Feeling Has Three Meanings
By: tojot (please, just call me this in the reviews)
Disclaimer: I don't own Gundam or it respective characters, but I wish I owned Heero. ^_^
It had been several years since peace was restored and Dakim defeated. But as for Heero, he had been sent on another mission. But because of a mysterious incident his friends ordered that he be sent home. He was unable and unfit to pilot any mobile suit again. Now more than ever he really needed someone to rely on and it wasn't going to be his Gundam buddies or the Wing Zero that was going to help him out of this jam.
Relena had just set her book down when the phone rang. As usual, Pagan picked it up.
"There is someone on the line who wants to speak to you ma'am." Pagan said as he handed her the phone.
"Hello?"
"Relena, I want you to come pick me up." A familiar voice sounded though the earpiece. The voice sounded a bit worried.
"Heero, what's wrong?" Relena asked in horror.
"I don't have time for games, just come pick me up." Heero said under is breath. It was obvious that he was frustrated about something that he didn't want to tell her.
"Okay, don't get testy, you'll be picked up. You just have to tell us where you are." Relena tried to comfort him.
"I am at Preventers headquarters."
Relena sent Pagan to go get Heero and bring him back. It was just about sunset when she saw Pagan and the limo return with their passenger. She stood on the sidewalk and watched, as Pagan climbed out of the drivers seat and opened the door and helped the stumbling young man find his steps on the difficult sidewalk and up to Relena. Relena watched as he tried to focus his eyes on her, but he couldn't. She started to get worried; he didn't give her that usual deep stare he normally gave her.
"What is wrong with your eyes?" She asked as the tears started to trickle down her eyes.
"Relena," He said as he reached out with a calloused hand to touch her face. Heero could feel Relena's tears fall on his hand, but he had to break the news to her and it was going to be painful, "I'm blind." He breathed in her ear as he hugged her.
"No!" she cried with the salty tears now streaming down her face.
"Please don't cry?" Heero asked in a way Relena never heard him speak.
"You can't be!" she yelled, "How did this happen?" "I am. I don't know how this happened, but I just went blind after turning Zero in a certain direction, then flash and my eyesight was gone." Heero explained quietly. " I ask you Relena, don't talk to anyone except Pagan about this problem I have?"
"I won't tell a sole." She promised. She was troubled now; she didn't know what to do now that he was blind. She decided to lead him inside the mansion, to a sitting room just beside the front entryway. He was a bit reluctant though, he had been very capable to do things for himself for all his life, and he was embarrassed to have anything done for him including the simple everyday things. His will to do anything was gone; it was hard for Relena to look at him in such a weak and listless state. Even though she loved this young man it was still hard for Relena. He tried to search for an answer within himself to the reason why he was blind, but turned up with nothing. No words could pass between them, for they could not find any. The sun had gone down and Heero was lead to a room that had easy access to the bathroom and the dining room. Weeks went by, and very little was said between them. Heero felt empty, Relena didn't seem to care anything about him now. She rarely was in the same room with him. Little did he know that she was trying to avoid him and give him his space. He confronted her about the matter.
"You must hate me now?" He asked Relena as he tried to stare at her. There was much pain in those blind eyes. Heero didn't realize that they gave away his emotions; he was unable to hide what he really felt because of his blindness.
"Did I say that, Heero." Relena replied quietly, not allowing herself to yell.
"You avoid me constantly, it makes me think that you want me to go away." Heero started to yell.
"Heero, I just want to give you your space. To allow your other senses to increase in ability." Relena answered quietly as she touched his cheek. Tears started to spill from the once dry eyes of Heero.
"What kind of senses?" he cried as he sank to his knees.
"Taste, hearing, smell, feeling."
"Feeling."
It was the night that Relena started to have nightmares. A couple months after Heero arrived, Relena had a dream were she found herself at a clearing in the forest and Heero was there with his back turned to her. She ran up to him "Heero?" she said as she touched him on the shoulder. No sooner had she touched him, than his flesh fell away from his bones like sand, revealing the skeleton underneath. "Sssaarrryyy, noo Heeerro heerree." The skeleton hissed, as it's bony skull turned to face her, than started to laugh a menacing laugh. Relena shot up in her bed, her body covered in a cold sweat. She could no longer avoid him, and had to see him again. Jumping out of bed and running out the door she went in search of Heero's room in the dark house. She came to a door at the bottom of the stairs, light peeked though the crack at the bottom of the door. Relena's breaths were growing short and quick. She pounded at the door and then heard a crash; the door opened slowly revealing Heero, shirtless, and wearing a pair of blue sweatpants, his hair and skin were wet. It was obvious that he had taken a shower.
