Bleed for Me
By Siren
Hey guys! I'm sorry that I haven't updated in a while. I've been busy with school, and I just moved my horse to another stable, so please forgive me. I've been a busy little authoress. The hobbits arrive in this last chapter! I don't own 'More to Life (There's Gotta Be)' by Stacie Orrico. Enjoy!
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Looking in the mirror, I twirl around, watching the layered skirts fly up. Yes, I have agreed to wear a dress, but only for the party. After this, I'm going on a dress burning raid. Whenever you see a flame, think of a dress burning. Mwahahaha. Although, maybe I won't burn this dress. It is sort of pretty. It's a the bodice is a cream color and the fabric is a light shade of pink. The skirts are long and flowing and the gown is sleeveless. All in all, very beautiful. I've decided to leave my hair down for this dance. I don't want to go through the fuss of putting it up like Astaider and Hodoer do.
Looking at my reflection in the mirror, I can't help but think of how I've changed. Alright, I haven't changed that much. I still enjoy wreaking havoc and playing pranks, but I helped Avarier to find justice. That counts for something, right? I've never done anything like that back on earth. If anything, I've ruined relationships, not fixed them. "Like my track record with guys back home is anything to brag about," I mutter. And it's true. Back home I've only been in one serious relationship and it ended quite badly. And I pushed the only other guy that liked me away. Suddenly feeling very uncomfortable, I fidget and pull at the fabric of my dress.
"You look stunning."
I jump at the voice and turn around to see Legolas standing in my doorway. His blue eyes are on my form and he's smiling softly. I smile playfully and cross my arms over my chest. "You love sneaking up on me, don't you?" The elf grins and mimics my stance. "I couldn't help it. You looked so distracted." I walk over to him and whap him on the back of the head. "Oh shut up elf boy. I believe there's a party that we're supposed to be at?" Legolas chuckles and holds out his arm. I loop mine in his and he leads me towards the dining hall. I can already hear the music echoing off of the walls and drifting down the corridors. It's a soft tune, almost like a lullaby. It's beautiful when you really listen to it.
Legolas opens the heavy doors, and steps aside. "Ladies first," he says with a smile. I grin and shrug. "You wore a dress before I did, you go first milady." He blushes crimson, and shoves me lightly. "You are a terror, you little mortal." With that, he steps inside and I follow him. I'm in awe at the sight before me. The place is packed with both men and elves, and even a few dwarves. The women are dressed in beautiful gowns with their hair pulled up in intricate designs. It's like something right out of a fairy tale. And who'd have thought that I'd be here?
My gaze moves from person to person. I see Hodoer and Astaider near Aragorn and Arwen, and they all wave. I grin and wave back. My gaze moves through the crowd again before settling on the person I was searching for. Avarier is standing across the room, dressed in a dark green tunic and leggings. I would have thought he was an elf if I didn't know better. His hair is combed back, making him look refined, yet still a little rugged. His dark eyes meet mine, and a smile slowly spreads across his face. That soft smile that I love to see.
"I see you've found your mortal. I'll leave you to him than," Legolas whispers in my ear and than moves to talk to Aragorn.
I don't acknowledge him, and start walking through the crowd. I meet him in the center of the crowd, and see his eyes sweep over me. "You look lovely," he says. "You look amazing too," I reply with a smile. Avarier holds out his hand, and I slip mine into it. He pulls me to him, placing his other hand on my waist. We sway together in what seems like a slow waltz. My eyes never leave his, and I press myself closer to him. "How's your mother?" I ask quietly. "She's doing very well, thanks to you. She's finally allowing herself to heal. I never did thank you for what you did, did I?" I shrug. "I didn't do it for thanks. I did it because I wanted to." I did it for him. His face inches closer to mine, and I can feel his breath on my face. "Well than, allow me to thank you now," he whispers and presses his lips to mine. I sigh against the feeling of his lips against mine, and lean into the kiss.
This is what heaven must feel like. The crowd and music fade away, and all that's existing is him and I. I move my hand up to his neck and tangle it in his soft hair. I realize that we've stopped dancing, lost in each other's embrace. I haven't felt this way for years. I didn't know I could feel this way again. After my last relationship, I was sure that it was impossible. But this is Middle Earth. Anything is possible here. ...but I know I'll have to leave soon. After all, I can't stay here forever. I'll have to go back eventually. The thought of leaving this world behind causes my stomach to twist.
