Chapter 12
I'm the Problem
My knuckles started to turn to white. I was gripping the seat so hard. My breathing came out as quick short breaths. I could see Laguna had his head hung slightly.
Raine.
A sick feeling crept into my stomach. Her eyes, her hair, her face…just like me. No wonder.
Raine?
I wanted to get out. I wanted to run away from Laguna. He didn't care. He had no sympathy for me at all. Nearly seventeen years I've waited for my mother to come into my life. Now she's here…I hate her.
Rain…?
How could this happen? " Laguna…" My voice came out, as a whisper, shaking, "Is it true? Is it really true?" He nodded. " Squall, she's waiting outside your room, she wants to talk to you. Go now"
She wants to speak to me. I don't know if I wanted to speak her. My eyes started to ache and I knew what was next. I needed to get out of there as quick as possible. I sprinted from the chair, knocking it over, and threw myself out of the office. My legs carried me as far as the hallway. I stood in front of the stairs.
If I go up there, that's where she'll be. Waiting for me. I couldn't face her, not now.
I ran over to the kitchen and grabbed a cool glass of water. It was a dream. I never went to his office, I never spoke to him, I was never told about my mother and I didn't even bump into that lady this morning. Just a dream.
That's what I kept telling myself anyway.
I literally threw the water down my throat and slammed it back on the bench. So many different thoughts going threw my head at one time. I was getting a major headache. Believe Laguna, don't believe him, go and see her, don't go and see her.
" Squuuuaaall!" I groaned. Quistis. She ran up behind me, threw her arms around me and lifted me up a good few millimeters. She was pretty small but she had muscle on her.
I was spun around and she clasped her hands on my cheeks. " Sweetie-Pie, Ellone is back, she wants to speak with you in the garden at the tree ok?"
" Mhmm" I hated it when she called me sweetie-pie…ugh. She smiled in 'Quistis' fashion and walked back into the living room. I looked back at the glass on the sink and filled it back up with water. I had drunk about 3 glasses more when I finally decided to go and see Ellone.
She waiting for me at our tree, just like Quistis said.
" Hey…" She whispered.
I walked up to her and sighed. Did she know? " Elle…" I began. She shook her head and held her hand out.
" Its ok Squall…I know"
With that said I leaned down into her and she placed her arms around me. " Why elle? Why is she back now?" She thought for a moment before answering.
" She said… she wanted to see you. She told me she felt guilt for leaving and wanted to see you again. And Laguna"
How could she feel guilty?
" You don't know the whole story Squall. They never wanted to tell you" We sat down and she placed her hands over mine. " When your father first became president, at 18, he met your mother, Raine. They had a relationship going on for quite some time. It had been about a year, and Raine was pregnant. By accident of course. She stayed inside the Palace to avoid the Media…and after you were finally born…she left"
" So…she didn't want to face a life in the palace and having a kid like me?"
" Yeah, she just didn't want the responsibility…I suppose now she does"
That would explain a bit. No wonder Laguna didn't seem to like me much. I was a mistake. But he still kept me here, safe. I have that to thank him for. I'm just glad I didn't end up in some old orphanage.
" Elle, why wasn't I told this before?"
" I don't know Squall"
We sat in silence for a while. Then I remembered my mother. Waiting outside my bedroom. She was probably gone by now. I thanked Ellone and left the garden. I had to talk to them.
Dave, Jenny and Rinoa were all outside the front. Waiting for me. When they saw me, Jenny waked up to me, giving me a hug.
" Squall we're so sorry…" They knew as well?
Dave shrugged. " Laguna told us about Raine…sorry man"
Rinoa was standing back, watching us. She probably felt left out. I hadn't known her very well. Maybe she thought it wasn't her place to interfere.
" Hey guys" I asked. I looked over at Rinoa when I said it. " How about we go out tonight?" They smiled. Rinoa walked up to me and patted me on the back.
" Sounds good"
" I never wanted this happen! If you hadn't left in the first place maybe we wouldn't be having this conversation!"
" Conversation!" She spat. " You call this a conversation? Laguna, you always think yelling and ranting at each other is a conversation do you?"
" Answer my question!"
" Fine! So maybe me leaving wasn't the best idea, but you knew my father! If he had of find out about our problem, he'd kill me!"
Laguna sat down on his desk. He took of his glasses and placed his fingers to his temples, rubbing them.
" You can take him" He whispered. " It's what you came here for isn't it?"
" I came here to get to know our son Laguna. Not to have him handed over. He is your problem as much as he is mine!"
" Well I can't keep him here anymore! You know he's getting in the way! I'll…just send him off to one of those homes"
" Fine"
Little did they know, I was standing behind the door. Listening to the whole conversation.
Author's Notes: Thankyou for reading again. The next and final chapter will be up next week. Yep, final chapter.
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