"Heero!" Relena said in relief as she hugged him. She also saw what the crash was. He had accidentally knocked his table over trying to get to the door to open it. Relena realized that Heero was hugging back.
"Relena." Heero said as he hugged tight, "Your cold." His arms and chest were warm and comforting. The thrumming of his heartbeat was calming. Knowing that he was there took her fears away. Just like the quiet moment between them just before Heero went to go stop Milliardo from dropping Libra on Earth and just after Mariemaia was stopped and Dakim was assassinated. Relena fell asleep in Heero's arms. Relena had a scent that Heero could recognize easily, Lilacs and vanilla. Since Heero was blind he couldn't see her face, but he could touch the lines of it. He placed her on the bed. Her hair was soft against his arm as he did it.
"I don't know what the problem was for you, but I am glad you are fine. Thankyou for saving my life." Heero said to the sleeping Relena. He kissed her cheek and then followed the wall to the couch in the corner and crashed on it. Heero was just about to commit suicide, but if Relena hadn't come he would have gone through with it.
Relena woke up with something hard poking her back; she reached under the blankets and pulled out a gun loaded with one bullet. Her eyes went wide as she looked for Heero in the dark room, only to find him crashed out on the sofa. She got out of the bed, crossed the room to the couch and kissed the sleeping Heero. She left the room and scaled the stairs with the gun still in her hand. She reached her room and removed the bullet from the gun and put them away safely in her underwear drawer. Climbing back into bed she noted that the sheets were cold and not as warm as Heero's arms, she had always missed that embrace more than had she missed his deep stare. She was comforted now, her heart at its regular pulse, and could sleep with better dreams. Thoughts of him were constant through her mind until she dozed off to sleep.
She had another dream that night; she was running through that same forest from the last dream. She saw that Heero in the clearing, but she decided to take a different path. It was raining on the path and it led to a cliff, she saw Heero there, facing towards her with outstretched hands. Both of them were soaked, but neither seemed to care. Relena ran into Heero's welcoming arms.
"Relena, dry your tears, I am here, I have been waiting for you and this moment." He whispered softly into her ear. He kissed her tenderly. She willingly accepted his kiss. Relena wanted to hold onto this moment forever but knew she would have to wake soon.
Morning came all too soon with the badgering of Pagon's wake up call. Had all the night been real or just a dream. She looked in her drawer and found the gun and realized part of the night had been real. Her face went red from embarrassment, what was Heero going to think of her now. She heard footsteps coming up the stairs, they weren't Pagan's quiet steps but they were someone else's. There was knock at the door. She opened it to find Heero standing there still as blind as had been.
"Thank you." He said quietly, as he put his arms around her. His arms were as warm as the night before. Relena didn't want him to let go. "Relena will you teach me how to feel?" Heero asked. This question totally surprised Relena, to the point that she was unable to answer. She looked into his eyes, knowing that he was unable to see out of them. Blindness had opened Heero up like a book.
"Heero, there are two different types of feeling and I'm sure I don't know how they actually work." Relena explained.
"Will teach me about what you know about both of them." Heero asked in his mundane voice but as a pupil asks a master, as well. "When I return from my conference at the colonies." Relena answered. A hint of a smile tweaked Heero's usually straight face. Pagan packed Relena's luggage, as Relena got ready to leave the mansion. Relena got into her drawer and pulled out the gun and its only bullet.
"Pagan, I want you to hide this and make sure Heero can't find it." She said as she handed the gun to the butler.
"But miss, how did you get a hold of it?" Pagan asked.
"I confiscated it from Heero."
"I will hide it." The butler switched on the safety lock and placed the gun within his jacket.
"I also ask you to keep a good watch on him while I am gone." She said as she put on her suit jacket.
"I will." As Pagan went to go put the luggage in the limo and start it up, Heero and Relena had moment of silence together. Relena handed Heero a small tape recorder with a cassette inside.
"If you have any problems, play this. 'Play' is the middle button." Before Relena could finish her sentence, Heero hugged her tight but still gently.
"Relena, don't go, I have no way of insuring your safety." He put bluntly in his quiet voice. Relena touched his arm and gently pulled away, signaling him to let her go.
"Heero, I have to."
"Then remember your promise." He reminded as he let go. Heero could hear her steps as she walked away. She looked back as she reached the car, noticing a tear was rolling down Heero's cold face. Never had she seen the war hardened Heero cry at the thought of her leaving. It was hard for herself to hold back her own tears but she did so until she was inside the car. She felt she had to be strong for them both now.
