Chapter 15: Confrontation
(Okay I know nothing about this kind of stuff. So if you think it might be a bit odd that Squall is awake and talking…don't ask. Heh.)
Okay so I'm not nervous. I have been nervous before. Like when I won an award for the spelling bee and I had to give a speech. Or when I threw an ice cream at the school bully, Denis, and had to face the principal. Yeah, I was hell nervous back in those times. But right now, I'm on my way to the hospital to see my friend, (friend?) who has just tried to kill himself. No way, I'm not nervous; I'm cool and collected.
I think…
Next to me, Jenny was lying slouched over with a phone in her hand. She tossed it from hand to hand. Like juggling them with her thoughts. I could sort of guess what her mind-wheel was spinning.
Then there was Dave. He looked calm…besides the fact that he was chewing on his nails like a lunatic and his face was pretty white. Yeah, he was calm. He's one of those, 'strange emotions' people. Honest. I should be an expert on the subject.
Ellone, she just looked plainly worried. No kidding. Her nephew just tried to kill himself. Haven't I already told you that? Squall tried to kill himself. I should have said it enough by now. So maybe I'm not truly in the right mind right now, but I would say she was about to burst. She had been trying so hard to pull everyone together. Just not herself.
Mitch was driving…so I wouldn't know what the heck he was feeling. Or if he cared…
Then there was me. Poor little me. The general's daughter who seems just a little bit out of place. How long had I known everyone? A month? Yeah I think so. That's still not long enough you know. Hey, I think I lied before. I'm hell nervous. More nervous than the time I almost fell over the bridge at the Great Salt Lake.
The car pulled to a stop and we all sat inside for a minute. No one really wanted to get out yet. Dave looked around and cleared his throat. " Everyone" We looked over to him.
" Lets go okay" He opened the door and Jenny followed him out. I opened my door and met Ellone on the other side. " Hey Elle…" I asked. She looked up. " How will Squall be? Did they say if he's awake yet?" She smiled and closed her door. " Yes, he's awake, but hell be tired" She replied.
With that in mind, I walked inside the hospital.
I have never liked hospitals. They're too white, too clean and smell like the dentist. Which is bad because I also hate the dentist.
Mitch walked up to the desk while the rest of us hung back. Jenny turned to me and whispered, " Hey Rin, are you going to go and see him?" I nodded back.
" Why, aren't you?"
" Yes I'm going to see him…its just that…well I'm not sure. I think he did it because of Dave and I"
I was going to ask why but then I remembered. They got into the uni at Deling. I wanted to say something but Mitch ushered us into the corridor with a nurse. I was feeling a bit suffocated.
The nurse stopped at room 19. " You can go and see him" Mitch looked over at us. Ellone stepped forward.
" Mitch and I are going to see him then we'll call you in ok?"
We all nodded back and they both walked in. For a while we just stood in silence. It was strange. I would have thought Laguna and Raine would be here…Dave had said that earlier.
" Hey…" Jenny said, " What are we going to say?"
Dave cleared his throat. " Well…we could say we're sorry. Maybe going to uni at Deling is a bad idea and we're going to stay here"
I shook my head and sat down. They had it all wrong. " Hey wait guys, Squall was happy for you wasn't he? He wants you to go there!"
" I guess we'll never know…" Jenny whispered. At that instant, Mitch and Ellone walked out of the room.
" You can go and see him now" Ellone said. She looked over at Jenny with a gentle smile. " Don't worry, its not your fault" With that, she sat down on the waiting couch. I exchanged a worried glance with Dave before we entered.
Squall was sitting up in the bed, leaning his arm on his knee and holding his head in his hand. He looked pretty dull, but when he saw us, he brightened. Dave closed the door and both Jenny and I sat down on some chairs. Dave spoke first.
" Why'd you do it?"
Squall looked around for a bit before answering. His voice was small and quiet.
" I don't know…I just…I wasn't feeling as if I had…" He stopped there and closed his eyes. He looked to be in some kind of pain. Jenny reached over.
" Squall? Are you ok?"
" Yeah…I'm fine. Just a little dizzy" He took a deep breath. " Raine came to my room and spoke with me. Stupid cow. She thinks she owns me"
I spoke for the first time. " But…she came to see me and she seemed really nice"
" Ha! That's just how she acts around others… Around me, she's the wicked witch of the west. A total dictator. She was saying that… Laguna wanted to get rid of me, so I have to go down to lower Esthar… and live with her"
Dave frowned. " But why?"
" I have no idea. Like I said, she 'owns me'. So just now… Elle and Mitch came up with an idea"
Jenny smiled. " Like what?"
" Well… I'll tell you when I get back home…its pretty good news" He smiled back and placed his arms by his side. I couldn't see past his long sleeves, but knew there would be think bandages underneath.
" When do you go back?" I asked.
" In about three days"
I looked out the window. Three days…I would be gone in four days. Not enough time to…oh well. There's never enough time in this world to do anything anymore.
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A/N
Phew! Thanks for your patience on this chapter. Aprox 2 chapter to go…and I mean it this time! Honest!