I've got it all but I feel so deprived
I go up, I come down and I'm emptier inside
Tell me what it is this thing that I feel like I'm missing
And why I can't let go
Avarier must sense the change in me, because he starts to pull away. But I want to be as close to him as possible, and pull him back to me. I kiss him almost savagely, and I can tell he's surprised. 'Just kiss me, please,' I plead silently. He slowly complies and returns the kiss. After a few more moments, he finally does pull away, panting. "People are staring," he says in a breathy voice. I shrug. "Let them stare," I say. Let them see just what it is that I'll be leaving behind. Avarier looks over my shoulder, and moves back a step. "I believe that lord Aragorn would like to speak to you." I lift an eyebrow and turn around.
Aragorn, Arwen, Legolas, Astaider and Hodoer are standing by the table, and I notice there's also a dwarf and four shorter creatures. HOBBITS! THERE ARE HOBBITS HERE! I grin brightly, and look up Avarier. "Hobbits! There are hobbits!" He laughs and nods. "Go say hello to them, melamin. I'll find you later." I pout. "You're not going to say hello to the hobbits?" He shakes his head. "Not today melamin." He kisses my forehead and starts walking away. Meh, the party pooper. I walk over to the table, my eyes glued to the hobbits.
"Ah, Siren! I'd like you to meet the dwarf Gimli, and the hobbits, Sam, Frodo, Merry and Pippin," Aragorn says. They nod in greeting. "It's a pleasure to meet you, lady Siren," Gimli says, I smile and look over at Legolas. "This is the sweet dwarf you once shoved off a horse? Tsk, tsk, Legolas." The elf pales and I hear Gimli sputter in rage. "That was on purpose?!?" I giggle and look down at the hobbits. "Ah, these must be the heroic hobbits that saved all of Middle Earth. It's an honor to meet such curageous souls." Merry and Pippin beam proudly, and Sam and Frodo smile softly. Poor Frodo. He's been through hell and back because of that damn ring. I hear a faster tune start to play, and smile. "Would you like to join me for a dance?" I ask them.
Gimli declines politely, but the hobbits accept my offer. I lead them to the dance floor, and we pair off. Merry and Pippin dance next to Sam, Frodo and I. "When was the last time you guys just spun around?" I ask over the loud music. Frodo looks over at Sam. "I have no idea!" I gasp, pretending to look apalled. "Well that's just not right!" I grab their hands, and start spinning. Sam starts smiling after a few moments, and I see that Frodo is starting to cheer up a little as well.
There's gotta be more to life...
Than chasing down every temporary high to satisfy me
'Cause the more that I'm...
Tripping out thinking there must be more to life
Well it's life but I'm sure...there's gotta be more
Than wanting more
My head is spinning, but I see Frodo smile, and it's worth it. Soon the hobbits and I topple over in dizziness, and land in a heap of giggles and limbs. I let out a giggle and try to sit up. "I knew that hobbits were fun to be around!" I finally sit up, and look around. Aragorn, Gimli, Astaider and Hodoer are laughing at us while Legolas and Arwen are smiling in amusement. Looking at my friends, my laughter slowly dies in my throat, and the feeling of sadness squeezes my heart again. I'm going to miss them when I leave. I wonder when I'll have to leave...
Forcing a smile onto my face, I hold out my hands. "I need my elvish friends!" I shout. Astaider and Hodoer walk over and pull me to my feet. I grin like an idiot and hug them both. "My partners in crime," I laugh. They both drape their arms over my shoulders. "Our strange little mortal," they retort, sending us into another fit out laughter. Did I mention that I love my friends? We stumble over to the table and I lean against it. I'm really going to miss this place.
"What are you thinking about, melamin?"
I turn around to see Avarier, and smile. "Only about you," I say and slip my hand into his. He kisses my cheek and leads me away from the table, towards the courtyards. "Don't wear her out!" Pippin shouts as we leave. "PIPPIN!" Merry shouts, and the table erupts in laughter. I shake my head. Crazy little hobbit. We walk into the courtyard, hand in hand. "So what was this party for, anyway?" I ask, leaning against him. "It's to celebrate the Independance of Middle Earth." Ah. We stop next to a fountain and sit down. "I remember listening to you sing back in Rivendell. You were so sad during the night of that dance." I shrug and snuggle closer to him. "Well I'm not sad now," I say, though the statement is only half-true.