By: tojot (please, just call me this in the reviews)
Disclaimer: I don't own Gundam or it respective characters, but I wish I owned Heero. ^_^
It had been several years since peace was restored and Dakim defeated. But as for Heero, he had been sent on another mission. But because of a mysterious incident his friends ordered that he be sent home. He was unable and unfit to pilot any mobile suit again. Now more than ever he really needed someone to rely on and it wasn't going to be his Gundam buddies or the Wing Zero that was going to help him out of this jam.
Relena had just set her book down when the phone rang. As usual, Pagan picked it up.
"There is someone on the line who wants to speak to you ma'am." Pagan said as he handed her the phone.
"Hello?"
"Relena, I want you to come pick me up." A familiar voice sounded though the earpiece. The voice sounded a bit worried.
"Heero, what's wrong?" Relena asked in horror.
"I don't have time for games, just come pick me up." Heero said under is breath. It was obvious that he was frustrated about something that he didn't want to tell her.
"Okay, don't get testy, you'll be picked up. You just have to tell us where you are." Relena tried to comfort him.
"I am at Preventers headquarters."
Relena sent Pagan to go get Heero and bring him back. It was just about sunset when she saw Pagan and the limo return with their passenger. She stood on the sidewalk and watched, as Pagan climbed out of the drivers seat and opened the door and helped the stumbling young man find his steps on the difficult sidewalk and up to Relena. Relena watched as he tried to focus his eyes on her, but he couldn't. She started to get worried; he didn't give her that usual deep stare he normally gave her.
"What is wrong with your eyes?" She asked as the tears started to trickle down her eyes.
"Relena," He said as he reached out with a calloused hand to touch her face. Heero could feel Relena's tears fall on his hand, but he had to break the news to her and it was going to be painful, "I'm blind." He breathed in her ear as he hugged her.
"No!" she cried with the salty tears now streaming down her face.
"Please don't cry?" Heero asked in a way Relena never heard him speak.
"You can't be!" she yelled, "How did this happen?" "I am. I don't know how this happened, but I just went blind after turning Zero in a certain direction, then flash and my eyesight was gone." Heero explained quietly. " I ask you Relena, don't talk to anyone except Pagan about this problem I have?"
"I won't tell a sole." She promised. She was troubled now; she didn't know what to do now that he was blind. She decided to lead him inside the mansion, to a sitting room just beside the front entryway. He was a bit reluctant though, he had been very capable to do things for himself for all his life, and he was embarrassed to have anything done for him including the simple everyday things. His will to do anything was gone; it was hard for Relena to look at him in such a weak and listless state. Even though she loved this young man it was still hard for Relena. He tried to search for an answer within himself to the reason why he was blind, but turned up with nothing. No words could pass between them, for they could not find any. The sun had gone down and Heero was lead to a room that had easy access to the bathroom and the dining room. Weeks went by, and very little was said between them. Heero felt empty, Relena didn't seem to care anything about him now. She rarely was in the same room with him. Little did he know that she was trying to avoid him and give him his space. He confronted her about the matter.
"You must hate me now?" He asked Relena as he tried to stare at her. There was much pain in those blind eyes. Heero didn't realize that they gave away his emotions; he was unable to hide what he really felt because of his blindness.
"Did I say that, Heero." Relena replied quietly, not allowing herself to yell.
"You avoid me constantly, it makes me think that you want me to go away." Heero started to yell.
"Heero, I just want to give you your space. To allow your other senses to increase in ability." Relena answered quietly as she touched his cheek. Tears started to spill from the once dry eyes of Heero.
"What kind of senses?" he cried as he sank to his knees.
"Taste, hearing, smell, feeling."
"Feeling."
It was the night that Relena started to have nightmares. A couple months after Heero arrived, Relena had a dream were she found herself at a clearing in the forest and Heero was there with his back turned to her. She ran up to him "Heero?" she said as she touched him on the shoulder. No sooner had she touched him, than his flesh fell away from his bones like sand, revealing the skeleton underneath. "Sssaarrryyy, noo Heeerro heerree." The skeleton hissed, as it's bony skull turned to face her, than started to laugh a menacing laugh. Relena shot up in her bed, her body covered in a cold sweat. She could no longer avoid him, and had to see him again. Jumping out of bed and running out the door she went in search of Heero's room in the dark house. She came to a door at the bottom of the stairs, light peeked though the crack at the bottom of the door. Relena's breaths were growing short and quick. She pounded at the door and then heard a crash; the door opened slowly revealing Heero, shirtless, and wearing a pair of blue sweatpants, his hair and skin were wet. It was obvious that he had taken a shower.
