It took two months and three trips to D.C to do it, but I wouldn't have it
any other way. The president finally agreed that SG1 needs to stay
together, and that the two highest officers in the SGC need to be happy. He
let us be together. Now I can only hope that she will want this.
I'm gonna invite SG1 over for 'team bonding' time tonight, maybe Janet and Cassi too. I'm hoping that tonight will be the right time to tell her.
~~~~~~
"Hey Carter."
So, now I'm in her lab. I don't think I've ever been so nervous. I've always been cautious, I don't want to do anything I'd regret. That's why I always fiddle with her stuff. I gives me something to focus on and it keeps my hands busy.
"Hey Sir. Is briefing still at 1145?"
"Yep. I hate it being so close to lunch. I always get so hungry right in the middle of Dannys presentations."
"Yessir." She said with a laugh.
I started to play with another one of her gizmos, trying to avoid the subject. I really don't know why.
"Colonel, is there a specific reason you came?"
So much for avoiding the subject.
"Actually yea, a bunch of us are coming over to my house later tonight and I was wondering if you wanted to come? Cassi's coming to."
"Well,"
"Oh, come on. It wouldn't be that same with out you."
"I was gonna say what time should I be there."
Big grin in 5-4-3-2-1. HAHAHA!!
"5:30ish?" I say with a huge honkin' smile.
"Sounds great Sir, should I bring anything?"
"Nope, I got it all covered."
"OK."
I don't want to leave.
"What'cha working on?"
~~~~~~
~Jacks Place~
I think I walked around all day with that grin on my face. Now I'm sitting in my living room with Danny, Teal'C, Janet, Cassi, and Sam. We've got pizza and we're watching 'The Mummy Returns'. Just try and guess who brought that.
"We should really get going guys. Get your coat Cas."
"Me too. Can I give you a ride Tea'C?
"That would be more beneficial DanielJackson. I thank you."
"Thanks for coming guys. See ya tomorrow."
And just like that I'm alone with her.
"I should go to sir. I-"
"Oh stick around for a while Carter. Help me clean up a bit maybe?"
She laughs a bit and nods in agreement.
As we are about finished, I put in a CD I burned yesterday. It has a few songs on it that apply to our situation. The first one is 'If Tomorrow Never Comes'. The song that helped me get off me butt and get some regulations changed. The next one explains exactly how I feel right now.
We sit down on the couch just as the first song ends.
"Car- Sam?"
I think that got her attention.
"Yes Sir??"
"Could' Ya just listen to this next song please? Please??"
She just nods and stares at her hands as it starts.
~~~~~~
This might come as quite a shock,
But I've given it a lot of thought.
This thing that's come between us can't be ignored.
I've taken all I can;
This is where it's gotta end.
'Cause I can't be your friend anymore.
An' I can't be accused,
Of not bein' there for you.
How many nights have you shown up at my door?
I hope you understand,
That this wasn't in my plans But I can't be your friend anymore.
~~~~~~
I don't know why, but it seems appropriate to hold her hands in mine. So, that's what I do.
~~~~~~
An' it's killin' me to know you,
Without havin' a chance to hold you.
An' all I wanna do is show you,
How I really feel inside.
You can run to me,
You can laugh at me,
Or you can walk right out that door.
But I can't be your friend anymore.
~~~~~~
She looks up to me, and I get lost in the flood of those deep blue eyes.
~~~~~~
So, baby, now it's up to you:
Do I win or do I lose?
Will my heart fly or lie broken on the floor.
Well, take me as I am,
'Cause I wanna be your man.
But I can't be your friend anymore.
~~~~~~
I pull her up to her feet and I wrap my arms around her, rocking back and forth to the music. Her is buried in my chest and I'm holding her tight. I inhale the smell of her and try to memorize every second of dancing with her. Because if she decides to walk out the door, I want to remember this for the rest of my life.
~~~~~~
An' it's killin' me to know you,
Without havin' a chance to hold you.
An' all I wanna do is show you,
How I really feel inside.
You can run to me,
You can laugh at me,
Or you can walk right out that door.
But I can't be just friends anymore.
We can't be just friends anymore.
~~~~~~
She looks up at me, her eyes full of questions and confusion.
"Sam, I can't live one more day as just your friend. Lord knows I always want to be in your life, but more then a friend. Ok?"
"But-"
"I've cleared it with the president. I think he likes us."
Despite the tears falling down her cheeks, she laughs a bit and buries her head in my chest. From the depths of nowhere, I heard her say 'OK'.
After awhile, I pulled away and gazed at her beautiful face, and before I realized what I was doing, I was kissing her. It was amazing. Just expressing how we felt. Letting out seven years of love. When we separated, I could only think of one thing.
"I love you. So, so much. And I will love you. Till my dying day."