I've got the time and I'm wasting it slowly
Here in this moment I'm halfway out the door
On to the next thing, I'm searching for something that's missing
I feel his chest expand and contract as he sighs. I press my ear against his chest and listen to his heart beat. It's so strange...The rational part of me knows that Avarier can't be real. That he's just another part of Tolkien's creation. The feelings I have for him are wrong and insane. But than my heart wars against the opinion, telling me that what I'm feeling is real and right. It's almost pathetic that I couldn't find love back home, but I could here. Not that I'm even sure that we're IN love. Maybe it's just lust or friendship. Than again, I never had these kinds of feelings for my friends. Gah, I'm confusing myself.
I close my eyes, feeling myself slowly slip away. Maybe it's time that I be true to myself, and not what people want me to be. I want to be truthful with myself and the truth is that I love him. Opening my eyes, I look up at him and trace his cheek with my shaking hand. "I love you," I whisper. I'm terrified that he'll reject me. We've only known each other for a little while. I don't want my heart to be broken again. It's still not completely whole from the last time. He doesn't say anything after a few moments, and I can feel my heart begin to shatter. "You don't have to love me back. I understand. We're completely different from each other. I'm from another world, and you're supposed to be nothing but a fairy-tale character. But I did end up here somehow, and I just wanted to let you know how I feel." He's still silent and tears build in my eyes. "Avarier?" Still nothing.
"I understand," I say, pulling away. "I guess I should have seen it coming----"
Avarier silences me by pressing his lips against mine and crushing me against him. I'm shocked, to say the least, but I respond. After a few moments, he breaks the kiss and smiles. "Never doubt my love for you, Siren." He presses his forehead to mine and kisses the tip of my nose. "Amin mela lle, Siren," He whispers. Apparently it wasn't low enough to escape the elves' hearing, because I hear my friends hoot from the table. Avarier blushes crimson and scowls at them. Lifting an eyebrow I grin. Hodoer and Astaider are giving me thumbs-up signs, and Aragorn is explaining what just happened to the others. "Treat her well mortal, or suffer the wrath of the elves!" Legolas shouts. The man holding me turns an even deeper shade of red. Unable to resist, I grab his neck and kiss him fiercly, knocking him slightly off balance. This earns another round of hooting from the table and laughter from those around us.
There's gotta be more to life...
Than chasing down every temporary high to satisfy me
'Cause the more that I'm...
Tripping out thinking there must be more to life
Well it's life, but I'm sure...there's gotta be more
Than wanting more
I start to pull away, but Avarier tugs me closer. After another few moments, we both pull back, smiling brightly. We slow dance for a few more songs, and I begin to feel drowsy. I've had a long day and would like nothing more than to sleep, but I don't want to leave him. I'm scared that I'll wake up and he'll be gone. "You're tired," he mumbles, wrapping his arms around me. He feels so nice to lean against. "I am, but I wanna stay with you." I hear him chuckle and the next minute I'm gathered into his arms. I rest my head on his shoulder as he starts walking.
"Goodnight lord Avarier, lady Siren. Don't do anything I wouldn't do!"
"You don't 'not' do anything, Pippin."
"Oh bugger off, Merry."
"You bugger off, ya chubby hobbit."
"You're chubby too!"
"GUYS! WE'RE ALL CHUBBY!"
"...quite right, Frodo."
"...You're chubbier than I am, Merry."
"PIPPIN!"
I smile when their voices start to fade, and feel my limbs starting to go slack. "Ah, she's asleep. Too bad, I was going to ask her to tell us more about her world." Avarier shifts me in his arms, probably so he can talk to Legolas. "You can ask her all about it tomorrow, my lord." Silence.
"Avarier, I'd like to ask you to forgive me for doubting you. I've been very cruel to you. You have my apologies as well as Hodoer's and Astaider's." That's a good elf. "Thank my lord, apologies accepted." Forcing my eyes open, I look at Legolas blearily. He notices and grins. "Ah, the little terror is awake." I roll my eyes and hold out my arms. "Goodnight," I say, and we hug. "Give everyone a hug for me, okay?" Legolas looks a bit puzzled but nods. "Of course. Quel kaima, mellon-nin." Avarier starts walking again, and I wave to Legolas as we disappear into the shadows.