"Heero!" Relena said in relief as she hugged him. She also saw what the crash was. He had accidentally knocked his table over trying to get to the door to open it. Relena realized that Heero was hugging back.
"Relena." Heero said as he hugged tight, "Your cold." His arms and chest were warm and comforting. The thrumming of his heartbeat was calming. Knowing that he was there took her fears away. Just like the quiet moment between them just before Heero went to go stop Milliardo from dropping Libra on Earth and just after Mariemaia was stopped and Dakim was assassinated. Relena fell asleep in Heero's arms. Relena had a scent that Heero could recognize easily, Lilacs and vanilla. Since Heero was blind he couldn't see her face, but he could touch the lines of it. He placed her on the bed. Her hair was soft against his arm as he did it.
"I don't know what the problem was for you, but I am glad you are fine. Thankyou for saving my life." Heero said to the sleeping Relena. He kissed her cheek and then followed the wall to the couch in the corner and crashed on it. Heero was just about to commit suicide, but if Relena hadn't come he would have gone through with it.
Relena woke up with something hard poking her back; she reached under the blankets and pulled out a gun loaded with one bullet. Her eyes went wide as she looked for Heero in the dark room, only to find him crashed out on the sofa. She got out of the bed, crossed the room to the couch and kissed the sleeping Heero. She left the room and scaled the stairs with the gun still in her hand. She reached her room and removed the bullet from the gun and put them away safely in her underwear drawer. Climbing back into bed she noted that the sheets were cold and not as warm as Heero's arms, she had always missed that embrace more than had she missed his deep stare. She was comforted now, her heart at its regular pulse, and could sleep with better dreams. Thoughts of him were constant through her mind until she dozed off to sleep.
She had another dream that night; she was running through that same forest from the last dream. She saw that Heero in the clearing, but she decided to take a different path. It was raining on the path and it led to a cliff, she saw Heero there, facing towards her with outstretched hands. Both of them were soaked, but neither seemed to care. Relena ran into Heero's welcoming arms.
"Relena, dry your tears, I am here, I have been waiting for you and this moment." He whispered softly into her ear. He kissed her tenderly. She willingly accepted his kiss. Relena wanted to hold onto this moment forever but knew she would have to wake soon.
Morning came all too soon with the badgering of Pagon's wake up call. Had all the night been real or just a dream. She looked in her drawer and found the gun and realized part of the night had been real. Her face went red from embarrassment, what was Heero going to think of her now. She heard footsteps coming up the stairs, they weren't Pagan's quiet steps but they were someone else's. There was knock at the door. She opened it to find Heero standing there still as blind as had been.
"Thank you." He said quietly, as he put his arms around her. His arms were as warm as the night before. Relena didn't want him to let go. "Relena will you teach me how to feel?" Heero asked. This question totally surprised Relena, to the point that she was unable to answer. She looked into his eyes, knowing that he was unable to see out of them. Blindness had opened Heero up like a book.
"Heero, there are two different types of feeling and I'm sure I don't know how they actually work." Relena explained.
"Will teach me about what you know about both of them." Heero asked in his mundane voice but as a pupil asks a master, as well. "When I return from my conference at the colonies." Relena answered. A hint of a smile tweaked Heero's usually straight face. Pagan packed Relena's luggage, as Relena got ready to leave the mansion. Relena got into her drawer and pulled out the gun and its only bullet.
"Pagan, I want you to hide this and make sure Heero can't find it." She said as she handed the gun to the butler.
"But miss, how did you get a hold of it?" Pagan asked.
"I confiscated it from Heero."
"I will hide it." The butler switched on the safety lock and placed the gun within his jacket.
"I also ask you to keep a good watch on him while I am gone." She said as she put on her suit jacket.
"I will." As Pagan went to go put the luggage in the limo and start it up, Heero and Relena had moment of silence together. Relena handed Heero a small tape recorder with a cassette inside.
"If you have any problems, play this. 'Play' is the middle button." Before Relena could finish her sentence, Heero hugged her tight but still gently.
"Relena, don't go, I have no way of insuring your safety." He put bluntly in his quiet voice. Relena touched his arm and gently pulled away, signaling him to let her go.
"Heero, I have to."
"Then remember your promise." He reminded as he let go. Heero could hear her steps as she walked away. She looked back as she reached the car, noticing a tear was rolling down Heero's cold face. Never had she seen the war hardened Heero cry at the thought of her leaving. It was hard for herself to hold back her own tears but she did so until she was inside the car. She felt she had to be strong for them both now.