yeah, sweet dreams…
I won't trust myself with you
I won't waste myself on you
Waste myself on you
You
2 Be Continued
A.N.-The song belongs to Linkin Park, and the song is 'From the Inside'.