I don't know how much time passed when I opened my eyes again. I feel warmth surrounding me and realize that it's Avarier's arms. I snuggle deeper into him, and let sleep wash over me again, a strange feeling starting to fill me.
"Amin mela lle, Siren..."
I hear birds chirping and open my eyes. Something is wrong. The ceiling I'm looking at is slanted and covered in white paint. Where are the stone walls? Where are the beautiful tapestries? I shiver under the blankets, and an icy grip siezes my heart. Where's Avarier's warmth? Sitting up, I look at the space beside me.
No one's there. Not even an imprint of his form.
I look around the room, and feel my stomach churn. There's a T.V. mounted on the wall, a chair in the corner, and something's making a really annoying beeping noise. Looking up, I see a heart monitor, and it's beeping in time with my heart beats. Throwing back the covers, I gasp. I'm wearing a hospital gown, and there's an I.V. attatched to my arm, giving much needed fluids to my body. My body...it's carrying the old wounds again. Standing up, I pull the I.V. pole to the bathroom and flick on the light. The sudden brightness stings my eyes but I ignore it. Looking in the mirror, I'm shocked by what I see.
The wound above my eye is back and stitched shut. The olds bruises are a sickly green, and I touch the base of my skull. It's stitched too. But, how can this be? Elrond healed me, I remember!
"Siren?"
I turn around to see my mom standing in the doorway. Her eyes fill with tears and she quickly pulls me into a hug. "Oh honey, we were so worried! You took that tumble off that ledge at the new house and you were taken here. You kept slipping in and out of consciousness, muttering the strangest things. Who's Avarier? And those other people...Hodoer and Astaider, who are they? How do you feel? I think you should lie down while I get the doctor."
Her barrage of questions catch me off guard and she hugs me again before rushing off to find a doctor. Left alone again, I look down at my arm and the needle sticking out of it. Taking the tape off of it, I pinch the needle and slowly slide it out of my vein. My entire arm burns, but I clench my teeth and try to ignore it. Once it's out, I grab a piece of toilet paper, ball it up and press it against the tiny puncture. Holding my arm, I walk over to the tinted window and look outside. The roads are busy with traffic, and the noise...it's so noisy here. I guess I had gotten used to the peace of Middle Earth. Strange. "Avarier..." I whimper and feel myself begin to tremble. I'll never see him or the others ever again.
"Siren?"
It's my mom again. My emotions are raging inside, and I do the only thing I can.
I cry.
My mom rushes forward and gathers me in her arms. "Oh honey, it's okay. Shh...it's alright, I'm here," she soothes. I continue to cry, unable to stop myself. Avarier...Legolas...Hodoer...Astaider...all gone.
There's gotta be more to life...
Than chasing down every temporary high to satisfy me
'Cause the more that I'm...
Tripping out thinking there must be more to life
Well it's life, but I'm sure...there's gotta be more
Than wanting more
~End~
Yes, yes, I know that I'm evil for doing this. But there shall be a sequel, don't worry. Avarier and the others WILL be back, I promise.
Truffles- Sorry it took me so long to update. ^_^;;;
TriggerHappyElfling- Aragorn too?!? I KNEW IT! *watches the scene in the movie* OMG, You're right!!!!! That hobbit fancier!!!!
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Jorja- Love you pen name. Sorry it took me so long to update this and I'm glad you liked it!
ShireElf- *bops Frodo on the head* Silly hobbit, lol. Glad you liked it, chika!
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friendoflegolas- Yes. Must...kill...the...bear. *twitch twitch* O.o
Cassie-bear01- Yes, hide from the cows! THE COWS ARE COMING!!!!!! AHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *runs away screaming*
Aislin- Hmm...scaring them by pretending to be a witch king, hmm? I might use that later. Sounds like fun. *hums the theme to mission impossible* Nope, I never learn. Never ever. Hm, new note to self: Become an advisor in ME. Shmoopy-poo...that even freaked me out. And yes, I love insane guys. THEY KICK ASS! WOOT WOOT! And I found what was up his ass. Turns out it was actually Sam's lips, the little ass kisser. My horse doesn't know how to open the latch on the door yet, but give her time. Now, whenever I pick her back feet, she'll make sure to let one loose, right in my damn face. No joke. They always find me passed out on the floor, twitching while my horse is laughing her ass off. .
