AN: A little bit of sexual reference in this chapter.

Chapter 20

James wondered what was wrong with Lily. Ever since she had gotten out of her last trip to the hospitable wing, which had been three days earlier, she had been distant and always looked like she was deep in thought.

"Hey James!" Sirius busted into the 5th year boy's room. "What's up with you and Lily? Did you break up or something?"

James shook his head. "No… I don't know what's wrong."

"James!" Remus barged in. "What's wrong with you and Lily? Are you two taking a break or something?"

James chuckled. His buds always made him laugh.

"You had to have planned that. I'll go see what's up." He walked out and up to Lily's room and knocked on the door.

"Come in." James heard from inside.

He opened the door and walked in.

"Do you know where Lily is?" James asked the two girls Raye and Kay.

"She's probably off thinking to herself somewhere like she has been for these past few days." Replied Kay.

"And," interrupted Raye, "She said that if in any case you asked where she was, to tell you Water Lilies. I have no idea what it means, but I guess you do… do you?"

James nodded. "Thanks girls." And rushed out of the room. He needed no time to think about what it meant, he knew right off the bat.

The pool.

Prongs slowed down when he saw the pool, and stopped when he saw Lily in a bathing suit, swimming in the pool.

Prongs changed into James.

"It's dangerous to be out here alone you know."

"Mmmm." Replied Lily.

"Lily," James pleaded, "You've got to talk to me... Please! I can't stand it, I need you."

Lily dived under the water.

"You leave me no choice," James muttered to himself as he took off his shirt and dived into the water. He caught Lily, and brought her up out of the water and set her on his lap.

"Now please tell me what's wrong!"

Lily looked at his questionably for a moment, and then smiled.

"I was just thinking."

"Well obviously. You do know that you've been avoiding me ever since you came out of the hospitable wing don't you?"

"I wasn't avoiding you James," answered Lily, "I was just busy thinking, that's all."

Now it was James' turn to look at Lily questionably.

"So what did Madam Pomfrey say that was making you pass out all the time?"

"Well," said Lily slowly, "that's what I was thinking about. She said nothing was wrong. It's weird... I mean, I eat good enough that I don't pass out from lack of food, I don't pass out from the heat since it was freezing cold when we were outside having a snowball fight, and it's not from cold because I have been completely warm and have passed out. So I just have no idea what could be wrong!"

"Well you're fine now, so stop thinking about okay? It's taking you away from me..." James said.

"Okay, I'm all yours." Lily snuggled up to him.

James cupped Lily's chin in his hand and lifted her head.

"Forever?" he asked.

"Forever." Lily replied.

James brought his face forward and their lips met. He felt an urging down in his middle, and slid his tongue along Lily's lip until she parted hers and allowed it to explore inside of her mouth, clashing with hers occasionally. James slid his hands down along her side stopping at her waist, and scooted her off of his lap and laid her down on the soft green grass.

Lily gazed up lovingly at James when he broke the kiss.

"I love you."

James kissed her again, and this time was painfully aware that she was only in a bathing suit, and he just in his shorts. Both of them were damp from the pool, and James found it amazingly erotic.

His lips wandered down her neck, stopping to nibble right above her collarbone when she gasped with pleasure.

James' hands skimmed Lily's bare stomach, almost afraid to venture anywhere else, but then started to move down and slightly tugged at her bathing suit bottoms.

Lily suddenly sat up and grabbed James' hands.

"I'm sorry but… I just can't."

She burst into tears.

James was confused; weren't they having a wonderful time? Why would she be crying?

"What's wrong Lily?" James pressed, "Did I do something wrong?"

"No… well… It's just too soon." Lily looked up into James eyes, "It's too soon after… Snape…" She turned her head and started crying again.

James understood. He didn't' want to be like bloody Snape and force her to do something she didn't want to. He would never do that, especially to someone as special as Lily…