Chapter 4 - You Can't Leave Me
James was sitting in his room at his parents' house trying to think of a way to tell Lily that he would be leaving. Truth be told, he was terrified to tell Lily, but he knew that he had to. James sighed and ran a tanned hand through his unruly hair in frustration.
"James?" Lily's voice came from outside of his door.
James looked at the door in confusion. 'Didn't she say that she'd be busy until 5?' he wondered and looked at the clock. 'It's only 3:29.' James got up and answered the door.
"Hey, baby," James smiled as he ushered her into his room.
Lily looked around the all-familiar blue and gold room. The gleaming cherry wood was all well used, the bed was still unmade, clothes were all sitting in a chair, pictures were lined up on the dresser, and a picture sat on James' nightstand.
Lily walked over to his bed and sat on the side, picked up the picture and looked at it.
It was a picture of the two of them just a few days before their very first break up. The picture was a wizard's picture, so the figures were animated. But at the moment, the Lily and James figures were embraced in a lovers embrace.
Lily smiled at the picture. "I didn't know you had a copy of this." Lily whispered as she set it back down on his nightstand.
James looked at his fiancée closely. She was acting strangely. James looked into her beautiful green eyes and sighed. Something was wrong. He walked over to his bed and sat down next to her, threw an arm around her shoulders, and guided her head into his shoulder. "What's wrong, Lil?" he asked her.
'I should have known that he'd be able to tell.' She thought as she sighed and shifted her head to look into his sapphire blue eyes. "I know, James. I know about the assignment." She whispered softly, tears once again springing to her eyes.
James froze. 'How does she know? I haven't told anybody yet!' his mind screamed. "How did you find out?" he asked. Lily looked at him and took something out of her coat pocket. "This," she said, referring to the scrap of paper that she held in her hand.
James frowned. How could she know by a piece of paper? James reached out for the paper and unfolded it. It read:
Dear Mr. Potter,
For your assignment, you will need to bring along with you wizards robes, your wand, and Floo powder. Everything else will be provided for you.
We wish you the best of luck on your assignment in Egypt.
Sincerely,
Moody
James sighed. "I didn't want you to find out this way, Lils."
Lily sniffled and nodded her head, as if saying I know. "But why James?" she asked in a small voice.
James shrugged. He really didn't know himself why he was doing it. "I love you, Lily." He told her as he wrapped his arm around her waist and pulled her into a laying position on his bed. "And I'm going to miss you so much." Lily sniffled again, and hesitantly asked, "When are you leaving?" James stayed silent, then finally sighed. "In two days." He told her.
Lily nodded her head and curled into James' body like she did after they made love. "I don't want you to leave me James." She admitted. James tightened his grip on her waist. "I know, Lils. I know."
Lily wrapped her arms around him, and rested her head on his chest. "Can I stay tonight? I don't want to be away from you." James stroked a hand down her back and told her that she could stay.
"What about the wedding James?" she asked as she cuddled with him. James thought for a moment, then told her, "Well finish everything after I return. How about that?"
"But what if you don't return for a long time?" Lily questioned. "I will." James assured her.
Lily being too tired from her emotional drain of realizing that James would be leaving, decided not to argue with James on his cockiness, and just smiled and began to drift off to sleep.
James gazed lovingly down at the red head that was rested on his chest comfortably. "I love you Lily Evans." He whispered as he slowly disentangled himself from her and wrote to Sirius, Remus, Kayla, and Aria to tell them about his assignment.
After he sent the notes off with a household owl, he shifted Lily on the bed to where her head was on a pillow, took her shoes and robe off and set them on a chair, then he got into the bed next to her, and held her close to him as he fell asleep.
~*~*~*~
"Shh . . . they're sleeping Sirius!" Kayla whispered harshly. "So!" Sirius whispered back, if only to save his arm from turning black and blue.
"Not anymore we're not," Lily said, her voice groggy with sleep.
"Oops," Aria sounded as soon as she realized that they had woken the sleeping couple up.
"You two are clothed under those sheets, aren't you?" Remus asked.
When James and Lily nodded their heads, the group of four moved towards the bed and sat on the edges of it.
"Are you really going?" Sirius whined.
James, not having opened his eyes yet, just nodded, and rolled onto his side into the heat of Lily's body. "Yes, now go away, and leave me alone with my woman." He informed them. "If you want, take your rooms, just leave. Must get sleep."
"But-!" Sirius started, but the rest of the sentence was muffled by the presence of Kayla's hand. Sirius glared at the hand and tried tugging at it, but it wouldn't move. "Let them have their time together Sirius." Kayla hissed as she tugged on his arm roughly to get him out of the room. "What would you want if it was the other way around, and it was you who was leaving?" she asked him. When he didn't say anything, Kayla smiled. "See." She gloated as they began to walk down the hallways to their permanent rooms in the Potters' house.
~*~*~*~
The next two days didn't have enough hours in them for the friends. James and Lily it seemed were attached at the hips. And James spent all the time that he could with his family and friends.
On the day of his departure, there was only one way to describe a particular red head that went by the name of Lily Evans. Depressed. Her normally clear green eyes were blood shot, her eyes were swollen from crying, tears were stilling flowing down her face as James apparated to the office, and she just stared at the spot where James had disappeared, as if expecting him to pop back up and say, "Gotcha!" . . . but he didn't.
Lily eventually moved from that spot and went home, but it was a while before that happened.