By Siren
Hey guys! I'm sorry that I haven't updated in a while. I've been busy with school, and I just moved my horse to another stable, so please forgive me. I've been a busy little authoress. The hobbits arrive in this last chapter! I don't own 'More to Life (There's Gotta Be)' by Stacie Orrico. Enjoy!
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Looking in the mirror, I twirl around, watching the layered skirts fly up. Yes, I have agreed to wear a dress, but only for the party. After this, I'm going on a dress burning raid. Whenever you see a flame, think of a dress burning. Mwahahaha. Although, maybe I won't burn this dress. It is sort of pretty. It's a the bodice is a cream color and the fabric is a light shade of pink. The skirts are long and flowing and the gown is sleeveless. All in all, very beautiful. I've decided to leave my hair down for this dance. I don't want to go through the fuss of putting it up like Astaider and Hodoer do.
Looking at my reflection in the mirror, I can't help but think of how I've changed. Alright, I haven't changed that much. I still enjoy wreaking havoc and playing pranks, but I helped Avarier to find justice. That counts for something, right? I've never done anything like that back on earth. If anything, I've ruined relationships, not fixed them. "Like my track record with guys back home is anything to brag about," I mutter. And it's true. Back home I've only been in one serious relationship and it ended quite badly. And I pushed the only other guy that liked me away. Suddenly feeling very uncomfortable, I fidget and pull at the fabric of my dress.
"You look stunning."
I jump at the voice and turn around to see Legolas standing in my doorway. His blue eyes are on my form and he's smiling softly. I smile playfully and cross my arms over my chest. "You love sneaking up on me, don't you?" The elf grins and mimics my stance. "I couldn't help it. You looked so distracted." I walk over to him and whap him on the back of the head. "Oh shut up elf boy. I believe there's a party that we're supposed to be at?" Legolas chuckles and holds out his arm. I loop mine in his and he leads me towards the dining hall. I can already hear the music echoing off of the walls and drifting down the corridors. It's a soft tune, almost like a lullaby. It's beautiful when you really listen to it.
Legolas opens the heavy doors, and steps aside. "Ladies first," he says with a smile. I grin and shrug. "You wore a dress before I did, you go first milady." He blushes crimson, and shoves me lightly. "You are a terror, you little mortal." With that, he steps inside and I follow him. I'm in awe at the sight before me. The place is packed with both men and elves, and even a few dwarves. The women are dressed in beautiful gowns with their hair pulled up in intricate designs. It's like something right out of a fairy tale. And who'd have thought that I'd be here?
My gaze moves from person to person. I see Hodoer and Astaider near Aragorn and Arwen, and they all wave. I grin and wave back. My gaze moves through the crowd again before settling on the person I was searching for. Avarier is standing across the room, dressed in a dark green tunic and leggings. I would have thought he was an elf if I didn't know better. His hair is combed back, making him look refined, yet still a little rugged. His dark eyes meet mine, and a smile slowly spreads across his face. That soft smile that I love to see.
"I see you've found your mortal. I'll leave you to him than," Legolas whispers in my ear and than moves to talk to Aragorn.
I don't acknowledge him, and start walking through the crowd. I meet him in the center of the crowd, and see his eyes sweep over me. "You look lovely," he says. "You look amazing too," I reply with a smile. Avarier holds out his hand, and I slip mine into it. He pulls me to him, placing his other hand on my waist. We sway together in what seems like a slow waltz. My eyes never leave his, and I press myself closer to him. "How's your mother?" I ask quietly. "She's doing very well, thanks to you. She's finally allowing herself to heal. I never did thank you for what you did, did I?" I shrug. "I didn't do it for thanks. I did it because I wanted to." I did it for him. His face inches closer to mine, and I can feel his breath on my face. "Well than, allow me to thank you now," he whispers and presses his lips to mine. I sigh against the feeling of his lips against mine, and lean into the kiss.
This is what heaven must feel like. The crowd and music fade away, and all that's existing is him and I. I move my hand up to his neck and tangle it in his soft hair. I realize that we've stopped dancing, lost in each other's embrace. I haven't felt this way for years. I didn't know I could feel this way again. After my last relationship, I was sure that it was impossible. But this is Middle Earth. Anything is possible here. ...but I know I'll have to leave soon. After all, I can't stay here forever. I'll have to go back eventually. The thought of leaving this world behind causes my stomach to twist.