"I love you to."
As our lips meet again, the third song on the CD starts to play, and it, once again is perfect.
I'm gonna invite SG1 over for 'team bonding' time tonight, maybe Janet and Cassi too. I'm hoping that tonight will be the right time to tell her.
~~~~~~
"Hey Carter."
So, now I'm in her lab. I don't think I've ever been so nervous. I've always been cautious, I don't want to do anything I'd regret. That's why I always fiddle with her stuff. I gives me something to focus on and it keeps my hands busy.
"Hey Sir. Is briefing still at 1145?"
"Yep. I hate it being so close to lunch. I always get so hungry right in the middle of Dannys presentations."
"Yessir." She said with a laugh.
I started to play with another one of her gizmos, trying to avoid the subject. I really don't know why.
"Colonel, is there a specific reason you came?"
So much for avoiding the subject.
"Actually yea, a bunch of us are coming over to my house later tonight and I was wondering if you wanted to come? Cassi's coming to."
"Well,"
"Oh, come on. It wouldn't be that same with out you."
"I was gonna say what time should I be there."
Big grin in 5-4-3-2-1. HAHAHA!!
"5:30ish?" I say with a huge honkin' smile.
"Sounds great Sir, should I bring anything?"
"Nope, I got it all covered."
"OK."
I don't want to leave.
"What'cha working on?"
~~~~~~
~Jacks Place~
I think I walked around all day with that grin on my face. Now I'm sitting in my living room with Danny, Teal'C, Janet, Cassi, and Sam. We've got pizza and we're watching 'The Mummy Returns'. Just try and guess who brought that.
"We should really get going guys. Get your coat Cas."
"Me too. Can I give you a ride Tea'C?
"That would be more beneficial DanielJackson. I thank you."
"Thanks for coming guys. See ya tomorrow."
And just like that I'm alone with her.
"I should go to sir. I-"
"Oh stick around for a while Carter. Help me clean up a bit maybe?"
She laughs a bit and nods in agreement.
As we are about finished, I put in a CD I burned yesterday. It has a few songs on it that apply to our situation. The first one is 'If Tomorrow Never Comes'. The song that helped me get off me butt and get some regulations changed. The next one explains exactly how I feel right now.
We sit down on the couch just as the first song ends.
"Car- Sam?"
I think that got her attention.
"Yes Sir??"
"Could' Ya just listen to this next song please? Please??"
She just nods and stares at her hands as it starts.
~~~~~~
This might come as quite a shock,
But I've given it a lot of thought.
This thing that's come between us can't be ignored.
I've taken all I can;
This is where it's gotta end.
'Cause I can't be your friend anymore.
An' I can't be accused,
Of not bein' there for you.
How many nights have you shown up at my door?
I hope you understand,
That this wasn't in my plans But I can't be your friend anymore.
~~~~~~
I don't know why, but it seems appropriate to hold her hands in mine. So, that's what I do.
~~~~~~
An' it's killin' me to know you,
Without havin' a chance to hold you.
An' all I wanna do is show you,
How I really feel inside.
You can run to me,
You can laugh at me,
Or you can walk right out that door.
But I can't be your friend anymore.
~~~~~~
She looks up to me, and I get lost in the flood of those deep blue eyes.
~~~~~~
So, baby, now it's up to you:
Do I win or do I lose?
Will my heart fly or lie broken on the floor.
Well, take me as I am,
'Cause I wanna be your man.
But I can't be your friend anymore.
~~~~~~
I pull her up to her feet and I wrap my arms around her, rocking back and forth to the music. Her is buried in my chest and I'm holding her tight. I inhale the smell of her and try to memorize every second of dancing with her. Because if she decides to walk out the door, I want to remember this for the rest of my life.
~~~~~~
An' it's killin' me to know you,
Without havin' a chance to hold you.
An' all I wanna do is show you,
How I really feel inside.
You can run to me,
You can laugh at me,
Or you can walk right out that door.
But I can't be just friends anymore.
We can't be just friends anymore.
~~~~~~
She looks up at me, her eyes full of questions and confusion.
"Sam, I can't live one more day as just your friend. Lord knows I always want to be in your life, but more then a friend. Ok?"
"But-"
"I've cleared it with the president. I think he likes us."
Despite the tears falling down her cheeks, she laughs a bit and buries her head in my chest. From the depths of nowhere, I heard her say 'OK'.
After awhile, I pulled away and gazed at her beautiful face, and before I realized what I was doing, I was kissing her. It was amazing. Just expressing how we felt. Letting out seven years of love. When we separated, I could only think of one thing.
"I love you. So, so much. And I will love you. Till my dying day."
"I love you to."
As our lips meet again, the third song on the CD starts to play, and it, once again is perfect.