James was sitting in his room at his parents' house trying to think of a way to tell Lily that he would be leaving. Truth be told, he was terrified to tell Lily, but he knew that he had to. James sighed and ran a tanned hand through his unruly hair in frustration.
"James?" Lily's voice came from outside of his door.
James looked at the door in confusion. 'Didn't she say that she'd be busy until 5?' he wondered and looked at the clock. 'It's only 3:29.' James got up and answered the door.
"Hey, baby," James smiled as he ushered her into his room.
Lily looked around the all-familiar blue and gold room. The gleaming cherry wood was all well used, the bed was still unmade, clothes were all sitting in a chair, pictures were lined up on the dresser, and a picture sat on James' nightstand.
Lily walked over to his bed and sat on the side, picked up the picture and looked at it.
It was a picture of the two of them just a few days before their very first break up. The picture was a wizard's picture, so the figures were animated. But at the moment, the Lily and James figures were embraced in a lovers embrace.
Lily smiled at the picture. "I didn't know you had a copy of this." Lily whispered as she set it back down on his nightstand.
James looked at his fiancée closely. She was acting strangely. James looked into her beautiful green eyes and sighed. Something was wrong. He walked over to his bed and sat down next to her, threw an arm around her shoulders, and guided her head into his shoulder. "What's wrong, Lil?" he asked her.
'I should have known that he'd be able to tell.' She thought as she sighed and shifted her head to look into his sapphire blue eyes. "I know, James. I know about the assignment." She whispered softly, tears once again springing to her eyes.
James froze. 'How does she know? I haven't told anybody yet!' his mind screamed. "How did you find out?" he asked. Lily looked at him and took something out of her coat pocket. "This," she said, referring to the scrap of paper that she held in her hand.
James frowned. How could she know by a piece of paper? James reached out for the paper and unfolded it. It read:
Dear Mr. Potter,
For your assignment, you will need to bring along with you wizards robes, your wand, and Floo powder. Everything else will be provided for you.
We wish you the best of luck on your assignment in Egypt.
Sincerely,
Moody
James sighed. "I didn't want you to find out this way, Lils."
Lily sniffled and nodded her head, as if saying I know. "But why James?" she asked in a small voice.
James shrugged. He really didn't know himself why he was doing it. "I love you, Lily." He told her as he wrapped his arm around her waist and pulled her into a laying position on his bed. "And I'm going to miss you so much." Lily sniffled again, and hesitantly asked, "When are you leaving?" James stayed silent, then finally sighed. "In two days." He told her.
Lily nodded her head and curled into James' body like she did after they made love. "I don't want you to leave me James." She admitted. James tightened his grip on her waist. "I know, Lils. I know."
Lily wrapped her arms around him, and rested her head on his chest. "Can I stay tonight? I don't want to be away from you." James stroked a hand down her back and told her that she could stay.
"What about the wedding James?" she asked as she cuddled with him. James thought for a moment, then told her, "Well finish everything after I return. How about that?"
"But what if you don't return for a long time?" Lily questioned. "I will." James assured her.
Lily being too tired from her emotional drain of realizing that James would be leaving, decided not to argue with James on his cockiness, and just smiled and began to drift off to sleep.
James gazed lovingly down at the red head that was rested on his chest comfortably. "I love you Lily Evans." He whispered as he slowly disentangled himself from her and wrote to Sirius, Remus, Kayla, and Aria to tell them about his assignment.
After he sent the notes off with a household owl, he shifted Lily on the bed to where her head was on a pillow, took her shoes and robe off and set them on a chair, then he got into the bed next to her, and held her close to him as he fell asleep.
~*~*~*~
"Shh . . . they're sleeping Sirius!" Kayla whispered harshly. "So!" Sirius whispered back, if only to save his arm from turning black and blue.
"Not anymore we're not," Lily said, her voice groggy with sleep.
"Oops," Aria sounded as soon as she realized that they had woken the sleeping couple up.
"You two are clothed under those sheets, aren't you?" Remus asked.
When James and Lily nodded their heads, the group of four moved towards the bed and sat on the edges of it.
"Are you really going?" Sirius whined.
James, not having opened his eyes yet, just nodded, and rolled onto his side into the heat of Lily's body. "Yes, now go away, and leave me alone with my woman." He informed them. "If you want, take your rooms, just leave. Must get sleep."
"But-!" Sirius started, but the rest of the sentence was muffled by the presence of Kayla's hand. Sirius glared at the hand and tried tugging at it, but it wouldn't move. "Let them have their time together Sirius." Kayla hissed as she tugged on his arm roughly to get him out of the room. "What would you want if it was the other way around, and it was you who was leaving?" she asked him. When he didn't say anything, Kayla smiled. "See." She gloated as they began to walk down the hallways to their permanent rooms in the Potters' house.
~*~*~*~
The next two days didn't have enough hours in them for the friends. James and Lily it seemed were attached at the hips. And James spent all the time that he could with his family and friends.
On the day of his departure, there was only one way to describe a particular red head that went by the name of Lily Evans. Depressed. Her normally clear green eyes were blood shot, her eyes were swollen from crying, tears were stilling flowing down her face as James apparated to the office, and she just stared at the spot where James had disappeared, as if expecting him to pop back up and say, "Gotcha!" . . . but he didn't.
Lily eventually moved from that spot and went home, but it was a while before that happened.