I've got it all but I feel so deprived
I go up, I come down and I'm emptier inside
Tell me what it is this thing that I feel like I'm missing
And why I can't let go
Avarier must sense the change in me, because he starts to pull away. But I want to be as close to him as possible, and pull him back to me. I kiss him almost savagely, and I can tell he's surprised. 'Just kiss me, please,' I plead silently. He slowly complies and returns the kiss. After a few more moments, he finally does pull away, panting. "People are staring," he says in a breathy voice. I shrug. "Let them stare," I say. Let them see just what it is that I'll be leaving behind. Avarier looks over my shoulder, and moves back a step. "I believe that lord Aragorn would like to speak to you." I lift an eyebrow and turn around.
Aragorn, Arwen, Legolas, Astaider and Hodoer are standing by the table, and I notice there's also a dwarf and four shorter creatures. HOBBITS! THERE ARE HOBBITS HERE! I grin brightly, and look up Avarier. "Hobbits! There are hobbits!" He laughs and nods. "Go say hello to them, melamin. I'll find you later." I pout. "You're not going to say hello to the hobbits?" He shakes his head. "Not today melamin." He kisses my forehead and starts walking away. Meh, the party pooper. I walk over to the table, my eyes glued to the hobbits.
"Ah, Siren! I'd like you to meet the dwarf Gimli, and the hobbits, Sam, Frodo, Merry and Pippin," Aragorn says. They nod in greeting. "It's a pleasure to meet you, lady Siren," Gimli says, I smile and look over at Legolas. "This is the sweet dwarf you once shoved off a horse? Tsk, tsk, Legolas." The elf pales and I hear Gimli sputter in rage. "That was on purpose?!?" I giggle and look down at the hobbits. "Ah, these must be the heroic hobbits that saved all of Middle Earth. It's an honor to meet such curageous souls." Merry and Pippin beam proudly, and Sam and Frodo smile softly. Poor Frodo. He's been through hell and back because of that damn ring. I hear a faster tune start to play, and smile. "Would you like to join me for a dance?" I ask them.
Gimli declines politely, but the hobbits accept my offer. I lead them to the dance floor, and we pair off. Merry and Pippin dance next to Sam, Frodo and I. "When was the last time you guys just spun around?" I ask over the loud music. Frodo looks over at Sam. "I have no idea!" I gasp, pretending to look apalled. "Well that's just not right!" I grab their hands, and start spinning. Sam starts smiling after a few moments, and I see that Frodo is starting to cheer up a little as well.
There's gotta be more to life...
Than chasing down every temporary high to satisfy me
'Cause the more that I'm...
Tripping out thinking there must be more to life
Well it's life but I'm sure...there's gotta be more
Than wanting more
My head is spinning, but I see Frodo smile, and it's worth it. Soon the hobbits and I topple over in dizziness, and land in a heap of giggles and limbs. I let out a giggle and try to sit up. "I knew that hobbits were fun to be around!" I finally sit up, and look around. Aragorn, Gimli, Astaider and Hodoer are laughing at us while Legolas and Arwen are smiling in amusement. Looking at my friends, my laughter slowly dies in my throat, and the feeling of sadness squeezes my heart again. I'm going to miss them when I leave. I wonder when I'll have to leave...
Forcing a smile onto my face, I hold out my hands. "I need my elvish friends!" I shout. Astaider and Hodoer walk over and pull me to my feet. I grin like an idiot and hug them both. "My partners in crime," I laugh. They both drape their arms over my shoulders. "Our strange little mortal," they retort, sending us into another fit out laughter. Did I mention that I love my friends? We stumble over to the table and I lean against it. I'm really going to miss this place.
"What are you thinking about, melamin?"
I turn around to see Avarier, and smile. "Only about you," I say and slip my hand into his. He kisses my cheek and leads me away from the table, towards the courtyards. "Don't wear her out!" Pippin shouts as we leave. "PIPPIN!" Merry shouts, and the table erupts in laughter. I shake my head. Crazy little hobbit. We walk into the courtyard, hand in hand. "So what was this party for, anyway?" I ask, leaning against him. "It's to celebrate the Independance of Middle Earth." Ah. We stop next to a fountain and sit down. "I remember listening to you sing back in Rivendell. You were so sad during the night of that dance." I shrug and snuggle closer to him. "Well I'm not sad now," I say, though the statement is only half-true.
I've got the time and I'm wasting it slowly
Here in this moment I'm halfway out the door
On to the next thing, I'm searching for something that's missing
I feel his chest expand and contract as he sighs. I press my ear against his chest and listen to his heart beat. It's so strange...The rational part of me knows that Avarier can't be real. That he's just another part of Tolkien's creation. The feelings I have for him are wrong and insane. But than my heart wars against the opinion, telling me that what I'm feeling is real and right. It's almost pathetic that I couldn't find love back home, but I could here. Not that I'm even sure that we're IN love. Maybe it's just lust or friendship. Than again, I never had these kinds of feelings for my friends. Gah, I'm confusing myself.
I close my eyes, feeling myself slowly slip away. Maybe it's time that I be true to myself, and not what people want me to be. I want to be truthful with myself and the truth is that I love him. Opening my eyes, I look up at him and trace his cheek with my shaking hand. "I love you," I whisper. I'm terrified that he'll reject me. We've only known each other for a little while. I don't want my heart to be broken again. It's still not completely whole from the last time. He doesn't say anything after a few moments, and I can feel my heart begin to shatter. "You don't have to love me back. I understand. We're completely different from each other. I'm from another world, and you're supposed to be nothing but a fairy-tale character. But I did end up here somehow, and I just wanted to let you know how I feel." He's still silent and tears build in my eyes. "Avarier?" Still nothing.
"I understand," I say, pulling away. "I guess I should have seen it coming----"
Avarier silences me by pressing his lips against mine and crushing me against him. I'm shocked, to say the least, but I respond. After a few moments, he breaks the kiss and smiles. "Never doubt my love for you, Siren." He presses his forehead to mine and kisses the tip of my nose. "Amin mela lle, Siren," He whispers. Apparently it wasn't low enough to escape the elves' hearing, because I hear my friends hoot from the table. Avarier blushes crimson and scowls at them. Lifting an eyebrow I grin. Hodoer and Astaider are giving me thumbs-up signs, and Aragorn is explaining what just happened to the others. "Treat her well mortal, or suffer the wrath of the elves!" Legolas shouts. The man holding me turns an even deeper shade of red. Unable to resist, I grab his neck and kiss him fiercly, knocking him slightly off balance. This earns another round of hooting from the table and laughter from those around us.
There's gotta be more to life...
Than chasing down every temporary high to satisfy me
'Cause the more that I'm...
Tripping out thinking there must be more to life
Well it's life, but I'm sure...there's gotta be more
Than wanting more
I start to pull away, but Avarier tugs me closer. After another few moments, we both pull back, smiling brightly. We slow dance for a few more songs, and I begin to feel drowsy. I've had a long day and would like nothing more than to sleep, but I don't want to leave him. I'm scared that I'll wake up and he'll be gone. "You're tired," he mumbles, wrapping his arms around me. He feels so nice to lean against. "I am, but I wanna stay with you." I hear him chuckle and the next minute I'm gathered into his arms. I rest my head on his shoulder as he starts walking.
"Goodnight lord Avarier, lady Siren. Don't do anything I wouldn't do!"
"You don't 'not' do anything, Pippin."
"Oh bugger off, Merry."
"You bugger off, ya chubby hobbit."
"You're chubby too!"
"GUYS! WE'RE ALL CHUBBY!"
"...quite right, Frodo."
"...You're chubbier than I am, Merry."
"PIPPIN!"
I smile when their voices start to fade, and feel my limbs starting to go slack. "Ah, she's asleep. Too bad, I was going to ask her to tell us more about her world." Avarier shifts me in his arms, probably so he can talk to Legolas. "You can ask her all about it tomorrow, my lord." Silence.
"Avarier, I'd like to ask you to forgive me for doubting you. I've been very cruel to you. You have my apologies as well as Hodoer's and Astaider's." That's a good elf. "Thank my lord, apologies accepted." Forcing my eyes open, I look at Legolas blearily. He notices and grins. "Ah, the little terror is awake." I roll my eyes and hold out my arms. "Goodnight," I say, and we hug. "Give everyone a hug for me, okay?" Legolas looks a bit puzzled but nods. "Of course. Quel kaima, mellon-nin." Avarier starts walking again, and I wave to Legolas as we disappear into the shadows.
I don't know how much time passed when I opened my eyes again. I feel warmth surrounding me and realize that it's Avarier's arms. I snuggle deeper into him, and let sleep wash over me again, a strange feeling starting to fill me.
"Amin mela lle, Siren..."
I hear birds chirping and open my eyes. Something is wrong. The ceiling I'm looking at is slanted and covered in white paint. Where are the stone walls? Where are the beautiful tapestries? I shiver under the blankets, and an icy grip siezes my heart. Where's Avarier's warmth? Sitting up, I look at the space beside me.
No one's there. Not even an imprint of his form.
I look around the room, and feel my stomach churn. There's a T.V. mounted on the wall, a chair in the corner, and something's making a really annoying beeping noise. Looking up, I see a heart monitor, and it's beeping in time with my heart beats. Throwing back the covers, I gasp. I'm wearing a hospital gown, and there's an I.V. attatched to my arm, giving much needed fluids to my body. My body...it's carrying the old wounds again. Standing up, I pull the I.V. pole to the bathroom and flick on the light. The sudden brightness stings my eyes but I ignore it. Looking in the mirror, I'm shocked by what I see.
The wound above my eye is back and stitched shut. The olds bruises are a sickly green, and I touch the base of my skull. It's stitched too. But, how can this be? Elrond healed me, I remember!
"Siren?"
I turn around to see my mom standing in the doorway. Her eyes fill with tears and she quickly pulls me into a hug. "Oh honey, we were so worried! You took that tumble off that ledge at the new house and you were taken here. You kept slipping in and out of consciousness, muttering the strangest things. Who's Avarier? And those other people...Hodoer and Astaider, who are they? How do you feel? I think you should lie down while I get the doctor."
Her barrage of questions catch me off guard and she hugs me again before rushing off to find a doctor. Left alone again, I look down at my arm and the needle sticking out of it. Taking the tape off of it, I pinch the needle and slowly slide it out of my vein. My entire arm burns, but I clench my teeth and try to ignore it. Once it's out, I grab a piece of toilet paper, ball it up and press it against the tiny puncture. Holding my arm, I walk over to the tinted window and look outside. The roads are busy with traffic, and the noise...it's so noisy here. I guess I had gotten used to the peace of Middle Earth. Strange. "Avarier..." I whimper and feel myself begin to tremble. I'll never see him or the others ever again.
"Siren?"
It's my mom again. My emotions are raging inside, and I do the only thing I can.
I cry.
My mom rushes forward and gathers me in her arms. "Oh honey, it's okay. Shh...it's alright, I'm here," she soothes. I continue to cry, unable to stop myself. Avarier...Legolas...Hodoer...Astaider...all gone.
There's gotta be more to life...
Than chasing down every temporary high to satisfy me
'Cause the more that I'm...
Tripping out thinking there must be more to life
Well it's life, but I'm sure...there's gotta be more
Than wanting more
~End~
Yes, yes, I know that I'm evil for doing this. But there shall be a sequel, don't worry. Avarier and the others WILL be back, I promise.
Truffles- Sorry it took me so long to update. ^_^;;;
TriggerHappyElfling- Aragorn too?!? I KNEW IT! *watches the scene in the movie* OMG, You're right!!!!! That hobbit fancier!!!!
Princess Flame- *looks at the huge amount of cookie dough* ....dude....O.O Thank you!!!!!
Jorja- Love you pen name. Sorry it took me so long to update this and I'm glad you liked it!
ShireElf- *bops Frodo on the head* Silly hobbit, lol. Glad you liked it, chika!
Enednilwen- Read on, young reader! lol
friendoflegolas- Yes. Must...kill...the...bear. *twitch twitch* O.o
Cassie-bear01- Yes, hide from the cows! THE COWS ARE COMING!!!!!! AHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *runs away screaming*
Aislin- Hmm...scaring them by pretending to be a witch king, hmm? I might use that later. Sounds like fun. *hums the theme to mission impossible* Nope, I never learn. Never ever. Hm, new note to self: Become an advisor in ME. Shmoopy-poo...that even freaked me out. And yes, I love insane guys. THEY KICK ASS! WOOT WOOT! And I found what was up his ass. Turns out it was actually Sam's lips, the little ass kisser. My horse doesn't know how to open the latch on the door yet, but give her time. Now, whenever I pick her back feet, she'll make sure to let one loose, right in my damn face. No joke. They always find me passed out on the floor, twitching while my horse is laughing her ass off. .